Hello again
Well mom is getting back to normal with her eating and swallowing This is great news. But she is stiff. The Lorazapam helped her with the stiffness, but it made her to tired. I am glad that I put a stop to that.
Anyways, I am finding it more and more difficult to leave at night. I just want to stay and hold mom's hand until she is completely asleep. Tonight, I thought she was asleep, I moved my hand to start to pack up and out reached mom's hand to grab for mine. So sweet. I grabbed her hand again and said to her I need to pack up. Being asleep and knowing I let go of her hand.
It is just to much for me to know I can't stay and I want too. Someone emailed me with a place but it was fake. They did get my email address though. I usually use a different email address for things like this. I used my phone, doesn't have this alias.
Now mom did eat well and I put the music on for her. Mom really was enjoying it. The care aid even noticed mom moving to the music. I was singing away to her. Dancing with her. She just completely relaxed.
I sang our good night song to her and finished packing. Then left. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE IN COQUITLAM ANY MORE. I NEED TO BE OUT IN WHITE ROCK.
It is a short blog tonight. I have things to write about the PGT but not tonight. I am calm now and don't want to get myself all pissed off.
So I need to go
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Sunday, September 13, 2015
Oh Sunday Oh Sunday
Hello again
Well mom is doing better since being removed from Larazopam. Her appetite is coming back. She is chewing and swallowing better.
But yesterday, after mom's bath mom was getting sick. Not once but several times. I was told this when I arrived. She was cleaned up and then she got sick again. Her sheets were changed and then she got sick again. So they gave mom a gravel. Now by the time I arrived mom was doing OK. But I took it easy with dinner. I didn't push her to eat. Well I never do. She only eats as much as she wants. And after mom was very tired. She didn't even want to be changed into a new nightgown. The hospital gown was fine with her. All mom wanted was to hold my hand and just relax. Unfortunately, I had to leave before I wanted too. This is a real piss off for me. All I wanted to do was to just stay and hold mom's hand. To make her feel secure and to know someone was there that loved her. It is a great feeling but one that had to end early. I am not impressed that this is still happening. Almost 4 years now. And I still cant' find a place.
Sure I can find a shared accommodation, but everyone I have looked at, I wouldn't trust the people. I have already lost to many things because of roommates and family. Valuable items.
So tonight mom was up and about, A nice smile on her face when I arrived. Down to her room we went. And gave her drinks and feed her. She didn't eat all of her dinner, but most of it. Didn't push her. And she had her papaya and chocolate.
I don't have anymore papaya to last until Wednesday, but her chocolate I do. Haven't been able to catch up since I needed to throw everything away, because of the power outage. And do you think the PGT even gives a crap. NO
The case manager has not written me back. The manager has not written me back.. This is the lack of respect. I get. Discrimination.
Mom needs clothing repaired, she needs a new lamp. It is getting harder to give mom her spa treatment at night now. She has a roommate and she goes to bed before mom. So the lights need to be off And the overhead lights are to hard on mom's eye's. The one ceramic lamp I had fell and broke, I will need to get a metal one.
I have a pile of clothing that need to be repaired and I can't do this by hand. I don't have the funds to pay the seamstress and I don't think it is worth spending money to have the seamstress repair them. Since I can do it myself with a sewing machine.
I need to bring all of mom's summer clothing back here and bring what I have, for her fall and winter clothing to her. But these need adapting. But no funds for anything.
And the rudeness of the PGT for not even answering me, It has been a week and nothing.
I have to go now. I am pissed off after writing about the PGT and need to write them an email now.
GOD bless and good night.
Wasn't able to finish the story for the crowd funding campaign.
Kris Schmuland
Well mom is doing better since being removed from Larazopam. Her appetite is coming back. She is chewing and swallowing better.
But yesterday, after mom's bath mom was getting sick. Not once but several times. I was told this when I arrived. She was cleaned up and then she got sick again. Her sheets were changed and then she got sick again. So they gave mom a gravel. Now by the time I arrived mom was doing OK. But I took it easy with dinner. I didn't push her to eat. Well I never do. She only eats as much as she wants. And after mom was very tired. She didn't even want to be changed into a new nightgown. The hospital gown was fine with her. All mom wanted was to hold my hand and just relax. Unfortunately, I had to leave before I wanted too. This is a real piss off for me. All I wanted to do was to just stay and hold mom's hand. To make her feel secure and to know someone was there that loved her. It is a great feeling but one that had to end early. I am not impressed that this is still happening. Almost 4 years now. And I still cant' find a place.
Sure I can find a shared accommodation, but everyone I have looked at, I wouldn't trust the people. I have already lost to many things because of roommates and family. Valuable items.
So tonight mom was up and about, A nice smile on her face when I arrived. Down to her room we went. And gave her drinks and feed her. She didn't eat all of her dinner, but most of it. Didn't push her. And she had her papaya and chocolate.
I don't have anymore papaya to last until Wednesday, but her chocolate I do. Haven't been able to catch up since I needed to throw everything away, because of the power outage. And do you think the PGT even gives a crap. NO
The case manager has not written me back. The manager has not written me back.. This is the lack of respect. I get. Discrimination.
Mom needs clothing repaired, she needs a new lamp. It is getting harder to give mom her spa treatment at night now. She has a roommate and she goes to bed before mom. So the lights need to be off And the overhead lights are to hard on mom's eye's. The one ceramic lamp I had fell and broke, I will need to get a metal one.
I have a pile of clothing that need to be repaired and I can't do this by hand. I don't have the funds to pay the seamstress and I don't think it is worth spending money to have the seamstress repair them. Since I can do it myself with a sewing machine.
I need to bring all of mom's summer clothing back here and bring what I have, for her fall and winter clothing to her. But these need adapting. But no funds for anything.
And the rudeness of the PGT for not even answering me, It has been a week and nothing.
I have to go now. I am pissed off after writing about the PGT and need to write them an email now.
GOD bless and good night.
Wasn't able to finish the story for the crowd funding campaign.
Kris Schmuland
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