Hello again
As stated, it is bath day for mom. So she was in bed when I arrived and needed a drink or drinks right away.
Which I provided to her in a hurry. It does take a few minutes for me to unpack everything.
I brought mom what she wanted for dinner Fish and chips. And she ate two large pieces of fish and salad.
I love this.
And when we where done, the girl came in and changed mom. By the time I got back from making tea, mom was already half asleep.
I gave her the sap treatment and that was it for mom. I held her hand and stayed there for awhile. So when I sang our good night song to her. She was already asleep.
Nothing new to say about me. So I won't write anything
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Friday, August 8, 2014
Oh a weekend
Hello again
Today is Friday and I was going to bring mom a large dinner, but I remembered that mom is usually tired on Fridays for some reason.
I brought her a good dinner, but not that much. And she barely ate that. I was going to wash her hair as well, but being that tired, I just took her to her room, Got her changed, read to her. Then put her into bed and started her spa treatment. I just finished doing her face and neck when the girl came in to change mom's pad.
Mom likes me to be their when this is happening, but the girl didn't want my help. Then I get back to find mom holding her left arm. Meaning the girl rolled mom over on her left side. I keep asking them and letting them know, this is mom's bad side and when you roll her over onto that side, it hurts her. That is why she holds her left arm. Because it is hurting her.
I finished the spa treatment, and tried to hold her hand, but she wouldn't let go of her left arm. So I held her left hand.
Mom has been staring out into nowhere lately. And tonight, she wouldn't even turn to look my direction when I was leaving.
Maybe it is something I said. I did say to mom that it is almost three years that she has been here and I have been traveling and putting on many, many kilometers. 200 a day for three years.
I hope she doesn't think that it bothers me. NO. Not at all. I would travel twice that distance daily if I had too.
It just freaks me out when she is acting like this. Then I worry and expect a call in the middle of the night.
It just freaks me out.
What I am truly feeling is that GOD is breaking my heart. I don't need help with mom. I want to spend more time with her.
I just wish I could get help with moving, finding a place and a few other things.
I feel like GOD is breaking my heart.
Not feeling it anymore.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Today is Friday and I was going to bring mom a large dinner, but I remembered that mom is usually tired on Fridays for some reason.
I brought her a good dinner, but not that much. And she barely ate that. I was going to wash her hair as well, but being that tired, I just took her to her room, Got her changed, read to her. Then put her into bed and started her spa treatment. I just finished doing her face and neck when the girl came in to change mom's pad.
Mom likes me to be their when this is happening, but the girl didn't want my help. Then I get back to find mom holding her left arm. Meaning the girl rolled mom over on her left side. I keep asking them and letting them know, this is mom's bad side and when you roll her over onto that side, it hurts her. That is why she holds her left arm. Because it is hurting her.
I finished the spa treatment, and tried to hold her hand, but she wouldn't let go of her left arm. So I held her left hand.
Mom has been staring out into nowhere lately. And tonight, she wouldn't even turn to look my direction when I was leaving.
Maybe it is something I said. I did say to mom that it is almost three years that she has been here and I have been traveling and putting on many, many kilometers. 200 a day for three years.
I hope she doesn't think that it bothers me. NO. Not at all. I would travel twice that distance daily if I had too.
It just freaks me out when she is acting like this. Then I worry and expect a call in the middle of the night.
It just freaks me out.
What I am truly feeling is that GOD is breaking my heart. I don't need help with mom. I want to spend more time with her.
I just wish I could get help with moving, finding a place and a few other things.
I feel like GOD is breaking my heart.
Not feeling it anymore.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Thursday, August 7, 2014
A weekend upon us
Hello agian
I didn't write yesterday as I was walking back and forth out in White Rock. Looking at a place past where mom is. Then having to have blood work done for my CT scan that is coming up in September. For my head and neck. The lab was closed in the Hospital, I was going to wait until today, but this lady sitting their told me of a lab up the street. So off I go, the 6 blocks. Have the blood work done, then back I go to see mom. Back and forth I walked.
So when I got home. I was tired. There.
Now today, the doctors office called me. Go figures, I step out to throw some garbage away and they phoned. I couldn't get back to them until after 1 pm. Lunch.
It was my doctor calling about the tests. It seems I have a high white count and something else. He is worried about this. Asked me how I felt, if I was coughing allot. Over tired. I cant' tell him. I am always tired. I travel 3 hours each way by bus. Now I have this to worry about.
I asked him if could be mold related. He needs to see me and check things out. There is mold in the bathroom where I am at. It is getting worse. I have told the landlord about this many time. He is doing nothing about it.I have been taking photo's of it as it gets worse.
Enough about me.
Now being Wednesday yesterday, it was a day of hair style, then I needed to clean her ears out. This took a while. I also needed to cut and file her nails. Mom's left hand is closed into a fist. So I have to open it and keep it open while I cut her nails. It is bothersome for mom. It hurts when I open her hand. Needed to be done.Then the spa treatment afterwards to clam her down. This took over an hour to do. But these things have to be done every few weeks.
Mom was glad when it was over.
The sheets where a mess, I guess when the staff where feeding mom breakfast, they spilled all over the place, today. So it is lucky I brought clean sheets with me today. I had to change the sheets before putting mom to bed. Mom was ready.
Last night and tonight mom ate and ate. And was still hungry. So I gave her more. I like it when mom is hungry. But not when she is this thirsty. It means the staff are not giving mom enough liquids during the day. I will be speaking to the manager about this. Especially now that it is summer and hot.
The last few days I have been trying to read more of the book to mom. The staff have been coming in early and I ask mom, once she is in bed, and we are finished with everything. If she wants me to read to her. NO, she said. I asked if when in bed, if all she wants me to do is hold her hand while she relaxes and she just said yes.
I really want to finish this book so we can watch the movie.
I am staying latter. I just need to. I am still getting home at the same time though. It is a little weird.
OK I do need to go. I have to get up early and get to the doctors before seeing mom. He is going to try and squeeze me in. It could be a long wait.
I will be getting a few bio hazardous bags from the home, to collect a sample of the mold.
Now I really need some help. The pain and the shaking is getting really bad. I need allot of prayers. Prayers so I an find a place ASAP It is becoming difficult carrying everything. My neck and right arm are getting worse. And I am not getting any help from the insurance company. Even though it was not my fault that I got hurt.
I need to be healthy for mom. To take care of her the way she is accustom to being taken care of.
I am loosing money. I have had opportunities to write Representative agreements,but can't because I can't take the necessary notes.
I draw and can't do this. My arm is not steady enough. Nor am I able to write poetry as I did. Ideas come and I need to write them down.
I wish I had adds on this Blog. I use to, I don't know what happened to them.
I will say, mom is very happy that I come and spend time with her. When someone tells her that she has a good son. She squeezes my hand tightly.
I need to go and try to eat something.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
I didn't write yesterday as I was walking back and forth out in White Rock. Looking at a place past where mom is. Then having to have blood work done for my CT scan that is coming up in September. For my head and neck. The lab was closed in the Hospital, I was going to wait until today, but this lady sitting their told me of a lab up the street. So off I go, the 6 blocks. Have the blood work done, then back I go to see mom. Back and forth I walked.
So when I got home. I was tired. There.
Now today, the doctors office called me. Go figures, I step out to throw some garbage away and they phoned. I couldn't get back to them until after 1 pm. Lunch.
It was my doctor calling about the tests. It seems I have a high white count and something else. He is worried about this. Asked me how I felt, if I was coughing allot. Over tired. I cant' tell him. I am always tired. I travel 3 hours each way by bus. Now I have this to worry about.
I asked him if could be mold related. He needs to see me and check things out. There is mold in the bathroom where I am at. It is getting worse. I have told the landlord about this many time. He is doing nothing about it.I have been taking photo's of it as it gets worse.
Enough about me.
Now being Wednesday yesterday, it was a day of hair style, then I needed to clean her ears out. This took a while. I also needed to cut and file her nails. Mom's left hand is closed into a fist. So I have to open it and keep it open while I cut her nails. It is bothersome for mom. It hurts when I open her hand. Needed to be done.Then the spa treatment afterwards to clam her down. This took over an hour to do. But these things have to be done every few weeks.
Mom was glad when it was over.
The sheets where a mess, I guess when the staff where feeding mom breakfast, they spilled all over the place, today. So it is lucky I brought clean sheets with me today. I had to change the sheets before putting mom to bed. Mom was ready.
Last night and tonight mom ate and ate. And was still hungry. So I gave her more. I like it when mom is hungry. But not when she is this thirsty. It means the staff are not giving mom enough liquids during the day. I will be speaking to the manager about this. Especially now that it is summer and hot.
The last few days I have been trying to read more of the book to mom. The staff have been coming in early and I ask mom, once she is in bed, and we are finished with everything. If she wants me to read to her. NO, she said. I asked if when in bed, if all she wants me to do is hold her hand while she relaxes and she just said yes.
I really want to finish this book so we can watch the movie.
I am staying latter. I just need to. I am still getting home at the same time though. It is a little weird.
OK I do need to go. I have to get up early and get to the doctors before seeing mom. He is going to try and squeeze me in. It could be a long wait.
I will be getting a few bio hazardous bags from the home, to collect a sample of the mold.
Now I really need some help. The pain and the shaking is getting really bad. I need allot of prayers. Prayers so I an find a place ASAP It is becoming difficult carrying everything. My neck and right arm are getting worse. And I am not getting any help from the insurance company. Even though it was not my fault that I got hurt.
I need to be healthy for mom. To take care of her the way she is accustom to being taken care of.
I am loosing money. I have had opportunities to write Representative agreements,but can't because I can't take the necessary notes.
I draw and can't do this. My arm is not steady enough. Nor am I able to write poetry as I did. Ideas come and I need to write them down.
I wish I had adds on this Blog. I use to, I don't know what happened to them.
I will say, mom is very happy that I come and spend time with her. When someone tells her that she has a good son. She squeezes my hand tightly.
I need to go and try to eat something.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
A cooler day today
Hello again
Today was cooler outside, maybe I might sleep tonight.
I went to the doctors before going to see mom. My appointment was for 3:30 I didn't get out of their until 4:45. needless to say I was a few minutes late getting to mom's. It was OK. Well mom was anxious to see me. Thirsty and hungry.
Anyways the doctor has no idea why my arm is shaking like this. So I am going to have a CT scan of my head and neck. Then off to a neurologist I go. The more I exercise my right arm the worse the snaking becomes. Yes right. Stop exercising your arm.
He has no idea how or why this is happening. He kept asking me if I had any tremors or shaking before the accident. I assured him I would of noticed if my hand and arm was shaking. And I think you would of noticed as well. After all you are my doctor and have been seeing me for almost two years now.
A seafood dinner for her tonight . Then got her ready for bed, and the girl was in the room to change her. It went so fast. And it was done, The spa treatment and everything. By 7 pm. Early. I read to her in bed for a while. It seemed she had enough of the story for tonight. I held her hand and just let her drift off to a beautiful slumber.
When I sang our good night song to her. She didn't wake up, but she sang a bit of it with me.
NEED HELP!
GOD and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
I wish and pray that I can do more for mom. This is all I want to do. Is to take care of her.
Today was cooler outside, maybe I might sleep tonight.
I went to the doctors before going to see mom. My appointment was for 3:30 I didn't get out of their until 4:45. needless to say I was a few minutes late getting to mom's. It was OK. Well mom was anxious to see me. Thirsty and hungry.
Anyways the doctor has no idea why my arm is shaking like this. So I am going to have a CT scan of my head and neck. Then off to a neurologist I go. The more I exercise my right arm the worse the snaking becomes. Yes right. Stop exercising your arm.
He has no idea how or why this is happening. He kept asking me if I had any tremors or shaking before the accident. I assured him I would of noticed if my hand and arm was shaking. And I think you would of noticed as well. After all you are my doctor and have been seeing me for almost two years now.
A seafood dinner for her tonight . Then got her ready for bed, and the girl was in the room to change her. It went so fast. And it was done, The spa treatment and everything. By 7 pm. Early. I read to her in bed for a while. It seemed she had enough of the story for tonight. I held her hand and just let her drift off to a beautiful slumber.
When I sang our good night song to her. She didn't wake up, but she sang a bit of it with me.
NEED HELP!
GOD and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
I wish and pray that I can do more for mom. This is all I want to do. Is to take care of her.
Monday, August 4, 2014
Monday, Monday
Hello again
Remember that old song.
I want to start by saying this. It is not the traveling that bothers me, it is having to carry so much back and forth. Living their I won't have to carry everything so far.
And it is frustrating me and making me angry that I cannot use my right arm as I did. The Doctor has no idea what is happening.
The insurance company doesn't give a shit.
My arm shakes and I cannot even take things out of my right pocket and put it on a counter without my arm going into spasms. Piss me off. And it is embarrassing.
Anyways, Mom
Today she was extremely tired. Smiles when I arrived, but a little grumpy from being so tired.
It was very warm at the home and cooler in her room.
We ate in her room. I asked her if this is what she wanted to do. And she agreed.
She ate as much as she could. But I know when she is tried as she chews very slowly and for a period of time.
But she managed to eat a fair bit. And her dessert.
Today is Monday and mom usually has her hair done. But being a holiday here in BC, they are not working. So I washed and styled her hair tonight.
I got mom back to her room and changed her, put her to bed and started her spa treatment. Mom wanted me to change her pad. She motioned for me to do this. By placing her hand upon her waist.
I just said that the girl will be right in. But if she is not, when I finish your spa treatment I will do this for you.
No sooner did I wash her face, and before I had a chance to remove the soap, the girl came in. I just rinsed her face and helped change her.
I then continued to finish the spa treatment.
Well as soon as I finished this, mom was already asleep.
She woke up, wanting something to drink, and this I did for her. As soon as she had enough, back to sleep she went.
OK time to leave, after standing there for a while, holding her hand. I packed up and on my way I went.
I am really doubting my faith again. I can't find a place that I can afford, so I thought to see if I can find someone to share a place with. Not even this.
What is going on. I don't want to be here anymore. I have to deal with idiots.
I just want to be living out their. I am becoming desperate. And when one is desperate, they make bad decisions.
Just a place that is decent is all I ask of GOD, but nothing. Not even a hint of help. I read the Bible daily. I have it on my phone and I am reading the old testament again. I never released how harsh it is. WoW!
But I read on.
So mom is my main focus and it should be this way. I want to be able to spend more time with her. She deserves me to spend more time with her.
It seems that when mom see's me, she thinks that it is dinner time and bed time. I need her to know I am their for more than this. She deserves this.
Midnight again and I need to eat something. To hot to cook.
GOD bless and good night. I am hesitant about this.
Kristopher Schmuland
Remember that old song.
I want to start by saying this. It is not the traveling that bothers me, it is having to carry so much back and forth. Living their I won't have to carry everything so far.
And it is frustrating me and making me angry that I cannot use my right arm as I did. The Doctor has no idea what is happening.
The insurance company doesn't give a shit.
My arm shakes and I cannot even take things out of my right pocket and put it on a counter without my arm going into spasms. Piss me off. And it is embarrassing.
Anyways, Mom
Today she was extremely tired. Smiles when I arrived, but a little grumpy from being so tired.
It was very warm at the home and cooler in her room.
We ate in her room. I asked her if this is what she wanted to do. And she agreed.
She ate as much as she could. But I know when she is tried as she chews very slowly and for a period of time.
But she managed to eat a fair bit. And her dessert.
Today is Monday and mom usually has her hair done. But being a holiday here in BC, they are not working. So I washed and styled her hair tonight.
I got mom back to her room and changed her, put her to bed and started her spa treatment. Mom wanted me to change her pad. She motioned for me to do this. By placing her hand upon her waist.
I just said that the girl will be right in. But if she is not, when I finish your spa treatment I will do this for you.
No sooner did I wash her face, and before I had a chance to remove the soap, the girl came in. I just rinsed her face and helped change her.
I then continued to finish the spa treatment.
Well as soon as I finished this, mom was already asleep.
She woke up, wanting something to drink, and this I did for her. As soon as she had enough, back to sleep she went.
OK time to leave, after standing there for a while, holding her hand. I packed up and on my way I went.
I am really doubting my faith again. I can't find a place that I can afford, so I thought to see if I can find someone to share a place with. Not even this.
What is going on. I don't want to be here anymore. I have to deal with idiots.
I just want to be living out their. I am becoming desperate. And when one is desperate, they make bad decisions.
Just a place that is decent is all I ask of GOD, but nothing. Not even a hint of help. I read the Bible daily. I have it on my phone and I am reading the old testament again. I never released how harsh it is. WoW!
But I read on.
So mom is my main focus and it should be this way. I want to be able to spend more time with her. She deserves me to spend more time with her.
It seems that when mom see's me, she thinks that it is dinner time and bed time. I need her to know I am their for more than this. She deserves this.
Midnight again and I need to eat something. To hot to cook.
GOD bless and good night. I am hesitant about this.
Kristopher Schmuland
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Just another Sunday
Hello again
Have to deal with my arm shaking, so I am constantly re typing things. Oh well.
I arrived and it was not as hot in mom's home than it has been, but allot cooler in her room than anywhere else in the place.
Of course the first thing I need to do is to give mom as much to drink as she wants. 8 different drinks. She drinks a little of each. Different tastes.
Then dinner, leftover salad from, and a chicken wrap. Mom just about ate all of it.
Before getting her into bed. I needed to change the sheets. I put her to bed. She didn't want to sit in the chair anymore. The staff came in and we changed her pad. It is easier if I stay and help. Gets done quicker.
And after her spa treatment I read to her in bed for a while.
She was almost asleep and the nurse came in to give her the nightly medication, OK. Then I almost had her asleep again and the other nurse came in to take her blood pressure. By the way she has excellent blood pressure. The nurse said it was better than hers.
I have great blood pressure, but mom's is better. This is a very good thing.
I still haven't found a place. I keep writing to all these adds and no reply. 4 went out before I wrote this. Just shared accommodations.
One women wants to find a place and share it, but she has dogs. Most places don't allow pets or smoking. I will be lying to them about this and will just go onto the street to smoke. Gives me an incentive to quit.
Well there was nothing left for any nurse to do, so I stood their, held her hand, sang to her and mom fell asleep
My blurb. Right arm shaking like crazy. I will be speaking to the insurance company this week and will let them know what it will take for me to settle. I still have no idea what is causing the shaking. And the neck won't turn all the way to the left
Please pray I find a place right away. It is to hard for me to continue to carry everything
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
Have to deal with my arm shaking, so I am constantly re typing things. Oh well.
I arrived and it was not as hot in mom's home than it has been, but allot cooler in her room than anywhere else in the place.
Of course the first thing I need to do is to give mom as much to drink as she wants. 8 different drinks. She drinks a little of each. Different tastes.
Then dinner, leftover salad from, and a chicken wrap. Mom just about ate all of it.
Before getting her into bed. I needed to change the sheets. I put her to bed. She didn't want to sit in the chair anymore. The staff came in and we changed her pad. It is easier if I stay and help. Gets done quicker.
And after her spa treatment I read to her in bed for a while.
She was almost asleep and the nurse came in to give her the nightly medication, OK. Then I almost had her asleep again and the other nurse came in to take her blood pressure. By the way she has excellent blood pressure. The nurse said it was better than hers.
I have great blood pressure, but mom's is better. This is a very good thing.
I still haven't found a place. I keep writing to all these adds and no reply. 4 went out before I wrote this. Just shared accommodations.
One women wants to find a place and share it, but she has dogs. Most places don't allow pets or smoking. I will be lying to them about this and will just go onto the street to smoke. Gives me an incentive to quit.
Well there was nothing left for any nurse to do, so I stood their, held her hand, sang to her and mom fell asleep
My blurb. Right arm shaking like crazy. I will be speaking to the insurance company this week and will let them know what it will take for me to settle. I still have no idea what is causing the shaking. And the neck won't turn all the way to the left
Please pray I find a place right away. It is to hard for me to continue to carry everything
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
It is very hot today
Hello again
It is Saturday, I guess I am caught up in time.
Bath day for mom, and in bed. Though they had the fan on, when I arrived mom was very hot and trying to take the comforter off of her. I immediately did this for her. I really can't believe they had it on her to begin with.Then I gave her as much to drink as she wanted, which I always do. Mom drank allot. No doubt
I wanted to bring her chicken to go with the salads I got her. But this place didn't sell it. Small location. I grabbed something for her. And she had the served dinner.
Even though she was hot, mm ate allot and drank allot more.
I quickly went and did the dishes so I could get back and give mom her spa treatment. Afterwards, I wanted to read to her, but she didn't want this. All mom wanted was for me to hold her hand while she fell asleep. So I packed up and did just that.
I had the fan going until I left. Then mom was asleep. OK not completely. I sang to her, mom sang along with me. And said my good night. Told her I will see her tomorrow, she said yes.
Yes, the other night, we ate in her room. And the next night we were back to our usual spot. One of the girls that help serve the meals, said to me, what happened to you last night, I looked around for you, I thought something happened to you. I thanked her and appreciated the fact that someone knows I am around
Very hot, can't find this other small fan. The one I have doesn't turn anymore. I thought I knew where it was, but not going to look for it. To hot.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
It is Saturday, I guess I am caught up in time.
Bath day for mom, and in bed. Though they had the fan on, when I arrived mom was very hot and trying to take the comforter off of her. I immediately did this for her. I really can't believe they had it on her to begin with.Then I gave her as much to drink as she wanted, which I always do. Mom drank allot. No doubt
I wanted to bring her chicken to go with the salads I got her. But this place didn't sell it. Small location. I grabbed something for her. And she had the served dinner.
Even though she was hot, mm ate allot and drank allot more.
I quickly went and did the dishes so I could get back and give mom her spa treatment. Afterwards, I wanted to read to her, but she didn't want this. All mom wanted was for me to hold her hand while she fell asleep. So I packed up and did just that.
I had the fan going until I left. Then mom was asleep. OK not completely. I sang to her, mom sang along with me. And said my good night. Told her I will see her tomorrow, she said yes.
Yes, the other night, we ate in her room. And the next night we were back to our usual spot. One of the girls that help serve the meals, said to me, what happened to you last night, I looked around for you, I thought something happened to you. I thanked her and appreciated the fact that someone knows I am around
Very hot, can't find this other small fan. The one I have doesn't turn anymore. I thought I knew where it was, but not going to look for it. To hot.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
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