very cold wearing layers upon layers and still cold Have to find a winter jacket somehow somewhere broke and will be for along time now -- Kris Schmuland (@kaschmuland)
Friday, December 7, 2012
Christmas is upon us
Hello again
So it is Christmas, as the song goes. But there is no happy song here.
It is a sad story. The large scrooge is not helping
Until I sobered up, I did not even know what the meaning of " To love somebody" was. Until I started to look after my ailing parents. It has been 5 years since my father passed away, and my mother has Dementia, lung cancer and has had a stroke. but she is Ok, for now.
To give of yourself freely, To do everything you can for one another. To be there for someone, without expecting anything in return.
It was and is my mother who has taught me this. By me, looking after her, taking care of her everyday. I am learning many, important things.That use to elude me. As I was a selfish asshole.
Until I sobered up that is. And started to take care of my parents.
Lonely seniors die sooner, Do something about it.
If we have the means, should we not, out of moral obligation, do what we can for other's
These are a few of the things I have learned from being their for mom.
But the most important thing of all. I have learned to love someone else. Of course I never loved myself. Otherwise I would not of become an alcoholic and pot head, and ruined my life.
But my life is now, a servant, to make sure mom is well taken care of, and looked after. After all the home does not adequately take care of her, in the way I feel mom should be taken care of.
But what is the worst part of this month is that I can't buy mom a Christmas present.
I won't be eating for, well, who knows how long. I just can't afford it. I don't have a winter coat, and I have tried to get help with this.
But none of that matters, since I can't get mom a Christmas present. Not even a Christmas card.
This is the most important time of the year for mom. Knowing her husband passed away this month. I try to do all I can for her. And I want to do more.
This is why it is so important to move to White Rock, to be able to spend more time with mom. To be able have mom over for visits.
There are places, as I mentioned in my last blog. That are for people like me, disabled and with a low income. I need a phone for this.
And yesterday, I made this video, online, for mom. It is a Santa message for mom. But I don't have time or data on my phone. The home has no wifi connection. And for me to download it, I need to purchase it. Otherwise we can simply just view it. Not without an Internet connection though. I spent time making this through this one site, that was offering it. It is not very expensive at all to download it. $2.00. But I have not, the $2.00, nor do I have the credit card it requires to pay for it. Even the cheapest pre paid credit card is $25.00 This was emailed to me through a trusted source.
I really don't have a clue what I am going to do about this. I thought mom would get a kick out of it. And make her happy. It is Santa talking about her. Cute and festive.
Well time to go, I need to go to bed. I am not feeling very good. I just am.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So it is Christmas, as the song goes. But there is no happy song here.
It is a sad story. The large scrooge is not helping
Until I sobered up, I did not even know what the meaning of " To love somebody" was. Until I started to look after my ailing parents. It has been 5 years since my father passed away, and my mother has Dementia, lung cancer and has had a stroke. but she is Ok, for now.
To give of yourself freely, To do everything you can for one another. To be there for someone, without expecting anything in return.
It was and is my mother who has taught me this. By me, looking after her, taking care of her everyday. I am learning many, important things.That use to elude me. As I was a selfish asshole.
Until I sobered up that is. And started to take care of my parents.
Lonely seniors die sooner, Do something about it.
If we have the means, should we not, out of moral obligation, do what we can for other's
These are a few of the things I have learned from being their for mom.
But the most important thing of all. I have learned to love someone else. Of course I never loved myself. Otherwise I would not of become an alcoholic and pot head, and ruined my life.
But my life is now, a servant, to make sure mom is well taken care of, and looked after. After all the home does not adequately take care of her, in the way I feel mom should be taken care of.
But what is the worst part of this month is that I can't buy mom a Christmas present.
I won't be eating for, well, who knows how long. I just can't afford it. I don't have a winter coat, and I have tried to get help with this.
But none of that matters, since I can't get mom a Christmas present. Not even a Christmas card.
This is the most important time of the year for mom. Knowing her husband passed away this month. I try to do all I can for her. And I want to do more.
This is why it is so important to move to White Rock, to be able to spend more time with mom. To be able have mom over for visits.
There are places, as I mentioned in my last blog. That are for people like me, disabled and with a low income. I need a phone for this.
And yesterday, I made this video, online, for mom. It is a Santa message for mom. But I don't have time or data on my phone. The home has no wifi connection. And for me to download it, I need to purchase it. Otherwise we can simply just view it. Not without an Internet connection though. I spent time making this through this one site, that was offering it. It is not very expensive at all to download it. $2.00. But I have not, the $2.00, nor do I have the credit card it requires to pay for it. Even the cheapest pre paid credit card is $25.00 This was emailed to me through a trusted source.
I really don't have a clue what I am going to do about this. I thought mom would get a kick out of it. And make her happy. It is Santa talking about her. Cute and festive.
Well time to go, I need to go to bed. I am not feeling very good. I just am.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Dental issues and scrooge
Hello again
Well mom has been having dental issues. And because my phone was cut off, I have had a hard time contacting the dentist, for mom. I asked the staff to contact them, I left a message under their door. I called when I had the use of a phone. So it took 3 weeks to get mom an appointment. So she suffered this whole time. I was able to get mom some pain killers. T 3's But mom is and has been having a hard time eating. It hurts to eat. I have been trying to bring her soft foods and make sure her drinks are on the warm side You know, hot and cold bother someone who has a tooth ache.
I am freaking out daily, from not having a phone. I am worried that something will happen and no one will be able to contact me. I need a phone. But scrooge is stopping me, again. Always at Christmas time. A phone is the most important thing to me. For the hospital to be able to contact me, and I them.
And the whole time I have been saying that something has to happen before the tooth gets infected. And of course, the tooth is infected. So now she has to take antibiotics for the next week and then have the tooth removed. But next Tuesday, the day of her appointment, is a potluck dinner the home is having. So mom is going to have her tooth removed the day of the potluck. Great don't you think. Not!
Now it is that time of year when it is decoration time. So I have been hauling out mom's Christmas decorations. By bus. I brought out her tree, last Saturday. It was very cumbersome, but I did get it out there slowly. And we decorated the tree, that same day. Mom helped and it was great.
But I did not have many decorations, because the landlady took them or threw them out. I did mange to get help to get some more decorations.
The tree does look great, though.
Now mom's stereo is working out great. I do need an SD card to load up with her favorite music, I mean artist. Diana Krall. Mom just loves her music and it is the music she listens to when she goes to sleep, It relaxes her greatly. But I don't have the money for this. I am trying to get it. But Scrooge is stopping me from making mom's Christmas great.
So Sunday night I was meeting with some people and after we were finished, I ran into this women who use to look after mom, as a caregiver. Well she asked if I have moved to White Rock yet. I told her that I haven't and everything was just out of reach of my budget.
So she proceeded to tell me about all the low income apartments around the White Rock area. And gave me her phone number to help me find a place and the best way to go about getting a subsidy.
BUT MY PHONE IS NOT WORKING. Great, when I finally have a list of places to call and get help with a subsidized apartment. I have a very large list of places I need to call and make appointment to go and speak with them.
And I have asked for help with this, for the two reason I listed above. For the hospital to contact me and to get in touch with all of these agencies.
So anyways, I need to go to bed. I am hungry and my cupboards are bare.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Well mom has been having dental issues. And because my phone was cut off, I have had a hard time contacting the dentist, for mom. I asked the staff to contact them, I left a message under their door. I called when I had the use of a phone. So it took 3 weeks to get mom an appointment. So she suffered this whole time. I was able to get mom some pain killers. T 3's But mom is and has been having a hard time eating. It hurts to eat. I have been trying to bring her soft foods and make sure her drinks are on the warm side You know, hot and cold bother someone who has a tooth ache.
I am freaking out daily, from not having a phone. I am worried that something will happen and no one will be able to contact me. I need a phone. But scrooge is stopping me, again. Always at Christmas time. A phone is the most important thing to me. For the hospital to be able to contact me, and I them.
And the whole time I have been saying that something has to happen before the tooth gets infected. And of course, the tooth is infected. So now she has to take antibiotics for the next week and then have the tooth removed. But next Tuesday, the day of her appointment, is a potluck dinner the home is having. So mom is going to have her tooth removed the day of the potluck. Great don't you think. Not!
Now it is that time of year when it is decoration time. So I have been hauling out mom's Christmas decorations. By bus. I brought out her tree, last Saturday. It was very cumbersome, but I did get it out there slowly. And we decorated the tree, that same day. Mom helped and it was great.
But I did not have many decorations, because the landlady took them or threw them out. I did mange to get help to get some more decorations.
The tree does look great, though.
Now mom's stereo is working out great. I do need an SD card to load up with her favorite music, I mean artist. Diana Krall. Mom just loves her music and it is the music she listens to when she goes to sleep, It relaxes her greatly. But I don't have the money for this. I am trying to get it. But Scrooge is stopping me from making mom's Christmas great.
So Sunday night I was meeting with some people and after we were finished, I ran into this women who use to look after mom, as a caregiver. Well she asked if I have moved to White Rock yet. I told her that I haven't and everything was just out of reach of my budget.
So she proceeded to tell me about all the low income apartments around the White Rock area. And gave me her phone number to help me find a place and the best way to go about getting a subsidy.
BUT MY PHONE IS NOT WORKING. Great, when I finally have a list of places to call and get help with a subsidized apartment. I have a very large list of places I need to call and make appointment to go and speak with them.
And I have asked for help with this, for the two reason I listed above. For the hospital to contact me and to get in touch with all of these agencies.
So anyways, I need to go to bed. I am hungry and my cupboards are bare.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
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