Hello again
I really have spoiled mom. It is not a bad thing, rather it is a good thing. But I can't bring mom any home cooked meals right now and I don't know when I will be able to do so. My fridge is empty, my freezer is empty. Really, I mean empty.
I could not bring mom a dinner tonight and she was upset about this. What they served was not very good, but she ate it anyways. Yet she did complain while doing so. I understand and I do feel really guilty right now. As I won't be able to bring her anything tomorrow either. I am besides myself right now. Have no idea what to do.
Of course she is still tired, very tired. Her roommate has not stopped with the delusions.
I washed mom's hair today and after dinner it was her nightly spa treatment.
Mom is stable and I have not noticed any decline in her health. Mom has been talking up a storm lately. And when she is speaking this fast, I have a hard time following her. The staff still cannot understand her or even try.
I know mom just loves her music and when I sing to her. Apparently the other residents like my singing as well. I over heard some of them speaking about this guy with the cane and how nice his voice is. I did feel good about this.
My work on mom's toes are paying off. Her fungus is starting to go away and her toes are getting better. There is only one toe left to fix. And I just have to get more Tea tree oil. I have been using this to treat her fungus. This fungus is hard to treat and conventional methods are to hard on mom's system. So I use Tea Tree Oil.
Tired and need to go to bed now. It is not nice to have to deal with hunger and guilt at the same time. Interesting thing
So I ask you to continue to pray for a miracle for me.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland,
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Friday, August 9, 2013
And the beat goes,not on.
Hello again
So please don't get me wrong concerning the roommates who speak no English. I have tried to communicate with them, First by trying to demonstrate what I am asking, by trying to speak to them. I also tried Google translate, conversation mode. And nothing at all ...................
Now tonight I was able to get mom some chicken wings. Mom ate most of this and some of her dinner. But she was very tired, I am really tired. All she wanted to do was get right to desert. Her chocolate and papaya.
When I arrived, I took mom down to her room to get her plates and one of the papaya's. Plus put the bag of avocado's onto her desk. And her roommate is having a serious delusional episode. She introduced mom and I to her dead husband. And was having a serious conversation with him. And when mom and I returned, she continued for the entire time I was their. And I am sure well into the night.
I spoke to the nurse and explained that it is to much for mom. That mom is not getting the sleep she needs. This nurse actually wrote this down on mom's chart. And I made sure they had my correct number. It is just getting worse by the week.
When mom is tired like this, she does not eat much and only wants to go to bed. But she is in the same situation. It is a circle that is not going anywhere. And mom just wants rest. To sleep through the night and not be woken up by someone seeing things and constantly calling the staff. Lights on, TV on and speaking to no one.
When mom only wants to hold my hand and does not want to let go. Something is wrong. She wouldn't even look at the people who came over to speak with us. It is a great feeling that she only cares about being with me while I am their. And has no interest in anyone else.
I am only there for a three hours a day and mom is alone the other 21 hours. Not being able to speak is difficult for her. And no one taking the time or interest in finding out what she has to say or is saying.
Once again it is 12:41 AM and I have allot to say, but I am very tired and hungry. So I am just going to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So please don't get me wrong concerning the roommates who speak no English. I have tried to communicate with them, First by trying to demonstrate what I am asking, by trying to speak to them. I also tried Google translate, conversation mode. And nothing at all ...................
Now tonight I was able to get mom some chicken wings. Mom ate most of this and some of her dinner. But she was very tired, I am really tired. All she wanted to do was get right to desert. Her chocolate and papaya.
When I arrived, I took mom down to her room to get her plates and one of the papaya's. Plus put the bag of avocado's onto her desk. And her roommate is having a serious delusional episode. She introduced mom and I to her dead husband. And was having a serious conversation with him. And when mom and I returned, she continued for the entire time I was their. And I am sure well into the night.
I spoke to the nurse and explained that it is to much for mom. That mom is not getting the sleep she needs. This nurse actually wrote this down on mom's chart. And I made sure they had my correct number. It is just getting worse by the week.
When mom is tired like this, she does not eat much and only wants to go to bed. But she is in the same situation. It is a circle that is not going anywhere. And mom just wants rest. To sleep through the night and not be woken up by someone seeing things and constantly calling the staff. Lights on, TV on and speaking to no one.
When mom only wants to hold my hand and does not want to let go. Something is wrong. She wouldn't even look at the people who came over to speak with us. It is a great feeling that she only cares about being with me while I am their. And has no interest in anyone else.
I am only there for a three hours a day and mom is alone the other 21 hours. Not being able to speak is difficult for her. And no one taking the time or interest in finding out what she has to say or is saying.
Once again it is 12:41 AM and I have allot to say, but I am very tired and hungry. So I am just going to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Not sure
Hello again
Mom's daughters came to visit today. I think this is the first time in many weeks. And they brought nothing for mom. After everything mom and dad did for them, at least they could bring her a muffin, a chocolate bar, drinks, fruit for latter. But no, nothing.
And nothing ever goes missing when they are not around, but when they come, things seem to go missing. OK it is just a towel. But it was their yesterday and was not their today. It is always in the same spot and I use it daily for mom's spa treatment.
I am not saying they took it, but, come on. There yesterday, and they come today and it is gone. Yes it is just a towel. But it is a long line of things they take or may of taken.
It just pisses me off that after everything my parents did for them and all they took from them. They treat mom like this. Ignore her. Treat her like crap.
I want mom's photo's, but it the girls who are stopping me from getting them and fixing them up and putting them on a digital frame. It is the younger one who put my mother's photo's in a leaky shed which ruined them. And they are stopping me from fixing them up.
THEY ARE MOM'S PHOTO'S AND SHE WOULD LIKE TO VIEW THEM. IT IS HER LIFE WE ARE SPEAKING ABOUT.
One of the staff told me that my family was here today. I corrected her and told her that I have no family but my mother. Not a single one of them is in contact with me to find out how mom is doing.
It is not as if I am hard to find. I am at the home every single day from 4:30 PM until 7:30 - 8:00 PM. My number is on my blog or at least my address.
As of September it will be two years straight that I have been going to White Rock. Daily. GOD help me that I don't miss any days.
I brought mom sushi today. She ate all 8 pieces plus a little of her dinner from the home. This will be the last dinner I can bring her for a while. I am broke. I have nothing in my fridge or freezer. But I was able to afford enough papaya, avocado and drinks for a week. Plus I was able to get some fruit for her next smoothie.
I was going to bring her some prawns that I had in the freezer, but the stupid roommate, who left the freezer door open. Ruined them. I had to throw them out. They were almost thawed out. No good anymore. So that is $10.00 wasted. And they don't understand any English. So how do I recoup my money from them. I don't. I bought them for mom. I try to communicate with them. They just don't understand me.
This another reason I need to move. I can't live here anymore I am going crazy, I am stressed out all the time. I am not sleeping. I have to clean up after these assholes. I don't even use the stove. I only use the oven.
I am screaming now. I am freaking out. I have a huge headache and it is not going away.
Mom is doing OK, tired all the time. Bored. I don't blame her. I am already feeling guilty that I can't bring her a nice dinner tomorrow or for the next week or so.
I don't even give a crap if I don't eat. And I won't be either. I am just worried about mom. The food she gets is not very good.
12:30 am and I need to go to bed.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Mom's daughters came to visit today. I think this is the first time in many weeks. And they brought nothing for mom. After everything mom and dad did for them, at least they could bring her a muffin, a chocolate bar, drinks, fruit for latter. But no, nothing.
And nothing ever goes missing when they are not around, but when they come, things seem to go missing. OK it is just a towel. But it was their yesterday and was not their today. It is always in the same spot and I use it daily for mom's spa treatment.
I am not saying they took it, but, come on. There yesterday, and they come today and it is gone. Yes it is just a towel. But it is a long line of things they take or may of taken.
It just pisses me off that after everything my parents did for them and all they took from them. They treat mom like this. Ignore her. Treat her like crap.
I want mom's photo's, but it the girls who are stopping me from getting them and fixing them up and putting them on a digital frame. It is the younger one who put my mother's photo's in a leaky shed which ruined them. And they are stopping me from fixing them up.
THEY ARE MOM'S PHOTO'S AND SHE WOULD LIKE TO VIEW THEM. IT IS HER LIFE WE ARE SPEAKING ABOUT.
One of the staff told me that my family was here today. I corrected her and told her that I have no family but my mother. Not a single one of them is in contact with me to find out how mom is doing.
It is not as if I am hard to find. I am at the home every single day from 4:30 PM until 7:30 - 8:00 PM. My number is on my blog or at least my address.
As of September it will be two years straight that I have been going to White Rock. Daily. GOD help me that I don't miss any days.
I brought mom sushi today. She ate all 8 pieces plus a little of her dinner from the home. This will be the last dinner I can bring her for a while. I am broke. I have nothing in my fridge or freezer. But I was able to afford enough papaya, avocado and drinks for a week. Plus I was able to get some fruit for her next smoothie.
I was going to bring her some prawns that I had in the freezer, but the stupid roommate, who left the freezer door open. Ruined them. I had to throw them out. They were almost thawed out. No good anymore. So that is $10.00 wasted. And they don't understand any English. So how do I recoup my money from them. I don't. I bought them for mom. I try to communicate with them. They just don't understand me.
This another reason I need to move. I can't live here anymore I am going crazy, I am stressed out all the time. I am not sleeping. I have to clean up after these assholes. I don't even use the stove. I only use the oven.
I am screaming now. I am freaking out. I have a huge headache and it is not going away.
Mom is doing OK, tired all the time. Bored. I don't blame her. I am already feeling guilty that I can't bring her a nice dinner tomorrow or for the next week or so.
I don't even give a crap if I don't eat. And I won't be either. I am just worried about mom. The food she gets is not very good.
12:30 am and I need to go to bed.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
August 8
Hello again
It has been over a week and I still feel nauseous, I feel like crap. I have a headache. I don't feel like eating (it is a good thing, I have nothing) I am dizzy and I have not been sleeping much at all. At least I achieved 3 hours of sleep last night. Straight sleep, that is.
My OCD is kicking in and part of it is I don't like to be touched, and I need real order. No, when it comes to mom, none of my OCD applies. It is at this stage, where crooked pictures really bother me. And if I am on the bus and someone is sitting to close to me, I start to get anxious and start having a mild panic attack, which can turn into a larger one. And if this happens I have to get off the bus. Or I freak out on who ever is sitting besides me and touching me. If they don't respond to me asking them, politely, to move over.
And it was one of those days where I did not want to even speak with anyone. And everyone who walked by me, said hello to me. I mean everyone that I walked by on this one street on the way to mom's home.
Mom, looked very tired today. I can see the stress she is under by not getting enough sleep. Today is her roommates bath day, so after dinner, when I brought mom back to her room, it was very quit and peaceful. She just loved this. And it was this way for over half hour.
Then when the roommate came back, the lights went on and the TV went on. Not a peaceful moment with the roommate in the room. I did, however, manage to get mom into bed and most of her nightly spa treatment in before the roommate came back from her bath. This women can't go a minute with out the TV on.
I am stressing out about this as well.
I brought mom some chicken today and she didn't like it. I should of brought her sushi, which she told me she would of preferred. So tomorrow it will be sushi. And that will be it for dinners this week for mom. I don't have the funds to make her, or purchase her dinners this week.
I think I will just be able to get the fruit for her. I still have to get mom her coke as well. It will be tight. As well as fruit for her smoothies. I pray to GOD that HE helps me out with this. So mom has what she needs for the next week. As I could care less if I have anything. Really, I only care if mom has what she requires for the week.
I don't know what to do. Any body got any answers for me.
Midnight and I have to try to get some sleep tonight if I can. I am not sure, the stress I am feeling is not good. I have things online for sale, but they are not selling. I use to get some extra monies from my roommate, as he drinks allot, but the new roommate, who speaks no English, has been grabbing them. I try to explain that he leaves them for me. But they are not understanding anything I am saying. I try to tell them that this helps me out during the month when I have nothing. It helps me get the extra things for mom.
Anyways I will stop now.
GOD bless and good night.
It has been over a week and I still feel nauseous, I feel like crap. I have a headache. I don't feel like eating (it is a good thing, I have nothing) I am dizzy and I have not been sleeping much at all. At least I achieved 3 hours of sleep last night. Straight sleep, that is.
My OCD is kicking in and part of it is I don't like to be touched, and I need real order. No, when it comes to mom, none of my OCD applies. It is at this stage, where crooked pictures really bother me. And if I am on the bus and someone is sitting to close to me, I start to get anxious and start having a mild panic attack, which can turn into a larger one. And if this happens I have to get off the bus. Or I freak out on who ever is sitting besides me and touching me. If they don't respond to me asking them, politely, to move over.
And it was one of those days where I did not want to even speak with anyone. And everyone who walked by me, said hello to me. I mean everyone that I walked by on this one street on the way to mom's home.
Mom, looked very tired today. I can see the stress she is under by not getting enough sleep. Today is her roommates bath day, so after dinner, when I brought mom back to her room, it was very quit and peaceful. She just loved this. And it was this way for over half hour.
Then when the roommate came back, the lights went on and the TV went on. Not a peaceful moment with the roommate in the room. I did, however, manage to get mom into bed and most of her nightly spa treatment in before the roommate came back from her bath. This women can't go a minute with out the TV on.
I am stressing out about this as well.
I brought mom some chicken today and she didn't like it. I should of brought her sushi, which she told me she would of preferred. So tomorrow it will be sushi. And that will be it for dinners this week for mom. I don't have the funds to make her, or purchase her dinners this week.
I think I will just be able to get the fruit for her. I still have to get mom her coke as well. It will be tight. As well as fruit for her smoothies. I pray to GOD that HE helps me out with this. So mom has what she needs for the next week. As I could care less if I have anything. Really, I only care if mom has what she requires for the week.
I don't know what to do. Any body got any answers for me.
Midnight and I have to try to get some sleep tonight if I can. I am not sure, the stress I am feeling is not good. I have things online for sale, but they are not selling. I use to get some extra monies from my roommate, as he drinks allot, but the new roommate, who speaks no English, has been grabbing them. I try to explain that he leaves them for me. But they are not understanding anything I am saying. I try to tell them that this helps me out during the month when I have nothing. It helps me get the extra things for mom.
Anyways I will stop now.
GOD bless and good night.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Now if it were
Hello again
Today is mom's bath day. The problem with this is that they put her back into bed for the rest of the day. And she is given her bath in the early afternoon. Plus they put to many covers on her. It is summer and hot. When I arrive I have to place a cold cloth on her forehead and feet to cool here down a bit.
At least tonight they served her an OK meal. Chicken and mash potatoes. They really have to start serving something else besides mash potatoes. It is becoming to much for mom. The one thing that I have never seen them serve, in the two years I have been going out to White Rock, in pasta. I bring it to her, but they never serve it.
She ate her dinner, but I felt guilty that I couldn't bring her a home cooked meal. The one thing I make sure she gets is fresh fruit daily. Plus her favorite chocolate.
I make sure mom gets plenty to drink
We watched shark week together. And then her nightly spa treatment.
Well it is midnight again, so time to go. I have not been sleeping well and I have been nauseous for a week now.
Please pray that I find the funds to help me move to White Rock ASAP. Mom wants me to stay longer, but I need to catch the bus, to get home for 11 pm
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Today is mom's bath day. The problem with this is that they put her back into bed for the rest of the day. And she is given her bath in the early afternoon. Plus they put to many covers on her. It is summer and hot. When I arrive I have to place a cold cloth on her forehead and feet to cool here down a bit.
At least tonight they served her an OK meal. Chicken and mash potatoes. They really have to start serving something else besides mash potatoes. It is becoming to much for mom. The one thing that I have never seen them serve, in the two years I have been going out to White Rock, in pasta. I bring it to her, but they never serve it.
She ate her dinner, but I felt guilty that I couldn't bring her a home cooked meal. The one thing I make sure she gets is fresh fruit daily. Plus her favorite chocolate.
I make sure mom gets plenty to drink
We watched shark week together. And then her nightly spa treatment.
Well it is midnight again, so time to go. I have not been sleeping well and I have been nauseous for a week now.
Please pray that I find the funds to help me move to White Rock ASAP. Mom wants me to stay longer, but I need to catch the bus, to get home for 11 pm
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
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