And it is

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Today has been a day of pain and being extremely tired. I have been irritable all day. But I checked this at the door, so mom would not know or be affected by my mood.

I was running late so I was not able to get anything for mom, for dinner. I did get their in time to wash her hair before dinner.

I did have two types of cheeses for her, some tomatoes and avocado. This she enjoys. And of course the dinner from the home.

The one room where they are bathed, is closed for renovations. Well they have to raise the money to do this. So it is all closed off, boarded off, with plastic. They also have one half of the building all shrink rapped as it is leaking, and this has been up for at least 6 months now. They also have to raise money for this. They charge allot for the residents to stay their. They serve them crappy food. And yet they can't fix anything. The elevators don't work half the time. The front sliding doors are always sticking.

And the care is less than average. With inhospitable nurses. The health inspector should be called, or someone. They can't have the building under construction while the residents are in their like they have and are doing.

Despicable. Most places would of been ordered to fix it now. They charge allot and are expecting the residents families to pay for the renovations.

OK, after dinner mom was very tired and needed to get out of her chair. This I graciously do for her. And mom loves her nightly spa treatments. I make sure she is clean. She becomes extremely relaxed, as a result of this.

I hold her hand while she falls asleep. She does not want me to leave until she is completely asleep, because she wakes up while I get ready to leave and sing her good night song to her. I really wish and pray to GOD that I find a place soon in White Rock. IT IS TIME!

Again I am very tired and need to just go to bed and watch a little something.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

I am hurting even more

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I want to start this blog off today stating that one of the character's in a show I enjoy has passed away this week. He was a Disney kid Lee Thompson Young. Tragically he took his own life. I write this as tonight is the night that the show Rizzoli and Isles is on and he was a character in this show. I enjoyed his character greatly.

I send my sympathy to his mother,and  his family and friends. As well as the other cast members he worked with. I will miss his character. David Frost.

Today was Sushi night for mom. Mom will eat all of the Sushi I bring her plus other items that is served to her. I do say, one of her favorite things is the smoothie. She can't get enough of it. And of course her red papaya.

It was a painful day for me. The insurance company called. I was surprised by the call as I thought that my phone was no longer working. Being poor, I have to be on a prepaid plan and it runs out of the 19th of each month. So I was surprised by the phone call. Anyways they don't seem to think it is their problem. Even though I was injured on a transit vehicle. And ICBC is their insurer.

I see my doctor tomorrow and I told the agent that I will not be saying anything else until I speak with my doctor and see what happens from there.

Back to mom. Mom has been eating allot and becomes very full. This is a good thing. Makes her sleep better. I guess. Right away she just wanted to get out of the chair and have her nightly spa treatment done for her..

I really need to be living in White Rock, so mom just doesn't see me as the one who only puts her to bed. I need to do other things for her and with her.

OK it is 12:30 now and time to go to bed. I am extremely tired and have to get up early to see my doctor before I go see mom.

GOD bless and good night

Please pray that a place becomes available in White Rock which I can afford

Kris Schmuland

I wish

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So today my knee's are even worse. I say it is exactly like someone took 260 lbs and dropped it on your knee's from 3 feet in the air. What would it feel like. That is exactly what it feels like. There is pain in many new places. I am in pain walking. Can't keep my knee's bent.

So tonight mom was extremely talkative. It was great. And when I arrived, mom knew I was their. As soon as I got of the elevator, and took a few steps, I could see mom's arm go up with the sign to hold her hand. She was smiling before I even got to her. I could feel it.

We had a good dinner. Cold cuts, avocado, a few different types of cheeses, tomatoes. Oh yea, the dinner that was served to her. Which she didn't eat much of. I tried it and it had an unusual taste to the meat. She finished off the smoothie and her chocolates. Of course mom drank quite a bit tonight.

But I love the fact that she was talking a mile a minute. As mentioned before, when she speaks this fast, it is hard for me to keep up with her.

I told her about what happened last night, on the way home. I could see that she felt my pain. I found it necessary to adjust my seating position to accommodate my having to keep my legs extended. A little awkward feeding her though. I managed.

Mom, Mary, just wanted to get out of the wheelchair and into a comfortable bed. I could see in her eyes that she was extremely tired. This means she didn't get much sleep, because of the roommate keeping her up. With the TV on all night, the lights.

The part of this that really pisses me off, is the fact that the staff know my concerns, but do absolutely nothing about it. The are, themselves, tired of the roommate consistently ringing the bell for them. So they just ignore her. Mean while, mom has to suffer.

To much noise, lights are included in this. To much light is noise as well. The constant barrage  of sound, light, delusions and hallucinations are ruining mom's health. And the person who I keep calling, is on holidays.

I made a decision, it is not mom who will be moving. Understand. I know you do.

We spoke, laughed and sang tonight. I gave her the nightly spa treatment and she loved this. But no matter how relaxed she became. Mom still wanted to talk.

Again, because I live so far away. OK by bus. By car it is only 30 minutes at that time of night. I have to leave at a certain time. To get home before midnight. So at least I can relax a bit, before going to bed.

I spoke with her as long as I could and then I told her I would love to continue speaking with you, but, mom, I really need to leave now. It was 8:00 PM. So I did not get home until 11:30 tonight.

I hope she was OK with this.

Pray for us, that I get to White Rock soon. To be able to spend more time speaking with her at night. If I have only a few minutes to walk home. Does it make a difference then.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmualand