Our days are short

Hello again

I feel deep in my heart I am doing what I am to be doing. And by doing so I may be giving up allot and I don't have the THINGS  other strive to achieve, so be it.

I have more important things. Things you just can't buy. Actual things that will out last anything you could get in any store.

And the respect I get for doing it.

There is not to many people on this planet that would and will do the things I do for my mother. Some try, but find it to difficult.

I am loyal to a fault. When I make a promise that I will take care of someone and be their for them. I will carry this out.

I don't do any of this for the accolades. It is the right thing to do and this is what I am doing and will continue to do.

Whether people think I am in it for something.

Sorry to disappoint you.

My mother needs someone to be helping her out and to take care of her.

It is the right thing to do. Period

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

It was interesting

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Today I bought mom a dry erase board and pen. I want to see if she can still write. I hope she can, but if not we will teach her to write again. I will also find magnetic alphabets and let her play with them.

Something will  work. Just as they say mom won't be able  to bend her legs anymore. I beg to differ. Mom is already bending her legs. We work them out each night. Just a little bit at a time. Just the way we will have mom writing in no time. Practice and patients. This is all it is going to take. And I have an abundance of patients.

I made a delicious meal for mom tonight and she ate all of it. Nothing left on the plate.  Did the dishes, got her changed for bed. Then we sat there and I read more of her book to her. We got through 8 pages tonight. Soon we will be watching the movie. I can't wait and I am sure mom can't either.

After mom was transfered to bed. It was spa  treatment time. Mom just takes it all in and is completely relaxed.

Of course this puts her to sleep, or almost asleep. Which is when I just hold her hand. OK she reaches for my hand to hold onto  while she is relaxing and falling asleep.

That was it.

Nothing new, still in pain. Still can't find a place. And stressed out over it.

I received a ride to the skytrain station this evening and thought, great this guy seems intelligent and I will be able to have a good conversation with him.

NOT  I realized that I have not spoken or had a lengthy conversation with anyone in a very long time. My conversational skills are lacking. I tried.

I don't realize sometimes that I go weeks without having a meaningful conversation with anyone. I am alone and by myself most of the time. Time just goes by.

When I am with mom, I don't speak with anyone but her. Except the occasional conversation with staff, but it is always centered around mom's care.

Oh well, I guess.

I have printed up an add and will be placing them up anywhere in White Rock I can.

So I am going now. Really they say.

GOD bless and good night'

Kristopher Schmuland

Sometimes

Hello again

Sometimes you have a calling to do something.

Sometimes you need to do the right thing

Sometimes you are presented with a rare opportunity in life to make someone's life better.

And this is what I have been given. An opportunity.

And by doing so you don't have everything you want. But needs seem to be met.

I make my mother's life better and she makes mine better.

Yes, it is frustrating sometimes, when I have to coax mom to open up her mouth wider, so I can get food into her mouth. But this is when she is very tired.

I am her arms. I am her voice. I am her warmth, I am her security.

Most people can't and won't do what I do for my mother. They won't sacrifice their lives for another.

I don't believe I am sacrificing anything.

I have been called to do this. I truly believe this.

Sometimes in life, someone has to step up!

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland

And again

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I wish people would write some good comments. But it is OK. I don't waste my head space on the negative. Especially when I have to be constantly repeating myself.

I am told that I am a bully. If you call standing up for my mother's rights and making sure she has the best care possible. That staff are not abusing her.

Then sure I am a bully. I have stated over and over again. That I will do whatever it takes to make sure my mother is looked after properly and is not abused.

If I have to ask twice concerning an issue, I will take action. I have been nice and letting things go by. Asking over and over about something.

Well, no more. Twice is my limit now. If I have to ask twice and something is not done about it, I will take action and do whatever it takes to solve the issue.

Twice has always been my limit, not just concerning mom, but in all areas of my life. I will not stand for incompetence..

Her is an example of something that should not even be an issue. It is just laziness, pure and simple. when they make mom's bed in the morning, they are constantly putting the sheet on backwards. There is a top and there is a bottom.

I put lotion all over my mother's legs and it gets on the top sheet. Now putting the sheet on incorrectly, will cause lotion to get into mom's eye's.  And it is bad enough that they don't seem to understand when I say the lights bother my mother's eye's, this is why I purchased glasses for mom. And when I arrive, mom is not wearing them, and her chair is tilted up towards the lights.

These are a few examples of things that get on my nerves. Do something right or don't do it at all. Plain and simple.

Now tonight mom was over tired, and still awake when it was time for me to leave. It felt so bad that I had to leave. I stayed up until the very last minute. And this caused me to get home at 11 pm. I am OK with this. I tried to stay as long as I could.

Mom ate very well. But she shed a tear at dinner tonight and saying that she was a baby. I reassured mom that she is not a baby and these things happen. That I know she didn't want a stroke to take her speech away or the use of her left arm. But it did. I said I am here to look after her and I enjoy every minute of it. It is not a problem for me at all. I will be your voice and I will be your left arm.

What a pair. mom's left arm doesn't work and my right arm is not working properly. Together we have one set of arms that work. So I understand where she is coming from.

Need to go now. I am very tried today and I have no idea why. OK maybe it is the stress of not being able to find a place..

I need to be out of here by the end of September. The landlord is renovating down here. He gave me plenty of notice.

Well thanks

GOD bless and good night


Kristopher Schmuland

Oh yea, I complain to much. Oh well. No one wrote to me about this. It is just me stating a fact.

A muggy Sunday II

Hello agian

I have not written in a few days, as I have been very tired and trying to catch up on my sleep. Which we all know is never going to happen. But I tried and failed. Still tired.

I get home so late and then I do mom's and mine laundry and write, eat dinner. And try to watch something to relax.

Anyways Friday's and Saturdays are usually the same. Except mom broke her routine, Friday, by being very hungry. I mean mom ate what I made her plus the served dinner. And  her dessert.

It was hot in the home Friday, so we ate in her room, with the fan going. And  Saturday's is bath day, so they give mom her bath, and then put her right back into bed. Which, by the time I get their, mom is so hot that she is trying to pull the comforter off of her bed. And very thirsty.

I immediately give mom plenty to drink. And she drinks allot.

Well today I put the new sheets on mom's bed and she just loves them. Soft and comfy. Almost art deco, I would say.

I made her a nice fish dinner and off to bed she went. Which is the way she wants it. So it is done.

We finished everything really early this evening. Don't know why, but we did. So I just stood with her for the hour, that it is to the time, I normally leave.

I sang allot to her tonight. Just in the mood. I still don't have a place to move to. Yet happy anyways today. Happy to see mom and to see her smile.

Before I go, I would really like to thank all who reads this Blog.


GOD bless and good night.


Kristopher Schmuland

A muggy Sunday

Hello again

First to the comment that I am only doing this so I can get the inheritance  in the end.

I don't know how many times I have stated that I am not doing this for what might come. I hope my mother lives long enough to use up all of her funds and that I have to start paying for things.

I really do think that you are a low life .You have zero compassion for anyone else but yourself. And I know you will not be taking care of your mother like I do mine. You just  don't have it in you to do what I do. I know this by the way your write.

You are not a Christian at all and if you say you are, you are lying to yourself and others. . Honour your mother and father, this is what GOD says to do. This is what I am doing. My mother is alone. Both of my sisters are two busy being selfish bitches to even care about their mother.

When mom was well, they were all over them to get everything they could out of them. I know what they have done to my parents If it were not for my parents they would have nothing at all. They may be in denial of what they did, but I know the truth. And I have all the proof that I need.

I am their visiting mom, because mom needs someone to be there for her. Yes this is the proper use of the two words Their and there.

And for the words latter and later, latter meaning of relating to, or being the second of two groups or things or the last of several groups

Later meaning; at some time subsequent to a given time, afterward

I have admitted that I have always been terrible at spelling, I carried a dictionary around with me most of my life. But grammar is something I am adept at. And it really pisses me off that I have to give a lesson on this. It is you who have no idea how to use these simple words. And sometimes I do use these two incorrectly.

Kristopher Schmuland