It is another Friday

Hello again

It was hot today. So hot I was sweating on the bus. I don't normally sweat on the bus. Maybe because I was in so much pain today. My arm and hand not working well. I have had this ankle and foot problem for the last two months. Extreme pain. Hard to walk on. But I continue, as mom needs me to be there for her.

Now that the meeting went well. There are more things that need to be done. I have to get this manual. But I can't afford to print it out. It would use up all my ink. And I don't have the funds to buy it from them. A seniors advocacy group. It is a manual on residential laws in care home. I really need this to proceed to the next phase in this situation. It is only $35.00. That may not seem like allot to all of you. But when one can't even afford to eat, yes no groceries and no way to buy them. I also have these weird food allergies, So no canned foods. Flour and preservatives. Anything with flour in it I just can 't tolerate. Which means I can't even go to the food bank.

I just need this manual. Who care if I eat or not. I certainly don't.

Mom was dressed appropriately today. Not like yesterday, with a sweater on. She had a nice polo shirt on and cotton pants. She really didn't need socks on. I have a bias to socks. I don't like to wear them at all in the summer. Makes my feet hot, and in turn, makes me hot.

As usual, mom was very thirsty. Again, I don't think she gets anything to drink all afternoon. By the amount she drinks when I get there.

I quickly got her to her room, turned the fan on, and gave mom as much to drink as she wanted. Which was allot today.

An OK dinner. As I don't have anything. But a little funds to get mom fruit, drinks and dinner's. This I have to put aside for her. So I am use to going without.  No problems. Mom needs to have at least one meal a day that is not the institutional food, she gets at the other meals.

And as soon as we finished dinner, off we went to wash her hair. Scratch her scalp while washing it. Relaxing her completely.

Then to bed. I got the stereo working properly again. After the remote stopped working. And it sounded great. Mom  just loved the sound today. She kept wanting me to turn it up. I kept asking if it was loud enough or to loud. Mom just smiled and shook her head NO.

I stood with her, after a complete sap treatment tonight. I sang. I needed to sing louder, as the stereo was turned up. But she still liked it anyways. OK I have a loud voice that I normally don't sing with. It is booming. We call it my loud singing voice. Really.

I was there until after 8 tonight. I didn't even realized it. Mom was awake and enjoying her music with me.

I had to pack yet. And off I went. For leaving so late. I didn't get home that much later tonight. Weird. Usually when I leave at that time it is really late when I get home.

Now I have a plan for the next stage of my complaint with the home. I need that manual. And I need to hear.

I was washing mom's dishes and there were two people standing behind me, having a conversation. Which I heard nothing of. Then one of them taped me on the shoulder. I turned around, only to find out they were speaking to me. I just said I didn't even hear you. At all. Nothing.

This needs to be solved if I am to accomplish my goal with the complaint.  I need to be able to hear.

So once again. I ask for your help with my fund raising campaign. To purchase hearing aids. I NEED YOUR HELP. And prayers

www.Gofundme.com/yugmns

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland

I want to thank those in Russia who have been really reading my blogs. As well as those from Canada who are a close second and the rest of the world who are making my day.

Not liking it

Hello again

It has been a few days since my last post. My Internet has been down since the landlord changed service providers. Just the last two nights. I spent over an hour with them on the phone last night and nothing.

I had to text him over and over again. Then he tells me everything is good. NOT. I just got off the phone with the service provider and together we fixed it. Thank you Sheldon from Shaw.ca

I never give props, but this deserves it.

So we are back to the heat. 28 c at 10 am this morning. And it was just worse after that. I really didn't notice it as I carry mom's cold drinks with me, in my backpack. As well as it is in a portable cooler bag with freezers packs in it. Portable air conditioner. My butt was cold most of the day.

Now yesterday, I washed and style mom's hair. And did she enjoy this. I put a warm blanket on her while I am washing her hair. Then change it while I dry her hair. This completely relaxes her before getting her changed for bed and her nightly spa treatment. So that is what happened. She was so relaxed, both last night, and tonight. Mom did not want the full treatment. Just her face and arms. But tomorrow I will do her legs as well. I don't just wash them, massage them and put lotion on them. I also exercise them. I bend her legs, move them about. Etc....  Movement! Helps to keep them from getting to stiff. This I do to her arms as well. Movement!

Tonight I did have much to bring her, but I brought what I could. She ate some of it, but the served dinner was beef. I really don't bring her much beef. She can't eat steak anymore, or ribs. Everything has to be soft. That is why I bring her many different things besides beef. But last year mom could eat a nice cut of steak. Things move on and change.

Now with the new roommate. It is very quiet at night. We just have to get use to it. Mom is very happy though. I asked her this evening if she is happy with the new roommate. A big smile. This lady goes to bed before mom. Soft music, a comfy bed. A spa treatment. Someone singing to you. Your own good night song. Yes it is my original song for her. And mom loves it. She always has a big smile on her face while I sing it to her.

So I need to get some other things done and I need to eat. I am very hungry. Figures, when I don't have hardly anything, I am hungry. When I have lots, I am not really hungry much at all.

So thank you for your patience. Waiting for my next blog.

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland

Please support my campaign. I really need hearing aids. It is becoming unsafe as I am walking. I am not hearing things from behind me.

www.Gofundme.com/yugmns

Back to the heat

Hello again

How is everyone today. It was a nice day today. But I am starting to really feel the stress. My specialist is wondering why I have not got my hearing aids yet.

As I have been saying  I don't have the money for them and I am not covered by anything. There is no resources for me to get for this. I am not even having any success with my fund raising campaign. Not a red cent so far and it has been three, yes three weeks.

I am constantly tweeting, posting to facebook. I have allot of new friends, Of the upper class and still nothing. And I really don't even know how I became friends with them. It is good though. I see how they live and the photo's they post. Also the artists, whose work I am seeing. Stunning.

Now. I am stressed out about taking the bus. I can't do it anymore. But I will not stop. My landlord is being a racists. I need to move.

He, being Asian, has said to me, I don't like white people. And when you and the other white people move out of here, I am only going to rent to Chinese. Really.

I am trying to learn Mandarin, since it is our unofficial second language. It is suppose to be French. But I am on the west coast and we don't speak much French here. And I just want to learn the language.

As long as I have my ear buds in, I can hear it, OK. The lessons I am speaking about. This is the way I have to use my phone. With ear buds or nothing. I don't answer my phone otherwise.

I am just burnt out. I am exhausted all day long. But I don't show this to mom. I have a smile on my face and I love her. I am there and I leave this crap at the door. I will not let her know I am feeling this way.

Mom needs my strength. Not my complaining.

Today mom was smiles when she saw me, but very thirsty as usual. I seems that they do not give her anything to drink all afternoon........ I am serious about this.

Now I made mom a pasta bake, this I know she likes. I asked her last night if she wanted this. Yes she said. So that is what I made for her last night. It was a very large portion and she ate half of it. I think she could of eaten more. But I got there a little late. I wanted to be there early, to start dinner early. But no.....

Since I ended up home later than normal last night. The casual took way to long to put mom to bed and change her, as well as mom's roommate. The staff didn't even get into mom's room until very late. Which mean't I didn't finish mom's spa treatment until late. And left late, which mean't I missed the bus and had to wait until 9 pm. And didn't get home until almost midnight. I brought this up with her today. She wasn't to happy about this.

So tonight she did come in on time and I was completely finished mom's spa treatment early. So I had time to sing to her, hold her hand. When I got back to the room, mom was already falling asleep. I quickly did the spa treatment for her.

I love just standing there, holding mom's hand. As she squeezes my hand ever so tight. Holding on. cherishing the moment. Pulling my arm tight against her. I just love this. She then falls asleep. Only after I sing our good night song to her.

I can't afford to keep making these type of dinners for her. But I will do my best to make something nice each day. Even if it means I don't eat. I am use to this. I don't have the money to make dinners or lunches or anything for myself. Oh well. That is life. The way it is. To bad, to sad.

I will continue to make mom her home made dinners. She needs this. After eating two meals a day of the food that is served to her, she needs something that has taste and appeal. That is why I do this for her. And the fact she enjoys my cooking. I don't get to cook for anyone else.

Since I don't have a girlfriend and haven't had one in a very long time. I have no  one to cook for. And since I haven't had a girlfriend in a long, very long time. I really have decided that I don't care if I ever have another girlfriends. I really don't. I have been alone and even without friends for so very long. This is the way it is. Yes I do get lonely, but oh well. so be it.

Now looking after mom is the only thing I want and need to do. I need to be in white rock now, since my landlord is causing problems. He wants me out, without giving me an eviction notice.

I need to hear properly. I need hearing aids. I know I have asked for help in the past and I thought what way have you to help me. This is a way. This is important. I don't hear much of any conversation, unless I am looking directly at someone.

So please help me, by helping me, you are helping my mother. Who is dying bit by bit. One piece of her at a time. That is the nature of Alzheimer's. It takes away one bit of you at a time.

www.Gofundme.com/yugmns

Please I ask you to donate. Even if it is just $5.00 The hearing aids are important. I have provided proof of this on this campaign update pages. As well as proof of the medication I take for my Parkinson's.



GOD will truly bless you for this.

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher W. A. Schmuland,

It is a nice Sunday

Hello again

I do want to start by saying that all who were involved in the meeting were nothing but cordial. It went off very well.

Now today, mom was in very good spirits and very happy to see me. We had a good time during the evening. Mom enjoyed the dinner I made her. Ate most of it. She did eat all of the dinner last night.

But I could see that as dinner was drawing to a close, her eye's were getting heavy. And she had the I am falling asleep jerks. You know what I mean, all of us have had those.

So I got her changed as quick as possible. And then we got her into bed. The staff and myself. All mom wanted, again, was just her face and arms done. I will do the rest tomorrow.

But I did sing to her, as she was falling asleep. Yes mom won't completely go to sleep until I sing our good night song to her.

Which I did

Then I just stayed until she was completely asleep. Half an hour or so. It doesn't matter to me.

I have realized, that I don't care about anything else except taking care of mom. That is it.

OK, moving to White Rock to take better care of her.

Well yes taking care of myself to be able to take better care of her.

I guess I do care about other things.

Please support my campaign I need to hear.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland