Another Saturday

Hello again

I arrived to find mom in bed, but of course, it is bath day, and the staff changed mom's sheets. OK, just the pillow cases. And put on the horribly uncomfortable sheets that they supply.. If you put the pillow cases on, why the hell don't you put the sheets on. To much trouble I would assume.

And they had blanket after blanket on mom. It was 30 c today. The window was closed. Mom was very hot. Now this is what I mean by they don't care how uncomfortable someone is. They are not in there giving mom something to drink. They don't even put her TV on. And if they do, they don't remove the cover on the side rail, so she can actually watch, see the TV.

This happens every Saturday. At least today they had music playing for mom. Better than most days.

I unpacked as quick as I could and uncovered mom, gave her as much to drink as she wanted. And put a cold compress on her head for a few moments. Just to cool her down. By GOD she was burning up, from to many blankets on her.

OK, now mom was hungry today, which is a very good thing. I made mom a beautiful omelet. I was given these eggs straight from the farm, they had a bright orange yoke. When I cracked them open, it freaked me out. I thought the yoke were full of blood. I am use to that pale yellow yoke. Chicken, crameni mushrooms and three cheese omelet. Mom ate the entire thing, and an avocado, plus some of the dinner she was served. I was very happy about this.

I put a movie on for her. Oh yea I bought her a blue ray player. I think I mentioned this before, but maybe not. So I put a movie on for her. It looked great on her TV. This laptop is obviously not HD. But, yes but. Mom likes to hold my hand the entire time I am their. And when she holds my hand, she closes her eye's. '

It is funny, I hold her hand, her eye's close. I let go of her hand and her eye's open. Mom is so trusting that she will eat with her eye's closed. Knowing that I won't just shove food into her mouth. I wait until she is finished chewing.

It doesn't do any good when I put a movie on. After awhile I just turned it off. I will have to come earlier for us to watch a movie with her. Well before dinner.

Then it was the usual nightly routine. Spa treatment and then I just stand and hold her hand while she falls asleep.

Me, in serious pain today. My shoulder and right arm are just inflamed today.  My right arm is just shaking away.

I started life as a right handed person. I am now becoming a left handed person. I am not impressed with this. But using the other arm, rather than your dominant arm, lights up different areas of the brain.

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

It's True

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I am the luckiest man around. Maybe not be lucky in love, or lucky in winning anything on the lottery, or even finding a place.


But I am the luckiest man around because I get this opportunity to take care of my mother. And to do it well. Yes it because I have been in several accidents and have been injured. So I am disabled and now have the time to do this. I would  do this even if I wasn't in these accidents. None of them my fault.


So today I arrived in White Rock early and was able to get some of my flyer's up around the town. I got to mom's a little early as well, giving us time to visit before dinner.

And mom ate allot tonight and was still hungry afterwards. So I gave her some yogurt. Actually, I asked mom is she was full and if I could put everything away. It was after she had dessert that she realized she was still hungry. Usually dessert will fill her up. She saves room for dessert.

It is or was Friday and I wash her hair on this day. Which I did after doing the dishes. Then we were able to read more of our book. We both are waiting for the end so we can watch the movie. I will come early and put it on in the dinning hall for all to see. Or just in her room.

Haven't decided yet. Up to mom anyways..

Got her into bed, and by this time, she was given her nightly medicine. So almost right after her nightly spa treatment, mom was already falling asleep.

Then I realized it was 8 pm, no wonder she was falling asleep.

Then here I am

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

Back to normal

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Today mom seem in very good spirits. Back to her normal self. And she was hungry.

Ate everything I brought her for dinner. And then some. But I try to keep it under control. Not to much. Yet I don't want mom to go hungry, yet I don't want her to get full..

It was normal today. Feed mom, got her changed for bed, Read to her, put her clean clothing away. And after she was in bed, the nightly spa treatment.

Normal. Except I stayed allot latter than I usually do. I just wanted to stay and hold mom's hand until she was completely asleep. Feel the love.

People say I am trying to get something out of this. I don't know what. except the warmest feeling one could get. Inside.

It is beautiful to be able to be doing this for my mother. I wouldn't have it any other way.

I wouldn't want to be doing anything else but this with my time.

There has never, in my life, been something so important, as to look after my parents

I don't have children, not married, no friends. I am disabled. Perfect opportunity to be doing something that matters in life.

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland

Feeling better.

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Today when I arrived at mom's, she still seemed a little off pudding. But when it came time to give her something to drink. She drank more than the last few days.

Then at dinner she ate most of her dinner that was served and some of what I brought. And she ate her chocolates today.

This was a very good sign. But her hair was dirty and greasy. So, being Wednesday, I took her and washed her hair.

Mom really enjoyed this. This made her feel better. I got her ready for bed, covered her up in a nice warm blanket and continued our book. After a few chapters the staff came in to put mom to bed. With this girl, she doesn't get me to help her out. So I went and made some tea.

After I returned, it was spa treatment time. This mom just loved. feeling better as she did, made it much more enjoyable experience for her.

As mentioned before, I have been working on getting her legs to bend. I can't believe how much progress we are making with this. I thought it would take many months to get where we are now. A good thing.

She received some adaptive clothing today. This clothing is not only expensive, but extremely ugly. But what I picked out was not that bad, mom liked it.

Can you believe this..... $44.00 for three undershirts. I can get a whole boat load for that price. Won't be doing that again.

So mom is feeling better, and I am glad about this.

I freak out and worry when mom is not well. And I am extremely guilty about not living closer to her.

GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland

Well mom is under the weather

Hell again


I arrived today to find mom very tired and hot and sticky. And then cold and clammy. I gave mom as much to drink as she wanted, which was not as much as usual.

And being Tuesday, we ate in her room. This was better anyways. Mom really didn't want to be around other people and the noise. She just wanted peace and quiet. Some light music. Relaxing Jazz of course.

I knew as soon as I saw mom she was sick. She barely ate any  dinner. Didn't want her kiwi or even her chocolates. ( Which she never turns down unless she is sick)

The nurse checked her temperature and blood pressure. All was well, she said. I just explained to her that I know my mother and she is sick. She may not have a temperature, but she is sick, none the less.

Mom was shaking, cold and hot. I needed to put a blanket over her, while she was eating diner.

Afterwards, I got her changed and ready for bed. The staff came in and put her to bed. Then I quickly gave mom her nightly spa treatment, which I did not give her last night, due to her getting sick. .

She was fussy about it. I just held her hand, gave her a little bit more to drink. It just so happened I had bought orange juice today. Worked out perfectly.

I just stood in the dark and held mom's hand until it was time to leave.

That was it.

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland

I can't wish enough

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Today mom seemed off a little. She wanted for me to bring her salad, but then did not want to eat it.

She was full, in both ways.

After dinner changed mom and then read to her for a while. I finished reading several chapters to her, then just sat holding her hand waiting for mom to be put into bed.

The staff member came and put mom to bed. When she was finished I went back to the room. As soon as I did, mom started to threw up. And threw up she did. Over and over again.

I don't know what it was that made her sick, but want ever it was did not agree with her. She was shaking and cold.

Mom threw up all over her pillow cases and sheets. I grabbed towels and was trying to clean it up and to hold a towel under mom's mouth while she continued to throw up.

She finally stopped.

Oh yea I called for a staff member to come and help me. We got the night gown off of her, the sheets off of the bed and wrapped her up in warm blankets. Until we knew mom's stomach was OK.

After a while we put a clean night gown on her and clean sheets. I just let the sheets go to the laundry. We have two more sets.

I didn't give mom her spa treatment. Didn't want to fuss with her. In case she  got sick again.

Mom threw up several times. I just stood there reassuring her everything was OK. Not to fret. I held her hand, spoke to her, calming her down.

Now this is the part that upsets me the most.

The time I am needed the most, is when mom is sick. I should of been able to sit with her for hours. As I did when she was in the hospital with a broken hip. I stayed there and just held her hand.

Because I am 3 hours away, and needed to wash her new pillow. I had to leave. And this is upsetting me. Mom being sick and I could not stay.

I wanted to stay, if I lived in White Rock, I would of stayed until I new she would be OK. I would of stayed all night if I needed too.
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I don't know what to do about this. I have adds on Craigslist, Nothing. I am now putting a add anywhere I can think off.

I am going to go to all the churches, the rec centre. I have one up at one of the rec centres. The MLA's office. Even to the local news paper to see if they have a bulletin board.

Please pray for me.

Really I am not a bad person. Though some of you think I am a peace of shit. I could agree with that.

But mom is my life and I need to be close to her. For reasons as tonight

GOD bless and good night.

Kristopher Schmuland.

Ba Dee Ba Doo

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That is all I could think of for a title.

A BEAUTIFUL THING

It is a beautiful thing to be able to sit with mom, hold her hand, and read to her.

It  is a beautiful thing to hold her when she is feeling alone.

It is a beautiful thing when all she wants to do is hold my hand.

To reach out for it.

To know I will immediately reach back for her hand

To know that she is never alone,

as long as I am around.

It is a beautiful thing, that she smiles at my singing,

and enjoys it, even though at times it is at best, OK.

It is a beautiful thing that mom speaks to me,

knowing I will understand her.

It is a beautiful thing that mom knows I will be their everyday.

Waiting for me to arrive, listening for my voice, reaching out her hand,

acknowledging she knows I have arrived,

and everything is OK.

It is a beautiful thing,

she still laughs at my goofiness.

It is a beautiful thing,

when I see the life in her eye's.

Her spirit being alive and vital.

It is a beautiful thing,

I have been given an opportunity,

to make sure the rest of her life has meaning,

and there is someone who makes it a little bit more enjoyable.

It is a beautiful thing,

I get to have this time.

To spend showing mom I love her.



GOD bless and good night

Kristopher Schmuland