I sleep to much on the buses

Hello Canada, USA, Russia, Columbia, Brazil and Germany. Thanks for reading my Blog.

Today I found that it is easier for me to get to White Rock if I go into Vancouver, instead of the more direct route. Go figure. More comfortable buses and Sky Train. And it takes 1/2 hour less. So this is what I am going to do.

I still can't rap my mind around the fact I am going the complete opposite way and around. But still save time. But the best part of it is I am not being sat on. I have this serious problem of not being touched by anyone. And I am completely serious about this.

I has been over 10 years now when this started. It started small but ended up being a problem. My girlfriend broke up with me. Because, well I wouldn't touch her or let her touch me. Yes including sexually. I would not sleep in the bed with her or anything. Then I went on dates and if someone would even brush their hand on my schoulder I would flinch and then that would be the end of the date.

So I have not been on a date in a long time. And I have not been in any kind of relationship with anyone. People like to be touched and I don't. At all. This is very strange and I don't know what started it. And at this point in time I don't care. It is fine with me. I don't need nor want a relationship. I am fine the way I am.

So today on my way to see mom I stopped at a dental office and booked an appointment for mom. Then I get to Ocean Side and I look through the window, while waiting to be let in. And guess what, mom is having a major hallucination. As she has been for 5 days now. This is the result of the medication she is getting.

Now, when mom first got their I had a meeting and in that meeting the director mentioned to me that they know about me and know about my blog and that River View had it shut down. I quickly explained that it was ok, because I had two others going at the same time. Cut and paste, I said. And that they tried to sue me but didn't. And I will continue to write my blog. And that if their is nothing negative to write, then I will write positive criticism. But mom hallucinated as she is. This is not good. Ok this is just down right nasty and against what I believe and have mentioned on so many occasions.

I do not and will not tolerate mom being given drugs that are going to cause such side effects. This I stated right away and will stand by what I write. I have seen it now for days. And it is upsetting mom and mom does not want to be their anymore. This she told me tonight. And tears fell down my face. It is hard to leave her their at night. When I know that the hallucinations are going to continue.

These are the drugs I have been speaking about for years now. How these drugs are dangerous. And can cause serious damage to one.

Now I booked an appointment for mom to have her teeth fixed, as the dentist at River view was just a quack. Now I find out that I might not be able to even take mom to this dentist appointment next week. Because mom is not even allow to go outside. I have been wanting to take mom out around the hospital since she got their. And know one could answer me about this. Don't get me wrong, I do understand that this is a new facility.

But mom has needed this dental work done for 6 months now and is in pain. And I tell everyone about it. Anyone who will listen. Not just the staff. But y'all

Remember world. Ocean Side is reading this. This is how they found out I wanted to have a meeting with the doctor.

You know I do not want to cause problems. Who am I kidding I love to do this. Because it my mother who is having hallucinations, not theirs. So I said years ago and promised my father on his death bed that I will never let anything happen to mom. That I will take care of her. And look after her. And if anything should happen to her I will fight for her and to make sure that it is stopped.

I do not have to state that I have and will continue to fight for mothers rights. I am a man of the I don't care attitude. If it is wrong I will do what I can to make it right.

This is the reason I started the Alzheimer's Dementia Seniors Abuse Action Coalition. I have to make a commitment to something deeper in life and do what matters. Something that will make a difference in this world.

To help, not just my mother, but to do something that will help all the individuals with Alzheimer's/Dementia, I have a cause. And this is the first real thing I believe in and have believed in. My life has been empty, until now. I want to visit my mother everyday. I want to fight for her rights. And if that means upsetting a few people. Oh well. You can't make big changes in this world, without having to make a few waves. And be willing to do so.

Me and my cause are going to go all the way to banning all anti psychotic medication being used on Alzheimer's and Dementia patient. First here in British Columbia, then in all of Canada. Then the world!

I will not rest until we (Alzheimer's Dementia Seniors Abuse Action Coalition.) complete are mandatet rest until we (Alzheimer's Dementia Seniors Abuse Action Coalition.) complete are mandate. I believe that we can re-teach these patients and give them a longer life span and a more enjoyable one as well. One with respect and cognitive awareness.

I do not doubt, anymore, my place in this world. I have found it and I believe my GOD has done this for me. And will help me all the way with whatever is needed and whatever I do.

I am angry right now. I cannot stand that my mother is hallucinating and that I might not be able to take her, to this much needed dental appointment. But we will see tomorrow when I get their. So again I cannot be to angry until we find out what is what.

So tonight I am tired and I am going to just go to bed.

I want to eat, and I am craving, well I don't know what.

Today it was raining in Coquitlam, and I am wearing my typical shorts and no socks. People are asking me why I am wearing shorts, and where are your pants. I always ask  people if they want the truth or a lie. I always ask this questions People do not like the truth. So I tell them the truth,  I have no pants or socks. And this is what I will wear until I get some pants.  You see for years mom has been first and I last. So if I have extra funds, it is used for mom not me. So I go without. Big deal. I still have shorts and I am usually very hot anyways.

Well good night and GOD Bless

Kris Schmuland

I am dazed and confused

Hello

The last few days mom has been lashing out. Upset about something. I think it is the tooth. I have to get her to the dentist. I know this and am trying.

I need to do lots of things for mom and I need to do things for myself. But I am having guilty feeling for trying to do things for me. I still have not have gotten use to the traveling time and scheduling it properly. I do one thing I have to get done and then I am late getting to White Rock;

Today, all I did was drop off my application for reconsideration. And then I ended up getting to White Rock at 4:30 I left my house at 1:30 what is the deal. And where I dropped the application off was on my way. Just got off the Sky Train and walk two blocks, dropped the application off and then walked back to the Sky Train. I mean that was it.

I know White Rock is 50 klms away. But come on.  3 hours to get their. And then I needed to get mom a few things and it was 5:00 when I get their. What is up with this. And then I leave mom's at 7:00 and get home at 9:30. And this is not doing anything and catching all the proper connections.

I put an add on Craigslist for someone to donate me a vehicle. No answer so far. I am asking for someone to reach down into their heart and understand what I am trying to do, by seeing mom every day.  And by traveling this distance.

I love my mother dearly and and will do anything for her. This means traveling to and from White Rock. It is a long distance and the bus is tiering, but I will not stop doing it. I just ask that you all reach deeply into your heart and soul and either help me out. Or pass this on to someone who may be able to.

The province, your church leaders. And friend with a great full heart. etc.... etc.... Someone who is a child of GOD and understands my dilemma.

As it is taking a toll on me. But it is only a week and a half since I have been going. I do have to get use to the transit times and scheduling my time. Getting up earlier. I am trying. I don't know from one day to the next what is going on.

I really need help now. The eating is a separate issue. Yes I do need to eat on a regular basis' but I am not hungry at all by the time I get back.

And then I have to deal with a racist, bigot of a roommate and with the people upstairs screwing with the Internet. So it is going off at 12am and then comes back on at 9am. I rely on the Internet for my entertainment on my phone. That is not working yet. But I am getting bills from Virgin and I am not on a contract with them. That is why I own my own phone, so I don;'t have to be on a contract with anyone of the carriers. I need a phone badly, And I need to get my phone unlocked.

The problem I am having with Virgin is: they sent me to the credit whatever and yet they keep billing me for a 120. per month and I have no contract and my phone is not working.

I just have an expensive paper weight. I keep calling them and telling them I did not sign a contract as it is my phone and would never sign a contract. No three year, two year or one year. Nothing at all.

I need my phone to be able to contact the doctors at Ocean Side. Which seems to be a problem. I want to discuss mom's treatment plan and no calls. I called twice yesterday and no one called me back.

This I can't believe, I keep wanting to take her outside just for a walk.But no answer, no reply, nothing. I thought someone would call back. I can't believe this. And it gets me upset when their is no respect given. I am in charge of mom's health care and I am ignored.

This is why I write. I said that if it is like Valley view I would write what is it I hear or don't hear. I just want to have a meeting with them and discuss my issues.

So far nothing in the form of any kind of response.  I am their everyday and everyone knows how to get ahold of me.

Anyways, I am just beat. I am trying to get ahold of two companies who are trying to get ahold of me. And it could be beneficial,. but they are not leaving me the proper email.

Well I got this done before midnight, in case the upstairs people diside to screw with the Internet again.

So I have to go

GOD Bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Wow it is a long way

Hello

I wrote a long blog last night and I lost it all. The Internet was down in the house. Actually, the room that the router is in, the guy knocks the plug out and out it goes. I tried everything, but gone. I was on a roll and I thought it was very good.

But anyways I don't know what is happening but I am not hungry at all anymore. It should be the opposite. But I guess this is OK. Well it is not. I cannot survive like this any longer. I don't have a choice though. No food, no eating. I do however take allot of vitamins, which I had before this all started. And I take high doses. And I drink allot of tea.

So my mother, well mom is more comfortable in Ocean Side. It is not a prison, as Riverview is. But we have one big problem and that is mom has a sore tooth and needs a root canal. And the dentist at Riverview was nothing but a piece of shit. If it is not bothering her why do anything about it.As with the doctor. I she does not use her left arm, she will loose it. Yes she will, and yes her tooth bothers her. As she tells me daily, I cannot even brush her teeth. It hurts to much. And mom is extremely grumpy. I don't blame her. I have had many teeth that needed a root canal. And dam it hurts. And I can handle pain. Imagine what mom is going through.

This is the reason I wrote and will continue to write about Riverview and how they abused and abuse their patients. They abused mom, They aloud mom to be sexually assaulted and did nothing about it. Oh yea, they lied about it and made things up.

One thing before I continue, is that all the blogs that were on Wordpress are going to be on here very soon.

Now, If I do not get things done, no one will. And this is why I will be a written and verbal support to my mother. Whether it is at Riverview or now at Ocean Side.

Now Ocean Side. I said it is much better than Riverview. But they are continuing to give my mother anti psychotic drugs. As mom is hallucinating. This is one of my main complaints and do you think I can get in touch with one of the Doctor's. No, not a chance. They no my passion and what I will do if this continues. I will write, write and write. boom.

But I will give the doctors a chance to speak with me and try to solve my issues. And this is only going to be a little time that I give them. I am not going to wait forever and that is that.

I told them right from the start that I will only write positive things if we work together to make sure my wishes are met.

AND THAT IS NO ANTI PSYCHOTIC DRUGS PERIOD. I want mom on a healthy diet and allot of vitamins, mineral and supplements. That we will discuss upon our first meeting. Whenever this will be. I phoned twice today and no reply. And I was told that today is a day that they will be in..

Now I have been asking for days now, to be able to take mom out and about the neighbourhood. For us to explore the area together. Which so far has not happened. And now the weather is changing and I want to get mom out before the rain starts.

Now I don't remember if I mentioned about last Saturday's bus trip to White Rock. But OMG it took 4 hours their and 2 3/4 hours back. It was just missing the proper connections. And then on Sunday. It took now time. Well no time means the normal 2 1/2 hours their and the same back.

I even put an ad on Craigslist for someone with a good heart to donate a SUV. And the reason for an SUV is that mom has a wheelchair and I have to put that somewhere and I have to lift mom up and into the vehicle. I cannot lift her into a car. It is to low to get mom in. It is uncomfortable for mom to be bending her head. I also need something with a good comfortable seat, that will hold mom in place. A well formed seat, a well bolstered seat.

No answer so far, But I am going to keep renewing the ad. One day I know something will happen. I am going to write Ellen Degerous again. Maybe she might help. It is 60klms their and another 60klms back. By bus.

Yet I will tell you that nothing is going to stop me from going everyday to see mom. I will continue and do so with a smile on my face.

But I have not taken into account, with my trip, the people who talk to me. Which happens all the time. As today, I get to Surrey Place and I go into the mall to use the washroom and get a cup of tea. When I get in their, two women started talking to me and I guess it was nice but over 1/2 hour latter I get out of their and catch the bus. And I ended up getting to Ocean Side latter than I wanted to.

But the problem with the trip is the pain I feel from the bus jerking around. And this is ICBC and Translink's fault. I am hurt because of a careless bus driver and noting.

I have lost allot of money and continue to do so.

But it is time for me to go. I am extremely tired and have to lay down.

GOD Bless and good night

Kris Schmland

I am writing again,but still not well.

Hello

This last week has been very interesting. The only way I could go and visit mom in White Rock, was to agree that I would go back to the hospital after and spend the nights their. While they see how bad I have made myself. And to pump me full of the, whatever it is they have been giving me to feed me. I can't hold down real food anymore. So I have to continue this for awhile now. I am not well enough to be released.

Yes during the day I come home and go visit mom and then go back for the night to the hospital. And get plugged in again to feed me.

Mom is now in White Rock. The place Ocean Side is a palace compared to ValleyView. It is nice and new. Mom has her own room and washroom.

Getting their is a whole different thing. I have not got use to the bus schedule. But I have not got it down to the point where I can figure out how to get their at a certain time.

Like today, I left Coquitlam at 1:00pm thinking only two hours to get their. Well I got their at 5:00pm That is 4 hours. I had to wait for a bus at Coquitlam Centre then for the Sky Train Then 45:00 minutes at Surrey Central. Then another one half hour in White Rock. Not taking into account the time it takes on the bus and Sky Train. And then over 2 hours to get back. I am at home now and am not going back to the hospital.

I want to sleep in my own bed and at this point in time, I can't hold anything down. So no problem with the eating thing. Still no Groceries. Oh well.  still have my tea. Earl Grey. I get this given to me.

I miss writing this.

I am on the ward with mom and the other patients. It seems that the staff don't have a problem with me. I am getting along with them.

Mom is actually calm. She has given me shit for not getting their when I say I am going to get their. Or for just disappearing for a meeting with some of the staff. Even though I tell her. But I guess she doesn't think it is going to last as long as they do. I don't either. I ant to get back visiting with mom as well. After all that is why I am their.

I will say one thing they knew all about me before I even got their the first day. And right away I had meetings with different people. The director, managers etc... The legal department was spoken too. They knew about my blog and the fact that Riverview had one shut down. All about the situations.

I was even given a workplace safety manual. Describing what is good and bad conduct within the workplace. I thought that was funny.

I told them as long as nothing goes on like it did at Riverview, there would be no need to write anything bad about them. But I will continue to write my blog and will report to all of you what goes on. And if anything negative does go on I will write about it. I explained this to them.

I will not be stopped. But so far so good. Like I said it is a very nice place. Open concept. Bright and airy. Air conditioned. They even have hot meals. Unlike Riverview, which served the food cold.

But Peace Arch Hospital is a very small hospital. The ER is hardly busy at all. Except this one guy has been in the ER most nights when I leave. If he is their again, I am going to ask him if he likes it their or what. Just an observation. It takes about two minutes to walk through the hospital. From when I walk in to use the washroom before I leave to the other side of the place. And about as long to walk from the other side through the Hospital. Small!

I am though very tired from the bus ride. I even put an add on Craigslist to see if I can get a SUV donated to me. Because it only takes 30 -45 minutes to drive their. But the bus has some very interesting characters on it, through Surrey.

And White Rock is nice, but at a much slower pace than Coquitlam. In Coquitlam, I walk slow because of my injuries. And the seniors walk faster than me. But in White Rock, well slow is not the word. Really I do walk slow, but I am at least moving forward.

Well the mall, I did not even know any of the stores their. And they close at 8pm Thursday and Friday. And I think their are more employee's working their than actual shoppers. And trying to find a cup of tea after 8pm well impossible. I can't make hot water at Ocean Side. No place to do so. And no place mom and I can be private and mom eat her fruit.  But that is Ok I guess. I am their for her dinner and that is good.

Well I am just exhausted and I am going to go to bed now

GOD   Bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland