Hello again
Thanks France for reading this Blog. I am half French and the other half, with no country left. Prussia. I do relate more to my French side. Jalbert is my mother's maiden name. Keep reading I hope.
Bath day for mom, which means she is in bed when I arrive. And extremely hot and thirsty. Today mom immediately motioned for me to give her something to drink. and she drank allot.
They have her in bed, she has a TV, but they don't turn it on for her. At least this week they had the music on.
And it was time to feed her right after I gave her something to drink. Which I was right on it. She didn't eat as much I would of liked her to eat. But she ate all her fruit.
Just spa treatment, and held her hand. And when I left she was asleep.
It is getting harder and harder to use my right arm to feed mom and other things that I do for her. My elbow is just in serious pain.
But mom is doing well.
I am feeling really sad lately when I leave mom's. I need to be living their. Mom is healthy, but I am sad that I can't be able to stay longer
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Friday, September 26, 2014
What a......... a day makes
Hello again
What a difference a day makes for mom. For the last three days mom has been lethargic. Eating, but taking a very long time. More so than usual. I don't have a problem with this. However long it takes mom to eat. That is how long I will sit there and feed her. I know when she is done.
But today, mom was extremely hyper, So much so I could feel the hyperness ( probably not a word) radiating off of her. To the point I had to let go of her hand, several times. She was eating very fast, to the point where she almost choked on her food. I haven't seen mom eat this fast before. Or this hyper.
Mom ate what I brought her plus most of what was served. She was hungry and thirsty. I just kept going until she was full. Then dessert.
Wow! is all I have to say about this. I am not a hyper person. I am calm. Yes I do experience anxiety about allot of things. But in general I am calm. Or can make myself calm before I go into see mom. And pick it up afterwards.
I washed her hair this evening,, and massaged her scalp to try to calm her down a bit. It worked a bit...
Then I got her changed for bed. And the casual didn't come in until 7:15. Everyone knows I need to leave at a certain time. That is why mom is to be put into bed before 7 pm. So I have time to give mom her nightly spa treatment and sit with her, holding her hand while she falls asleep.
I gave her a quick spa treatment and held her hand as long as I could.
This is why I need to be living out their. To be able to stay longer. Which is what mom wants as well as myself.
She wasn't asleep when I left, but close.
And for me. I am waking up at night because my right arm is killing me.
Today was a very bad day for me. Very bad.
There is a lump that is getting bigger on my right elbow. I have complained to the doctor about my elbow right from the start of the accident. Nothing done about it.
And the more I use my right arm the worse it is getting. And the bigger the lump is getting
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
What a difference a day makes for mom. For the last three days mom has been lethargic. Eating, but taking a very long time. More so than usual. I don't have a problem with this. However long it takes mom to eat. That is how long I will sit there and feed her. I know when she is done.
But today, mom was extremely hyper, So much so I could feel the hyperness ( probably not a word) radiating off of her. To the point I had to let go of her hand, several times. She was eating very fast, to the point where she almost choked on her food. I haven't seen mom eat this fast before. Or this hyper.
Mom ate what I brought her plus most of what was served. She was hungry and thirsty. I just kept going until she was full. Then dessert.
Wow! is all I have to say about this. I am not a hyper person. I am calm. Yes I do experience anxiety about allot of things. But in general I am calm. Or can make myself calm before I go into see mom. And pick it up afterwards.
I washed her hair this evening,, and massaged her scalp to try to calm her down a bit. It worked a bit...
Then I got her changed for bed. And the casual didn't come in until 7:15. Everyone knows I need to leave at a certain time. That is why mom is to be put into bed before 7 pm. So I have time to give mom her nightly spa treatment and sit with her, holding her hand while she falls asleep.
I gave her a quick spa treatment and held her hand as long as I could.
This is why I need to be living out their. To be able to stay longer. Which is what mom wants as well as myself.
She wasn't asleep when I left, but close.
And for me. I am waking up at night because my right arm is killing me.
Today was a very bad day for me. Very bad.
There is a lump that is getting bigger on my right elbow. I have complained to the doctor about my elbow right from the start of the accident. Nothing done about it.
And the more I use my right arm the worse it is getting. And the bigger the lump is getting
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
Thursday, September 25, 2014
A servant
Hello again
People say I am a good person. I don't see it. Yes I take care of my mother. This doesn't necessarily make me a good person. OK I do believe I am somewhat good. Well, I am a good person.
I do have my moments. Where I am upset and don't give a crap what other's think of me. Actually, I don't care what other's think of me. And that is the truth.
I say I am a nobody and that is what I am, a nobody. Yet I am but a humble servant who is just doing the right thing by his mother. I am a servant of my GOD. Who says to honor your mother and father. To love and cherish my time with my mother. To do my GOD's work.
Yes I ask for help. This is so I can continue my work. Not to just help mom, but to be an example to other's. That these are our parents and they deserve the utmost respect. They deserve for us to be there for them. But I never get any help from anyone.
I do not blame my sisters for anything. This is their choice, not mine.
I am only doing what it is that I am called to do.... Take care of mom. I feel this deep within my soul, that this is what I am to do at this point in my life.
I don't complain about it. I like what I am doing. At least someone wants me around.
Other's say I am a good son. I am only as good as my mother raised me to be. I believe in love, caring, compassion and patience.
There are individuals who don't like me. OK I say. I don't expect everyone to like me. Haters hate, no matter what one does.
It doesn't matter to me if anyone reads this Blog. Hell, I am surprised that this many people have actually read it. But I do appreciate everyone who has been reading my Blog. I would continue to write this Blog if nobody was reading it.
But again, I do very much appreciate all of you, form all over the world, who are reading it.
I just want to be living in White Rock so I can do even more for mom. I am so sick of living where I am at. I can only pay so much for rent. No one seems to understand this. Anything more and I don't eat at all. I only eat once a day as it is. I am use to it, and so is my body.
I have been putting up flyer's around White Rock and nothing. Maybe I need to be standing on the corner with a big sign or something like that.
Another day of extreme pain. There is a lump on my elbow that is getting bigger and the shaking of my right arm is getting worse.
OK I am done now.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
People say I am a good person. I don't see it. Yes I take care of my mother. This doesn't necessarily make me a good person. OK I do believe I am somewhat good. Well, I am a good person.
I do have my moments. Where I am upset and don't give a crap what other's think of me. Actually, I don't care what other's think of me. And that is the truth.
I say I am a nobody and that is what I am, a nobody. Yet I am but a humble servant who is just doing the right thing by his mother. I am a servant of my GOD. Who says to honor your mother and father. To love and cherish my time with my mother. To do my GOD's work.
Yes I ask for help. This is so I can continue my work. Not to just help mom, but to be an example to other's. That these are our parents and they deserve the utmost respect. They deserve for us to be there for them. But I never get any help from anyone.
I do not blame my sisters for anything. This is their choice, not mine.
I am only doing what it is that I am called to do.... Take care of mom. I feel this deep within my soul, that this is what I am to do at this point in my life.
I don't complain about it. I like what I am doing. At least someone wants me around.
Other's say I am a good son. I am only as good as my mother raised me to be. I believe in love, caring, compassion and patience.
There are individuals who don't like me. OK I say. I don't expect everyone to like me. Haters hate, no matter what one does.
It doesn't matter to me if anyone reads this Blog. Hell, I am surprised that this many people have actually read it. But I do appreciate everyone who has been reading my Blog. I would continue to write this Blog if nobody was reading it.
But again, I do very much appreciate all of you, form all over the world, who are reading it.
I just want to be living in White Rock so I can do even more for mom. I am so sick of living where I am at. I can only pay so much for rent. No one seems to understand this. Anything more and I don't eat at all. I only eat once a day as it is. I am use to it, and so is my body.
I have been putting up flyer's around White Rock and nothing. Maybe I need to be standing on the corner with a big sign or something like that.
Another day of extreme pain. There is a lump on my elbow that is getting bigger and the shaking of my right arm is getting worse.
OK I am done now.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Tired as of late
Hello again
Tired as of late, mom is. I am not sure what it is that is making her so tired. Maybe, I am thinking, it is that she is getting her medication to early and by the time I get their, mom is now tired.
But she was thirsty and hungry. Mom ate what I brought, most of it, plus some of what was served. This is normal for her. I really don't understand why she is not heavier. But I am not complaining. As long as mom eats all her meals, it is fine. And she does. Slowly sometimes. We are slow eaters, mom and I.
Being Wednesday, after dinner I washed mom's hair. She was mostly asleep during this. Eye's closed anyways.
Then I quickly got her changed for bed. Had to go searching for mom's laundry, again. They just don't get it. There is no excuse for them to keep putting mom's laundry in the homes wash.
Well after mom was put into bed. I gave her the nightly spa treatment and then just held her hand.
The one thing I can say for certain, is when I hold mom's hand. After her spa treatment. The smile on her face brings me great warmth and happiness. It almost brings me to tears.
This makes every single thing I do for her and all the traveling I do, worth while.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Tired as of late, mom is. I am not sure what it is that is making her so tired. Maybe, I am thinking, it is that she is getting her medication to early and by the time I get their, mom is now tired.
But she was thirsty and hungry. Mom ate what I brought, most of it, plus some of what was served. This is normal for her. I really don't understand why she is not heavier. But I am not complaining. As long as mom eats all her meals, it is fine. And she does. Slowly sometimes. We are slow eaters, mom and I.
Being Wednesday, after dinner I washed mom's hair. She was mostly asleep during this. Eye's closed anyways.
Then I quickly got her changed for bed. Had to go searching for mom's laundry, again. They just don't get it. There is no excuse for them to keep putting mom's laundry in the homes wash.
Well after mom was put into bed. I gave her the nightly spa treatment and then just held her hand.
The one thing I can say for certain, is when I hold mom's hand. After her spa treatment. The smile on her face brings me great warmth and happiness. It almost brings me to tears.
This makes every single thing I do for her and all the traveling I do, worth while.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
One chance
Hello again
I only get one chance of doing the right thing by looking after and taking care of my mother. There are no do-overs here. Just one chance at making sure my mother is treated right. One chance to make her happy, while living with Dementia and strokes taking away her voice and the use of her left arm and hand.
Once chance to do everything I can to make her life as enjoyable as possible.
Once chance. No do-overs.
Mom has given of herself to help others. To do what she could to make sure other people//family members got what they needed. Even if it mean't sacrificing things for herself.
Mom and Dad where there for us children, no matter what.
So I am there for mom, no matter what....... And was there for my Dad, no matter what.
I wouldn't have it any other way.
It is not often in one's life we are given a chance to prove that we are decent human beings. OK, we are given this chance almost everyday.
It is a rare few who takes hold of this opportunity and does something about it.
Most just warehouse their loved one's and show up on occasion. I mean Birthdays, Christmas etc.... I can speak to this matter with an honest heart.
I see it everyday. When someone is telling me that they wish their loved one's would come more often. I can count on one hand the people who are their daily. And this is out of 50 residents.
I do not like to brag about what I do. I have been given a blessed opportunity to take care of mom. So this is what I do. No matter what anyone says to me.
Individuals tell me all the time that I will be blessed for what I am doing. I just say, I am blessed, but I would prefer the real blessing to be now. So I can share it with mom and others. To be able to get a van with wheel chair accessibility and take mom all over the place.
I feel really guilty that I can't do this for mom. I have no car, no way to purchase a van. Mom has been stuck inside for long enough. OK I get her outside as much as I can. But it is only around the hospital that I push her around. I get there so late, it is hard to take her out at all and I feel damn guilty about this.
I keep saying when I move their I will have you over for dinner, I will take you more places. But I can't even do this right. And I feel guilty about this.
I should be their already. Not talking about it. But I don't have the money to do so. Even finding a shared accommodation that I can afford it difficult.
I just wish something good would happen so I can better take care of mom.
I pray and pray and pray. I read the word everyday on my transit trip to White Rock.
I am done for now. I am feeling really depressed right now.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
I only get one chance of doing the right thing by looking after and taking care of my mother. There are no do-overs here. Just one chance at making sure my mother is treated right. One chance to make her happy, while living with Dementia and strokes taking away her voice and the use of her left arm and hand.
Once chance to do everything I can to make her life as enjoyable as possible.
Once chance. No do-overs.
Mom has given of herself to help others. To do what she could to make sure other people//family members got what they needed. Even if it mean't sacrificing things for herself.
Mom and Dad where there for us children, no matter what.
So I am there for mom, no matter what....... And was there for my Dad, no matter what.
I wouldn't have it any other way.
It is not often in one's life we are given a chance to prove that we are decent human beings. OK, we are given this chance almost everyday.
It is a rare few who takes hold of this opportunity and does something about it.
Most just warehouse their loved one's and show up on occasion. I mean Birthdays, Christmas etc.... I can speak to this matter with an honest heart.
I see it everyday. When someone is telling me that they wish their loved one's would come more often. I can count on one hand the people who are their daily. And this is out of 50 residents.
I do not like to brag about what I do. I have been given a blessed opportunity to take care of mom. So this is what I do. No matter what anyone says to me.
Individuals tell me all the time that I will be blessed for what I am doing. I just say, I am blessed, but I would prefer the real blessing to be now. So I can share it with mom and others. To be able to get a van with wheel chair accessibility and take mom all over the place.
I feel really guilty that I can't do this for mom. I have no car, no way to purchase a van. Mom has been stuck inside for long enough. OK I get her outside as much as I can. But it is only around the hospital that I push her around. I get there so late, it is hard to take her out at all and I feel damn guilty about this.
I keep saying when I move their I will have you over for dinner, I will take you more places. But I can't even do this right. And I feel guilty about this.
I should be their already. Not talking about it. But I don't have the money to do so. Even finding a shared accommodation that I can afford it difficult.
I just wish something good would happen so I can better take care of mom.
I pray and pray and pray. I read the word everyday on my transit trip to White Rock.
I am done for now. I am feeling really depressed right now.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Monday, September 22, 2014
Not bad
Hello again
So today was an OK day.
I was able to get mom two new pairs of pants for $2.99 each and they were both $80.00 pants. It is a store that is going out of business and I happen to be right their. Mom now has many pairs of pants. Don't need to get her any for a while.
It is just shirts and sweaters she now needs.
I made a good dinner for mom and she enjoyed it and ate all of it.
I cleaned the bottom sheet and put this back on her bed this evening. It is so nice for mom that she has her own sheets, pillows, duvet etc...
This makes her feel better and gives her a little bit of home. I don't know why no one else doesn't do this for their loved one's. It makes them feel so much better. Mom falls asleep with a smile on her face. She is comfortable.
And she looks so nice and peaceful in her bed. I doesn't look like a hospital, so much.
I didn't get a chance to read to her this evening. But I will tomorrow.
When I left mom was completely asleep. Relaxed. Just the smile on her face told me this.
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
So today was an OK day.
I was able to get mom two new pairs of pants for $2.99 each and they were both $80.00 pants. It is a store that is going out of business and I happen to be right their. Mom now has many pairs of pants. Don't need to get her any for a while.
It is just shirts and sweaters she now needs.
I made a good dinner for mom and she enjoyed it and ate all of it.
I cleaned the bottom sheet and put this back on her bed this evening. It is so nice for mom that she has her own sheets, pillows, duvet etc...
This makes her feel better and gives her a little bit of home. I don't know why no one else doesn't do this for their loved one's. It makes them feel so much better. Mom falls asleep with a smile on her face. She is comfortable.
And she looks so nice and peaceful in her bed. I doesn't look like a hospital, so much.
I didn't get a chance to read to her this evening. But I will tomorrow.
When I left mom was completely asleep. Relaxed. Just the smile on her face told me this.
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland
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