Hello again
Today, this women I have know for several years, spoke with me while on the bus going into Vancouver. She told me everything about what was going on in her life. Things one would not tell anyone. Mostly. And she finished by telling me that she has been wanting to speak with me.
No problem. This is the way it is with me. People will tell me everything, knowing that I am someone who will never mention it to anyone. I am trusted.
I did what I needed to do in Vancouver and was on the train to white rock as soon as I could. I wanted to get to White Rock so I could get mom some new pillows, which I did. Mom was very happy.
It is Friday and it is fish day. Plus a nice grain salad and avocado. Mom ate all of it. And was wanting to get to bed to try her new pillows out. But I needed to wash her hair first. And every time I do this, mom just loves it. Makes her feel great. That is what it is all about. Making mom feel special.
I got mom ready for bed, she was put into bed and I gave mom her nightly spa treatment. All the while, I was singing to her. I need the practice...
I think I sound pretty good and so does allot of other's. And mom. But it is my mother and no matter what I will sound great.
No drama today. All was good. OK I was in extreme pain. But what else is new.
OK it is after midnight and I am going to stop now. I really do need to get some sleep. But I want to sit back and watch something. Anything I guess
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Friday, February 7, 2014
Trying to find
Hello again
It is cold for Vancouver. -12 plus a wind chill. Very cold for Vancouver. So I need to wear gloves. I have this really nice leather glove. The left side. Have no idea where the right one is. I just spent one hour going through a few boxes trying to find the other side. No luck. I found other things I have been looking for. I have more boxes in the closet to look through. They are really nice gloves. OK, glove. I just can't afford to buy another pair, even cheap one's.
My face is cold, my hands are freezing. I am layered up to the point where I can't move to freely.
Oh well.
So I finally made the pasta dinner mom likes. I needed the pasta sauce. I brought it today and mom ate 3/4 of the plate. It is made in a 8 " pie plate and baked. So it fills the entire plate when transfered. And she ate some of the dinner that was served to her.
Mom has a great appetite. She eats more than I do. Right after she finished dinner, she grabbed my hand and closed her eye's. Ready to sleep. I just love this, it makes me feel loved. Just to know that mom loves me that much, that all she has to do is grab my hand and she knows she is safe. That is all she wants at the end of the day, to fall asleep holding my hand.
I am here for mom, no matter what. I keep going and going. Even after everyone tells me that I should take a break and go on a holiday or just take a day off. My answer is always, mom doesn't get to take a break from being stuck in the wheelchair, not being able to speak or use her left arm and hand, because of a stroke or several small strokes. So why should I take a break. Mom expects me to be their and that is exactly what I am going to do. No matter how I feel or how much pain I may be in. Or how depressed I feel.
I have to set my alarm clock two hours early. It takes me that long to get out of bed in the morning. I just want to sleep. But how can I do this to my poor mother. So I get up, get ready, make the calls or write the emails I need to write and then get going on my three hours cruise.
I am doing her laundry while I write this.
Mom is doing well, she knows exactly what I sound like when I arrive. Her hand goes out for me, right after I walk in. She must sense me.
Anyways I thought of many things to write, earlier today, but do you think I can remember any of it. I have a general idea of what I wanted to write. I am just going to have to write it down when I think of it.
This is the way I use to write poetry, I would write it on anything, just to get my thoughts down before I forgot them. Time to get another note pad.
So it is 12:30 am now, time to go. Back tomorrow.
GOD bless and good night.
I really want to find the other glove. Pray that GOD points me to where it might be.
Kris Schmuland
It is cold for Vancouver. -12 plus a wind chill. Very cold for Vancouver. So I need to wear gloves. I have this really nice leather glove. The left side. Have no idea where the right one is. I just spent one hour going through a few boxes trying to find the other side. No luck. I found other things I have been looking for. I have more boxes in the closet to look through. They are really nice gloves. OK, glove. I just can't afford to buy another pair, even cheap one's.
My face is cold, my hands are freezing. I am layered up to the point where I can't move to freely.
Oh well.
So I finally made the pasta dinner mom likes. I needed the pasta sauce. I brought it today and mom ate 3/4 of the plate. It is made in a 8 " pie plate and baked. So it fills the entire plate when transfered. And she ate some of the dinner that was served to her.
Mom has a great appetite. She eats more than I do. Right after she finished dinner, she grabbed my hand and closed her eye's. Ready to sleep. I just love this, it makes me feel loved. Just to know that mom loves me that much, that all she has to do is grab my hand and she knows she is safe. That is all she wants at the end of the day, to fall asleep holding my hand.
I am here for mom, no matter what. I keep going and going. Even after everyone tells me that I should take a break and go on a holiday or just take a day off. My answer is always, mom doesn't get to take a break from being stuck in the wheelchair, not being able to speak or use her left arm and hand, because of a stroke or several small strokes. So why should I take a break. Mom expects me to be their and that is exactly what I am going to do. No matter how I feel or how much pain I may be in. Or how depressed I feel.
I have to set my alarm clock two hours early. It takes me that long to get out of bed in the morning. I just want to sleep. But how can I do this to my poor mother. So I get up, get ready, make the calls or write the emails I need to write and then get going on my three hours cruise.
I am doing her laundry while I write this.
Mom is doing well, she knows exactly what I sound like when I arrive. Her hand goes out for me, right after I walk in. She must sense me.
Anyways I thought of many things to write, earlier today, but do you think I can remember any of it. I have a general idea of what I wanted to write. I am just going to have to write it down when I think of it.
This is the way I use to write poetry, I would write it on anything, just to get my thoughts down before I forgot them. Time to get another note pad.
So it is 12:30 am now, time to go. Back tomorrow.
GOD bless and good night.
I really want to find the other glove. Pray that GOD points me to where it might be.
Kris Schmuland
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Isn't it, well something
Hello again
Mom was extremely happy to see me to day, smiling the whole time I was their. We ate in her room tonight. the roommate was not in their, so no TV, quit. We had the music playing. I brought her a new smoothie today and she loves it. Mom ate the Sushi I brought her, plus the dinner they served. A mango, half an Asian pear with cheese, the papaya and her chocolates. Oh yea some tomatoes and an avocado.
Yes mom was hungry.
Tonight, on my way home, I stopped a the grocery store so I could make mom this pasta dish she likes. I get home and chop the mushrooms, only to realize I forgot the pasta sauce. I was already changed into my night clothes and it was 11 pm when I realized this. I will have to make it tomorrow night. I will get her something for tomorrow.
Other than this mom is doing well. I am working to get mom a different cushion for her wheel chair. The one she has now, is causing her to develop sores on her bottom. The one I am having the OT try out on her is a Ro Ho. Individual air pockets through out the cushion. Distributes the weight evenly. And it won't cause any sores
After mom at all of this she was tired and was ready to get into bed. I changed her sheets and pillow cases. Gave her the nightly spa treatment. Went and did the dishes to come back and just hold her hand while she relaxed and fell asleep.
Mom briefly opened up her eye's when I was singing the good night song to her, and smiled as I kissed her goodnight.
Things happened to me today, but I am not going to write about it.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Mom was extremely happy to see me to day, smiling the whole time I was their. We ate in her room tonight. the roommate was not in their, so no TV, quit. We had the music playing. I brought her a new smoothie today and she loves it. Mom ate the Sushi I brought her, plus the dinner they served. A mango, half an Asian pear with cheese, the papaya and her chocolates. Oh yea some tomatoes and an avocado.
Yes mom was hungry.
Tonight, on my way home, I stopped a the grocery store so I could make mom this pasta dish she likes. I get home and chop the mushrooms, only to realize I forgot the pasta sauce. I was already changed into my night clothes and it was 11 pm when I realized this. I will have to make it tomorrow night. I will get her something for tomorrow.
Other than this mom is doing well. I am working to get mom a different cushion for her wheel chair. The one she has now, is causing her to develop sores on her bottom. The one I am having the OT try out on her is a Ro Ho. Individual air pockets through out the cushion. Distributes the weight evenly. And it won't cause any sores
After mom at all of this she was tired and was ready to get into bed. I changed her sheets and pillow cases. Gave her the nightly spa treatment. Went and did the dishes to come back and just hold her hand while she relaxed and fell asleep.
Mom briefly opened up her eye's when I was singing the good night song to her, and smiled as I kissed her goodnight.
Things happened to me today, but I am not going to write about it.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Human rights
Hello again
It is a human rights violation to allow someone to continuously being subjected to an individual who is delusional. This is a danger to my mother. Her health suffers as a result of this... Not enough sleep, disrupted sleep. On top of this, the lights are constantly on until late in the evening. As well as the TV. The delusions and hallucinations continue through out the night. Calling for the staff all night.
This leads to not eating properly, Depressed immune system. General lack of interest. The unimaginable part of this, is the staff are fully aware that this takes place and of her condition, but do nothing about it.
Here is a great example of this. Last night the roommate was sound asleep, snoring, before I was about to leave. So I turned out all the lights and the TV. The staff came in, it was snack time, turned on the lights, and woke her up.. The TV went back on etc.....
They didn't even get that it was not necessary to wake her up.
Last night, I had a coupon for a burger and onion rings. Mom had some of her salad left. Mom just loved this and devoured it. And everything else. Mom has a great appetite when it is something she enjoys.
Today was mom's bath day. Sunday! But to start this, I have been in a very bad mood as of late. Things just aren't going well. And this was very apparent today. People just irritated me, today. Everyone. Not a good day.
But, as I have said before, I don't bring my attitude or problems in with me, when I visit mom. Check them at the door. But tonight mom was restless and hot. I tried to cool her off and calm her down, Nothing seemed to work. I think she felt my mood. I tried and tired to get mom relaxed, but it was time to leave and mom was still very restless, having a problem falling asleep. I am not sure how long, tonight, it took her to fall asleep, but most likely a while. I stayed as long as I could, but eventually I needed to leave.
This is the part of the night I dislike the most. Wanting to stay longer and knowing that I can't stay. As I have 3 hours of bus rides in front of me. I found this great place, but short again.
OK, I didn't sleep well last night, at all. And this is one of the reason I am in such a bad mood today. And I had some computer issues last night.
Anyways, I am tired and have a few emails I need to write. So I need to go for now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
It is a human rights violation to allow someone to continuously being subjected to an individual who is delusional. This is a danger to my mother. Her health suffers as a result of this... Not enough sleep, disrupted sleep. On top of this, the lights are constantly on until late in the evening. As well as the TV. The delusions and hallucinations continue through out the night. Calling for the staff all night.
This leads to not eating properly, Depressed immune system. General lack of interest. The unimaginable part of this, is the staff are fully aware that this takes place and of her condition, but do nothing about it.
Here is a great example of this. Last night the roommate was sound asleep, snoring, before I was about to leave. So I turned out all the lights and the TV. The staff came in, it was snack time, turned on the lights, and woke her up.. The TV went back on etc.....
They didn't even get that it was not necessary to wake her up.
Last night, I had a coupon for a burger and onion rings. Mom had some of her salad left. Mom just loved this and devoured it. And everything else. Mom has a great appetite when it is something she enjoys.
Today was mom's bath day. Sunday! But to start this, I have been in a very bad mood as of late. Things just aren't going well. And this was very apparent today. People just irritated me, today. Everyone. Not a good day.
But, as I have said before, I don't bring my attitude or problems in with me, when I visit mom. Check them at the door. But tonight mom was restless and hot. I tried to cool her off and calm her down, Nothing seemed to work. I think she felt my mood. I tried and tired to get mom relaxed, but it was time to leave and mom was still very restless, having a problem falling asleep. I am not sure how long, tonight, it took her to fall asleep, but most likely a while. I stayed as long as I could, but eventually I needed to leave.
This is the part of the night I dislike the most. Wanting to stay longer and knowing that I can't stay. As I have 3 hours of bus rides in front of me. I found this great place, but short again.
OK, I didn't sleep well last night, at all. And this is one of the reason I am in such a bad mood today. And I had some computer issues last night.
Anyways, I am tired and have a few emails I need to write. So I need to go for now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
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