The best

Hello again

I have been thinking, yes that is possible, and the best gift I have ever received is to able to take care of my mother. Nothing beats the feeling I get, or the expression on mom's face each and everyday.

I left my place today and it was absolutely pouring rain. Then when I crossed the river, it was sunny. Then on the way back it was the still nice in White Rock, but raining still in Coquitlam. I live at the base of a mountain. I am very tired of the gray and the darkness of this place. I need a change.

And this change needs to come soon. The roommate has already moved out and this place is empty. Everything was his. OK I have my bedroom suite and a 2 chairs. Plus he left me a crappy desk. So my living room is bare, except for the chair and desk. And it is going to cost me allot of money to stay here next month. I don't have a choice, I haven't found a place yet and I can't even afford to pay the whole rent for this place.

At least it is clean now. and will stay this way. I am somewhat of a clean freak. OCD clean.

I can write, I can watch anything I want. Only on my laptop. No TV. But I watch everything on this laptop anyways.

I am loosing more weight. Nothing fits anymore. Way to large for me. Baggy.

Anyways I arrived a little early so I could speak with the manager and give her the letters I sent to the complaint office. We spoke and it is all  OK. Mom will be moved next week. So I will have to get their earlier in the afternoon, so I can put mom's new area together. Hang her decorations and prints.

I made mom another good dinner this evening. And mom was hungry. Last night she was a little tired. As mentioned, they give her the medication to early. So by 5:30, mom is tired and not hungry.

New nurse tonight, so mom was given her meds a little later than usual. She ate all of it. Well we were able to read.

I washed her arms, legs and face, as usual. Applied all the different lotions. As quick as I could. You see mom just wanted it done so I could stand there and hold her hand while she fell asleep. I just turn the TV on, sound off, and closed caption on. Evey time I turned to check on mom, she had this beautiful smile on her face.

Mom knows she is moving, and let her know it is only a week away. She understands and can't wait. I am not speaking about this in front of the roommate. I won't even speak about it with the staff, while in mom's room.

I tucked mom in, sang our good night song to her. Hugged her and gave her a kiss goodnight.

Didn't get back until 11 pm. Threw a load of laundry in, waiting for it to finish drying.

Not much of a blog this evening. I am worried about not finding a place, what I will do. 5 days left. The more I write and think about it, the worse things are for me.

I need so much, and all I want to do is be close to mom. I don't care about anything else, but being closer to mom. It is all I think of and dream of. It is in my daily prayers.

I'm done for the night.

GOD bless and goodnight

Kris Schmuland

Life for Life

Hello again

My mother's life is more important than mine. And I can say this with certainty.

Tonight I am just cold. I have no idea why, but I am. And I am getting even more freaked out about finding a place.

Mom was tired again tonight. This time it is due to the fact they gave her the medication to early. And it kicks in and mom is tired, So she doesn't want to eat much. Then after a little while, mom is hungry again. I will have to get mom something for her room, or put a little bit of her dinner a side for latter. Or make her a sandwich for after dinner.

So we had some time before the staff came into put her to bed. I read to her several pages. And after mom got into bed, she was ready to sleep. Mom was fussy and wanted the spa treatment done as quick as possible. Which I  then accommodated her.

When I left mom was completely asleep. Snoring if I do say so. I left a little early, but got home almost an hour latter than normal. I just set my laptop up and started to write this.

I do want to thank the people from the Ukraine who have been reading my blog. I do understand the situation in your country. I read about it daily. Welcome to this mess.

And I also want to thank all, from all over the world who read this as well. Thank you!

Anyways I am very tired, myself, and am just going to warm up my left overs and watch something.

By the way, I was able to get some cutlery today. Wow! it is a big deal to me.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Another day in Raincouver

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Yes that does say Raincouver, on the Wet Coast. Just nicknames we like to call our city and place.

Last night, I was up late making mom here Easter dinner. The Cornish Hen marinated all day in freshly squeezed Orange juice and Honey. Then basted as I cooked it. Plus the other items for the meal.

When I arrived, mom, Mary, was waiting. I could see it in her eye's she was expecting her dinner.. We got all the items from her room. Plates, papaya, avocado and her chocolate. Among other things. I gave her some of all the different drinks she has. And off to the kitchen and set the table for her. It took a little while to warm everything up. But mom just ate and ate. She enjoyed every bit of the dinner. I am so glad. Mom ate just about all of it. Not much left over. Nothing worth taking home.

I didn't make it to take anything home. I expected mom to eat all of the dinner. And this is the best gift I can receive. Mom enjoying me cooking for her. Which she always has!

But mom was very tired again this evening. The roommate was out and didn't get back until late last night. Which means it took a while to get her into bed. Then of course she has to watch TV, with all the lights on.

This is what I mean by the staff just not giving a crap about mom and her needs. They coddle the roommate,. and forget that mom is in the room. Just because she can't speak, doesn't mean she excepts everything that is going on. Come on now,

It took me having to file a complaint and letting them know I am willing to take this even further. To get action. Really!

How is it that no one can see that, from the start it wasn't an appropriate match. Anyways, something is now going to be done about it. And I will let you know when the move is complete.

Tonights spa treatment was quick. I only washed her face and applied lotion. Mom didn't want me to do her arms, legs and feet. I held her hand, but by the time I finished with applying the lotion to her face, mom was asleep. Completely relaxed. Even though mom was asleep, I still sang our good night song to her. She smiled.

Now I just have to find a place and move. it is getting close to the end of the month and haven't found a place yet.

I believe in GOD, but am doubting it now. I pray everyday for help to find a place. The rest of prayers are thanking GOD for healing mom. Mostly I just thank GOD for healing mom. If there is a GOD, HE knows what it is that I seek and need. And I do believe this is a need.

I spend 6 or 7 hours each day traveling, by bus, to visit mom. It is over 200 klms a day. And I have been doing this for 2 1/2 years now.  I have not missed one single day, not a one.

I only want one thing, I would like allot of things, but only want just one thing. To be living in White Rock. Close to Mom. Is that to much to ask for.

It seems so!

I don't care about having anything. As I have previously stated, I have a chair, bedroom suite and my laptop. As long as I have laundry and  WiFi I am fine. I think. OK I will be. Just to find a place, is getting me very stressed out.  Well., I am freaking out. And with this my  OCD is really acting up. With this, when things aren't the way I think they should be ( my OCD) I get upset. I don't need clothing that fits me. Just a place to call home, cook mom meals and lay my head at night. Oh yea, I have a really nice vacuum. LOL!

That is it. Just a place close to mom.  So I can bring mom over, spend more time with her. Once I am living out in White Rock, it free's up many hours of my day.

I want to write a book on care-giving of our loved one's with Alzheimer's and Dementia Since I have been doing this for over a decade. First helping take care of my Grandfather, than my father and now, mom. It has been a challenge at time, but well worth every minutes of it. I have research these disease thoroughly. Read everything I could get my hands on and have been in contact with leading research facilities.

Now I am working on a Crowd funding idea. I will let you know when it is up and running.

I am very tired as well. Being up late and then falling asleep watching something on my laptop. I really should turn the loop off. It wakes me up at 4 am and it is hard to fall back to sleep.

So I will be departing now.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland