Again the same

Hello again

So once again I am told I will be blessed for what I am doing for my mother. First off I don't do anything for mom for a return.

Second, I don't give a crap what happens to me once mom passes away. I only care about what happens now. That mom is alive and OK.

My life for the last 10 years has been looking after my parents, first dad and now mom. This is what I do and  am happy for doing it.

Any blessings should come now, not after. It is needed now, not after. Mom deserves more now, not later. Mom  deserves to be treated well now, not later. Mom should be taken all over the place now, not later.

I need to do more for mom, now, not later. Take her out and do more and more things for her and with her. I don't complain about the traveling, I only say it takes a very long time to get their and back. But I will never stop doing this.

I complain about having to live with alcoholics that don't give a crap about anyone else but themselves. I  complain about not being able to find a place in White Rock. I complain about not living closer to mom. It is not easy wanting to do as much as you can for your loved one, only to be stuck and not getting what is required to give mom the life she deserves.

I need hearing aids and was turned down again from my appeal. Now to take it to the next level. Another appeal.

I am also getting frustrated that every time I go to the doctor, he finds something else wrong with me. And yet I can't get on disability. Upsets me greatly.

So to finish, mom Mary was in a good mood today.  We had dinner, she is eating better and more. Which, of course is a good thing. I got her ready for bed and put her in bed. I was to wash her hair again today. But I just can't do it after dinner. Mom is just to tired.

But I will do it tomorrow/today Saturday. I hope to get their early, to take mom out for a walk.

So I need to let you go for now.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

A little different

Hello again

So I mentioned about a place in White Rock. A one bedroom basement suite. I went and looked at it and it seemed OK. Well it was $500 a month, small place.

But I did mention they contacted me about this place and called me back telling me that they were not going to rent it out until they spoke with me and I had a chance to see the suite.

I did and I thought it went well.

I called the owner the next day and she tells me that I don't have an income and it is to far and hard for me to walk to this place.  I corrected her, informing her I had an income, not allot, but an income none the less. And it is less of a distance than that I walk to the main bus loop by this home where I stay presently. And I walk all the time.

We left it at that, She said she would get back to me. As an add is just coming out in the paper and on Craigslist.

Well she called me today, I didn't answer, but she left a message. In the message she stated that I am to old an need someone with a full time job.

I wanted to call this women back and give her the gears. But a few moments later, this came to my mind.  A passage in the bible.

Jesus, chose the 12 and sent them on there way, and told them when you enter in to a house, bless it and if they do not receive you, when you leave. Shake the dust from your feet. It is better that they be in Sodom and Gammora than to be this house. OK I am paraphrasing. But you understand what I am saying.

Just saying

So today I brought mom a 3 cheese omelet and bacon plus toast. I made her a new smoothie. A field berry smoothie.

Well Mary ate 3/4 of her omelet and 4 pieces of bacon and a slice of 12 grain toast. And half a glass of the smoothie, with the Vega one in it. Plus a papaya. She enjoyed it. I had her usual dinner music playing and she had her eyes closed while she ate.

I just gently touch the fork to her mouth, she knows. Mary enjoyed every bit of her dinner.

I washed her hair before dinner.

I am ashamed that I cannot afford a proper place, I am ashamed that I am still in Coquitlam, when I should be in White Rock.

I love my mom. Mom raised me and it is my turn to look after her. It is as simple as that. Money is important. But my mother is more important. It is I have disabilities. And with this comes a blessed opportunity to do what is right in the eyes of our Lord.

I would never trade any amount of money for this. To be able to take care of my mother. Sure I would like a few things, but I will gladly go without for mom's sake.

Most people are afraid of this illness and run the other way. They are not sure what to do, there loved one is changing. But I run towards this. And have with my father and now my mother. I know mom is changing, I know there is no cure for this disease.

It doesn't matter to me. I love mom the way she is just fine. And I am not afraid of the changes that are taking place. I will be their for her through all of the changes and be their for her no matter what.

The only wish I have is to live in White Rock, close by the home. To be able to bring mom over.

I changed my add on Craigslist to reflect the fact that I am disabled and have an income and I take care of my mother. Full Time.

OK I am really tired. I can't get a good nights sleep with this women living here. She and her boyfriend keep waking me up at night. No matter how many times I ask them to keep it down.

It is becoming relentless. It is causing me to become overly tired.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Better

Hello again

Recently I asked the staff if I could supply a tub of the Vega One, and to divide it up between her 4 daily medication distributions.

They faxed off the label to the doctor for approval. And I heard back today. Now I need to get another tub and that has already been approved. Thanks to the PGT again.

You see, I put a scoop in each of the smoothies I bring mom, but it is not enough. Mary needs a daily amount of this supplement to make sure she gets the proper amount of her daily nutritional allowance.

I am getting mom to eat a little more each day. She is consuming her smoothie, which is helping her greatly.

But there is a medication issue that I need to address. That being, when given to Mary, after about a half hour, when the medication kicks in, mom does not want to eat anymore. I do get her to eat more. Though it is a struggle

I just keep letting her know that we have to eat.  That it is necessary to keep her healthy and active.

I am massaging her inner hand, the left hand, and it is loosening her hand. It is relaxing the hand. It seems that mom's arm is becoming better. She is using it more and showing me that she can use it and move it.

A short blog this evening. I am just tired tonight. The alcoholic roommate woke me up again last night at 2:30 am fighting with her boyfriend.

I am tired of asking her to keep it down. She just doesn't listen or it is she just does not give a crap what anyone says. That is a typical alcoholic attitude.

I really need GOD to help me find a place. I can't live with anyone anymore. It is to difficult. I need to live on my own. It is best for mom that this happens. Having a roommate won't work bringing mom over for dinner or lunch. Especially if it is their stuff.

So GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A better day

Hello again

Today was Mary's bath day. And they put her in bed, right after they give her a bath. Yet they don't leave her stereo on, nor do they put her TV on.  So mom just lies there, bored.

This I would say is abuse. And on top of this I have asked them over and over again, not to put her into bed after her bath. Mom is in bed enough as it is.

They don't get her up until, just before noon. And then I put her into bed at around 6:30 pm. And she is asleep by 7:30 pm.

But not on the days when this nurse that abuses people, is on. She usually gets her final medication of the day before I leave at night. But when this nurse is on, it is not until after I leave. At this point they have to wake here up, to give her the medication.

When I finish washing mom's face, legs and arms. Then putting lotion on these area's and giving her a lower leg and foot massage, mom is now completely relaxed and falling asleep. I hold her hand until I leave at night.

This is what she wants. Mary wants to hold my hand from the time I get their. This is a comfort and security act. Knowing I am their for her.

Before I continue, I would like to thank the PGT for supplying funds to get mom the nutritional supplement Vega One, to add to the smoothies I make her.

Anyways back to mom.

Now mom, as you are aware, has not been eating much. The staff are having a hard time feeding her. But I am getting her to eat. The Vega One helps. But I have been bringing her some other things as well. But she is also eating her dinner the home provides.

All of this is a good thing. Mom is eating.

This is why it is important for me to move out their. To go there at lunch time and feed her then as well as come back for her dinner, to feed her and get her into bed.

To date mom has only been put into bed by me. Except for once, and that didn't work out to well.

I am looking at a place tomorrow, The place I mentioned, where I can afford the rent, but not the utilities. So very close, but just out of reach.

A one bedroom, living by myself. Close to mom's home. OK I have no furniture. But that is alright. Again, I have a bedroom suite. There are places where I might be able to get the rest of what is needed.

A while ago, I placed an add on Craigslist, for anything and everything. Explaining I have nothing and need everything for a place.

Well I received a reply from this one individual, who tells me there is a place where I can go and pick out what I need and they will deliver it.

So I will be digging through my email to find this person and writing her to get the information.

One thing, this home, that I am looking at tomorrow, is a Christian home. They are the one's whom contacted me. I put an add on Craigslist, again. Looking for a place in White Rock and explaining my circumstances and what I need and can afford. So the daughter in law wrote me telling me about the place. I wrote back and the owner, which is the mother in law contacted me. I didn't even get a chance to give them a call back, when the mother contacted me again today. She let me know that there has been interest in the place, but they past on them, that they wanted to speak with me and see me.

The mom gave me the son's number and I contacted him this evening. So tomorrow after I finish with my visit with mom, I will walk down there.

So I pray tonight, that if this is the place for me, I will ask GOD to help supply me with the additional funds I need to pay for the extra costs until I get on disability. So please pray for me, or even send help my way.

I need to cover the extra cost for at least 1 year. As it will take this long to battle to get on disability.

I need to go to bed now.

The alcoholic women kept me up last night again. OK woke me up at 5 then 7 am. As she has been doing each and every weekend, since she moved in.

I can't live like this. Not good for me.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland