Hello again
I am not sure where I left off the last time I wrote or even when I wrote. I am having problems with my wifi. So I will just continue, instead of trying to load the posts page.
Well the doctor and I have a difference of opinion. Mom, is very sick. The bladder infection has really taken it's toll out on her. The doctor thinks only a month. I say let us leave it up to GOD, who has the final say. And this is just the doctors opinion. None of us know, what actually will happen.
Mom today, was bright eyed, and it is only day one of the new antibiotics. So none of know what tomorrow will bring
Mom has gone through one 7 day dose of antibiotics. They did help a bit, And now she is going through another 7 day cycle of antibiotics. As well as intravenous drip, to put some sugar into her system.
They are telling me not to give mom anything to eat. She has a small problem with drinking. It was only the beginning of the week that they said not to feed her. As she is having some issues with swallowing. Mom eats for me and drinks for me.
I am getting there at 2 pm and just sitting beside her, holding her hand until 8:30 pm. I wash her daily, still sing to her. But I don't eat infront of her. She wants food, but I can't give it to her at this moment in time, so I don't eat infront of her.
I am making her as comfortable as I can.
Tomorrow, I am going to try and get her up for a bit. I spoke with the nurse and he agreed we can try and do this. All she has been doing is lying in bed. Getting her up will make the world of difference.
I believe anyways. And each day after that.
It is up to mom on what she wants.
She is a very strong women. The doctor tells me she is frail. I don't think so. She still has her iron grip. She still pulls my arm, as we did when she exercised her arm. .
I am loosing it, however. I am barely keeping it together. I am not hungry, nor I am getting enough sleep. I try. I go to bed, fall asleep and wake up two hours later, than just toss and turn the rest of the night.
I am worried that I am going to get that call, in the middle of the night. Telling me to get there as soon as possible. No buses running then. It is a $125.00 cab fare. I called them today. I just don't have it. So what then. I can't get out there until at least 9 am. This could be hours after they called. And the girls could be there in 20 minutes
I am worried that she is going to pass away and I am not there for her. Worried I don't have the money to have her buried as she told me before she lost her speech. I am worried that I don't have the cab fare out there. If I were to get that call
I need to go and try to eat something and get some sleep. Maybe I will put on a drama.
Please continue to pray
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland.
Maybe since I am part Russian/Prussian , I should ask President Putin for help. My country doesn't seem to want to help with anything.
