Hello again
I really am having a problem. The closer I get to Coquitlam the more depressed I feel. It is a big black cloud. Which decreases my appetite to nil. So I go to bed this evening without eating again. This time I have no desire to do so.
Now mom is doing great tonight. Very happy, with a big smile, when she saw me.
I made her a nice dinner, fish with this wonderful salad. This she really enjoyed.
Got her into bed early again. Which is a good thing. As she loves to hold my hand, and when she does so, it seems it puts her to sleep. So by the time dinner is almost done, she is basically sleep eating. But mom lets me know when she is done and what she wants.
We finished the smoothie, so I am glad I have everything I need to make another one for her. It will last until I get some more money.
I put the Christmas music on tonight. I have been alternating between her jazz and the Christmas music. We sang together. The lights on. Makes it an enjoyable evening.
I just want to stay longer, until she falls asleep completely. It is not often that this happens. This is the reason I need to be living in White Rock.
Whatever it takes I will be their in the first of the new year.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Merry Christmas Even though I don't feel very happy about it. Nothing for mom.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
To be and why
Hello again
Yes I complain and state my case of being without and not having a Christmas in at least a decade. But as long as mom and I have each other that is the best Christmas one can have.
Yet it would be nice to have a present or two, instead of nothing.
The one thing I make sure of, is that mom has a great Christmas. Her room decorated and me their for her.
Today she is good. I washed her hair and styled it nicely. I brought her a nice dinner and she ate all of it. past her being full.
And then it was bed time. Which of course was what I did for her.
I was able to hang her clean laundry up. Which I did last night for her. Give mom her spa treatment and be done early this evening. And the nurse gave mom her nightly medication early. Wow.
I stayed until my normal time. By this time mom was fast asleep. Snoring, Holding my hand tightly.
With a smile on her face. It is nice to see mom fall asleep happy and healthy and full.
12 days to go until Christmas and this is the time I am starting to freak out. I have nothing to give her. I asked that y'all send her a card. Nothing yet.
Yes I would like something under my none existent tree. But I am more concerned about mom getting spoiled. She deserves everything.
This is a women who would do anything for anyone. All one had to do is ask and if it was in her power to do something, it was done. She took care of everyone.
But no one is helping take care of her. Except me. And I am OK with this. I will never stop what I am doing.
Time to go, I am tired and today is another one of those days where my fridge is empty. Except for dinner for mom for tomorrow.
It is OK though, I am not really hungry
I am a very good person and no one can see this. Or they tell me that I will be blessed. What about right now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Yes I complain and state my case of being without and not having a Christmas in at least a decade. But as long as mom and I have each other that is the best Christmas one can have.
Yet it would be nice to have a present or two, instead of nothing.
The one thing I make sure of, is that mom has a great Christmas. Her room decorated and me their for her.
Today she is good. I washed her hair and styled it nicely. I brought her a nice dinner and she ate all of it. past her being full.
And then it was bed time. Which of course was what I did for her.
I was able to hang her clean laundry up. Which I did last night for her. Give mom her spa treatment and be done early this evening. And the nurse gave mom her nightly medication early. Wow.
I stayed until my normal time. By this time mom was fast asleep. Snoring, Holding my hand tightly.
With a smile on her face. It is nice to see mom fall asleep happy and healthy and full.
12 days to go until Christmas and this is the time I am starting to freak out. I have nothing to give her. I asked that y'all send her a card. Nothing yet.
Yes I would like something under my none existent tree. But I am more concerned about mom getting spoiled. She deserves everything.
This is a women who would do anything for anyone. All one had to do is ask and if it was in her power to do something, it was done. She took care of everyone.
But no one is helping take care of her. Except me. And I am OK with this. I will never stop what I am doing.
Time to go, I am tired and today is another one of those days where my fridge is empty. Except for dinner for mom for tomorrow.
It is OK though, I am not really hungry
I am a very good person and no one can see this. Or they tell me that I will be blessed. What about right now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Christmas dinner
Hello again
It was the Christmas dinner this evening and mom looked great. The outfit I bought for her looked good on her.
There were allot of people, all looking nice. ( Most of them I never see except for the dinner) But that is not a nice thing to say. When have I cared if I was nice.
But I am a very nice person. I just am very depressed
I feel guilty that I didn't dress up. Everything I own is way to large on me. I just wanted to look good for mom. I will make sure I am dressed up on Christmas day for mom. And I feel guilty about feeling guilty. Which is causing me to be depressed.
It was a pot luck dinner, plus Turkey and all the fixings. They served mom her usual minced meal, and I said no, mom will eat real food this evening.
So I went a loaded up a plate for her. And over time, mom finished the whole plate. OK minus the potatoes. Which she has everyday.
And no I did not get to eat. I am to busy feeding mom. I am busy. I don't rush mom. I am patient and gentle with her. If I had someone else feed mom, they would force her to eat quickly. This is not the way to enjoy your Christmas dinner. So I go without so mom eats properly. She held my hand the entire time. Which is usual. While she looked around. And finished the plate, plus dessert
I had a couple of nibbles here and there. But as last year I didn't have dinner. I have pasta left over from last night and will eat that when I finish writing this evening.
It was a nice evening.
After dinner I brought mom back to her room, expecting her to want some of her smoothie or her papaya or even her Lindor chocolate. Nothing! Mom was full.
I finished her spa treatment and held her hand for awhile, until it was time to leave. But not enough time. I apologized to mom for having to leave so soon. I like to spend at least an hour with mom, after I finish her spa treatment, each night. To let her fall asleep
Anyways I need to go, very tired and really need to eat something. Even though I am not hungry.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
It was the Christmas dinner this evening and mom looked great. The outfit I bought for her looked good on her.
There were allot of people, all looking nice. ( Most of them I never see except for the dinner) But that is not a nice thing to say. When have I cared if I was nice.
But I am a very nice person. I just am very depressed
I feel guilty that I didn't dress up. Everything I own is way to large on me. I just wanted to look good for mom. I will make sure I am dressed up on Christmas day for mom. And I feel guilty about feeling guilty. Which is causing me to be depressed.
It was a pot luck dinner, plus Turkey and all the fixings. They served mom her usual minced meal, and I said no, mom will eat real food this evening.
So I went a loaded up a plate for her. And over time, mom finished the whole plate. OK minus the potatoes. Which she has everyday.
And no I did not get to eat. I am to busy feeding mom. I am busy. I don't rush mom. I am patient and gentle with her. If I had someone else feed mom, they would force her to eat quickly. This is not the way to enjoy your Christmas dinner. So I go without so mom eats properly. She held my hand the entire time. Which is usual. While she looked around. And finished the plate, plus dessert
I had a couple of nibbles here and there. But as last year I didn't have dinner. I have pasta left over from last night and will eat that when I finish writing this evening.
It was a nice evening.
After dinner I brought mom back to her room, expecting her to want some of her smoothie or her papaya or even her Lindor chocolate. Nothing! Mom was full.
I finished her spa treatment and held her hand for awhile, until it was time to leave. But not enough time. I apologized to mom for having to leave so soon. I like to spend at least an hour with mom, after I finish her spa treatment, each night. To let her fall asleep
Anyways I need to go, very tired and really need to eat something. Even though I am not hungry.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
The shit never changes
hello again
I want to start by telling you of the OT that works at Al Hogg 3. Mom's leg rests have been put on her chair. The OT decides that the foot rests( which did not come with the new leg rests, they are an extra cost) that were with mom's chair, weren't good enough for mom, so she removed them and installed these old scratched up foot rests. Taking the one's that were part of mom's chair and using them on someone else's chair. As with the old leg rests. Remember without even asking.
This women just assumed that I would allow this to happen. She took about $500.00 worth of merchandise without even asking me, and let someone else use them. These leg rest costs allot of money. More than what I mentioned above. What I mentioned would be for used leg rests. Almost double that for the new one's and they didn't even come with foot rests. That is another purchase that I will be making. If it helps mom I will find the money.
I have to wait for the invoice so I can submit it to mom's extended health plan for a refund. Which will be only 80% of the cost. So I am broke until I get these funds back. I can only save so much. And it took me most of the year to save this. Going without allot of things just to put a few dollars aside.
I briefly spoke with her today and she was just brushing me off. But did say we want to borrow the leg rests. Which translates " I have already put them on someone else's chair" And then told me that we will touch base tomorrow. And Tuesday is their Christmas dinner, and she doesn't expect any kind of confrontation. I won't do this. But I have made a decision and it will not be changed.
She took what was not hers to take. And I want the products back. I don't give a shit if she installed them on someone's else's chair. NOT MY PROBLEM !
So after this I spoke with the sales rep from where I purchased these leg rests, and he is going to see if there is a pair of angle adjustable foot rests in the warehouse, and swap them out with the one's mom has. If there isn't, then I will purchase the new one's. Only after I receive a refund from the leg rests, from mom's extended health care coverage, can I make this purchase. It will take a few months for this to happen.
The money I used for the leg rests, I was saving to help me move and give mom a great Christmas. Mom needed these leg rests and that was that. Mom's legs are more relaxed now, which means mom is more relaxed and calmer.
So I now can't afford to give mom the Christmas she deserves. This is why I ask for help. Mom is first, I am last. Whatever it is mom needs, I will make it happen. Some how.
What really pisses me off is that mom has been their for over two years and they did nothing to make sure mom was comfortable. As her legs continued to get stiffer, they did not bother to contact me and discuss this matter with me. It was I who took it upon myself to make sure mom is comfortable.
I did the research into these leg rests, and contacted many companies. I arranged for everything to happen. Not this OT. And now she thinks it was her achievement. And I am the one who is continuing to pursue this matter to make sure mom is as comfortable as she can be.
I know she is going to hang over my head the prescription, which she tells me will help the refund move along more smoothly.
I will file a complaint against her if there is any problems tomorrow/today.
When I make a decision It is final. And I won't be manipulated into changing my mind. By anyone. Especially these people. After all it was them, who allow my sister's to steal mom's clothing and cosmetics. And I have printed out a dozen signs stating that the girls cannot remove any of mom's possession without my permission. We will not have a replay of last year.Besides, I spoke with the police last year, but they couldn't do anything about it. As I contacted them to late. But if it happens again they instructed me to call them right away. And it will not be just my sister's who will be having the problem, it will also be the staff member who helps them. As they are well aware of this now. I have been putting this sign up for a while now. And someone keeps taking it down. I put it up, they take it down. It has become a game.
I am not going to dress them anymore
OK I am done for now with my complaining .
Mom tonight was happy to see me. I arrived early so I could finish putting hanging the snowflakes up in mom's room. I hung fishing line from the ceiling and place and attached acrylic snowflakes to the line, in staggered order down the line. I put this up surrounding her tree.
I made mom a 4 cheese and mushroom omelet with toast, avocado and tomatoes. Mom loved this and ate most of it. It wasn't until we were finished that they brought mom the dinner they served. And we were on to dessert.
I got her ready for bed and then we had to wait for a care aid to put her into bed and change her. We fell asleep. Well I got a chair and held mom's hand while we waited. And we fell asleep. I didn't sleep much last night. I got home late because the a train broke down and two people decided to get off the train while it was not in a station. So the whole system had to be shut down while they found these two.
So after mom was changed we listened to Christmas music while I gave mom her nightly spa treatment. I laid the clothing out, that I want mom to wear for the Christmas party. I sat with mom for an hour and then I had to leave, so I could get home to make the salad for the party.
This is mom's Christmas dinner. Staff are asking me if I am going to eat. I can't, I have to feed mom and by the time I do this, the party will be over and everything will be gone. Oh well, it was the same thing last year. And it is this way every year.
As I have said many times. I have not had a Christmas dinner for about 10 years or so. As long as I am hanging out with mom on the holidays I am OK with this.
It is late and I have to go to bed. Very tired and hungry. I will have something to eat before going to bed. And watch something. I have many Christmas movies, so I may watch one of them. As I did last night.
Pray for us, send a card to mom. The address is two blogs ago. maybe three. But it is there.
GOD bless and goodnight
Kris Schmuland
I want to start by telling you of the OT that works at Al Hogg 3. Mom's leg rests have been put on her chair. The OT decides that the foot rests( which did not come with the new leg rests, they are an extra cost) that were with mom's chair, weren't good enough for mom, so she removed them and installed these old scratched up foot rests. Taking the one's that were part of mom's chair and using them on someone else's chair. As with the old leg rests. Remember without even asking.
This women just assumed that I would allow this to happen. She took about $500.00 worth of merchandise without even asking me, and let someone else use them. These leg rest costs allot of money. More than what I mentioned above. What I mentioned would be for used leg rests. Almost double that for the new one's and they didn't even come with foot rests. That is another purchase that I will be making. If it helps mom I will find the money.
I have to wait for the invoice so I can submit it to mom's extended health plan for a refund. Which will be only 80% of the cost. So I am broke until I get these funds back. I can only save so much. And it took me most of the year to save this. Going without allot of things just to put a few dollars aside.
I briefly spoke with her today and she was just brushing me off. But did say we want to borrow the leg rests. Which translates " I have already put them on someone else's chair" And then told me that we will touch base tomorrow. And Tuesday is their Christmas dinner, and she doesn't expect any kind of confrontation. I won't do this. But I have made a decision and it will not be changed.
She took what was not hers to take. And I want the products back. I don't give a shit if she installed them on someone's else's chair. NOT MY PROBLEM !
So after this I spoke with the sales rep from where I purchased these leg rests, and he is going to see if there is a pair of angle adjustable foot rests in the warehouse, and swap them out with the one's mom has. If there isn't, then I will purchase the new one's. Only after I receive a refund from the leg rests, from mom's extended health care coverage, can I make this purchase. It will take a few months for this to happen.
The money I used for the leg rests, I was saving to help me move and give mom a great Christmas. Mom needed these leg rests and that was that. Mom's legs are more relaxed now, which means mom is more relaxed and calmer.
So I now can't afford to give mom the Christmas she deserves. This is why I ask for help. Mom is first, I am last. Whatever it is mom needs, I will make it happen. Some how.
What really pisses me off is that mom has been their for over two years and they did nothing to make sure mom was comfortable. As her legs continued to get stiffer, they did not bother to contact me and discuss this matter with me. It was I who took it upon myself to make sure mom is comfortable.
I did the research into these leg rests, and contacted many companies. I arranged for everything to happen. Not this OT. And now she thinks it was her achievement. And I am the one who is continuing to pursue this matter to make sure mom is as comfortable as she can be.
I know she is going to hang over my head the prescription, which she tells me will help the refund move along more smoothly.
I will file a complaint against her if there is any problems tomorrow/today.
When I make a decision It is final. And I won't be manipulated into changing my mind. By anyone. Especially these people. After all it was them, who allow my sister's to steal mom's clothing and cosmetics. And I have printed out a dozen signs stating that the girls cannot remove any of mom's possession without my permission. We will not have a replay of last year.Besides, I spoke with the police last year, but they couldn't do anything about it. As I contacted them to late. But if it happens again they instructed me to call them right away. And it will not be just my sister's who will be having the problem, it will also be the staff member who helps them. As they are well aware of this now. I have been putting this sign up for a while now. And someone keeps taking it down. I put it up, they take it down. It has become a game.
I am not going to dress them anymore
OK I am done for now with my complaining .
Mom tonight was happy to see me. I arrived early so I could finish putting hanging the snowflakes up in mom's room. I hung fishing line from the ceiling and place and attached acrylic snowflakes to the line, in staggered order down the line. I put this up surrounding her tree.
I made mom a 4 cheese and mushroom omelet with toast, avocado and tomatoes. Mom loved this and ate most of it. It wasn't until we were finished that they brought mom the dinner they served. And we were on to dessert.
I got her ready for bed and then we had to wait for a care aid to put her into bed and change her. We fell asleep. Well I got a chair and held mom's hand while we waited. And we fell asleep. I didn't sleep much last night. I got home late because the a train broke down and two people decided to get off the train while it was not in a station. So the whole system had to be shut down while they found these two.
So after mom was changed we listened to Christmas music while I gave mom her nightly spa treatment. I laid the clothing out, that I want mom to wear for the Christmas party. I sat with mom for an hour and then I had to leave, so I could get home to make the salad for the party.
This is mom's Christmas dinner. Staff are asking me if I am going to eat. I can't, I have to feed mom and by the time I do this, the party will be over and everything will be gone. Oh well, it was the same thing last year. And it is this way every year.
As I have said many times. I have not had a Christmas dinner for about 10 years or so. As long as I am hanging out with mom on the holidays I am OK with this.
It is late and I have to go to bed. Very tired and hungry. I will have something to eat before going to bed. And watch something. I have many Christmas movies, so I may watch one of them. As I did last night.
Pray for us, send a card to mom. The address is two blogs ago. maybe three. But it is there.
GOD bless and goodnight
Kris Schmuland
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