Hello again
I have been not well, and needed time off from writing, not only this blog, but on twitter as well. I don't use Facebook at all.
So today mom was not aggressive at all. For the last week mom has been upset, overly tired and angry. I have been hit so many times over this last week, it is not funny. There is nothing to be done about it. Except to keep telling mom that I love her.
This is part of the disease. So as a caregiver, her primary caregiver, I need to accept it and just tell her I love her, over and over again. Try to block her punches and slaps as well as I can without having to grab her.
Which I would never do, not in a million years. I will get hit over and over again, without doing anything about it. It is OK. I know what the disease is like and what happens over time.
Playing music for her, helps calm her down. Especially Diana Krall. This is what she listens to every night, while I get her ready for bed, while I give her, the nightly spa treatment and I put her stereo on, when I leave. I have a card loaded with all of Diana Kralls albums. I put my phone on her chest, while getting her ready for sleep.
I have tried to give mom some nice things for food this past week. I made an omelet for her yesterday with potatoes pancakes. She loved this. I also brought her a 7 layer dip with butter buns. This mom loved as well. Plus her fruit.
So for me. Ever since the roommate punched me in the eye I have had a headache and some blurred vision.
I don't feel safe here anymore. I am looking over my shoulder when I leave and when coming home at night. I don't trust this crack head. He told me he is going to get some friends after me.
I don't feel safe.
I need to move and so far, no one even gives a crap that I am not safe. I need to move and have no money to do it. I really have nothing.
Anyway I am going to sign off now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
