Hello again
I woke up this morning with the overwhelming urge to delete the blog I posted last night. I have no idea why I felt this way, only I did. Which I then deleted
It has nothing to do with anything I wrote. As what other people think of me is none of my business. I really don't care. I have my opinions and that is what they are. I can express these if I so choose too.
I don't care at all what my sister's think of me. I and they know what I think of them.
I write the truth and I leave nothing out. That is why I write this. For other's to read exactly what it is like and the things that happen on a daily basis' with these diseases. Alzheimer's, Dementia. Someone that has had a stroke.
I know mom had summer clothing, but they disappeared. And someone knows where they are, or who is wearing them now. But since summer is here, wouldn't it be nice if mom could wear her own clothing.
So I really don't have a clue why I deleted the post. But I did and I can't get it back. There was somethings on this post which I would of wanted to keep.
Anyways. 5 people have passed in the last two weeks, where mom lives. It is hard, since I knew them and interacted with them on a regular basis' .Over the years I have seen so much death. It does not get any easier. It is a shame. They were all great people. My heart goes out to the families of these individuals.
Tonight was a night to wash mom's hair, so I arrived early to do this. Mom was so happy and it felt so good for her.
I brought here some manicotti I made, but she did not eat much of it. She did, however, eat allot of her dinner that the home provided for her.
Mom is getting thin and it is not good for her. I don't see how my sisters don't see this and bring her things. Nothing at all. Mom and dad fed them, at least they could do the same.
I do everything I can, OK I can do more, to make sure mom gets nutritious foods and fresh fruit. Maybe they could do the same. I am their everyday and I have never seen anything, at all.
It seems that when mom grabs my hand and has the music playing, all she wants to do is go to sleep. It is about comfort and trust. She motioned to have her spa treatment done. She puts her hand on side of my face and rubs my face. This is her way of saying I want my sap treatment done. I did have to get her to eat some more. What was good, was that she finished her smoothie. This alone, is full of nutrition, having the supplement in it. And she just loves this. The look on her face, her eyes opening up wide, tells me mom enjoys these smoothies. Even if the meal is horrible, which they mostly are, she gets something that is good for her and she likes.
Well I need to go now, I have a few other things to do yet tonight.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Friday, July 5, 2013
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Why oh why
Hello again
So if you took your baby to day care and found out that your baby was sitting in their own mess for hours and developed a rash. I would think you would call the police and maybe hire a lawyer and press charges and/or sue the daycare for child abuse. So why is it OK for an adult, our loved one's, parents etc..., to sit in their own filth for hours and hours. And a rash is then developed.
Would this not be abuse as well. So why is this happening. People complain at Al Hoog and what they get is "If you wish to be an active part of your loved one's care" That is the line everyone gets.
They are abusive. They put roommates together that are not compatible. And expect them to co exist without and worries. NOT They allow the residents to sit in their own filth for hours. And then tell me that your mother had a very large bowl movement. I know, was my response
I do think it is time to do something about this. Speak to some lawyers about this, the newspaper, radio, TV etc......
But at the same time I have to get myself onto disability. I need the extra money. I can't live on nothing any longer and I am not able to work. One being my disabilities and the other being the length of time I travel each day. This is why it is so important for me to be living in White Rock. I can do something about getting a extra income. Or at least spend the time to actually get myself on disability.
But I will never do anything to jeopardize my time with my mom.. My mother is the most important person in my life and this is what I do. And I love every bit of it. Just the smile on her face and her wanting to hold my hand.
Tonight we had dinner outside on the balcony. Mom just loved this. Not her dinner. I tried, but she spit it out. All of what was served to her. I was not able to bring her any dinner tonight and I do feel guilty about this. Especially, since I saw what was served to her. Everything she does not like. I did serve her fruit and her smoothie as well as some vegetables and cheese and tomatoes, with salt and pepper .
It was a hot day, with a nice breeze.
Mom was very happy when I put her to bed this evening. She got allot of fresh air. Something mom is lacking.
Happy Canada day, by the way. to all the Canadians who read this blog OK it is over now.
I need to go now, eat something and go watch what I have downloaded tonight.
GOD bless and good night.
I ask that all pray that I find a place in White Rock that I can afford. And soon
Kris Schmuland
So if you took your baby to day care and found out that your baby was sitting in their own mess for hours and developed a rash. I would think you would call the police and maybe hire a lawyer and press charges and/or sue the daycare for child abuse. So why is it OK for an adult, our loved one's, parents etc..., to sit in their own filth for hours and hours. And a rash is then developed.
Would this not be abuse as well. So why is this happening. People complain at Al Hoog and what they get is "If you wish to be an active part of your loved one's care" That is the line everyone gets.
They are abusive. They put roommates together that are not compatible. And expect them to co exist without and worries. NOT They allow the residents to sit in their own filth for hours. And then tell me that your mother had a very large bowl movement. I know, was my response
I do think it is time to do something about this. Speak to some lawyers about this, the newspaper, radio, TV etc......
But at the same time I have to get myself onto disability. I need the extra money. I can't live on nothing any longer and I am not able to work. One being my disabilities and the other being the length of time I travel each day. This is why it is so important for me to be living in White Rock. I can do something about getting a extra income. Or at least spend the time to actually get myself on disability.
But I will never do anything to jeopardize my time with my mom.. My mother is the most important person in my life and this is what I do. And I love every bit of it. Just the smile on her face and her wanting to hold my hand.
Tonight we had dinner outside on the balcony. Mom just loved this. Not her dinner. I tried, but she spit it out. All of what was served to her. I was not able to bring her any dinner tonight and I do feel guilty about this. Especially, since I saw what was served to her. Everything she does not like. I did serve her fruit and her smoothie as well as some vegetables and cheese and tomatoes, with salt and pepper .
It was a hot day, with a nice breeze.
Mom was very happy when I put her to bed this evening. She got allot of fresh air. Something mom is lacking.
Happy Canada day, by the way. to all the Canadians who read this blog OK it is over now.
I need to go now, eat something and go watch what I have downloaded tonight.
GOD bless and good night.
I ask that all pray that I find a place in White Rock that I can afford. And soon
Kris Schmuland
Sunday, June 30, 2013
More
Hello again
I get to mom's and go into her room, to turn down the bed, move the bed to allow me to move mom's chair under the lift. And the roommate starts telling me that there is a baby up on the wall and that my name is Johnston. Or the picture of me on the wall.
She wanted me to call her daughter, that she was to go somewhere. I said I don't think that is going to happen, as you are in bed and it takes time to get you up and changed. I was just in there to turn down mom's bed and grab mom's plates and wash clothes.
And when I came back with mom. The women just would not stop talking. Mom is looking at me. She is very tired of this. Mom just wants to have a decent nights sleep. Is that to much to ask for, I think not.
Mom still did not eat as much as she should eat. Again, she is tired and all she wants to do is go to bed. I am not very happy with this.
Over all mom is healthy. She is bending her knees more and more. Soon she will be able to move herself around, again. As she did before moving into this place. I am working on this problem, every night I get her to bend her knees a little bit more. Gently. Mom did a great job tonight. The furthest I have seen her bend her legs in a long time. She is well aware of what we are doing.
Mom still does not want me to leave at night. And as soon as I get their mom wants to hold my hand. Then she closes her eyes. I have to get her to eat. I am so glad I make sure she gets allot of fruit and healthy foods. I keep reading about what to give to Alzheimer's patients to help slow the progression of the disease. I just say to myself, I have been doing this for years.
I research Alzheimer's and what it takes to help stave off the progression or to slow it down. This research I apply to mom all the time. And I believe in vitamins and supplements as well as to eat healthy. I don't because I can't afford to eat this way. OK I can't afford to eat.
I do make sure mom eats this way, though.
So my hearing is still getting worse. Today, or this morning I could barely hear anything. The landlord came over and was speaking with me. Even thought I told him that I can't hear him. He just kept on speaking anyways. And to read his lips, is very difficult. You see, he is Asian and does not speak English very well at all. To read lips I need the person whose lips I am reading, speak my language.
My hearing was like this for most of the day. OK, at about 3:30 it was OK again.
And I have been doing allot of thinking about things. I have realized that it has been about 20 years since I had a steady girlfriend. Really. I am finding or thinking myself to be very unattractive. I have dated, but they don't get the fact that between a certain time each and everyday I am busy. So I don't end up dating them for very long at all.
I still think about a women I was with a long time ago now. 10 years. We were friends that was turning into something else. But she moved back east to be around her twin sister, who had a baby. They were both from her. I say this as I thought I saw her today. Or someone who looked allot like her. But what could I do. Call her name out in the mall. And if it was her, I couldn't hear to well. I do miss her thought. It was my fault that she left. I was or still am an alcoholic. Even though I have not had a drink in many, many years now. over ten years now. OK I guess it was over ten years that this women left. Because it was a few years after she left that I quit.
Well I have been very busy looking after mom and I travel many hours a day to do this. Again I would never give this up or change the fact that I look after mom. I just want to be living closer to her. Freeing up hours and hours in my day. To work on getting myself healthy again. And to do more for mom. My hearing is not going to get better, it is just going to get worse. I need hearing aids and I really need them. My hearing is screwing up at least three times a week. I mostly hear people mumble.
Now it is after twelve and time to go again.
GOD bless and good night. More tomorrow.
Kris Schmuland
I get to mom's and go into her room, to turn down the bed, move the bed to allow me to move mom's chair under the lift. And the roommate starts telling me that there is a baby up on the wall and that my name is Johnston. Or the picture of me on the wall.
She wanted me to call her daughter, that she was to go somewhere. I said I don't think that is going to happen, as you are in bed and it takes time to get you up and changed. I was just in there to turn down mom's bed and grab mom's plates and wash clothes.
And when I came back with mom. The women just would not stop talking. Mom is looking at me. She is very tired of this. Mom just wants to have a decent nights sleep. Is that to much to ask for, I think not.
Mom still did not eat as much as she should eat. Again, she is tired and all she wants to do is go to bed. I am not very happy with this.
Over all mom is healthy. She is bending her knees more and more. Soon she will be able to move herself around, again. As she did before moving into this place. I am working on this problem, every night I get her to bend her knees a little bit more. Gently. Mom did a great job tonight. The furthest I have seen her bend her legs in a long time. She is well aware of what we are doing.
Mom still does not want me to leave at night. And as soon as I get their mom wants to hold my hand. Then she closes her eyes. I have to get her to eat. I am so glad I make sure she gets allot of fruit and healthy foods. I keep reading about what to give to Alzheimer's patients to help slow the progression of the disease. I just say to myself, I have been doing this for years.
I research Alzheimer's and what it takes to help stave off the progression or to slow it down. This research I apply to mom all the time. And I believe in vitamins and supplements as well as to eat healthy. I don't because I can't afford to eat this way. OK I can't afford to eat.
I do make sure mom eats this way, though.
So my hearing is still getting worse. Today, or this morning I could barely hear anything. The landlord came over and was speaking with me. Even thought I told him that I can't hear him. He just kept on speaking anyways. And to read his lips, is very difficult. You see, he is Asian and does not speak English very well at all. To read lips I need the person whose lips I am reading, speak my language.
My hearing was like this for most of the day. OK, at about 3:30 it was OK again.
And I have been doing allot of thinking about things. I have realized that it has been about 20 years since I had a steady girlfriend. Really. I am finding or thinking myself to be very unattractive. I have dated, but they don't get the fact that between a certain time each and everyday I am busy. So I don't end up dating them for very long at all.
I still think about a women I was with a long time ago now. 10 years. We were friends that was turning into something else. But she moved back east to be around her twin sister, who had a baby. They were both from her. I say this as I thought I saw her today. Or someone who looked allot like her. But what could I do. Call her name out in the mall. And if it was her, I couldn't hear to well. I do miss her thought. It was my fault that she left. I was or still am an alcoholic. Even though I have not had a drink in many, many years now. over ten years now. OK I guess it was over ten years that this women left. Because it was a few years after she left that I quit.
Well I have been very busy looking after mom and I travel many hours a day to do this. Again I would never give this up or change the fact that I look after mom. I just want to be living closer to her. Freeing up hours and hours in my day. To work on getting myself healthy again. And to do more for mom. My hearing is not going to get better, it is just going to get worse. I need hearing aids and I really need them. My hearing is screwing up at least three times a week. I mostly hear people mumble.
Now it is after twelve and time to go again.
GOD bless and good night. More tomorrow.
Kris Schmuland
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