Christmas Day 2013

Hello again

Well I forgot to mention in my last post that I won an E-Gift Card, received the email on Monday, from one of the local Electronic retailers. It was not enough for me to get a decent printer or anything I would want. But my roommate bought it off me. I lost a few dollars, but oh well.

So I scrambled around, yesterday, Christmas Eve, and bought mom some gifts. Which is cool. It happened.

I was up until 2 Am cooking mom's Christmas meal. And today......

I arrived early, so I could spend time with mom, while she opened her gifts. Mom loved everything I got her. A comforter, a Duvet cover, and a sweater. Plus a little bit of chocolate. It wan't that much, everything was on sale.

Anyways, mom ate everything I made for her, except for the potatoes. This she gets everyday, so she wanted nothing to do with the potatoes. But everything else. I was wondering where she was putting it all. Two big plates of food. A Cornish game hen, stuffing ( what I put in the bird) plus the left over. Brussell sprouts and asparagus. Oh yea, Ice cream, and her chocolate. She didn't have room for the papaya this evening. Basically everything I brought for her. I didn't think she would eat all of it, but she did and that is fantastic.

All of my complaining aside. The best gift I received this Christmas was mom enjoying the meal I cooked her and loving what I got for her.

Plus the caring and love I saw in her eye's, that she has for me.

My only family. My mother and I.

Nothing can compare to this. So I didn't get anything or have a Christmas dinner. What I received was far better than that.

Well I am very tired tonight. I have a bowl of soup and grill cheese sandwich waiting for me. I need to go and eat and get to bed. OK, watch something while relaxing.


Thank you for reading.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Christmas Eve

Hello again

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT

Mom was in a good mood again this evening, She gave me a huge smile when I arrived and was very affectionate.

I made her some pasta she likes and she ate all of it... And all of her dessert. Ice Cream, papaya, a gold Kiwi plus her Lindt Chocolates.

We listened to soft jazz through out dinner. And Christmas music afterwards. I got mom changed and ready for bed.

The roommate had gone out, so the room was extremely quit tonight. Which is great for mom and I. No one bothering us, or me, to do things for them. Or listen to the roommate tell me about a brother, that doesn't exist. Or the baby in the bed under her legs.

My sisters, or sister, and the grand kids, were their today. It is nice. It seems mom enjoyed this, immensely.

I brought mom a Christmas card.

I gave mom her nightly spa treatment and she completely relaxed. I had to leave early, so I could get home and cook mom her Christmas dinner. I have been purchasing a little at a time, over the last month for her dinner.

Well I am now done with cooking and it is time to go to bed and watch a movie.

It is empty in this house, and I am alone again.

But the most important part of this is I get to spend Christmas with my mother. I have nothing to cook for myself this evening. I forgot to get something for myself over the last few weeks. Oh well. I want to loose 20 more pounds. I am 220 now and want to be 200

I just don't look forward to waking up to nothing. I usually don't have a problem with this. But this year it seems I am having a serious issue, surrounding Christmas.

I wish everyone has a great day today.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

It is now Christmas Eve

Hello again

Well I just want to say that everything I write is my opinion, feelings and thoughts. It is real and raw

I do what I do for my mother for no financial rewards what so ever. What I get is pure joy and love. When mom hears my voice and her hand goes out, immediately. And that amazing smile. Or when she just touches the side of my face and smiles. This makes me cry. It is the best feeling in the world. Or when she tells me she loves me, while I hold her hand, when she is falling asleep. Or just that she wants to hold my hand each and every moment that I am their with her. The trust she has, to let me change her for bed. To be able to speak with her,everyday. And to understand her. They say we have our own language. This maybe true.

The fact that I am the only one who has feed her dinner in the last 5 years.

This is a blessed opportunity that I have!

Yes I travel 3 hours each, that is OK. It is well worth every Km I travel. It would be nice to be living in White Rock.

I never complain about any of this. It is what is needed to be done. And I love every bit of it.

OK I do go without. But I need to make sure mom has home cooked meals at least once a day. To make sure she gets fresh fruit and drinks everyday.

I will be making mom a nice Christmas dinner.

Other than being with mom these 4 hours each day. I will be coming back to Coquitlam to an empty house. Alone and knowing I won't be having a Christmas dinner or even a lump of coal.

Some say I whine to much. But it is only here that I do this. Otherwise no one knows that I go without, and don't eat.

I tell no one.

I am blessed to have the time with my mom

So since I will have nothing to do Christmas eve and day. I might write

OK it is after midnight, so it is Christmas eve. but not until I wake up.

GOD bless and good night

Merry Christmas

Kris Schmuland

Sacrifice

Hello again

Sacrifice, what does it mean to you. Or what is the meaning of the word.

Well Dictionary.com has this definition for the word. To surrender or give up or permit injury or disadvantage to, for the sake of something else

And I do this for the greater good of my mother.

I go without all the time, I need new jeans, as my bag rubs on the side of them and wears a hole in them. I have had to throw out so many pairs. This one, I am sewing,until I can't sew it anymore.

I do all this without hesitation. Mom is first and I am last. I live by this. It is more important for mom to have healthy meals. I think of what I am going to make for her dinners, before even caring what I eat or not. It is more important for mom to be dressed well.

What I ask is a Christmas once in a decade.

I will do everything I can to make sure mom has a decent life. Full of happiness and joy.

Right now, because of the circumstances, I am unable to give mom the Christmas she deserves. Even though I tried, and saved, what little I have.

But mom needed these leg rests. She is much happier now.

3 nights left until Christmas and we will see

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland