I say it is

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I was tired last night when I arrived home, had to download some shows then I went to bed and watched them.

I was late at mom's last night. When I finished with getting mom settled into bed and her spa treatment done. I fixed her wheelchair. I finally got the part for it. Then I sang to her and kissed her good night and left. This was after 8 PM. So by the time I got home last night it was after midnight.

I got paid this week, not much at all, but I bought groceries to make mom dinners. I made her herb crusted cod,with sautéed mushrooms and avocado on the side. She just loved this. Then all she wanted to do was get out of the chair. Which, of course, I did for her. After I washed her, it was very quick for her to fall asleep.

It has been two days in a row that the home forgot to bring mom her dinner. It is a good thing I make dinner for her. And by the time they brought it over, mom had already finished the dinner I brought her and we were packing up. I told them it is a little late and the food is cold. We all like to have hot meals, not a meal served 45 minutes after it was ready to be given to mom. They didn't like this. But who cares. I don't. Two days in a row, this has happened.

And it just so happens that the bitch nurse, excuse me, LPN not a RN has been on. Whenever this LPN is on, mom suffers. She gives mom her medication to early and by the time it is dinner, mom is tired and does not eat well.

Well I now have the Fraser Health complaint department number programed into my phone. So it is time. I am not going to take anymore of this Bull Shit.

This is why it is imperative that I be living in White Rock.  I have bedroom furniture. I  have a chair, I just need pots and pans, plus plates and cutlery. I don't care if I have any other furniture.

Well after midnight again and I need to eat something. I haven't eaten in the last few days. Have been to tired and have gone to bed after getting home. I do have some groceries for myself. So I need to make something now.

This is the second time I have written this blog tonight. Something happened and the first one disappeared on me.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Still a little

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Tonight mom was still not feeling well. They should of left her in bed today. As she barely ate, but she did. And mom just wanted to crawl into bed and relax. Of course this is hard when your roommate has the lights on and TV on all the time. Night and day. And all mom wanted to do was just relax in peace.

It is peace and quit that we all seek. We sleep in the dark, as the lights make for a interrupted sleep. And this causes health concerns.

It is not mom who is going to be moving. It is the roommate. She should not of been matched with mom to begin with, period. And so should my mother have to be moved because of their mistakes. I think not! So it will be.

The one thing they don't seem to get, is the fact that I can be an extreme asshole when it comes to abuse of my mother.

And I have been so preoccupied trying to find a place in White Rock that I have not been dealing with these issues.

And the fact that the home likes to make threats against individual who do not conform to their wishes. Puts things me on edge a bit.

I cannot keep this traveling up. I am in pain all the time. By the time I get home I can barely put pressure on my right leg. I am still having problems with my hearing. As in I am loosing it. Still can't afford hearing aids. I beg for help from anyone.

I will never stop going to see mom, no matter how I feel or how much pain I am in. Just not going to happen. Mom needs me to be their and I need to be their.

The insurance company has not yet decided if they are going to assist me. And yet I still need to go to physiotherapy. No money to cover anything.

My phone is not even working right now, Latter this week it will be.

I am exhausted these days. From the pain and pain killers. I need to take something to help me sleep, but it only keeps me asleep for a few hours and then that is it.

It would be so nice to be able to get home at 8 PM and to eat by 10:00 PM. I don't even know what it is like to go to sleep before 3:00 AM or eat before midnight.

This is why it is so important for me to be living in White Rock. I will not stop asking. I will be putting up a PayPay donation button on the sight.

If and when you see it. Please assist.

Once again it is 12:39 AM and I am just ready to eat. Soup and a grilled cheese sandwich is my dinner. I am OK with this. As I am very tired.

I wish I wish I wish I wish

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Sick

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Today when I arrived to see mom, I could not find her in the dinning room. I looked all over and then found out she was in bed. Apparently, after lunch today, mom became sick. She was throwing up, so they put her into bed. Really sick. All over the wheelchair, then on her pillow cases and comforter. Which all went into the wash.

I went to her room, and comforted her. I gave her something to drink. It was dinner time. As I had to see the doctor before I went to see mom. I had an early appointment, but had to wait to see him. So I wasn't able to get mom anything for dinner. It turns out, this was a good thing. It would of not been wise to feed her anything to harsh.

So we stuck with fruit, cheese, an avocado and her smoothie. Plus of course her drinks. Mom did not even eat her papaya tonight.. She must of been sick. As mom has not missed a day, without eating her papaya. She just wanted to be taken care of. To hold her hand and just let her rest. I only washed her face tonight. Plus put lotion on her face and feet.

I needed to change her night gown and the sheet, straighten her out in the bed. They always seem to have mom to low in the bed. Not the way mom likes it. OK maybe not the way I like mom to be in the bed. I only do it to make her comfortable. They did bring her the dinner, but mom did not want anything to do with it. Just what I had.

I sat with her for a long time, after I fed her, And let her fall asleep before I left. Of course when they came to change her, they woke her up. It took a while afterwards to get her to fall asleep again. But she did, after I sang her our good night song.

This is all I can say this evening. Maybe it is a good thing. I am not going on and on.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

First day of fall

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Well this is the first day of fall and here in Vancouver, it started with a bang. Pouring rain, wind, thunder, cold, sunny. All in one day. That is what it is like here in Raincouver, BC. Canada. I was soaked before I got to the mall. Which is 1 block away. Then cold until I got to mom's

It was bath day for mom today. Sunday. When I arrived mom was soaking wet from sweating. They cover her up with to many blankets. And she is very thirsty. The first thing I do is to wipe her head with a cold cloth, to cool her down a bit and then remove some of the blankets.

Mom has a great appetite. I brought her some pasta and she ate most of this, plus allot of what was served to her. Turkey and broccoli. And of course her fruit smoothie and papaya. And let us not forget her daily Lindt chocolate. And mom has been eating like this for a while now. Which is a great thing.

A new or casual staff member has been praising me about how I take care of my mother. Telling me that nobody that she has seen, takes the time I do. Children of parents I mean. She was telling of a gentlemen whose wife lasted 19 years with Alzheimer's, because of the great care he provided for her.

This staff member also mentioned to me that when mom see's me, it is like a light goes on. She could be tired and sleeping, but as soon as mom hears me or see's me she brightens right up.

I make sure mom is loved and mom knows this. Mom knows I am their to help her and be there for her. And mom knows I will be their everyday. As I have been for many years now.

This is a gift that I have been given.

I have been in extreme pain as of late and again this evening. So I will be cutting this short again this evening.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland