Boxing Day 2014

Hello again

Well it was a bad day. It was a great day, I got to be with mom and take care of her. Feed her dinner, and do what I do everyday for her. Spa treatment, put her to bed.

I needed to try some of the clothing I bought her for Christmas. They fit, but I will take a few back and exchange them for 1 size larger, to make it easier for the care aids. See I am not that difficult. I try to make things work. Yet the care aids, the day time care aids, are just impossible to deal with. Even though I have no idea who they are, never met them.

Even though they have been asked to not tear mom's nightgowns, they continue to do so. And as usual, nothing is done about it. I will be phoning the union, once the holidays are over. It has been months and they are not fixed, as the management stated they would do. Or the what Fraser Health told me they would do.

I will take them in and get them fixed, but this time I am going to have an extra strip added to the underside of the seam. To make it stronger. And I will have the new one's done in a similar manner.

These issues I should not have to be dealing with. Everyday there is something new.

But the most important issue is the abuse. Each time they are not dressing or undressing in the manner in which I described, they are committing abuse. Al Hogg pavilion, White Rock, BC, Canada.

This issue is one that I will be dealing with right away. Since nothing is done, with the management, about this. Time to go over their heads. Which I should of done right away. I do, however, have a police file number.

Now tonight, mom was in a extra touchy mood tonight. Okay, it was I was in a stressed mood and did not want to be touched.

I really don't like to be touched by anyone. I make an exception for mom. But sometimes I find it a bit to much. Yet I do nothing about it. Mom needs to hold my hand, it is her security. Knowing I am there for her. So I just deal with it.

But tonight, others were just to much. To many people wanted to either give me a hug or shake my hand. Which I try not to do at all. I don't like being hugged. Mom is the exception.

So tonight, I didn't feel like cooking, so I just picked up something for mom. Which she really enjoyed. Not as much as last nights dinner.

I did what I could do this year for mom and over the holidays so far and will make mom something nice for new years dinner.

I have been very tired of late, so I will finish now and get something to eat. My tooth is doing a little better so I am able to eat more of variety of things. Not just over cooked rice. I will not be eating rice for a while. That is for sure.

I ask that you pray that I find a place.


GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

Christmas 2014

Hello again

It has been a few days since I last wrote. But I have been busy getting mom's Christmas together. Wrapping presents, and last night cooking her the traditional Christmas dinner. Except it wasn't a Turkey it was a Cornish Game Hen. Done exactly the way a Turkey would be done.

So I have been up very late. The other night, wrapping mom's gifts, I was up until 4 AM, than last night it was 3 AM and then I am up at 9 AM. I left my house today at noon, so I could get out their early.

I arrived at 3 PM. The roads were dead, hardly anyone on the buses.

It is not just the staying up late, I have been carrying extra things the last few days, I mean the last month. The Christmas tree, all the ornaments, and the decorations to go with everything. To make mom's room looking very much in the Christmas spirit.

I do this to make mom feel it is a little bit like home. To make sure she is loved. This is part of what I do. Bring a little bit of home into her life, her room, her dinner.

Well the first thing I needed to do was get mom her drinks, and a little bit to eat. Then we opened her presents. I got mom all the presents I could afford. And I bought allot of things on sale so I was able to get a few more gifts for her. Which was great. Mom loved everyone of them. I saw a tear in her eye. She knows I love her and will do everything I can for her. Everything. I wrapped them nicely.

I cleaned up all of the boxes and wrapping paper. And then it was off to have dinner. There was a nice table cloth left over in the family room, and nobody was going to be using it tonight. So this was our place for dinner.

I had to go off to warm everything up. This took a while. I didn't like leaving mom alone, so I was back and forth with her. As long as I touched base with her, kissed her hand. I thing she was okay with this. I hope so. I really do hate leaving mom alone while I am their. I try not to do this. But I do need to warm up her dinners.

This is my guilt for the night. Having to leave her alone while I warmed up her dinner. I guess I could of brought her with me, while I did this. But mom, with her legs extended out, takes up allot of space. And it is fairly crowded where the microwave is.  The rec person moved it their, A completely stupid idea. It was in the family room and there was no problem with this. Except it bothered the rec person. Whom I cannot stand. She exudes a very scattered and negative vibe. I can feel it when she is within 10 meters of me. And it is not a very good feeling.

I do everything I can to ignore her and keep her away from me. I do not and will talk to her. She is dirty and leaves dirty dishes around for day on end.

Anyways. I finished warming up her dinner and mom ate and ate. Mom ate just about all of her dinner, plus dessert. I just love this . Each holiday I do this for her.

I say this to anyone. The best Christmas present I get each year and for the past decade. Is to make my mother's Christmas the best it can be. To make each and every holiday special. This makes my heart thump and brings a tear to my eye each time I think about her.

I am so happy mom had a good time tonight. Enjoyed herself. Loved the company. Mom is stuck with just me, so I make our time together a special as possible.

I got her ready for bed, put her into bed and then gave her the nightly spa treatment. And since I had nothing to do tonight, I didn't have to wrap anything, make a huge meal or anything like that. I stayed longer than I usually do. I left at 8:30. I arrived home a little later than normal. But that is okay with me.

I just have to make something to eat now. My tooth is getting better and I have been able to eat a little more solid foods. This I am enjoying.

I wrote, I am done, I just need to eat something and relax. Maybe, just maybe I will be able to sleep better tonight. And maybe earlier.

I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and I hope you enjoyed this special day.That our Lord and savior was born. That you were able to have your families together.

This is my Christmas. I spent the day with mom and now I am alone again. I really am use to it. There was my negative. I am always alone so it is no big deal anymore. I have no family, except for my mother. And I have no friends, which I am sure might be my fault. I am busy traveling to and from seeing my mother. I don't have time to keep friends or make new ones. I am sorry for this. But I am unwilling to stop doing what I do for my mother. No matter what. Even if this means being alone all the time.

Again Merry Christmas

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

Christmas is near to us,

Hello again

Just a few days left until the big day. Hope you are all ready for it. I'm not. I will wrap what I have for mom this evening, then Christmas Eve, when I get back at this place, I will cook mom her Christmas dinner.

I don't have to worry about eating any of it. As I still can't eat anything but soft foods. Even that hurts. The pain is either going away or I am getting use to this tooth pain. But I now have a major headache.

Wrong time of the year for this to happen. But that is the way it is and the way it shall be.

I have managed to get mom a few gifts this year. So I know she will like them. This is all that counts, isn't it.

I am thankful I get to spend another Christmas with my mother. She is healthy and as happy as she can be, considering her circumstance. Stroke, Dementia, stuck in a wheelchair, completely reliant on everyone else for all your needs.

I don't know about you, but I would be pretty upset, Okay, pissed right off at this. But mom goes about her day with a brave face. I do hope that she looks forward to me coming and helping her out. It is the most important thing I have and am doing in my life. Nothing compares to this. And I don't think anything will either.

I do look forward to being their and taking care of mom, everyday. I don't complain about the travel. I just wish to live out their to spend more time with mom.

It is such a waste for me to be traveling all the time it takes me to get their. This time could be used to help mom out even more.

I can't ask enough times to pray that I find a place close to mom, which I can afford.

Anyways mom has a great appetite and ate all of which I brought her today. Plus some. It makes my day, just being able to cook for her. Even though I can't eat right now, I still am making her dinners.

Tonight and the last few nights, I have been putting mom to bed. It is not fair to  her that she has to sit in her chair for the extra time it takes for the care aid to come in and put her into the bed. She just wants out of the chair.

I stayed with her latter this evening as I needed to leave early last night. Got home early as well. Doesn't make sense. I stayed latter and got home earlier. Weird or what.

I am disappointed that mom's daughters can't take the time to be. You know what, I am just happy I can make mom's Christmas enjoyable. I will and will continue to be there for her.

I see the look of disdain on her face.

But I think I will give this a break for a few days. Until Christmas Day.

I want to wish each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas.

May each of these days be filled with laughter and joy. That you and your family take the time to enjoy each other. It is so precious an opportunity.

Give to your fellow man, those that are in need of cheer. Search out the one;s who really need a kind word or a gentle hug. Say hello to the one's you otherwise would walk by.

Let GOD's light fill each and everyone of your souls. That it shines forth so everyone see's that you are of GOD, born of GOD.

I wish to say thank you everyone for reading this Blog. I do appreciate it, very much. This makes me want to continue to write. Thank you!

God bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

4 days until Christmas eve

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So it has been interesting. Nothing being done as they promised to do. To take care of mom's nightgowns. Fix them. This is, of course, exactly what I knew would happen. The meeting was just a waste of my time. Nothing came from it.  They still are abusing mom, by grabbing, lifting and moving her left arm. I have mentioned how I want them to dress and undress her. Any other way, but the way I prescribed, is abuse. I know exactly when they have been abusing her.

Once I stated this is the way I want mom to be dressed and undress, Then any action other than what I have prescribed is abuse.

They staff continue to tear mom's nightgowns. A few more centimeters and they will be torn completely up the back. And will be open in the back.

This is the kind of nonsense I live with. They staff can do anything they want and nothing will happen to them.

Now for the lift bar to the side of the head. I will have these and every other photo of bruises to mom, blown up to 8 x 10 and have several copies made to distribute to all who will listen. I mean everyone. I will be calling the news papers and stations. I will seek out legal aid. Speak with the Human rights Tribunal and coalition. MLA, MP etc........................

I have a new goal and that is to take them down a few notches. I want at least the person who has been abusing mom, fired. I want mom's nightgowns replaced and I want the staff to follow my instructions on the proper way of dressing and undressing mom.

As for mom. She has had a very good appetite the last several days. Which is good. And she has not wanted the served dinners at all. I ask and she clearly states NO.

Still tired though. I think the new roommate( who I asked to be moved weeks or even a month) is constantly ringing the bell for someone to do something for her. She is now always asking me to do something for her. She is interrupting the conversations I have with mom.

Over all mom is doing very well. Healthy. I love the fact that as soon as she grabs my hand, she is comfortable enough to close her eye's and relax. She is now safe......

Bath day today, so she was, as usual, in bed when I arrived. Made her a good dinner, then changed her sheets and gave her the nightly spa treatment. This is before the care aid came in and changed her. But by this time mom was so relaxed.

Clean sheets, fresh nightgown, spa treatment. Including a neck massage.

OK I am trying to come up with the funds to get mom the half tray so it will stop her from leaning. I will, I hope, get this solved ASAP. Mom really needs it. Dealing with the PGT is a nightmare. I spoke with the Canadian wholesaler, who distributes to all the medical companies. Explained my situation. They have agreed to sell it to me at a wholesale price. One in which the companies pay. Need to raise the cash.

I am also trying to help mom with her left arm and hand. She clenches her left hand. And I need to find something to put in her left hand to help her exercise it. To help keep her left hand from getting to stiff and she can't open it anymore. I found the solution and ordered it. This is going to take the last of my funds. But oh well. Whatever mom needs to assist her with her needs.

But I left tonight and mom had this beautiful smile on her face.

So I have an abscessed tooth. and it has been this way for a week now. I have antibiotics for it. But it hurts like crazy to eat, drink anything hot or cold. I have to keep my mouth closed, as the cold air hurts. You know, tooth pain! Ouch! I am barely eating, Nor can I even smoke. Hurts to breath in and out. I can only eat mushy foods. I have been living on rice. And I have to over cook it, so it is really soft. I have tried to eat other foods. But no, not going to happen. I know everyone knows exactly what I am talking about. My lip is even numb, where the abscess is.

OK, time for some rice. I put vegetables in it tonight.See how that works out. They were steamed until they were very soft.

I AM HUNGRY AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.  It is not like I don't have any food. I just can't eat it. Even crackers hurt. At least I have cut down, way down, on my smoking. I want one now, But I know the pain I will have to endure to feed the fix.

I have done what I can do for Christmas for mom. A few gifts, some chocolate and stocking stuffer's Her room is all decorated. Everyone thinks the tree is beautiful. I have empty gift boxes under the tree, and people are checking them out. I come in each day to find them all moved around.

I will make her a stuffed Cornish Hen for Christmas dinner. I have it and mostly everything else for the dinner. Except the Brussels Sprouts and potatoes. I will get them when I go and get mom more fruit. Tomorrow, perhaps.

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland