To be continued

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It hurts like crap when mom tells me she just wants to go to sleep after looking at the picture of dad. Knowing she means just not wanting to wake up. That she tired of just being.

And I go through this alone with mom. My sister's are to busy  omplaaining about me and their families. Rather than actually doing something about helping mom. To hold her hand and tell her she has lots of time left. That she is healthy. Taking her out. They, after all, have cars. I take the bus 3 hours there and 3 hours back,everyday, without fail.

I go through this all alone. I don't show mom my pain. My hurt. I do,  however,  cry when she cries. Like tonight.

I started this campaign to get mom out and see things the hasn't seen before and do things she hasn't done in a long time.

Mom deserves better than this. She was always there for everyone,  but when she needs someone, anyone to be there for her. Nothing, no one. Everyone just lets her sit and rot and die. They don't give a shit about anyone but themselves. This is not just for my entire family, but for all who are guilty of this hanous crime. Leaving are loved one's alone.

I do everything I can and more. I give up allot and do it willingly to make sure mom has everything she needs and wants.

Come on now. Don't you think she deserves it. As with all of our loved one's who sit alone in these homes. Dying alone. Not spending the last bit of time left on this planet doing everything they can do.

I know if you were given 6 months, 1 year or even 2 years left to live. You would cash in everything and live every moment  of everyday to its fullest. Without even thinking twice about it.

Doesn't my mother deserve the same. To live out the remainder of her life with dignity and respect. To do everything that you would do. If given only a short time left on this planet

Thus the campaign

Indiegogo.com/helpmomgetoutandabout

To raise awareness and funds to purchase a wheelchair equipped Van to get mom everywhere she hasn't gone in a long time. To do everything she hasn't  done in a long time.

Is this to much to ask for. I think not. It is not even close to what she deserves.

Think about it and get back to me

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

I am trying

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To start, Revenue Canada sent me a letter informing me that I owe them over $7000.00 in HST/GST payment for a company that I re-started but never got it off the ground again. Mom and dad needed me and I needed to use what money I had to use for them.

I called them and wrote them telling them it was not in operation. But I guess this wasn't good enough. I called them, the other day, mentioned to them that it never got off the ground and then was asked to call another number. Which I did, they had on file that I closed the account. But I now need to fill out 4 years worth of tax returns with zero on it.

So I have been trying to get this campaign off the ground or finding funding. So when I get home at night I have been working on that. And not spending the time on here.

Now mom has a new roommate and she is nosey at night and mom is not getting proper sleep. Which means she is not happy the next day and by the time dinner is there, she is not very hungry and just wants her spa treatment. I get her to eat as much as possible. I give her fruit, cheese and snacks. But she is very tired. And this women is sick.
I mentioned to the staff that mom has her own medical problems, such as lung cancer and doesn't need to be exposed to this. Nothing has been done about it. The women has not been separated from mom. Now if mom gets sick, it is their fault

I have been getting mom outside as much as possible. Today around the block. And then I washed her hair and styled it. She ate as much as she wanted and was very anxious to get to bed. She started to push the plate away and tried to pick up the other one and put it on the tray. She just wanted to go to bed and have the spa treatment done.

I took her, got her changed for bed, put her into bed and brushed her teeth and gave mom her nightly spa treatment. I played her favorite bedtime music. She loves Diana Krall, it helps to relax her. I sang to her and did everything that is done before she goes to bed at night.

It is about an hour and a half to do all this. Every night this happens. Mom loves this and I love doing this for her.

But it is hard when mom tries to feed herself and can't remember how to use the fork. And the worst part is that she knows she has forgotten how to use it.

This breaks my heart and brings me to tears. I wish anyone or someone would walk in my shoes for a few days and actually see what it is I do for mom. My journey to see her and back.

I do need to go now, but I will try to write as much as possible

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

And then

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So today on the way home I was forced to get up on the bus for a stroller. I don't care about the stroller It was the guy across from me, with allot of cans who would not even get up to give anyone a seat. In Coquitlam, they would not even be allowed on the bus. Just for this reason. They take up to much room and don't move for strollers or people with disabilities. They are just rude.GOD bless them

Now because of this I was forced to stand and because of being tossed around my left knee was injured. It was hurting before but now the pain is unbelievable. And is shot now. But the pain is not going to stop me from going to see mom everyday. I don't care and will leave the pain at the door. That is just the way it has to be. So I will scream and groan all the way there and suck it up at the door and then do the same on the way home.

Now tonight mom was tired. It seems her new roommate keeps her up at night. Not good. And they have put padding on the rails of her bed. It need to speak with them tomorrow. They need to start discussing these things with me before they go ahead and do things. Anything they do they need to discuss it with me first. I make the health care decisions for my mother. Not them. I am sick of  being afraid to say anything with fear of the threats they always give me. That we will stop you from seeing your mom. Going to stop or they will find out I will not have my mothers life limited because they think they know what is best for my mother.

So anyways mom was tired and she did not eat allot at dinner. She was almost asleep while eating. And all she wanted to do was go to bed and have the spa treatment done. She was rushing me in a hurry to get it over with and then go to sleep.

When she is tired and wants to go to bed she gets upset and may try to take a swipe at me. Which she did. I may or may not have a black eye tomorrow. That is OK

But got the spa treatment finished, sang our good night song to her, mom sang along And then gave her a huge hug and good night kisses and left.

So it is midnight and I am in serious pain. I need to sleep, if I can. Time to take some pain killers and watch a bit of a TV episode I recorded

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland