A nice day

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So today the 3 hour bus ride went well. To the point where I missed my stop in White Rock. Just by one stop. I was reading scientific research articles on Alzheimer's/Dementia, as well as my geek magazines.

Google Currents. Load whatever Magazines onto it and read away. It is great, updates automatically through WiFi

Anyways I arrived at the home and walked in. Now this was the best part of my day, even knowing I wouldn't be having dinner. I saw mom, but she saw me first and when I looked at her, she had this huge smile on her face and was reaching for me. Makes everything worth while.

I brought her spaghetti and meat sauce. Which I told her I would do. We went and got her plate out of her room. And while there I turned down the bed and moved it so I can get mom up on the lift and into bed. Went and warmed up the meal. She couldn't wait.

There was a big container full and I covered it with cheese. Mom finished it. Plus the chicken from her dinner and dessert. I couldn't afford a papaya today, Maybe tomorrow I will. I have to walk over to the return it centre and bring in the empties that my roommate left. Then I will have enough to get mom the papaya and maybe an avocado as well.

It is hard sometimes when mom is hungry and wanting everything. She reaches for everything, while I am trying to feed her. Mom's hand gets covered with everything as well. The only thing I can do is gently take her hand in mine and wipe off the sauce. Many times.

Mom was hungry and tired. She normally doesn't eat much on the weekend, but today was different. I guess she knew I was bringing spaghetti for dinner and ate, even though she was very tired.

I got her into bed, and gave her the nightly spa treatment. Even though I got a few punches in the head. She was tired and didn't want to be fussed with. It is all good.

I will never forget the look on her face when I walked in a saw her.

It was very cold out today, and again, no matter how many layers I have on, I am cold. My hands where freezing. Even though I had two pairs of gloves on. They are dollar store gloves. I don't even have any long sleeve shirts. Besides dress shirts. So I pile on Cotton sweaters. And I do have this down vest, but it is leaking feathers. I have no idea where from. But no sleeves. This is where I am getting my chill from.

I am tired of feeling guilty for what I do to help mom out. Looking after her. I am proud of the fact I do this. No matter what anyone says or thinks about it.

I am going to expect to receive help from other's/ all, as I do deserve it. The other members of this family don't give a damn and don't do anything for mom. But I continue to do so, and I will not stop. I do this as it is the right thing to do. Take care of your family. And mom is the only family I have.

I am following what is right and doing everything I can. Well not everything, I can do more. I just need to get out to where she is and save the 6 hours a day traveling.

Time to go to bed. Very tired and considering my roommate didn't let me use his van to bring in the empties, today. I will walk them over. It is alittle much to carry, but I will manage.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

I made a mistake

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I was wrong when I said the other people gave mom a pair of slippers for Christmas. They were given to her for her Birthday in October. So maybe something went down for marking. I'll see next week.

More clothing has gone missing. A gortex type pullover, navy blue. Mom had it on just over a week ago and it is gone. Not back from the laundry, even though other items she has worn, have made it back into her closet.

I really am getting pissed off at the Al Hogg Pavilion, floor 3. For not even making any attempts at correcting the laundry problem. By going after the laundry company for the losses. Mom is not the only one resident with this issue.

So things are back to the same old thing. I am cold and hungry. No help from anyone. No matter how many layers I have on, I am cold.

But I need to go now, I am very tired and need some sleep.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Finally

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So I arrived to see mom today and found out that one of my sister's was their with a couple of the grandchildren. About time.. Only a few days late. And where were the other 18 plus family members. And mom only received a few items.

All of those people, mom should of been showered with gifts, even inexpensive gifts. But no, mom gets a pair of slippers ( which she has to many pairs already) and some soap. I am not sure if she got any clothing. I will have to wait a few days to see if that happened.

I now have washed my hands of those people. I give them to GOD to do what HE wants to do with them. Revenge is mine saith the lord.

I will be letting the staff know, not to contact them for anything. I am the one their all the time and I should be the only one they contact for anything. Not them. Whoever they are.

I, for the longest time, thought they would finally do something for mom. I bet they don't even know mom talks. Or even how to listen to her. That mom is their, she may have some impairments, but mom communicate very well. With me anyways.

I can't believe they didn't even give mom a Christmas card. After all I carried the Christmas tree out their by bus, plus all of the decorations. And in a week, I will be bringing them all back with me, by bus. And continue to get their by bus. 3 hours each way. I carry everything out their by bus.

Tonight, after dinner I washed mom's hair and then her nightly spa treatment.

When I got their mom was really happy to see me. I am glad for this. Don't get me wrong, I will never get in mom's way of seeing her other kids and grandchildren. But I will no longer acknowledge the fact I have sisters.

Except this. It is they who are stopping me from getting mom's photo's of her life and memories, as well as the PGT. I told the PGT that all I needed them was for a few months to copy and reprint all the photo's. But not good enough. And the other kids, never gave me permission

This is the type of people they are. Ignorant and spiteful. Not willing to do anything that would benefit mom in anyway. Not caring what mom wants, thinks and needs. How it is important for her to be able to see all of her life in full glory. She is, after all, 83 years old and has Dementia, Lung Cancer and has had a stoke. Come on now, grow up. It is mom's property, not theirs. And it is not like they didn't take everything from my parents, when they conned them into selling their house and move to a farm. All the while dad was showing sign's of Alzheimer's and was highly illegal to do this.

To a f.......ing farm. Mom and Dad moved to BC because they did not ever want to live on a farm again. They wanted to live in the city. Not a farm.

I am done with them. And, again, give them to GOD

For me, I ate something yesterday. My roommate came home and brought a chicken and chips dinner for me and him. I was very impressed and thanked him.

So I start again with the count.

And because of all the weight I have lost over the last year and a bit. I am cold all the time. I only have summer weight jackets. And I am putting on layers and layers. But still cold. I need a winter jacket. Don't know how I will get this. But the cold weather is just starting. More snow on the way. And it is unusually cold this year and will be for the rest of winter.

So I need to go, it is 12:16 am and I am very tired.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Christmas day

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So I received an I.O.U. for a lump of coal. It was a very lonely Christmas for me. That is  Christmas Eve, I was alone, Christmas morning, I was alone and this evening, I am alone. But this is not the worst of it. I am OK with being alone, and not getting anything for Christmas. As this is not the most important part of my life.

My mother is the most important person in my life and first. I am last.

I say this, as I arrived to see mom today and she was in her room, crying and very angry. Her roommate had at least 6 family members their and she had a Christmas dinner with other family members the day before, Christmas Eve.

And mom had to sit there and watch as this happened. The whole while none of her family came to see her. NONE!

Out of the 25 or so, of her daughters, grandchildren, great grandchildren or their counterparts, didn't even have enough respect to even visit.

There was no signs of anyone there to see mom. NONE what so ever.

I always said, to justify their actions, that they are not able to handle the fact mom is sick. But that is just Bullshit. There is no justification for their actions. To not even bother to even go see their mother on Christmas Day or even before. Making her cry and be angry.

It was not easy to walk into the room, and see mom's eyes all red from crying for a long time. To see how angry she was, that no one came to see her. It broke my heart and I will never forget this.  I have prayed to GOD to take care of them for this outrage, this travesty.

When mom and dad were well, my sister's took them for 10's of thousands of dollars. They will deny it, but I have proof. I have a file cabinet drawer of documents to prove how much they took form mom and dad. And they can say whatever they like. But the fact is that they did not go and see their mother at Christmas.

Disgusting if I do say so myself. I kept telling mom, today, that I will always be there for her. I have been there everyday and will continue. It took me almost an hour to get mom to stop crying and put a smile on her face. She didn't even show any interest in her presents. Just mad and upset. You should of seen her.

I will never forget this day. Whatever complaint I have about my life. Nothing compares to the sadness that was written across mom's face today. And the disgusting behaviour that my sister's showed towards their mother.

I would like to say allot more, but I am a person with dignity, morals and I just don't like to swear.It is unbecoming of me to do this.

After all they all have cars, I take a bus, And I can seem to get White Rock to see mom, and back everyday. Without hesitation and regrets.

I see I have used the word disgusting several times in this blog. But that is the way I see it. I am ashamed of them. And they can write whatever they want to about me. As it is, they write and post of twitter and I have never read any of it. I don't rent space in my head on losers

I may be a looser and a bum. But I can admit it. But they think they are so good and the best. Those who will be first shall be last among us. So I say they, the whole lot of them, are losers. This is all I can say about them.

I still can't believe they did this to mom. GOD bless them, NO, GOD take care of them.


I have to go. I am very tired and just want to watch something that I have downloaded. I have the hobbit, so I think I will try to watch this tonight.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Christmas Eve

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So I arrived home tonight to an empty place. The roommate went to his brother's place for the night and dinner on Christmas day.

It is very lonely here tonight.

I left mom's at 9:00 pm, after rapping the presents for her. She was up until that time. Unusual for her.But waiting for me to come back into the room to say good night. I liked this

But mom was extremely upset tonight. Her family has not been around, and Christmas time is special for her. She likes to have family around. And no one has been their to visit her. Mom is very upset. And when she is upset, she takes it out on me. She scratched my face a couple of times. It is OK, I don't react, I just tell her that I love her.

She wants to see her aunt, it has been a while for this. But my great aunts daughter is too busy to bring her mom up the few blocks to see my mom. And her own brother took a year to come see his sister. And my sister's, well what can I say. It has been a few weeks since the one was their and who knows how long it has been since the other was their.

Hopefully today they will come and see her. I just can't believer they are like this. No one is that busy to make time to see their mother. Who was always there for them when they needed her. But they can't take the time to come and see their mother when she is ill and needs all the love she can get. This is why I am their everyday, without fail. And will continue to do this. Without fail.

I know my mother relies on me and I on her.

And I have now broken my own record for not eating. OK I had some ginger bread cookies today. And now I go to bed.

I had to hide the gifts for mom. I just don't trust my sister's or the staff. I wanted to put them under the tree. But I just felt it would not be a good idea to do this. I can't believe I had to do this.

I dislike Christmas because, I am alone. No presents under the tree. Actually, no tree or decorations. Not even an I.O.U for a lump of coal. I won't be having a Christmas dinner. As I could not afford the $7.00 for the ticket to have it with mom.

They are having their Christmas dinner at noon. I got home at 11:30 tonight and it is now almost 1:00 am. I won't be able to make it there by noon. I will try to get there for 3:00pm

So another crappy Christmas for me. But I have nice gifts for mom and I know she will like them

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

It is almost here

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I would like to start out by saying that today I am at my record of days without eating. 17 and tomorrow it is a new record for me.

My vision is getting screwed up. I am having a hard time using my right hand. It is freezing up and I am not able to hold things, without dropping them. I have a massive headache and my back is killing me. Yes it shot me! I am extremely weak and very tired. My knee's are giving out. Thank GOD for the cane.

Being the weekend mom is still not that hungry. But she ate most of her meal and the Papaya, plus the pumpkin pie and some of her chocolates.

And tired, she was. I got her ready for bed. And while doing this I was singing along with the Christmas music.. Mom, it seems was singing along as well. It was great. I put her to bed. Then the nightly spa treatment. I sang her good night song and held her hand for awhile until she fell asleep.

Tomorrow I will be bringing the gifts I have for her and wrap them up after I get mom into bed, and she falls asleep.

I tweet this. Dear Santa all I want for Christmas is a warm winter jacket, a pea coat. And not the I.O.U for a lump of coal I usually get. Santa runs out of coal before he gets to my home.

Just something is better than nothing. I have a phone, but right now it is a paper weight, an expensive paper weight at that.

I do complain allot. I am trying not too. But when one needs help and their is no one to help said person. One gets really depressed. Especially at this time of the year.

I am extremely lonely and I do thank GOD for having mom. At least I have someone to talk too.

I am lucky to be able to help mom out.

I am trying to get her to take vitamins, but mom is having a hard time swallowing them. I will have to crush them and mix them with something.  In a way mom is like a child. But no she is not. I am just doing what anyone should be doing for their parent.

Mom looked after me, when young. Now it is my turn.

Need to go to bed. Being very tired, as I am.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Twas a few days

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Day.... I don't know anymore. Living on tea and gabipentin.

I am sure I have mom covered. But would be nice to have something under my tree for a change. Many, many years, now since that happened. Been looking after mom. And their for her at all holidays. Well, everyday. And love every minute of it. I miss mom each day and look forward to seeing her. I tell her this all the time.

It is the weekend and mom is was still not that hungry. She ate, not much. But she enjoyed the papaya and the avocado. Most of her meal. She was very tired. It is very strange that every weekend it is this way.

But she enjoyed the spa treatment though. Relaxes her and puts her to sleep. I do, however hold her hand until she falls asleep and I sing a goodnight song to her. Mom sings along with me. It changes a little bit at times.

Her room is looking good. Very Christmasy, ( if that is how it is spelled) I gave her a card today. I put the glasses on her, showed the card to her, and read it to her. Found a couple of other Christmas cards from last year and put them up on her board, with the one I brought her tonight.

I am excited about Christmas for mom. Depressed for myself and about myself. I have raping paper and will rap the gifts Christmas eve, when mom is in bed. Then put them under her tree, for her.

I do say that the tree looks good. Blue lights with blue and white decorations It is OK I guess.

What I say is Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is a warm winter coat, a pea coat, Wool. It is mighty cold out there in my travels to and from visiting mom by bus. It is colder out this year than normal. And the bus's are not exactly warm. Nor the Sky Train/subway

And with Celiac disease it is hard to eat properly, when one makes nothing. And if I do have anything in the fridge, the one roommate eats it. Then is gone for days.

So 1:00 am and I am waiting for my laundry to finish before I go to bed. And I am downloading some Christmas shows. OK I am a bah humbug person. Can't you blame me. But I am trying to keep my mood up beat. Especially for mom.

It is all about her after all. I can't do anything about a Christmas gift under my tree. It is not going to happen, so I guess I should stop complaining about it.

I would rather see mom have a great Christmas, than me. I enjoy the look on her face each and every year.

Need to finish my laundry and go to bed.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A smile

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Today being Friday mom is not very hungry. She ate a little bit of her dinner and she did eat a papaya and box of her 3 Lindt chocolates.

Then while doing the dishes, mom pointed to the pointsetta again. I let her know that I could help her with that. So when we got to her room. I pointed her towards her nightstand and there it was, a pointsetta. Mom smiled and wanted to touch the plant. I pushed her over to it and she was touching and feeling the plant. And smiling the whole time. She shed a tear. I gave her a big hug and she wanted a kiss. So that is what I did. And when I got her into bed, the smile continued. I finished her spa treatment, she was changed, and I held her hand while she fell asleep. With a smile on her face.

I just need to make the rest of her Christmas special. I did get mom something, with the little I had. At least there will be one present under the tree for her.

I would like to say again, that mom is completely dependent on everyone for all her needs. I wipe her nose, wipe her mouth, when it is dirty. When I get their I wipe the sleet from her eyes. I feed her and get her ready for bed. I wash her face, her hair, every other day. I put lotion on her face, arms, hand, legs and feet.

And I am proud and glad to do it. And would not have it any other way.

Day 15, my eye sight is getting blurry. I have major pains.I am dropping things with my right hand all the time lately

To all who know this. I am completely alone in this world. It is a horrible feeling. But I am use to it by now. As it has been along time. I don't have family. There is just mom and I. And when I leave their at night. I am alone. I don't have conversations with anyone.

And well, right now, I don't want to talk to anyone, anyways. I dislike Christmas. I just enjoy spending the time with mom.

All I want to do is make each and every Christmas, the best for mom. The tree, being their for her and doing whatever I can for her.

So I am very tired and need to go to bed. Get up early to get out to White Rock.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A day not unlike the rest

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I am completely disillusioned about people and the goodness they proclaim to have. Not! I see this everyday, at the home where mom lives. The family that does not come, only on special occasions do they visit.

Otherwise the residents sit alone.

Today, my uncle, mom's brother came to visit her. I found this out by one of the nurse's. My uncle could not find mom. He went to the other building where mom was 7 months ago. So he has not seen his sister in almost a year. As it was several months before mom moved that he had visited her.

Isn't this nice. My sisters don't come to see mom, and her brother doesn't as well. And they all drive and live not far away. Oh yea, the one sister comes once a week and the other, who knows. Most of the staff, don't even know I have other family members. I do let them know that I do have two sister's and mom has a brother and aunt.

Peoples goodness stops after Christmas time. And this is out of guilt.

I really don't have anything else to say.

It is going to be one of the worst Christmas's I have ever had. But I did take the little I get, today, and buy mom a gift.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A day that is getting worse

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Tonight after I gave mom her spa treatment, and waiting for mom to be changed. The staff member came in to change mom. I went, as usual, to get some hot water. When walking back I heard mom complaining. So I rushed in, it felt like something happened and mom was upset. She was giving the staff member a dirty look and following her around with her eyes.

I noticed a spot on her lip. Which I didn't see when I applied lip balm to her, 15 minutes earlier. What I think happened was someone slapped mom in the mouth. I am not saying for sure. I wasn't their to see it. But this person is coming in and changing mom latter and latter. Knowing I live in Coquitlam and it takes me up to 3 hours to get home. Not impressed.

So I arrived late, as it was snowing and pouring rain. The roads were covered in slush. So the buses were delayed. and I got their at 5:15 pm. I usually get their at 4:30. Mom was hungry and thirsty. They don't seem to give mom enough to drink. I was able to get her the red papaya she loves.

Now today I went to the food bank and apparently got a Christmas hamper. Having celiac disease, I have to have a gluten free diet. So I went through everything and, well, there was nothing left that I could eat, without getting sick. Day 14 and still going.

I am tired and weak. I am cold. As I got soaking wet today. And have had nothing. And I have nothing to get a Christmas present for mom with.

It seems the PGT was just screwing with me, as usual. I really don't know what to do.

I can go without, but I need something for mom to put under the tree.

I really hate my life. But I love mom

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

I am done

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I am done with the pleasantries in life. I don't trust anyone anymore.

You really can't depend or count on anyone. That is just how it seems to be. No help when one really needs it.

The PGT is getting on my nerves again. They tell me one thing and do another.

He takes me for a fool. That I don't know anything about accounting and it's practices.

I will start out by saying I do not like to boast about my life. As it is my mothers life that is important to me, and should be to all of you. This blog is about the trials of having Alzheimer's/Dementia. And how it progress's over time. What happens to your loved one and how one coupes with it. It's pitfalls and all the emotions that come along with being a caregiver to a loved one. The emotions that your loved one feels and experiences as time goes on.

But I boast a little now:

I studied first and second year accounting. And it was done by hand, A general ledger. (As an elective) Then it was computerized accounting, outside of continuing my education.  I have a few accounting programs on my computer that I keep up to date with at least once a month. So I am very well aware of how little time it actually takes the accounts payable department to print......

I used my first computer in 1984, took basic programing and C +. Not used anymore. I had my own computer in 1986. I owned one of the small Apple computers and then had a PC built for myself, after that. I am very adept at learning new programs. With ease. And have been using computers ever since. I am a geek. Put together this computer from old PC's I found.

I studied behavioural sciences/psychology and have an extremely high IQ. A Eidetic memory(Tonal) Meaning I remember conversations, clearly.

I am not working now, due to several car accidents, that left me having to use a cane, permanent injuries to my right shoulder and arm, knee problems. Right and left knee. Back injuries, nerve damage to my right arm, shoulder and hand. ( I am right handed, or I was) The emotional and psychological damage that it caused to myself. After the first accident I refused to drive for two years.(PTSD) according to the Psychologist I spent visiting for over a year. And now, cannot drive due to my injuries.(Right leg shakes when it becomes relaxed)  I have osteopina and spiana bifita oculta, and a few other lower back problems.I have suffered extreme depression and still do. I am in pain most days, but deal with it, as well as possible. I won''t let mom see what I go through. She has enough to deal with as it is.

Yet I have a job and it is the most wonderful job I have ever had. I look after my mother. Yea I don't get paid for it. But I willingly do this. And as I say to all. Everything else can come latter. As it is mom who needs me. And I plan on being their for her. No matter what. I don't complain about the traveling. Actually, I do enjoy it. I meet interesting people along the way. And even now, when I don't want to talk to anyone.  I am having more and more conversations. Not initiated by myself.

I live on gabapentin ( A mild nerve pain killer) this calms the hunger, and Tea.

But she knows something is up. She thinks I am loosing to much weight. I am, but nothing can be done about it.

Tonight, mom ate quite a bit. The food was cold, so I went to warm it up. While waiting, the food services staff asked me if I wanted something to eat. Sure. So they were having butter chicken, and gave me a piece of chicken and rice.  I brought it back to the table and mom ate her dinner and that as well. Great I say. Her appetite is back. And I like it when she eats like this. It is OK. I am use to not eating. Day 12. Coming up upon my record of 17 days. And then time for her nightly spa treatment. I left at 8:00 pm. late, and this is OK. I still got home at an OK time.

I really do love it when mom listens to the music and falls asleep holding my hand at night.

But time to go to bed

My roommate said I can use his van today. But we shall see. If I can, that means I can get the Christmas hamper and the last food bank of the year.

Need to leave a note for the roommate. But, like everyone else, I won't believe it until the keys are in my hand. And if he doesn't, I have no way of getting the  Christmas hamper and the food hamper of the year.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Another desperate day

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Tonight I found out that the home does not even get mom up until, between 10 am and 11 am. Meaning mom is only up for 7 hours in a day. As I get their at 4:30 pm and have mom in bed at 6:00 pm or so.

This is another situation that has to be addressed.

Mom was extremely hungry tonight, and ate all of her dinner, two ice creams and the peach dessert. Oh yea, plus two of the chocolates I had for her. Not the one's she likes, but the second best. And she was still very hungry.

The dental issue still remains. Nothing done about it. Mom needs the tooth filled or removed. And right away. But my problem is I cannot even call the dentist to speak with them.

I have absolutely nothing left to give her. My cupboards are bare. Just like mother Hubbard. I am out of her cosmetics now. Just some samples left. And the promise to help out is just that a veiled promeses. Nothing so far. I have been trying for a week now, going the long way to see mom and stopping in to see if it is there.

There was a musician that came tonight. I asked mom if she wanted to stay up and listen to him. She wanted too. But 6:30 came along, and mom was falling asleep in her chair. I got her ready for bed and her nightly spa treatment. Including her favorite music. Diana Krall.  This she falls asleep to.

Mom can't use her left arm.
Mom can't walk
Mom can't speak anymore
Mom is in a wheel chair all the time
Mom is aware though, very aware

She is alone, besides me being their for her.

I feel so bad that I cannot bring mom some home cooked meals. Or even fruit. Or even the Lindt chocolate she loves.

I wanted and still want the photo's of mom's life, but it is a year that I have been asking for them and nothing. I want to get her photo's up on her wall.

It is my sister's that are stopping me from doing this.

I wanted to get a Handi dart pass for mom. But this didn't happen, again

I will have to apply for this myself.

And fight for the photo's for mom. How selfish is this. They are mom's and should be up on her walls. Not sitting in storage and being charged for this. I am pissed off at this as well.

I am becoming weaker and my eye sight is getting worse. My sides are starting to ache. I have no idea what this is about.

The person for share wrote me and told me that it is not to late to get the Christmas hamper. But they won't deliver it. So I have no way of getting it home. I will go tomorrow and see what can be done. If anything.

It is day 11 now.

I am really not sure how much longer I can go on like this.  But I guess I will have too. No other choice.

Now I am very tired and is time for bed. Well to watch a few things I downloaded

Good night

GED bless

Kris Schmuland

I don't know

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So tonight mom was extremely agitated. She has a new mattress, which helps her to move around abit. She is not use to this and is uncomfortable.

She was fidgeting around and could not get comfortable.

Oh yea, when I arrived mom was in bed, not usual. I will have to bring this up tomorrow. So I feed her dinner in bed. She ate, but I know it was not good. I only had a half of a Papaya and a little bit of chocolate for her. And one baby banana.

I am out of everything.

But when I was leaving mom asked me, clearly, not to go. It was snowing like crazy in White Rock and it takes me 3 hours to get home. I wasn't sure if it was snowing in Coquitlam, where I live. And I take the bus. Not sure about roads. She also told me that she wasn't feeling well

This freaks me out, not being able to contact the hospital and they not being able contact me.

You need a phone in this world to get things done. And I have many calls to make, to get myself to White Rock and get my disability going. Or even to find out if it is to late for the Christmas food hamper.

But it was only raining in Coquitlam.

So day 9

I was freezing cold and soaking wet when I arrived home. I am feeling very weak today

Good night

Kris Schmuland

Really

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So I arrived today to find the stereo unplugged, again. This is a smart stereo. Each time they unplug it I have to reset everything. And it is getting very annoying. 

They can't seem to grasp the concept of a power button. If you don't know how to turn it off. Leave it alone.

I feel really bad that I can't make mom a home cooked meal. It has been a while since I was able to bring her one. The food is not the greatest. OK, it sucks. I have not even been able to keep mom is fresh fruit or her favorite chocolates.

Tonight mom was tired and very hungry. Which means she was grabbing at the food and wanting everything. But at the same time, just wanting to go to bed for her spa treatment. This she was motioning for. She runs her hand over my face. She just wanted to go to bed, but was trying to eat to quickly. I get worried when she does this. I don't want her to choke when she eats to fast. And it is hard to feed her when she is grabbing at everything. I know it is not her fault. I don't get upset at all. I just get worried.

But we got it done and off to bed she went. Mom was a little upset at first. I didn't get her into bed fast enough. But it worked out OK. Once I put on Diana Krall and got her into bed. I just love it when she smiles and enjoys being pampered.

I have been going through photo's of mom and it is surprising how many articles of clothing are actually missing. I say there is at least $1000.00 or more worth of cloths that have vanished. This is serious theft.

They don't care about one piece of clothing, but add it up and the cost is high. This is just my mother's belongings, let alone everyone else's cloths that have gone missing.

Well in the new year I will be going to the police and reporting it. As well as the news papers.  I will give them the opportunity to replace them or pay me for them, before going to the police and news papers. Time to stop being so nice. If nothing is said or done about, it will keep happening. As it has for a long time now.The laundry is out sourced. What I want is the hospital to go after the laundry facility for the loss and to stop it in its tracks. Fire the company or charge them. Which they are not doing anything about it. They just let it keep happening.

There are many issues that will be addressed come 2013. As I will be living out there.

I don't have a choice anymore about moving. Have to be out by the end of January. I fought one fight against the landlord and won. This is different, as the house is sold and the new owners don't want to went the place out. Everyone has to go. The only move I will make is out to White Rock.I look all the time and again, I am limited by the little I make.

 I contacted an agency that said they are there to help. But, they never did write me back with the answers to the simple questions I had for them. Is it to late for the Christmas hamper. I guess it is, as this Wednesday is the pick up and you have to register before hand. Besides, I have no way of bringing it home. To heavy to carry on the bus. And no other transportation to use or no one with a car that I know, to drive me.

Pretty bad! Because I have decided to be a caregiver for mom, all stopped talking to me. Friends of 27 years stopped returning my calls  many years ago. And I lost allot when I quit drinking and smoking pot. These weren't real friends anyways. The others, I know it is hard to deal with what I deal with. I just am able to do it and deal with it.

I have seen allot of death in these years. I will never get use to it. People that I speak with on a regular basis, pass away. Moms roommates pass away. But I can deal with it. I see mom go downhill, and I do get upset about it and I do cry about it. In front of mom I try to be as strong as possible. I saw my grandfather go through it. I saw my father go through it. Now mom is going through it. I can deal with it but I am worried all the time, not having a phone for the hospital to contact me if something should happen. To know, that I could get there and be informed that something happened to mom during the night. This bothers me the most. Even before eating, I am use to going hungry. Well, not really. I have learned to live with it. As tonight, it will be day 8. Nothing I can do about it. Tomorrow day 9. I have a ways to break my record of 17 days

On the way home tonight I was wearing layer's upon layers, And I was still freezing

Good night

Kris Schmuland

Still

Good day

So it has been three weeks now since I mentioned to the staff and the dental office that mom has a tooth that needs to be taken care of.

The dental office saw her and gave her antibiotics for a 7 day period a. As there presented a infection. Just as I new would happen. This is what I said to the dental  office and the staff. Yet it took three weeks to do something about it. But now the course of antibiotics is done and still nothing. The tooth is going to get infected again if something is not done about it right away.

But in the mean time, who is the one suffering. Mom. She has a hard time eating or drinking. Both hot and cold are causing her great pain.

All the time that the staff are around her they can't see that mom is suffering.

On top of  this, more and more clothing is going missing. A pair of brown cords, my sister's bought for mom is gone. Pillow cases keep going missing. Two shirts, which I bought for moms birthday are gone.

And the worse part of this is the staff. All they can say is, maybe its in the laundry. Come on now.

No one checks anywhere. Again, one hand does know what the other hand does. No body even goes after the company that does the laundry.I need to move to White. Rock so I can do moms laundry myself.I am sure it is the place were the laundry is done. Otherwise the staff would find them somewhere.

So to my rants

I no longer believe in the goodness of man. I no longer believe in my faith in GOD.

Why is my question. Why would I continue to believe in the goodness of mankind.

I am only going to be nice to people while visiting with mom. And I am having a hard time today even with that. I also made the decision that I am not going to speak with anyone outside of where mom lives

In the last few weeks I have become a very synacle individual. All I get is Bullshit from people. Can you help with this or can you help with that. Do you have. I HAVE NOTHING.

Share tells me to write to them if I need anything. They never did write back. Simply look it up on line and call them, they tell me. I even wrote to them and asked if it was to late for the Christmas hamper. Just a simple question. They did not even bother to write me back with an answer.

I guess it is to late for this hamper. Oh right, they did tell me to call them if I contact there office  in Port Moody. Again I have no phone to do this and have no funds to even use a pay phone.

I am sure I speak and write proper. Very easy to understand, if I do say so myself.

This is why I will no longer believe in the goodness of mankind. That is because there isn't any. 
Man is a selfish bunch, only doing things out of guilt. Giving at Christmas because it does something for them. Not because it helps those really in need of help. Such as myself.

I am tired. I am weak and getting weaker. But why write about it. Nothing will be done about it.

I know that tonight when I get home there will be nothingt and it will be that way for who knows how long.

I write because it helps get things off of my chest. This is my way of coping with rhetoric of the world around me and all the crap I deal with everyday and the lack of everything.

I help my mother out, as it is the right thing to do and mom needs me. She looks forward, each and everyday, to my being around for her.

What I really want to say is blank the world and be as selfish as everyone else. I am getting pissd off at everyone around me. But I am to polite to do this.

I will continue to thank GOD for keeping mom healthy and safe. But that is it.

I am done

Bye

Kris Schmuland

today

Hello again

After waking up and hearing about today's shootings in the states, my petty problems don't seem to big. Do they.

My heart goes out to all the families of the victims. And to those little lives that were cut short. Not being able to fulfill their purpose in life.

It is a sad occasion, indeed, that this man had to be so despicable to have taken the lives of these children.

What can be done to console the families. It is important that we come together and do whatever it is we can do to help out. To offer our support, to offer our comfort.

Pray for the victims and their families. Reach out with your words of caring

I believer HopeMob.org is doing something

GOD bless

Kris Schmuland

Humanity

Hello again

I can honestly say that I am loosing my faith in GOD and I have completly lost my faith in humanity

The other day I declared out loud that GOD would take care of my needs. And HE did not. Then a few days latter I ran into the same person that I said this to. But I avoided her as what am I to say to her. That GOD has not helped me and I am in the same boat. Still not eating and haven't in quite some time now. So as soon as I saw her I hid myself and walked the other way.

Then the PGT tells me they are going to do something. Usually, when they (he) tells me, he is going to do something,by the next day it is done. Complete lie. Still, 4 days latter it is not done.

I wrote the province newspaper about what is happening, to see if a story could be done about mom and I. Nothing. They forward my letter on to Share. Well share writes me telling me that they are there to help me. To contact, list of numbers, these places. Having my letter in front of them, and knowing I don't have a phone to do this. They still tell me to call these places and to look on the Internet. Giving me the links, for all of there resources. Which I am to call.

No fucking phone. What don't any of these people get. No phone means. No way of calling anyone, period! It's a paper weight right now. It is a note pad, camera etc... But not a phone.

But the province newspaper can write a full page article on  a couple of recovering drug addicts trying to change their life around. But doing nothing for another human being. Just recovering. But for someone who is completely devoted their life to looking after a ailing parent. Who is suffering themself. They pass on my story to another organization.

Don't get me wrong. I do appreciate what they did. Very much. But it still does not put it out there that there are individuals who give up everything to look after their loved one's. And are suffering even more so then that of the homeless drug addicts. Who made the choice to continue to use.


I lost all my friends over the years as a result of my looking after mom. And they not understanding why I do what I do. Why I am willing to spend so much time with my mother. Mom is completely dependent on everyone for all of her needs.

She can't speak, she can't feed herself, she can't go to the washroom by herself, she can't get herself dressed. Mom lost the ability to use her left arm and hand, a long time ago. As well as her ability to speak and feed herself. She is stuck in a wheel chair and only can go where the staff put her. I mean where the staff put her. Leave her in her room. Put the brakes on so she can't even push herself around.Completely dependent on what others think she wants. I understand mom. And if others would pay attention, they would as well.

So my faith in humanity is shot. No matter what I do or try to do. There is nothing. I guess because I have a roof over my head everything  is OK. Bullshit. What about eating or having a warm coat or clothing that fits.
In a way it would better for me to be completely homeless. Maybe I should start sticking needles in my arm to get some real help.  There is more help available for them.


I am a recovering alcoholic and pot smoker and ever since I quite, I have been looking after my parents. First my father,then my mother and father and now just momber. Dad passed away this month 5 years ago this December 28.

No matter how I feel or how depressed Iam or that most days I don't want to get out of bed. How many times. I fall or faint or how much pain I am in. I will never let mom see this or know anything about it. I check all of these feelings at the door and put a smile on my face. Mom has always seen me smilingly.

If it were not for mom I would not be around anymore. I gave up on myself a very long tme ago. I have given up on everything. Especially on humanity. What a big fat waste of time that is. Thinking that people actually care for one another. It seems only at Christmas time do they feel guilty enough to attempt to do something.

Otherwise it seems animals are more important than those that are suffering, silently suffering. Ok I am not that silent about things.

I do pray and thank GOD everynight for mom's health and to keep her safe. And apparently GOD knows everything and knows that I now need to move.

Today I was told that the house I rent a room in, has been sold. And the new owner is giving us until the end of January to move. Well I guess I dont' have any choice now. So I will be moving to White Rock. I just have to find a place. Somewhere I can afford

I really need to go now.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

The Christmas pot luck dinner

Hello again

So today was the pot luck dinner. Yesterday I ironed mom's clothing, gave her a manicure and applied nail polish. Getting pretty good at it I do say so myself.

Then  today she was all dressed up and look good. It took a while for our table to get called up to get our food, and mom was impatient. So I got her some chocolates and this seemed to tide her over for awhile. I grabbed two plates, One for mom and one for me. But I should of know better. It is impossible for me to eat  at these functions. As I have to feed mom.

Tonight was no different, I brought both plates over to the table and mom was at both of them. That was OK, Well mom ate almost all of both of the plates of food. I nibbled on some of it. When I had some time in between feeding mom. It is OK, I have not had a holiday dinner in many, many years now.

But mom ate, she drank 3 glasses of eggnog a small plate of desserts and a 3 pack of Lindor truffles. And then I got her ready for bed and put her to bed. And her nightly spa treatment.

She did complain of a stomach ache. I wonder why, I told her. I haven't seen mom eat that much in a while. Good for her.

She was wearing slippers. Even though she had a custom pair of shoes made for her a few years ago. That cost over $500.00. Which I asked about and even looked for. No luck on finding them.

But over all the evening went well. Yet I would of liked to of eaten a turkey dinner. Some day it will happen

It was after 8 pm when I finally got mom into bed. She usually is in bed by 6 pm. It was to be expected.

Tonight I once again was freezing cold coming home tonight. I will have to find/buy a winter coat one of these days. When I actually get some money

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmland

A Little later on this day

Hello again

Since earlier, I have been thinking. Yes I know how to do this.

I am not going to feel guilty anymore because of what I do. I don't eat most of the time, My clothes don't fit anymore. I am in pain all the time.

I haven't dated in a very long time, we are talking many, many years. And who would have me, anyways. I am nothing. Except I am the one who takes care of mom, and makes sure she is looked after.

I am the one who has been threatened with law suites. I am the one that fights all, for mom's rights. I am their every single day. No matter what. Even if I am starving, not wanting to even get out of bed. That I am extremely cold all the time, because of not having a winter jacket. I am extremely depressed.

I get out of bed, I get ready and I travel 3 hours each way to see mom. And I look forward to it each and everyday.

And when I get their and there is a huge smile on mom's face, everything is worth while. No matter what crap is happening to me. I am sure allot of it is self imposed. Maybe.

But the point being. I am their and no one else is or has been. I need to move to White Rock to make sure mom is looked after even better.

To be able to bring  her over to my place for lunch, dinner or just a visit. Just to get her out of the Al Hogg pavilion for awhile.

I am doing what is right by my mother. OK I don't have anything, I just wish I could buy mom a few nice presents for Christmas. And supply her with more home cooked meals. Being closer would allow me this opportunity, as it would free up 6 or more hours in a day, for me to get other resources together to help out.

So I leave you now, I go to bed tonight hungry, as I have for the last week. And I feel that GOD has forsaken me. I am sure HE hasn't. Just my imagination working over time.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

It is closer

Hello again

Again a few days since I last wrote. Mom is still in pain and this week she will have the tooth removed. Isn't it interesting that I, not being their all the time, am the one who first noticed the problem with her tooth. But the staff, always with her, couldn't even bother to see that something was up.

It is a shame that people get treated that way. Ignored, pushed aside and not taken care of adequately. That one has to sit in their own soiled diapers for hours at a time. And because mom can't speak up for herself, they do this to her.

Wait, if she could speak for herself, they would just drug her into submission. This isn't new and it does not just happen to my mother. It is an epidemic of abuse against the most vulnerable member's of our society.

These are the individuals who built our nations, gave us what we have today. They fought for our freedoms, built our infrastructures and many died in the process. Without them, were would we be.

We hide our parents, out of sight, out of mind.

Yes, it is not all of us the have the capacity to be a caregiver to our loved one's. We are all not able to deal with thwart loss of our parents cognitive abilities and watch them decline into a world of darkness and forgetfulness. To see our once strong and helpful parents become reliant upon us for all their needs. To need us to feed them, to change them, to put them into bed. To deal with the decline of their emotional wellbeing. To see a once docile individual become aggressive and quickly agitated.

We all don't have the necessary energy and stamina to be affective as a careviver.  Plus the patience it requires to be their for them.

I thank GOD that HE has given me these gifts. It is not always easy. It is very hard at times. Especially when I don't have the money to be able to make mom dinners. And her looking in my bag or reaching for containers, thinking there is somethings I forgot to put out at dinner for her. I cry at these moment's that I can't give a proper meal.

It is especially hard at this timeof the year This actually is the worst year ever. It is two weeks before Christmas and I already know I can't afford a Christmas present for mom. I know I don't have the funds to make her home cooked meals. To buy her a nice box of chocolates for Christmas.

I don't even have the money to even buy groceries for me to even eat or buy a warm winter jacket. I layer up each day and am still cold.

I still would and will go without so I can make mom happy with home cooked meals and a few nice Christmas presents.

But the big scrooge is not going to do anything about it. Or, so far, is not going anything to make this happen. So far.

There is still two weeks to go GOD willing

I am in White Rock now. Have to find a wifi spot to send this

I am in White Rock now and located a wifi spot so I will finish for now.

My phone is not working. No cell service or data. Could not afford the bill or even a prepaid plan. This bothers me the most. No way for moms place to contact me, if an emergency should arise. I asked the powers that be for help. No luck. They say it is not important for the hospital to reaching me. NOT IMPORTANT I am the one who is their all the time and am moving out here to do more for mom. To continue to fight for her rights. To make sure mom is being treated  properly. 

I understand my sisters are busy. That is OK. I am here for her

Until later on

GOD bless

Kris Schmuland

very cold wearing layers upon layers and still cold Have to find a winter jacket somehow somewhere broke and will be for along time now -- Kris Schmuland (@kaschmuland)

Christmas is upon us

Hello again

So it is Christmas, as the song goes. But there is no happy song here.

It is a sad story. The large scrooge is not helping

Until I sobered up, I did not even know what the meaning of  " To love somebody" was. Until I started to look after my ailing parents. It has been 5 years since my father passed away, and my mother has Dementia, lung cancer and has had a stroke. but she is Ok, for now.

To give of yourself freely, To do everything you can for one another. To be there for someone, without expecting anything in return.

It was and is my mother who has taught me this. By me, looking after her, taking care of her everyday. I am learning many, important things.That use to elude me. As I was a selfish asshole.

Until I sobered up that is. And started to take care of my parents.

Lonely seniors die sooner, Do something about it.

If we have the means, should we not, out of moral obligation, do what we can for other's

These are a few of the things I have learned from being their for mom.

But the most important thing of all. I have learned to love someone else. Of course I never loved myself. Otherwise I would not of become an alcoholic and pot head, and ruined my life.

But my life is now, a servant, to make sure mom is well taken care of, and looked after. After all the home does not adequately take care of her, in the way I feel mom should be taken care of.

But what is the worst part of this month is that I can't buy mom a Christmas present.

I won't be eating for, well, who knows how long. I just can't afford it. I don't have a winter coat, and I have tried to get help with this.

But none of that matters, since I can't get mom a Christmas present. Not even a Christmas card.

This is the most important time of the year for mom. Knowing her husband passed away this month. I try to do all I can for her. And I want to do more.

This is why it is so important to move to White Rock, to be able to spend more time with mom. To be able have mom over for visits.

There are places, as I mentioned in my last blog. That are for people like me, disabled and with a low income. I need a phone for this.

And yesterday, I made this video, online, for mom. It is a Santa message for mom. But I don't have time or data on my phone. The home has no wifi connection. And for me to download it, I need to purchase it. Otherwise we can simply just view it. Not without an Internet connection though. I spent time making this through this one site, that was offering it. It is not very expensive at all to download it. $2.00. But I have not, the $2.00, nor do I have the credit card it requires to pay for it. Even the cheapest pre paid credit card is $25.00  This was emailed to me through a trusted source.

I really don't have a clue what I am going to do about this. I thought mom would get a kick out of it. And make her happy. It is Santa talking about her. Cute and festive.

Well time to go, I need to go to bed. I am not feeling very good. I just am.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Dental issues and scrooge

Hello again

Well mom has been having dental issues. And because my phone was cut off, I have had a hard time contacting the dentist, for mom. I asked the staff to contact them, I left a message under their door. I called when I had the use of a phone. So it took 3 weeks to get mom an appointment. So she suffered this whole time. I was able to get mom some pain killers. T 3's  But mom is and has been having a hard time eating. It hurts to eat. I have been trying to bring her soft foods and make sure her drinks are on the warm side  You know, hot and cold bother someone who has a tooth ache.

I am freaking out daily, from not having a phone. I am worried that something will happen and no one will be able to contact me. I need a phone. But scrooge is stopping me, again. Always at Christmas time. A phone is the most important thing to me. For the hospital to be able to contact me, and I them.

And the whole time I have been saying that something has to happen before the tooth gets infected. And of course, the tooth is infected. So now she has to take antibiotics for the next week and then have the tooth removed.  But next Tuesday, the day of her appointment, is a potluck dinner the home is having. So mom is going to have her tooth removed the day of the potluck. Great don't you think. Not!

Now it is that time of year when it is decoration time. So I have been hauling out mom's Christmas decorations. By bus. I brought out her tree, last Saturday. It was very cumbersome, but I did get it out there slowly. And we decorated the tree, that same day. Mom helped and it was great.

But I did not have many decorations, because the landlady took them or threw them out. I did mange to get help to get some more decorations.

The tree does look great, though.

Now mom's stereo is working out great. I do need an SD card to load up with her favorite music, I mean artist. Diana Krall. Mom just loves her music and it is the music she listens to when she goes to sleep, It relaxes her greatly. But I don't have the money for this. I am trying to get it. But Scrooge is stopping me from making mom's Christmas great.

So Sunday night I was meeting with some people and after we were finished, I ran into this women who use to look after mom, as a caregiver. Well she asked if I have moved to White Rock yet. I told her that I haven't and everything was just out of reach of my budget.

So she proceeded to tell me about all the low income apartments around the White Rock area. And gave me her phone number to help me find a place and the best way to go about getting a subsidy.

BUT MY PHONE IS NOT WORKING.  Great, when I finally have a list of places to call and get help with a subsidized apartment. I have a very large list of places I need to call and make appointment to go and speak with them.

And I have asked for help with this, for the two reason I listed above. For the hospital to contact me and to get in touch with all of these agencies.

So anyways, I need to go to bed. I am hungry and my cupboards are bare.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Mom is suffering with dental issues

Hello again

So mom is experiencing major dental problems. I have called the dental office over and over again. But not having a working phone. ( Can't afford to pay the phone bill) They can't return my calls.

But that is not the problem. OK it is one of the problems. I left explicit instructions of what to do. Bring mom in an remove the tooth. It can't be saved.

It is really bothering her. Mom can't eat properly. I try to bring her soft foods, but I don't have money for much. OK, really nothing at all. I try to get help with this. But no luck.

I mentioned mom's condition to the staff, daily, but nothing is ever done about it. They tell me they will contact the dental office as well. I ask for something to help with the pain, they are feeding her T 3's. Yes it is helping with the pain. But it is getting mom stoned. And I am worried about this.

Today, the dental office is suppose to be open and I thought, the key word is thought, mom would have gone down to get this taken care of. NO, this didn't happen.

So mom is still in pain, they are still feeding her T 3's and nothing is being done about her tooth. Go figure!

Now I can set up mom's Christmas tree. It will be the first time in 4 years that I can set up her 5' tree. But my crazy landlord threw out all the Christmas and Halloween decorations.

I was able to get a few more decorations. I don't have any lights though. I really dont' know what I am going to do. This is mom's tree and she deserves to have it all lit up and decorated properly.

I don't have the money to do this. And it is really pissing me off. Mom deserves this and I need your help with this.

My landlord took everything that was important to mom and me. There is a potluck dinner and mom needs a nice outfit. Well I had an outfit, it was in a garment bag, behind my door. I looked for it yesterday, and it is no where to be found. The more I look for things the more things are missing. And the RCMP ( the police) aren't doing anything about it. I have to take her to civil court. And that costs money, which again I don't have. This was an expensive outfit I purchased for mom a few years ago. For a Christmas dinner.

Again I am really pissed off about this.

And this crazy landlady, rented a room out to a drug dealer, who just helps himself to what little I don't have. Then last night, he threatened me. And I have to come home to this BS every night.

On top of this, I came home to the eviction notice taped to my door. Now I need to find a place and I can't afford anything. The cost of rooms in White Rock/South Surrey are $600. or more and I can only afford $500.  Basement suites are only a little bit more than this. But still out of my price range.

So summing this up.

Mom needs to go to the dentist and I can't get in touch with them, or when I do, they can't phone me back.(no phone)

She needs an outfit for the potluck dinner.( Hers was stolen/thrown away)

My phone is not working ( can't afford to pay the bill/or even a pay as you go plan)

I was given an eviction notice and need to be out by the end of December

I can't afford the places, I mean for a room.

I have to live with a drug dealer. This is how the landlady screens the people. I knew he was bad news before he even moved in. Gut feeling. They are usually right. 90% of the time.

Now I have been waiting for the PGT to get permission from my sister's to release the mom photo's of her life and memories, but nothing.

I have been waiting for the PGT to get the application processed for mom's handi dart bus pass and nothing.

Mom wants to see her best friend of 35 years, who also has Dementia, And lives not that far away. OK 30 kms. Whom she hasn't seen in 4 years.

Mom wants to see her aunt, and noting is being done about any of these things by the PGT

These are important issues that need to be addressed and soon.

Well I have to go, so I can write the PGT an email.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Oh, not good

Hello again

Yes I did say not good. Mom has been suffering from a broken tooth, and has  been in pain. Great pain. It is a shame I don't live out there to be able to get her to the dentist. Not the one that is in the hospital, but another one.

I noticed over a week ago that mom had dental problems and immediately called the dental office and left a message. They never returned my call and did not go to check the problem out. I told the staff and nothing was done either. I asked to give mom something for the pain. They did that night, but not the next day.

Mom has not been eating well, she has not even wanted to eat her daily papaya. I brought a room temperature coke and water. It is not so bad on her teeth. I also have cold drinks for her. I have been trying to bring foods that are easy for her to eat. Sushi, pasta. Room temperature avocado, fruit.

She is in pain and grumpy. I haven't been punched so many times from her. I don't blame her. I know exactly what dental pain is like.

Tonight I finally got the nurse to give her something for the pain, and to call and leave a message for the social worker to contact the dental office. As I have called them over and over again.

They have to remove the tooth. Well what is left of it. Part of the tooth has already broken off. I am worried about it getting infected.

They still have done nothing about the roommate situation. All I want them to do is to make sure the TV is turned down, put her headphones on. Turn the lights off.

This women doesn't get out of bed. No wander she is up all night long. She sleeps all the time.

Now it is coming up to Christmas time and I am able to bring mom's larger tree. 5 foot tree. But the problem is that my landlord threw all of my Christmas decorations away. I have been collecting them for at least 10 years now. And have set up a tree for mom every year. Different themes all the time. Now I have a tree, and one strand of blue lights. Not enough to do anything.

I can't let a Christmas go by without setting up a beautiful tree, and decorations throughout her room.

I need your help and need it now. Mom needs your help.

I have to move and I am having a hard time finding a place.  Every place I find is just out of my price range. For a room. Yes a room only. Just out of my price range. I have seen many decent places, But even if I spend everything I get, it is still not enough. I am short

I have found a place where I can get all the furniture I need and picked out enough for a one bedroom apartment. I even put an add on Craigslist stating my needs and that I could use help until I get my disability within 6 months But they will only hold it until December 10.

Now mom needs me to be out there. So I can get the things done for her that are needed. Dental appointments, speak to her doctor and get her medication changed. And many other serious issues that need to be taken care of during the day. And with a phone.

And my phone is not working right now. I don't have money to eat, let alone pay for a phone. And I would rather have the phone working than eat. I need it in case something happens and they need to contact me.

I am completely wiped out. Need to sleep.

GOD Bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

More than interesting

Hello again

It has been over a week since my last post, and things are and have been hell. Or my little version of it, anyways.

Mom's illness. Well mom has gotten better, the cold is going away. But it took its toll on her. Not eating much, Restless sleep. So I have been getting her to eat as much as possible. Getting her into bed earlier. Lots of liquid and fruit. And some decent meals.

I have a new stereo for her, and loaded up a USB drive with her music she loves, from my phone. I started to play this when I leave at night. So she can completely relax. It has been working. She is almost completely better. This is great.

 But it is the weekend, and mom just seems to not eat much over the weekends and has been this way for a very long time.

I need to speak with the doctor about this. But he just doesn't  return my calls. I need to be out there to go during the daytime to speak with him, the doctor.

I continue with mom's spa treatment. I wash her hair, every other day. I just did her nails, manicure and pedicure. Mom has a fungus on her toe nails. So I have been applying Tea Tree Oil on them, nightly, it is a very good cure for this and cuts and scraps as well. And several other ailments

Today, mom really did not want to eat. I kept trying to get her to eat more. But she was getting very upset and kept motioning for me to give her, the nightly spa treatment. I finally just gave her the papaya and her chocolate and off to bed. I had to watch carefully, as she was trying to swing at me. This is typical of when she gets angry. She gets impatient and it is OK. I do understand completely. Mom is in her wheelchair all day. And that alone would get very frustrating, in it's self.

I really need to get a better chair cushion for her. Something much more comfortable. I really don't blame mom for wanting to get out of the chair when I arrive.

I need to be there for mom, more often. I want to do even more for her, and with her. People don't believe what I do for my mother. It is because nobody would do what I do for her. Nobody would say, this is what I do, I look after my mother and is all I want to do. Nobody would give up everything to do this. But I do and will continue to do this for mom, and even more.

It is extremely important for me to do absolutely everything and anything for mom. To move to White Rock and just spend as much time with her, as I can.

I will free up 6 or more hours in a day, by moving out there. I can use that time to speak with the doctors and the staff about mom's care. I can have her over for lunch's. And maybe over night. Provided I find the appropriate place to live.

I pray nightly, daily, all day, for GOD to help me find a place. I pray that HE help me loosen these chains that are binding me. Being in this place and having to put up with this landlord who steals my belongings, rents the rooms to criminal element. The new guy that moved in likes to take my food. Without even asking or replacing it.

I don't mind if someone takes my things. If they ask or tell me they took it. And replace it. But not this guy, he just takes it;. The food is not mine. It is for mom. Eggs, which I can't even eat. I had them to bake a pie for mom. Salsa, I bought a loaf of bread, had two slices, and put it into the fridge and the next day, I had less than a half of a loaf.

I need to be released from these chains. To be free of this situation I am in. I feel I am trapped by the devil. But I know GOD will help break me free.

GOD knows my heart and how all I want to do is look after mom, full time. GOD knows I love my mother with all my heart and soul. HE knows I love HIM with all my heart and soul. That I follow HIS word, I read it daily. On the bus while traveling to see mom, before bed. Right before I pray and give thanks.

Mom is everything to me. Everything else can wait. I am completely dedicated to being there for my mother. I know nothing else. My life is my mothers life. This is the way it should be and I have absolutely no problem saying this or doing what I do.

In fact, as mentioned, all I want to do is more, more and more. To be there to feed her lunch. To be there to take her out different places. To just sit with her and hold her hand, as I do each night, while mom falls off to sleep.

It is Christmas time and to decorate her room is a goal of mine. I want to decorate the tree in Blue and White. Blue and Clear lights, and Blue and White decorations. Now I can bring her 5 foot tree to her. I will speak to the roommates daughter's and let them know my plan. Mention to them that they can share the tree and put their mother's presents under the tree for her. As I will do for mom. And hopefully my sister's will do the same.

I will be printing out photo's I have taken of mom and leaving them for the sister's

But I need help from everyone. To make the move to White Rock. My address is on this blog and you can go to www.indiegogo.com/krismovingcampagn and read more about my plight with the landlord.


Now for more about the landlord issue


A week and a half ago, the landlord left a note for me, telling me I have 24 hrs to move my things out of my room for her to have the renovations done. She just didn't get it. I said no. So she goes to the Residential Tenancy Branch and lies to them. Telling them it was emergency repairs. Not showing them the letter I gave her.

So I come home last Saturday, to find garbage bags outside the door. Which I actually tripped over, injuring my wrist and bruising my hip. Already having problems with my hip. This just aggravated it even more. I found  my room broken into, I go to the garbage bags and find all sorts of my belonging in them. . I started going through my room and I find many many things gone. Just gone. I go through the garbage bags and pull out allot of my things.

Clothing, socks, my mother's shoes. Well one shoe of my mother. Christmas decorations, Halloween decorations. Shirts, T-Shirts.

I started going through my belongings and I have a whole list of things that are gone.

I just obtained permission to put up mom's 5 foot Christmas tree. So last night I started to look for the Christmas decorations. I had a couple of Box's behind the door, and guess what they are gone. All my Christmas decorations. Well, mom's decorations. So now I need to get all of them again.

I have a list of everything that was missing. I will be giving it to the police. I will also being seeking criminal charges against her. I have nothing to begin with. And what I have is important. And especially the Christmas decorations for mom. There is a estimated total of over $500.00 worth of items of mine, missing. GONE


GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Very tired

Hello again

It has been about a week since my last post. Sorry.

Mom has caught this nasty cold that has been going around. And I have it as well. So I have been looking after mom even more than usual. And I am blessed that it can be this way. Mom is not eating much, because of her sore throat, she can't swallow properly. So I have been bringing her fresh fruit smoothies. Thank GOD I have the fruit in the freezer.  All mom wants to do is go to bed and sleep. But this is difficult. As her roommate has her TV blaring and the lights on.

It is not her fault, it is the fault of the Al Hogg pavilion and the staff.

I told the nurses that mom was sick over and over again. But do you think they would listen. Yea right. Then I find out that they gave mom the flu shot, while she was sick. Oh did I complain. After me telling them over and over that mom was sick.

And mom needs rest. I ask the roommate to turn down the TV and nothing. So I ask the staff to do something about it, that mom needs rest. Nothing is every done about it. This is just crap. I asked for the roommate to be moved months ago and nothing. Even though others have been moved, people have passed away and new people have moved into the home. But they can't protect my mother.

I get their earlier now. And I need to do this. It is really time for me to be in White Rock.

But my biggest problem is I have no money at all. I mean zero. I only have enough money to get mom fruit for the next week. And this is not for me to use. It is for mom and mom only. I spend none of this on me.

Sure I go without. But this is OK. Everything is for mom and mom only.

If I had even a little bit of money I would already be in White Rock. I have an opportunity to get this mobile home. I still have nothing

I look and ask and still nothing.

I am having major landlord problems and need a place. It is to much to deal with. I now have to fight her in court. Through the Residential Tenancy Act. I have video, pictures and a list of infractions. It is an illegal basement suite and an illegal rooming house. So I called the city to report it. They called me back, but I missed the call. I will have to call them back on Tuesday.

I will be seeking damages. But this could take months to get through But in the mean time, I need to find a place and it will only be in White Rock. If I am moving, I am only moving to White Rock.

Now I want to be their, as while I am their with mom, it is only to feed her than get her ready for bed and the nightly spa treatment. I want to do more with her. And it is during the day time that she is more awake. And I get their at 4:30 pm daily. She goes to bed right after dinner. This is her thing. I don't blame her. She does nothing during the day. So she is bored and gets tired.

I started another campaign on Indiegogo. Let us hope this one does better than the other's which brought me in nothing. And I just wanted to get a van to be able to do things with mom.

So I need to go. I am very tired still and I expect the landlady to be over in the morning. And the police will have to be called to have her removed. She comes over without any notice and just walks right in.

The only reason I am here is I can't afford much, or actually anything. I have looked and looked for a place in White Rock. But they are all out of my price reach.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Christian Day, which is very good

Hello again

Today there was a few women that I have met, from a church in White Rock that I am thinking of joining, over to visit with myself and my mother. It was a good visit, they wanted to know if they can come by and see mom other times, and I said sure.

Then on the way home, I went through Vancouver, and caught the 160 back to Coquitlam and the driver was someone I haven't seen in a very long time. She was in a accident and was off work for 2 years. She is a Christian, as well. I got off in Port Moody, to go to the drug store. And caught the bus which takes me closer to my home, and the driver, whom I know, is also a Christian. Thank you GOD for the day of Christian contact. It was very good. It was unusual, this has never happened before. Not complaining, it was a very good experience. Full of light.

Tonight I brought mom a dinner that I had made before and divided up then froze some of them. Chicken and seafood cannelloni. Added some salsa and feta cheese. Mom loved it. And, of course her Lindor Chocolate for deserts, besides the papaya. She ate really well.

I got their early and washed her hair tonight. Cleaned her ears. Then got her ready for bed and her nightly sap treatment. Mom was very full and then became very relaxed. We sang a bit and then I held her hand while she fell asleep. Off I went on my journey.

Now the nurse, Joana or whatever her name is, was working tonight. Mom and I ate in the family room, we had the door closed and then this nurse, just walked in and opened the door. Without a word. Now this nurse is.well, I have a few names for her, but I won't use them.

It is time to stop her from treating mom. I want this women to not even go near mom. I don't trust her at all. You never know what she will do. Or how she is going to react. The Al Hogg pavilion has not taken any action at all against her for making threats. So time for the letter demanding she be removed from mother's care. If she is not removed, I guess I will have to call the Fraser Health and file a complaint.

Anyway, it is time to move their and be closer and to spend more time with mom. I really need to be their to do more with mom. No one else is going to do this. But that is OK. I want to do this for mom. Honour your mother and father. Honour the widow. This is what Jesus told us to do. But besides this. This is my mother and she deserves for me to be there for her. Mom took care of me and it is my turn to take care of her. Period. Nothing else

Bed time now,

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

My heart

Hello again

My heart broke tonight. I was not able to bring mom a dinner tonight. I have nothing, no groceries. I am going to bed again without dinner. But this does not compare to not being able to bring mom a home cooked meal everyday.

Mom kept pointing towards a container. Which has her cheese in it. And she kept reaching for my bag, over and over again. Trying to see if there was anything in there for her. Her dinner. Mom is used to me bringing things for her. But, again, I have nothing. I don't even have any groceries in my fridge or cupboards. Empty. And I started to cry, when I had to tell her I had nothing for her and explain that I have no groceries to make anything with. That I don't know when I will get groceries. I will try mom, I said as I was tearing up.

As it is they don't provide food with any taste to it. Tonight's dinner was this cabbage roll. And this is dry and  tasteless with the same old mashed potatoes and string beans. Not what she wanted to eat. She kept reaching for my bag, just to make sure I didn't forget something.

This was the most heartbreaking evening I have every experienced. To know I am not able to bring mom a home cooked meal. I only have enough for her Lindor Truffles and a papaya daily for a week. I have enough of her drinks to last for a while. Bought them on sale and in bulk.

Now here in lies a problem for me. Mom has to sit in her filth for who knows how many hours in the day. The staff don't change her, or a matter of fact, they don't change anyone of the residence. I have to now fight to get this done. Which should be a given.; Again  I say, Would you let a baby sit in their own filth for any length of time. The answer is no. Why would one let a helpless seniors sit in their own filth for any length of time.

And the other problem I have is that I have two sisters who don't help at all. It would be nice if one of them helped me with this problem. But this is never going to happen. So it is left to me. And I will do what is necessary to get this situation solved.

I pray daily that I could get help with the moving to White Rock. I pray that the only thing I want to do is to look after mom full time. To be there for her at all times. And living in Coquitlam, traveling two to three hours each way, there and back, daily. I cannot do this. By living out their I will free up 6 hours or more to be able to concentrate on doing things of mom. Joining another church and volunteer for the Christian group that helps with the patients and residences at the Peace Arch Hospital, the Weather Be Pavilion and the Al Hogg Pavilion. This way I can stay with mom latter and get home early. To be able to, maybe, do things to get ahead for mom.

What I need is real help from anyone. I have had a health problem recently, that can end my life. I need to maintain good health. By being stress free, sort to speak.

But it is late and nothing to make for dinner for mom or myself. So I need to go to bed, watch some of what I just downloaded and fall asleep. Oh yea, after I read my nightly bible plan. I have been reading the bible, daily for years and years now. And love every bit of it. Then I need to pray to GOD and thank HIM for healing mom and to help me get to White Rock to look after mom full time.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Mom is OK

Hello again

Mom is OK today, yes I may of worried for not. But I still have to worry. You never know. It is so very important for me now to get out to White Rock and live their. 

The mobile home is a good idea. But I have absolutely nothing, and need everything. No kidding. Really I have nothing.

Tonight the staff are getting later and later in changing mom out of her soiled diapers. Mom needed to be changed at dinner, and who knows how long she has sat in this. This is pure laziness by the home and the staff. 

We have had this conversation over and over again, about mom being changed and cleaned before 7 pm not 8 pm. the care aid did not even speak to me tonight. But Oh well, I am not there for a popularity contest. I am there for mom. And mom wants to be asleep by 7 pm

So it is the October 31 and the landlady has not yet given me an eviction notice. Well I don't have to move now until the end of December 2012 good. She just doesn't get the law.

I need to really go now. Very tired and in pain. And hungry. 

I had a USB drive for mom's stereo and it is now missing. An SD card is what is needed. It will just go into the stereo and not seen.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A strange day

Hello again

Tonight mom ate most of her meal and a papaya, mango and kiwi plus an Avocado. Which is very good. And mom was happy, smiling and talkative. She wanted plenty of hugs and kisses. Must of been a good day.

Or they changed her medication. We finished dinner, I got her ready for bed. Put on a undershirt. Which I have asked the staff to put one on everyday. She has 7 of them for 7 days. But of course they don't listen. So I put them on her.

I got her into bed, and her nightly spa treatment. Well, mom's pupils where so dilated and she was wide awake. Not sleepy at all. This is very unusual for mom. She is mostly tired after dinner and wanting to go to sleep. But not tonight.

Well this worries me greatly. Mom was talkative and wanted to hold my hand, hugs and kisses. I was there for her, I held her hand, played music for her, sang to her. We waited for the nurse to give mom her nightly medication. Then I needed to leave. I have been very tired the last several days. As mentioned.

I gave mom several huge hugs and said good night at least 10 times or so. I didn't want to leave, but I needed to. I started to cry. I get worried when mom's moods change this drastically. I am still worried, that in the middle of the night I am going to get that phone call.

I can't live in coquitlam anymore. It is just to far away from mom. I need to be close to her. Right down the street. Mom wants to get up and try to walk . So tomorrow/today I will get the walking belt and get her up out of the chair and try to walk with her.

I need to do more for mom.

Well I went to the Residential Tenancy Branch today. They are on my side, but I didn't have the landlords address, so I couldn't file the complaint. It wasn't until I left the place that I realized where I could get the address from. It is always that way. So tomorrow/today I will call this place and go back to the RTB and file the complaint. (s).

Well during dinner one of the other child of a parent in the home, mentioned to me that she knows of a mobile home for rent. A few miles away. Not far though. It is a 2 brm and in great shape Now I just need to get the money together for this. It would be perfect. It would be big enough for mom to come over and visit. An extra bedroom to have her over night. And cheaper than most of the apartments. But, again, I don't have the money for this .

So I pray to my GOD in the name of his SON JESUS CHRIST that I receive the funds necessary to be able to rent this place AMEN

Now I leave you. I ask that you pray the prayer I just prayed to get this do. Thank you

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

PS I still don't have all of mom's photo's of her life and memories. Thanks to my sisters. I have the printer now.

Tuesday October 30

Hello again

So today is Monday, and mom was hungry again. She does not eat much on the weekend and this past weekend was no exception. She barely ate anything. But did eat her papaya and some kiwi. But today she ate most of what I brought her plus some of the dinner she was served and the papaya. Which is a good thing.

I put her to bed and finished the spa treatment and mom had a small individual bag of Hawkins Cheeses. Her favorite. I have left a bunch of mini chocolates for my sister's grandchildren, mom's great grandchildren, but when she was their last week, they didn't take any. I guess I should of left a note. Oh well, maybe she will take some this week. Who knows.

A women that I had gotten to know over the many months mom has been at this place, passed away early this morning. I knew her daughter and her daughter's sons.

It smacks of the finality of one's life. How you never know. This is the reason I am their all the time and need to be their more often. This is why I need to move to White Rock.

Well I will not have a choice. I know on the first of November I will be receiving an eviction notice. I have to fight this women. Who is no better than a criminal. Has no respect for the law. As mentioned she broke into my room and does what she wants.

And because of this I suffered a small heart attack Sunday morning. I got up and made a tea and the sharp pain just shot up my left side. I went to the hospital and was informed that I had a small heart attack. They asked me what kind of stress I am under. I told them about this landlady and they told me to move right away. I have no money to do this. Nor do I have a place to go. I mentioned about mom, but none of what I do for mom is stressful in anyway. Only this landlady. I did get out to see mom, as I was in the hospital very early and was out by the time I needed to leave. I am feeling very weak and was told to take it easy and eat well. What is that I said to the doctor. That I don't do.

Again, I don't know what to do. Because of this women dying, It makes it more important that I move to White Rock and in a hurry. The other things I need to do as well. As get a burial plot for mom and dad's ashes. Where my mother's parents are at. I have to do it, as my sisters will want to cremate her, as they did with dad. Even though dad could of been buried for free through the veterans affairs. I do need to check on his again. To see if it can be done. But mom wants to be buried in the same cemetery as her parents. This is hard to write, I don't even like to think about it. Let alone write these things down. I know mom is healthier than I am, eats very well. And I make sure she is well taken care of. And she gets the best. Fresh fruit daily and home cooked meals as I can. Mom gets things be before I do. I cooked meals for her and freeze individual portions. Mom,when I can afford to make her meals, eat better than I do. I don't eat these meals.  Well I can't eat much of anything. I am being checked for celiac disease. I can't eat anything with white flour or any dairy products.

I am messed up and have no way to solve my problems. I need to take it easy for a while now and be under the doctors care. I need to see him once a week for the next several months. To make sure I don't have a more serious one. Great don't you think, not.

So anyway. Off to the Residential Tenancy Branch tomorrow/today to file a complaint against the landlady.

I have to eat something now. Not much though. But will do what I can.

I need to go to bed as well.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Now what to do. GOD will help me figure this out

On top of

Hello again

So I brought mom one of the seafood/chicken cannelloni, I added some Feta Cheese and more salsa. I warmed it up when I got their and mom just loved it. She was wanting me to just shovel it in. I had to take it slowly. So she doesn't choke.

Mom ate a very large portion plus some of the dinner that was served by the home.

She then ate a papaya and a 3 piece box of Lindt chocolate

I then got her ready for bed, put the Dianna Krall music on she loves and the nightly spa treatment. I am so glad I was given this opportunity to serve my mother. It is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I am so lucky and feel so privileged to be able to do this for her. When I think about how GOD has given me this opportunity, I well up and shed tears of joy. When I hug my mother, I well up with tears of joy.

I am the luckiest person on the planet.

This is the best job ever, nothing compares to this. And I don't think of it as a job. It is the only thing I want to do with my life right now. I just want to take care of mom full time. And I have no problem with being able to do this. I want to.

Mom is the most important person in my life.

People tell me to take it easy. Mom can't go anywhere so I go their to help her out.

Just the smile on mom's face everyday, makes all the traveling worth while. And I don't even think about the fact it takes me 3 hours each way. It is a pleasure to do this.

Well I have been having these issues with the landlord. There have been problems and she never even fixed them.

So I find out a few weeks ago, when she started to do the work, that they are selling the house. Let me back up a bit. This women just comes over anytime she wants and just walks in, without any notice. Written notice.

So now all of a sudden she want to do all this work. After a very long time complaining.

Now there was water damage because of a leak in the tub. And it went under the floor and buckled the laminate. Causing mold to develop. This also went into my room. I told her about it, she knew about the water damage, but did nothing about it.

Until now, when the house is being sold. Now she wants to fix the floor in my room. But she is not willing to put me up while the work is going to be done. She tells me it will take two days, but I know it will take at least a week, and I need to sleep somewhere and have my possession secured. But no, So I tell her she can't do this, she can't enter my room.

I spoke to the Residential Tenancy Branch and she has two choices. Put me up for the time it will take to do the renovations or give me two months notice and the second month is free.

The door needed to be changed, but I am only home in the morning and I told her no, she has been breaking the law and harassing me, none stop.

Last night I wrote a letter telling her she could not touch my door, enter my room or anything until I got information from a legal advocate, I gave her the letter this morning before I left and thought that was that.

I got home to find out she broke into my room, changed the door and just snooped around. I called the police, but they tell me this is a Tenancy issue to take it up with them.

Now I wait until Monday and file a complaint with the RTB. She broke into my room, after I gave her the letter stating she could not do this.

She wants to play games, I will play games, now she has had it. I will be calling the city and reporting the illegal basement suite. I will call the health department and complain about the mold. How they never fixed it, just covered it up with new drywall.

I will be writing every thing down about all the laws she violated. I have video's of everything.

But I need to go now. I need to go to bed

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Eating

Hello again

So the weekend is over. And mom's appetite is back. Over the weekend mom barely ate anything. This is nothing unusual though. I am not sure why, but this has been the pattern for a very long time. No matter what I bring her. So I try not to bring to much over the weekend. But I do try to bring her something home cooked. If I can afford it.

I did get her the stereo, which I am sure I wrote about already. I downloaded all the music from my phone to my computer, then transferred it to a flash drive. Which can be played on this new stereo. As well as a memory card and a few other things.

It is so great when mom laughs with me and smiles. I stay and hold her hand while she falls asleep.

The last two days mom has eaten allot. To the point where she is telling me that she is full. This is not a usual behavior

Mom's roommate is still their and continues to be a disturbance to mom. It is not her fault. But the fault of the home. Not matching mom up correctly.

I have a landlord issue that I have to deal with. Their was water damage from a leak under the tub. The water ran under the floor and wreaked the laminate in the hall way next to the bathroom and then under the floor in my room.

Well the landlord fixed the floor out side the bathroom. And she broke all the laws of the residential tenancy branch. Stating that they are not allowed in without 24 hours written notice. And she just loves to just walk in. Now she wants to get into my room and fix the floor. And wanted to replace the door to my room.

She harassed me from last Thursday, I kept telling her no. She could not go into my room without my permission. She knows the law but, it seems it does not apply to her.

So I spoke with the tenancy branch about the renovation. And well they tell me she has to either put me up in a hotel for the time it takes to renovate my room. As it is a major renovation. To rip up the floor, get rid of the mold. And knowing her, she will want to pant the walls as well. And the second option is for her to give me a two month eviction notice and the second month is free. Two choices only. I could give her a third choice. And that is, give me the cost of the hotel for the week it will take to do this and I will move. But where is the question. May not be a very good option.

So anyway, I need to go to bed now.


Oh yea I am still waiting for all of mom's photo's. Again it is not the fault of the PGT it is my sister's that are stopping me from getting the photo's

I want the photo's to copy them, print them and hang them on mom's wall.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland