Hello again
How is everyone today.
The pain is greater today than any other day so far. Not using my right arm much, to painful.
Mom was extremely hungry today. But, again I found her in her room by herself. I am not impressed by this, at all.
I brought her a large dinner,which she enjoyed and ate all of it. Plus, plus and plus. It is Friday and time to wash her hair again.
Afterwards mom was very relaxed and starting to fall asleep, while drying her hair. I got her ready for bed and just sat down to read to her, when the staff member came in and put her to bed. I knew this would happen, I even said this to mom. Watch, as soon as I open the book and start to read to you, they will come in to put you to bed. Sure enough. Mom and I looked at each other and laughed.
After, I gave mom her spa treatment and her nightly drinks. Of course after she was given her medication. Then I stood there and held her hand for over 1/2 hour while she fell asleep.
Well today I found a perfect place. Right across the street from mom's. Perfect to bring mom over. Out the door and cross the street. Large and private basement suite.
It is just out of my price range. Even if I give up everything.
I ask those who pray to pray for me, that GOD provides me with the help I need.
It is perfect, as I said. Instead of bringing mom dinner, I can bring her over and serve her dinner fresh from the oven or stove. Or for lunch.
Anyway, I have been praying since I saw it today. Really, everything, right across the street.
Well I need to go.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Friday, May 23, 2014
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Light
Hello again
I have noticed that if they give mom her medication before dinner, by the time it is dinner time, mom is not hungry and she just chews and chews her food, and doesn't swallow. Even soft foods.
Yet if they give mom her medication at dinner, mom will eat and swallow without a problem. I will be having a conversation with the manager about this tomorrow.
I washed her hair and got her changed for bed. They staff came in early and we changed her and cleaned her.
I have been able to get mom's spa treatment completed before 7 pm and I just held her hand while she was falling asleep. She wanted me to sing our good night song to her before she fell asleep. So I did, then stood their holding her hand.
I gave her a kiss good night and left. I stayed with her until 8 pm tonight. I just wanted to.
I do have to explain to her that I am in pain and she has to be careful. I hope she understood.
The feeling of pins and needles is radiating down my right arm and right leg.
Not fun.
It is early and I think I am just going to go to bed and watch a movie.
Please continue to pray for me. If you are indeed doing this.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
I have noticed that if they give mom her medication before dinner, by the time it is dinner time, mom is not hungry and she just chews and chews her food, and doesn't swallow. Even soft foods.
Yet if they give mom her medication at dinner, mom will eat and swallow without a problem. I will be having a conversation with the manager about this tomorrow.
I washed her hair and got her changed for bed. They staff came in early and we changed her and cleaned her.
I have been able to get mom's spa treatment completed before 7 pm and I just held her hand while she was falling asleep. She wanted me to sing our good night song to her before she fell asleep. So I did, then stood their holding her hand.
I gave her a kiss good night and left. I stayed with her until 8 pm tonight. I just wanted to.
I do have to explain to her that I am in pain and she has to be careful. I hope she understood.
The feeling of pins and needles is radiating down my right arm and right leg.
Not fun.
It is early and I think I am just going to go to bed and watch a movie.
Please continue to pray for me. If you are indeed doing this.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
I don't believe the crap
Hello again
So yes my pain is still here. I can't even do my laundry without feeling the pain. Or clean up. Using my right arm is very difficult. And my back, well is not very good.
So mom was very happy to see me today. When I arrived, they had her in her room by herself. Really!....... Can't even let her sit with the other's.
OK they had the TV on for her.
I gave her the drinks she likes and took her out to the dinning hall and had dinner. Burger and Onion rings. She ate all of it.
And it was time for bed. OK the spa treatment first. I got mom changed and ready to be put to bed. The staff came in early and we put her to bed. Well it was early when we finished. So it was early when the spa treatment was done.
Which mean't I could just stand there and hold her hand. She fell asleep very quickly, with a smile on her face. Squeezing my hand.
This is the most beautiful thing in the world for me.
All the other crap just flows away, when this is happening. I feel a warmth that can't be described.
It just lets me know that I am doing the right thing, by taking care of mom.
Just need to be closer...
I looked at a place today. But not worth what they were asking. And there was a door in the bedroom that led to the main house. Really!......
And lied about a few other things as well. Their add stated that I would have my own washer and dryer. Nope it was shared and I could only use it once a week. Really!....
That is what is out there.
I will, I hope, find a place.
Please pray for me.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So yes my pain is still here. I can't even do my laundry without feeling the pain. Or clean up. Using my right arm is very difficult. And my back, well is not very good.
So mom was very happy to see me today. When I arrived, they had her in her room by herself. Really!....... Can't even let her sit with the other's.
OK they had the TV on for her.
I gave her the drinks she likes and took her out to the dinning hall and had dinner. Burger and Onion rings. She ate all of it.
And it was time for bed. OK the spa treatment first. I got mom changed and ready to be put to bed. The staff came in early and we put her to bed. Well it was early when we finished. So it was early when the spa treatment was done.
Which mean't I could just stand there and hold her hand. She fell asleep very quickly, with a smile on her face. Squeezing my hand.
This is the most beautiful thing in the world for me.
All the other crap just flows away, when this is happening. I feel a warmth that can't be described.
It just lets me know that I am doing the right thing, by taking care of mom.
Just need to be closer...
I looked at a place today. But not worth what they were asking. And there was a door in the bedroom that led to the main house. Really!......
And lied about a few other things as well. Their add stated that I would have my own washer and dryer. Nope it was shared and I could only use it once a week. Really!....
That is what is out there.
I will, I hope, find a place.
Please pray for me.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Monday, May 19, 2014
A gift
Hello again
What is the love of another.
It is kind and full of patience, kindness, gentleness and caring
Such as when I arrive to see mom, she is waiting and looking at the elevator, looking for me. Then I walk in and she see's me. A wonderful smile appears on her face, her hand goes out, reaching for me.
When mom holds my hand and just looks at me. The feeling of security is written all over the face.
Or she feels emotional and a tear runs down her face, I gently caress her face and wipe the tear away. Telling her that I am here and I will always be here for you. She rests her face upon my hand.
Reaching out to cup my face and smiles.
Knowing I will be around and care for her.
This is what it is all about.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
What is the love of another.
It is kind and full of patience, kindness, gentleness and caring
Such as when I arrive to see mom, she is waiting and looking at the elevator, looking for me. Then I walk in and she see's me. A wonderful smile appears on her face, her hand goes out, reaching for me.
When mom holds my hand and just looks at me. The feeling of security is written all over the face.
Or she feels emotional and a tear runs down her face, I gently caress her face and wipe the tear away. Telling her that I am here and I will always be here for you. She rests her face upon my hand.
Reaching out to cup my face and smiles.
Knowing I will be around and care for her.
This is what it is all about.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Sunday, May 18, 2014
I can't believe the pain
Hello again
Today has been the worst day for pain, since the accident.. I am having extreme anxiety because of it. My whole body is inflamed and burning with pain.
It is hard to deal with it. The more pain I am in, the less I want to be touched. And today mom was very affectionate. I tried to reciprocate her affection as much as I could. But not all the time. I explained to mom that I am in pain and I can't do as much as I usually do for her.
I am having a difficult time using my right arm.
I had to get some groceries for myself and stuff for her dinner tomorrow. Plus I had to stop and get more of her drinks. That alone was painful.
I am not sure what I am going to do. I have to bring things for her... Bring her laundry back with me, it is only what she is wearing that day. But today I had to bring the sheets back to wash.
I can't keep carrying all of these things. But I have too.
All of this I had no problem with before this accident. I would carry all sorts of things back and forth to mom's. Plus carry 4 or 5 bags of groceries home.
When I got home and took everything off my back. I collapsed onto the floor.
I am in extreme pain as I write this.
Today I looked a two places. Well I lost the one that I loved. I didn't have the damage deposit on me, or in the bank. Sure I can get it, but it will take a week to get it. And they are not willing to wait that long.
They told me if I can get the damage deposit by tomorrow, the place is mine. Well unless there is some king of miracle over night. That is not going to happen.
This place is 4 blocks away, nice and clean, spacious. And everything is included. I mean everything. My own washer and dryer, cable, heat, lights, Internet. And it is within what I can afford.
Well goodbye to that place. There is not a way of me getting the funds by tomorrow.
I need the insurance company to start to do something for me. There saying that taking care of my mother is not a job. And therefore I won't be compensate for not being able to do what I normally do for her. I say that if I were to get to court, any judge would consider this work and award me for it.
Today as I stated mom was very affectionate towards me. She was very hungry and ate allot, I mean what I brought her plus some of the dinner that was served.
We finished dinner and I got her ready for bed.. Then we had to wait for someone to come and put her to bed. They are back at it again. Putting mom to bed after 7 pm. And this causes me to miss the bus and I have to wait for another bus, which gets me home an hour latter than normal.
Mom is to be put to bed between 6 and 6:30 pm, not after 7 pm. This is why I put her to bed, so we could get the spa treatment started. Mom needs me to hold her hand while she falls asleep. She needs this security and love. And I hate having to rush. This is one of my pet peeves in life. Being rushed. On top of the anxiety I am having with this pain, I have to deal with this. Not fun.
And before I left I took another pain killer. But I accidentally took two of them. So I am a little out of it now. But I am still experiencing pain. They don't seem to be working.
Well I am going to start to put mom bed, again. If they can't get her in bed before 7 I will do it myself. They don't want me to do this, but I don't care. Mom wants to be put into bed after she eats.
We already went through this. I thought it was solved. But not. There is even a sign stating mom is to be in bed between a certain time.
I did everything I could for her tonight, even though I was in pain. I guess I have to take an extra painkiller. I will not allow this pain to interfere with taking care of mom.
Mom new I needed to leave and gave me a nice big hug and kisses before I left. The only problem I am having with tonight, is mom was awake!
I need to go now, try to sleep. OK first eat.
I am pissed off that I am going to loose this place. I could see myself being there for a while. And lots of room to bring mom over, without any issues of getting her in.
I am doubting my faith in a big way.
I really need GOD to provide me with a miracle.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Today has been the worst day for pain, since the accident.. I am having extreme anxiety because of it. My whole body is inflamed and burning with pain.
It is hard to deal with it. The more pain I am in, the less I want to be touched. And today mom was very affectionate. I tried to reciprocate her affection as much as I could. But not all the time. I explained to mom that I am in pain and I can't do as much as I usually do for her.
I am having a difficult time using my right arm.
I had to get some groceries for myself and stuff for her dinner tomorrow. Plus I had to stop and get more of her drinks. That alone was painful.
I am not sure what I am going to do. I have to bring things for her... Bring her laundry back with me, it is only what she is wearing that day. But today I had to bring the sheets back to wash.
I can't keep carrying all of these things. But I have too.
All of this I had no problem with before this accident. I would carry all sorts of things back and forth to mom's. Plus carry 4 or 5 bags of groceries home.
When I got home and took everything off my back. I collapsed onto the floor.
I am in extreme pain as I write this.
Today I looked a two places. Well I lost the one that I loved. I didn't have the damage deposit on me, or in the bank. Sure I can get it, but it will take a week to get it. And they are not willing to wait that long.
They told me if I can get the damage deposit by tomorrow, the place is mine. Well unless there is some king of miracle over night. That is not going to happen.
This place is 4 blocks away, nice and clean, spacious. And everything is included. I mean everything. My own washer and dryer, cable, heat, lights, Internet. And it is within what I can afford.
Well goodbye to that place. There is not a way of me getting the funds by tomorrow.
I need the insurance company to start to do something for me. There saying that taking care of my mother is not a job. And therefore I won't be compensate for not being able to do what I normally do for her. I say that if I were to get to court, any judge would consider this work and award me for it.
Today as I stated mom was very affectionate towards me. She was very hungry and ate allot, I mean what I brought her plus some of the dinner that was served.
We finished dinner and I got her ready for bed.. Then we had to wait for someone to come and put her to bed. They are back at it again. Putting mom to bed after 7 pm. And this causes me to miss the bus and I have to wait for another bus, which gets me home an hour latter than normal.
Mom is to be put to bed between 6 and 6:30 pm, not after 7 pm. This is why I put her to bed, so we could get the spa treatment started. Mom needs me to hold her hand while she falls asleep. She needs this security and love. And I hate having to rush. This is one of my pet peeves in life. Being rushed. On top of the anxiety I am having with this pain, I have to deal with this. Not fun.
And before I left I took another pain killer. But I accidentally took two of them. So I am a little out of it now. But I am still experiencing pain. They don't seem to be working.
Well I am going to start to put mom bed, again. If they can't get her in bed before 7 I will do it myself. They don't want me to do this, but I don't care. Mom wants to be put into bed after she eats.
We already went through this. I thought it was solved. But not. There is even a sign stating mom is to be in bed between a certain time.
I did everything I could for her tonight, even though I was in pain. I guess I have to take an extra painkiller. I will not allow this pain to interfere with taking care of mom.
Mom new I needed to leave and gave me a nice big hug and kisses before I left. The only problem I am having with tonight, is mom was awake!
I need to go now, try to sleep. OK first eat.
I am pissed off that I am going to loose this place. I could see myself being there for a while. And lots of room to bring mom over, without any issues of getting her in.
I am doubting my faith in a big way.
I really need GOD to provide me with a miracle.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Really they just don't
Hello again
Today I arrived to find mom extremely hot. It was her bath day and they get her up and give mom a bath and then put her back into bed for the day.
Well I get their and mom is in bed, with two sheets on, a comforter, pillows surrounding her and a towel on the pillow. First they have no idea how to put a sheet on. Just stupid I guess. They keep putting the top sheet on upside down. It doesn't matter how many times I leave a note or say something. They keep doing it.
I was a warm day, and they have mom covered up, and mom was very hot when I arrived. They don't even turn the TV on for her. So she has to just lie there and do nothing. The stereo is on, but the volume is turned down so mom can barely hear it.
This is the day that the TV should be on and mom put in a position for her to be able to watch the TV.
I really do think these or this person is just stupid. Yes I am saying this. And I mean it. It is not the first time this has happened. They are constantly putting to many covers on mom.
By doing this, and with a little breeze, mom can get very sick. MAKE HER COMFORTABLE. And this is done by not putting two sheets and the everything else on her.
I have to. as soon as I get their, remove the excess coverings, just to make her cooler. Then give mom allot to drink.
They are not getting it. I am very experienced at looking after someone with this type of illness. Over 10 years now. I don't need to be told how to take care of my mom.
I know exactly how to take care of her and exactly what mom needs and wants are. No one else seems to know what she wants and when. They have no idea when mom is thirsty. Or how she expresses her need for a drink or when she is hungry.
They don't pay attention.
Mom has distinctive expressions, body language to let me know, what she wants, when she wants it.
I am an expert on reading people. Their subtle facial expression, body language.
I can read someone right away after meeting them. I can tell if someone is lying, immediately
I am getting very tired of this extra pain I am experiencing. This discomfort, the burning sensation that is through out my back. The pain from turning my back, my neck. Not being able to use my right arm, without pain.
Just picking up my tea cup hurts. So I am trying not to use my right arm, when I don't have too......
So I am finished for the night. I need to eat, relax, watch something and sleep.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Today I arrived to find mom extremely hot. It was her bath day and they get her up and give mom a bath and then put her back into bed for the day.
Well I get their and mom is in bed, with two sheets on, a comforter, pillows surrounding her and a towel on the pillow. First they have no idea how to put a sheet on. Just stupid I guess. They keep putting the top sheet on upside down. It doesn't matter how many times I leave a note or say something. They keep doing it.
I was a warm day, and they have mom covered up, and mom was very hot when I arrived. They don't even turn the TV on for her. So she has to just lie there and do nothing. The stereo is on, but the volume is turned down so mom can barely hear it.
This is the day that the TV should be on and mom put in a position for her to be able to watch the TV.
I really do think these or this person is just stupid. Yes I am saying this. And I mean it. It is not the first time this has happened. They are constantly putting to many covers on mom.
By doing this, and with a little breeze, mom can get very sick. MAKE HER COMFORTABLE. And this is done by not putting two sheets and the everything else on her.
I have to. as soon as I get their, remove the excess coverings, just to make her cooler. Then give mom allot to drink.
They are not getting it. I am very experienced at looking after someone with this type of illness. Over 10 years now. I don't need to be told how to take care of my mom.
I know exactly how to take care of her and exactly what mom needs and wants are. No one else seems to know what she wants and when. They have no idea when mom is thirsty. Or how she expresses her need for a drink or when she is hungry.
They don't pay attention.
Mom has distinctive expressions, body language to let me know, what she wants, when she wants it.
I am an expert on reading people. Their subtle facial expression, body language.
I can read someone right away after meeting them. I can tell if someone is lying, immediately
I am getting very tired of this extra pain I am experiencing. This discomfort, the burning sensation that is through out my back. The pain from turning my back, my neck. Not being able to use my right arm, without pain.
Just picking up my tea cup hurts. So I am trying not to use my right arm, when I don't have too......
So I am finished for the night. I need to eat, relax, watch something and sleep.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
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