Hello Again
Today I met two wonderful people. And it was a pleasure speaking with them. I hope to get to know them better.
So another day of depression for me. But I was down town Vancouver, and stood across the street with my sandwich board picket sign for a couple of hours today. I had to leave, so I could get out to see mom.
Yes it is the last day for their office to be open.. That is OK as I will be their across the street Wednesday and be their everyday after that. Until they get it together.I was not even going to go, as it was raining and I don't have my water proof jacket anymore. I wanted to stand out their for a very long time. But I at least got two hours in.
While I was doing this I made a video that I will put up on You Tube, when I figure out how. But I will and let you know how to find it. Or what the tittle is. Most likely. The PGT ruined Christmas for my mother and I by Kris Schmuland. And will continue to make video's now.
I just wanted to let y'all know about my day. Mom is good and very glad as always to see me and I her.
I just wish that a miracle happens this night. So I can at least go and get mom something to open on Christmas Day. Not nothing. I won't even be able to have dinner with her. As I did not even have the $7.00 to pay for that.
I ask my GOD to assist me in this. That tomorrow/today actually something big happens in the morning before I leave to go see mom. As on my way back. Everything will be closed.
So if you believe out their, I ask that I receive a miracle first thing in the morning. A gift card for the Bay, Sears or some place like this where I can go and get mom something nice. So when I go their Sunday, Mom will have something from me or you to open.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
The PGT are making more threats.
Hello again
I still can't believe I received a $5.00 cheque. I will never cash it.
Anyways, you know in the movies a family gives the wrong gifts to charity and they scramble to get them back only to just forget about it. Well today, I had some women's clothing to donate, as well as children's party items. They packed into two bags. And I always carry a bag with mom's things in it. Her drinks, snacks, sauces for her dinner, butter and anything else mom might need. I also put extra items in their to keep me warm. The multi layered look. As nothing else to keep me warm.
So, because I had three bags and could not carry all three with one arm. Cane in the other. I put one of the bags on top of the other one. I get to the Elizabeth Fry Society for battered women and put them down. I took my bag and placed it next to the other's. I was speaking with the people their. As I do this often. You see I collect clothing to donate. And then after I just left. It was not until I got half way to see mom that I realized that my bag with mom's things in it was not with me. Than I realized that my North Face Jacket was in the bag. It is old. I bought it at least 6 years ago. I think I brought this up before about contacting North Face to get it fixed. Anyways. that was a Gore-Tex jacket, waterproof. and an added warmth to my many layers.
Anyone who ever new me or has seen me, Has seen me in this jacket. Now my first reaction was to recall all the movies with this happening at Christmas. Then I thought, I have to get it back because this is all I have to keep me dry. Everything else does not work and is not even warm enough.
Then I thought of the movies again and said to myself, I hope who ever gets it needs this jacket and keeps them dry. What am I to do, go and tell them that this is my jacket. I don't think so. I gave so I will just leave it their. And I kind of new I was to give the jacket away today. I don't know why. And I really have nothing else to wear. I mean I am now without a jacket. Ok the lining was a bit torn, but the outside of it was in good shape and it still kept me dry.
Anyways the PGT is now threatening me with not helping get to see mom anymore. This is just plain old abuse. My mother relies on me to be their everyday. And it use to it. And needs it. They are saying they will not even help with the lotions. I pay for most of it. But with a $5.00 cheque I won't be able to pay for any of it. Mom is almost out of everything. Ok mom is out of most of the items. Except two of them. I don't know where I am going to get the money to buy these items. I don't even have the $151.00 dollars it takes to buy the bus pass to see her. And it is not very far from the end of the month. I don't even have the money to replace the fruit and snacks as well as her drink I lost today.
I am screwed and this is the PGT's fault. They are cowards and thieves. Corrupt as they come. "Remember it is my opinion" I just have to say this. As I am going to be lashing out at the PGT for some time to come.
Mom will not tolerate me not being their for one day. This is bother her greatly. And Oceanside now on this bit about them putting her to bed. It is pissing mom off greatly. And this is not good for mom. As mom is to be discharged and the more upset she gets the longer it will take to discharge her.
Now again the PGT. I will not stop until they are taken down and Stephen Fylnn and Chris Brettell are Fired. I will stand out front every day day in and day out. Until they get the point.
Oh they will supply me with the needed funds or they will be abusing my mother.
This is where I need your help,. Write me letters in support of this.
Oh yea I am not going to write asking for help anymore. What is the point. I have not lied about anything and I am completely without anything. Now not even a waterproof, some what warm jacket. The jacket thing is OK though. It was to happen, whether I liked it or not.
But the other thing. This is what I get just before Christmas, threats about not being able to see my mother. Not a single bit of help from anyone out their. And I am read by many many different countries. I guess people everywhere are the same. This is why I don't really like people. In general. They are not willing to give someone who needs it, a hand.
So allot of people lately have been asking me if I am worried about getting Alzheimer's. I tell them that it doesn't matter anyways. I will die alone. As I know no one now, and no one to even call a friend. I don't talk to anyone, except mom. And I am alone all the time. I mean all the time. I have not gone out for coffee with anyone in about 6 months. If it were not for the occasional conversation I have on the bus. Or with my roommate. I don't talk to anyone and I am completely and absolutely alone.
PGT and fight for even the ability to see my mother After the PGT telling me they will help me move to White Rock and give me a lump sum of over $5.000 for a total of $10,000.00 But guess what It was an absolute lie. As they always tell everyone.
God willing mom lives for another 20 years. But, again, when mom passes away. I am going to dust myself off. Kill myself. I will not be able to take the complete loneliness of that. At least I have mom to talk to and look forward to doing so everyday. And I sometimes don't shut up. I do amuse mom though. I make her laugh at some off the things that come out of my mouth. I am glad.
I am ready to do this now. But I wont because I have to be their for mom.
I miss having a girlfriend. Someone to speak to and do things with. Even if it is just going for a walk. After all if I had a girl friend now, she would understand I just finished my graduate degree and I am poor. No more student loans. I would be receiving one in about two weeks. But not anymore.
So GOD bless and good night
Kris
Oh yea I will not except anything less from the PGT than to call me by my new found tittle.
I still can't believe I received a $5.00 cheque. I will never cash it.
Anyways, you know in the movies a family gives the wrong gifts to charity and they scramble to get them back only to just forget about it. Well today, I had some women's clothing to donate, as well as children's party items. They packed into two bags. And I always carry a bag with mom's things in it. Her drinks, snacks, sauces for her dinner, butter and anything else mom might need. I also put extra items in their to keep me warm. The multi layered look. As nothing else to keep me warm.
So, because I had three bags and could not carry all three with one arm. Cane in the other. I put one of the bags on top of the other one. I get to the Elizabeth Fry Society for battered women and put them down. I took my bag and placed it next to the other's. I was speaking with the people their. As I do this often. You see I collect clothing to donate. And then after I just left. It was not until I got half way to see mom that I realized that my bag with mom's things in it was not with me. Than I realized that my North Face Jacket was in the bag. It is old. I bought it at least 6 years ago. I think I brought this up before about contacting North Face to get it fixed. Anyways. that was a Gore-Tex jacket, waterproof. and an added warmth to my many layers.
Anyone who ever new me or has seen me, Has seen me in this jacket. Now my first reaction was to recall all the movies with this happening at Christmas. Then I thought, I have to get it back because this is all I have to keep me dry. Everything else does not work and is not even warm enough.
Then I thought of the movies again and said to myself, I hope who ever gets it needs this jacket and keeps them dry. What am I to do, go and tell them that this is my jacket. I don't think so. I gave so I will just leave it their. And I kind of new I was to give the jacket away today. I don't know why. And I really have nothing else to wear. I mean I am now without a jacket. Ok the lining was a bit torn, but the outside of it was in good shape and it still kept me dry.
Anyways the PGT is now threatening me with not helping get to see mom anymore. This is just plain old abuse. My mother relies on me to be their everyday. And it use to it. And needs it. They are saying they will not even help with the lotions. I pay for most of it. But with a $5.00 cheque I won't be able to pay for any of it. Mom is almost out of everything. Ok mom is out of most of the items. Except two of them. I don't know where I am going to get the money to buy these items. I don't even have the $151.00 dollars it takes to buy the bus pass to see her. And it is not very far from the end of the month. I don't even have the money to replace the fruit and snacks as well as her drink I lost today.
I am screwed and this is the PGT's fault. They are cowards and thieves. Corrupt as they come. "Remember it is my opinion" I just have to say this. As I am going to be lashing out at the PGT for some time to come.
Mom will not tolerate me not being their for one day. This is bother her greatly. And Oceanside now on this bit about them putting her to bed. It is pissing mom off greatly. And this is not good for mom. As mom is to be discharged and the more upset she gets the longer it will take to discharge her.
Now again the PGT. I will not stop until they are taken down and Stephen Fylnn and Chris Brettell are Fired. I will stand out front every day day in and day out. Until they get the point.
Oh they will supply me with the needed funds or they will be abusing my mother.
This is where I need your help,. Write me letters in support of this.
Oh yea I am not going to write asking for help anymore. What is the point. I have not lied about anything and I am completely without anything. Now not even a waterproof, some what warm jacket. The jacket thing is OK though. It was to happen, whether I liked it or not.
But the other thing. This is what I get just before Christmas, threats about not being able to see my mother. Not a single bit of help from anyone out their. And I am read by many many different countries. I guess people everywhere are the same. This is why I don't really like people. In general. They are not willing to give someone who needs it, a hand.
So allot of people lately have been asking me if I am worried about getting Alzheimer's. I tell them that it doesn't matter anyways. I will die alone. As I know no one now, and no one to even call a friend. I don't talk to anyone, except mom. And I am alone all the time. I mean all the time. I have not gone out for coffee with anyone in about 6 months. If it were not for the occasional conversation I have on the bus. Or with my roommate. I don't talk to anyone and I am completely and absolutely alone.
PGT and fight for even the ability to see my mother After the PGT telling me they will help me move to White Rock and give me a lump sum of over $5.000 for a total of $10,000.00 But guess what It was an absolute lie. As they always tell everyone.
God willing mom lives for another 20 years. But, again, when mom passes away. I am going to dust myself off. Kill myself. I will not be able to take the complete loneliness of that. At least I have mom to talk to and look forward to doing so everyday. And I sometimes don't shut up. I do amuse mom though. I make her laugh at some off the things that come out of my mouth. I am glad.
I am ready to do this now. But I wont because I have to be their for mom.
I miss having a girlfriend. Someone to speak to and do things with. Even if it is just going for a walk. After all if I had a girl friend now, she would understand I just finished my graduate degree and I am poor. No more student loans. I would be receiving one in about two weeks. But not anymore.
So GOD bless and good night
Kris
Oh yea I will not except anything less from the PGT than to call me by my new found tittle.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
The PGT is being abusive, as usual
Hello again
Well I have continued to put up posters. Stating that the PGT is ruining Christmas for Mom and I. And the PGT keeps taking them down. As long as this free printer works and their is enough ink I will print more and more. And if I do not receive the help as noted, I will change it to The PGT ruined Christmas for mom and I. As well as changing the picket sign`s. I will just cross off the ing and put ed beside it.
I really don`t know what Stephen Fylnn is upset about. I mentioned it to him many times.. That I would take action. What does he expect. For me to just sit back and take the crap they dish out. Or maybe he doesn`t know me as well as he thinks he does.
I have taken action before and I will continue to do so when necessary. Not just with the PGT but with all who will get in the way of my mother`s happiness. And I, not anyone else, know what that is.
Tonight. the staff had to give mom a suppository, and mom needed to go to the washroom as soon as got their. So mom ate her dinner and we were done early, so I got the staff to get mom changed and to the washroom right away. This way it did not interfere with the spa treatment. As it usually does. I get so far and mom is totally relaxed and ready for bed, but she needs to be changed and taken to the washroom. Which takes the total relaxation and puts a stop to it. And then I have to get mom relaxed again. So I have to wait to do her feet after.
Well tonight is going to be different. I was able to completely give mom her spa treatment without having to be interrupted, or having to wait, how ever long, for mom to be taken to the washroom and changed for bed.
So the spa treatment begun. First her face, then her feet and then hands and arms. The final item is to brush her hair. And at this point tonight mom was so relaxed that everything was limp. And mom was ready for bed. Which I put her into bed tonight and she was out like a light, after I gave her our usual hugs and kisses. This is the way it always should be. This makes mom extremely happy and relaxed.
I just don`t understand why the staff don`t see this. This is what is best for mom, and I should know. Spending the time I do with her. I know what is best for mom and no one else does.
This whole thing about not putting mom to bed, would be OK if they kept their promise and walked mom. So if they have a problem, I could just call the head of the unions and file a complaint. Someone I know, gave me their numbers and knows them personally. It is always an aption. Through all of this I have met allot of influnencal people. And I keep in touch with them.
GOD bless and good night
Oh yea that is a real cheque I posted on my blog. And I received it today. I won`t be cashing it, as it costs me $1.75 to cash it. This is what I get to live on until the end of January, and at that point I will receive another $5.00 cheque for February. If I complain, the minister tells me, that I should budget my money to make it last through the month. After being turned down for disability.
I really am tied.
Well I have continued to put up posters. Stating that the PGT is ruining Christmas for Mom and I. And the PGT keeps taking them down. As long as this free printer works and their is enough ink I will print more and more. And if I do not receive the help as noted, I will change it to The PGT ruined Christmas for mom and I. As well as changing the picket sign`s. I will just cross off the ing and put ed beside it.
I really don`t know what Stephen Fylnn is upset about. I mentioned it to him many times.. That I would take action. What does he expect. For me to just sit back and take the crap they dish out. Or maybe he doesn`t know me as well as he thinks he does.
I have taken action before and I will continue to do so when necessary. Not just with the PGT but with all who will get in the way of my mother`s happiness. And I, not anyone else, know what that is.
Tonight. the staff had to give mom a suppository, and mom needed to go to the washroom as soon as got their. So mom ate her dinner and we were done early, so I got the staff to get mom changed and to the washroom right away. This way it did not interfere with the spa treatment. As it usually does. I get so far and mom is totally relaxed and ready for bed, but she needs to be changed and taken to the washroom. Which takes the total relaxation and puts a stop to it. And then I have to get mom relaxed again. So I have to wait to do her feet after.
Well tonight is going to be different. I was able to completely give mom her spa treatment without having to be interrupted, or having to wait, how ever long, for mom to be taken to the washroom and changed for bed.
So the spa treatment begun. First her face, then her feet and then hands and arms. The final item is to brush her hair. And at this point tonight mom was so relaxed that everything was limp. And mom was ready for bed. Which I put her into bed tonight and she was out like a light, after I gave her our usual hugs and kisses. This is the way it always should be. This makes mom extremely happy and relaxed.
I just don`t understand why the staff don`t see this. This is what is best for mom, and I should know. Spending the time I do with her. I know what is best for mom and no one else does.
This whole thing about not putting mom to bed, would be OK if they kept their promise and walked mom. So if they have a problem, I could just call the head of the unions and file a complaint. Someone I know, gave me their numbers and knows them personally. It is always an aption. Through all of this I have met allot of influnencal people. And I keep in touch with them.
GOD bless and good night
Oh yea that is a real cheque I posted on my blog. And I received it today. I won`t be cashing it, as it costs me $1.75 to cash it. This is what I get to live on until the end of January, and at that point I will receive another $5.00 cheque for February. If I complain, the minister tells me, that I should budget my money to make it last through the month. After being turned down for disability.
I really am tied.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Dealing with the nonsense today
Hello again
So today it was full of dealing with the nonsense of the government.
First I have had no problem saying that I have been receiving assistance and that I get the funds for the bus pass from the PGT or that I receive $150 to purchase mom drinks and snacks. Which don't even cover her drink costs. So I use my money to pay the rest. Well some how I get the money
But the first issue is social services. Tomorrow I will receive a $5.00 cheque from welfare. This is the money I am to live off of for the month of January. I am serious about this, and to prove it, tomorrow when I get home I will be taking a picture of it and posting it on this blog. Permanently.
The next issue is the PGT and Stephen Flynn. And how he is no longer going to supply the funds for the bus pass to see mom or the $150.00 in funds for mom's drinks and snacks. Which do not even cover mom's drinks. And I use funds, that come to me some how to pay for the rest. I really don't know where it comes from but I am able to pay the rest of the cost's of mom's food and drinks. Stephen also told me he will no longer cover the cost's of mom's products I use on her, for her spa treatment.
I told him that if we don't solve this problem amicably, I will be forced to take action. And I am taking action and he is all pissed off. I think he has to learn to read, as I sent him a few emails stated this. I have been putting up posters around the office. And put 30 up tonight on my way home.
Now about Oceanside. Remember when I wrote about being told I could not walk mom anymore.
Because they were worried about their liability. Not mom's happiness or health. And how I put mom to bed at night. Well they now tell me that I can't put mom to bed anymore. They again are worried about their liability, not mom's happiness. About themselves, not the patient.
So I will no longer be pushed about by their nonsense. Tomorrow I will tell them that I will be continuing to put mom to bed and when I see the written documentation that states that a son cannot look after his mother or do things for them. It actually is really pissing me off right now. I brought up the walking of mom and how they, to date, have not walked her. No response from the staff member.
So which every one of you read this daily. Get it from a legal source. As in from the BC health minister. Fraser Health somewhere were it is written for all to see. And then show me. I am not going to do this again.
Trust me there is not going to be a situation like that at Valleyview, where I was banned from the ward. And that of the psychiatrist telling me "As long as she is under our care you do what we say" Not going to happen.
When the staff would not let me put her to bed tonight, mom reached out to me, for me to stop this. Mom was hurt and very upset. This hurt me greatly to see the pain on my mother's face. The fact that this is our time and our routine. This is what we do. As it is, from the moment I get their the staff have nothing to do, except take her to the washroom and change her.
Come on now, what is your problem. This is my mother and I will do what I want with her. Mom should not been given the drugs she has been given and mom should not be in this place to begin with. If they stopped the drugs, mom can speak and tell you what is bothering her. But no. Drugs are needed. To chemically restrain the individual. And with this comes the physical restraint.
Their is no concern for the patient in this. It is only their liability they are concerned about.
Well a few days left until Christmas and as it stands, Christmas is going to be, well not that happy.
But the best part is that I get to spend it with mom and be with her for the day.
I just wanted to shower mom with gifts and to maybe have some for myself for once. It has been, GOD only knows the last time I received a gift. But as long as mom gets allot of them. It is OK.
Well I have not a cent left to my name. And I don't have anyway of getting mom anymore drinks or snacks or even cook her dinner. As she is not eating much. And the staff are watching to see how much liquid mom is taking in. Well day after day I get their and mom is so thirsty it is not funny, and she has that mung on the side of her mouth from being so dehydrated.
I am going now, I am starving and nothing to eat. Really, nothing at all in my home. I don't even have any tea.
I am getting depressed again and I can't do this anymore.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
So today it was full of dealing with the nonsense of the government.
First I have had no problem saying that I have been receiving assistance and that I get the funds for the bus pass from the PGT or that I receive $150 to purchase mom drinks and snacks. Which don't even cover her drink costs. So I use my money to pay the rest. Well some how I get the money
But the first issue is social services. Tomorrow I will receive a $5.00 cheque from welfare. This is the money I am to live off of for the month of January. I am serious about this, and to prove it, tomorrow when I get home I will be taking a picture of it and posting it on this blog. Permanently.
The next issue is the PGT and Stephen Flynn. And how he is no longer going to supply the funds for the bus pass to see mom or the $150.00 in funds for mom's drinks and snacks. Which do not even cover mom's drinks. And I use funds, that come to me some how to pay for the rest. I really don't know where it comes from but I am able to pay the rest of the cost's of mom's food and drinks. Stephen also told me he will no longer cover the cost's of mom's products I use on her, for her spa treatment.
I told him that if we don't solve this problem amicably, I will be forced to take action. And I am taking action and he is all pissed off. I think he has to learn to read, as I sent him a few emails stated this. I have been putting up posters around the office. And put 30 up tonight on my way home.
Now about Oceanside. Remember when I wrote about being told I could not walk mom anymore.
Because they were worried about their liability. Not mom's happiness or health. And how I put mom to bed at night. Well they now tell me that I can't put mom to bed anymore. They again are worried about their liability, not mom's happiness. About themselves, not the patient.
So I will no longer be pushed about by their nonsense. Tomorrow I will tell them that I will be continuing to put mom to bed and when I see the written documentation that states that a son cannot look after his mother or do things for them. It actually is really pissing me off right now. I brought up the walking of mom and how they, to date, have not walked her. No response from the staff member.
So which every one of you read this daily. Get it from a legal source. As in from the BC health minister. Fraser Health somewhere were it is written for all to see. And then show me. I am not going to do this again.
Trust me there is not going to be a situation like that at Valleyview, where I was banned from the ward. And that of the psychiatrist telling me "As long as she is under our care you do what we say" Not going to happen.
When the staff would not let me put her to bed tonight, mom reached out to me, for me to stop this. Mom was hurt and very upset. This hurt me greatly to see the pain on my mother's face. The fact that this is our time and our routine. This is what we do. As it is, from the moment I get their the staff have nothing to do, except take her to the washroom and change her.
Come on now, what is your problem. This is my mother and I will do what I want with her. Mom should not been given the drugs she has been given and mom should not be in this place to begin with. If they stopped the drugs, mom can speak and tell you what is bothering her. But no. Drugs are needed. To chemically restrain the individual. And with this comes the physical restraint.
Their is no concern for the patient in this. It is only their liability they are concerned about.
Well a few days left until Christmas and as it stands, Christmas is going to be, well not that happy.
But the best part is that I get to spend it with mom and be with her for the day.
I just wanted to shower mom with gifts and to maybe have some for myself for once. It has been, GOD only knows the last time I received a gift. But as long as mom gets allot of them. It is OK.
Well I have not a cent left to my name. And I don't have anyway of getting mom anymore drinks or snacks or even cook her dinner. As she is not eating much. And the staff are watching to see how much liquid mom is taking in. Well day after day I get their and mom is so thirsty it is not funny, and she has that mung on the side of her mouth from being so dehydrated.
I am going now, I am starving and nothing to eat. Really, nothing at all in my home. I don't even have any tea.
I am getting depressed again and I can't do this anymore.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
Monday, December 19, 2011
6 days left and it is looking crappy
Hello again
Today when I got to the hospital, the nurse pulled me aside and told me they had to put mom on intravenous as she is dehydrated. And they don't know why.
Now mom is not happy about having this in her arm. Well, it is the protection that surrounds the tube and needle, that bothers mom the most. Mom immediately wanted me to remove this and take out the intravenous. But I couldn't and wouldn't, I explained it was for her own good and what it was for. Mom understood, but wanted it out anyway. You see, mom is right handed and that is the arm they put it in
Now this pissed mom off, greatly. Enough to make her punch me. When I arrived their, before dinner. I was doing something and then wham, I was punched in the face. This happened at least 6 times tonight. Mom is mad and I would rather her take it out on me than the staff. But each time I was busy doing something for her, and she caught me off guard.
Mom has Dementia and part of the condition is the mood swings and the angry. I have seen this in her many times. But mom has never punched me like this before. I am OK. She has a good swing, I am a little sore though. But mom did not hit the staff. This is a good thing. I did not even tell the staff any of this. But one of the staff members saw the first hit, when I got their. Everyone rushed over and I just told them I am OK and it is OK. Mom has a good right hook.
Today, was a crying day for me, I just could not stop crying. OK I did while on the buses, but as soon as I got off the water works started again. Of course I held back while visiting with mom.
It is just that it is a few days away from Christmas and I made the mistake of walking through the mall and well it hit me very hard. That I have nothing and I can't make my mother a great Christmas. And shower her with gifts and a few for myself.
You know, I love my mother, but it is hard to watch her like this and to watch her loose a little of her abilities. I am there and I don't stop from the moment I get their and until I go. I need to get their earlier so I can just hand out with her. Or go over to the hospital or the other flours and check them out.
I am going now. I am just to depressed to write. I was not even going to write anything for a while. But I needed to let y'all know what is happening with her.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
Today when I got to the hospital, the nurse pulled me aside and told me they had to put mom on intravenous as she is dehydrated. And they don't know why.
Now mom is not happy about having this in her arm. Well, it is the protection that surrounds the tube and needle, that bothers mom the most. Mom immediately wanted me to remove this and take out the intravenous. But I couldn't and wouldn't, I explained it was for her own good and what it was for. Mom understood, but wanted it out anyway. You see, mom is right handed and that is the arm they put it in
Now this pissed mom off, greatly. Enough to make her punch me. When I arrived their, before dinner. I was doing something and then wham, I was punched in the face. This happened at least 6 times tonight. Mom is mad and I would rather her take it out on me than the staff. But each time I was busy doing something for her, and she caught me off guard.
Mom has Dementia and part of the condition is the mood swings and the angry. I have seen this in her many times. But mom has never punched me like this before. I am OK. She has a good swing, I am a little sore though. But mom did not hit the staff. This is a good thing. I did not even tell the staff any of this. But one of the staff members saw the first hit, when I got their. Everyone rushed over and I just told them I am OK and it is OK. Mom has a good right hook.
Today, was a crying day for me, I just could not stop crying. OK I did while on the buses, but as soon as I got off the water works started again. Of course I held back while visiting with mom.
It is just that it is a few days away from Christmas and I made the mistake of walking through the mall and well it hit me very hard. That I have nothing and I can't make my mother a great Christmas. And shower her with gifts and a few for myself.
You know, I love my mother, but it is hard to watch her like this and to watch her loose a little of her abilities. I am there and I don't stop from the moment I get their and until I go. I need to get their earlier so I can just hand out with her. Or go over to the hospital or the other flours and check them out.
I am going now. I am just to depressed to write. I was not even going to write anything for a while. But I needed to let y'all know what is happening with her.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
Let us remember our loved one's and what we can do for them.
Hello again
Computer worked this morning
printed out allot of posters
Put them up from main train hub to the PGT's office
Continued to pray for a great Christmas for Mom and I
No presents, no nothing
One week to Christmas from today
Can't take it anymore
Mom and I deserve better.
I work hard for mom
I am an advocate for mom.
I am down to one pair of jeans with no pockets
So I am going to give you all some background on me. Their is over 2 years worth of blogs that I have to convert and put up here. Wordpress shut me down, because Riverview threatened to sue me. They have no backbone. And it is from the beginning. So one day when I can find a program that will convert this I will put all the blogs up.
Anyway, I use to drink and smoke pot. Allot of pot and allot of beer. But it has been many, many, many years since that person. I have change so much. But I quit to be a better person. After my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer's. I needed to find a cure and something to help stave off or prolong one's cognitive abilities. Then dad got it. Yes it. There is no other way to describe this horrible disease.
I went back to school to finish off what I started in the states. Have done this now. I have to thank this one pastor for getting me back into my Christianity. I have always been a Christian. No one else in my family is.
I have walked, hitch hiked, taken buses, trains, rented cars, bummed rides. All to see my dad and mother. I have been all over the lower mainland to visit my parents and spend time with them. I have spent, thousands of dollars on my parents. And I don't care about it. I have learned that money is not most important thing in life. I found that family, love, and kindness. And the most important thing of all is the journey on our way through life. To help those how are in need, to help those who cannot help themselves.
I have learned to stand up for what is right, no matter what anyone thinks of it or me. To do what ever is necessary to do what is right. To fight for the right of my mother and others, who cannot speak for themselves and who are targets of the whole medical system and the Public Guardian and Trustee of BC. Who do nothing to help them, only warehouse them until they die.
No treatments plans, no treatment, period. Just drugs and more drugs. Physical and chemical restraint.
Don't you all think that after 10 years of being around Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as the medical community. That I would be an expert on what is going on within this medical community that deals with Alzheimer's and Dementia. Don't you think I have seen everything that goes on. I have! And more. I don't say anything, as I have ADSAAC to use to stop abuse.
I have to be care full. I have my mother to take care of and be their for her. And combining my education, with my first hand knowledge of Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as my continuous research on this subject. I would consider myself an expert!
I have seen first hand three of my family members go through this. And two of them dying of this disease. I have seen more than any of you want to see. To see one of your family members die of this disease is hard enough but to see two of them and a third with Dementia. And watching my mother's life change so much from who I know her as. Yes I have been hardened by this experience, but I have more feelings and emotions now than I every have had in my life.
I am more alive than ever before. I am seeing everything for the first time. I see the journey and everything along the way. I take life moment by moment. And I see the need to help those less fortunate. Yes that is including myself.
I am not selfish in anyway. I would just like clothing, something nice for a change. Music in my life that does not sound crappy. Like all of these cheap stereos sound like. I love good music. But my ears are so sensitive, that they cannot handle the cheap systems. I never, when I have driven, listened to the radio or stereo in my car. As the poor quality of the sound system, gave me a headache and hurt my ears. I cannot even listen to my ear buds. I cannot even put anything over my ears. I have had this problem all my life. When I hear music the way it is to be heard, my soul comes to life. I feel the relationship between the cords and the song it's self. I am wrapped up in the emotions that were intended to be heard.
This is something I have searched for, for sometime now. I have not been able to afford this though. I love watching movies and certain TV shows. But no TV.
I am now praying again and asking for help to make this a wonderful Christmas for my mother, and maybe me.
GOD bless and good night
Computer worked this morning
printed out allot of posters
Put them up from main train hub to the PGT's office
Continued to pray for a great Christmas for Mom and I
No presents, no nothing
One week to Christmas from today
Can't take it anymore
Mom and I deserve better.
I work hard for mom
I am an advocate for mom.
I am down to one pair of jeans with no pockets
So I am going to give you all some background on me. Their is over 2 years worth of blogs that I have to convert and put up here. Wordpress shut me down, because Riverview threatened to sue me. They have no backbone. And it is from the beginning. So one day when I can find a program that will convert this I will put all the blogs up.
Anyway, I use to drink and smoke pot. Allot of pot and allot of beer. But it has been many, many, many years since that person. I have change so much. But I quit to be a better person. After my grandfather passed away from Alzheimer's. I needed to find a cure and something to help stave off or prolong one's cognitive abilities. Then dad got it. Yes it. There is no other way to describe this horrible disease.
I went back to school to finish off what I started in the states. Have done this now. I have to thank this one pastor for getting me back into my Christianity. I have always been a Christian. No one else in my family is.
I have walked, hitch hiked, taken buses, trains, rented cars, bummed rides. All to see my dad and mother. I have been all over the lower mainland to visit my parents and spend time with them. I have spent, thousands of dollars on my parents. And I don't care about it. I have learned that money is not most important thing in life. I found that family, love, and kindness. And the most important thing of all is the journey on our way through life. To help those how are in need, to help those who cannot help themselves.
I have learned to stand up for what is right, no matter what anyone thinks of it or me. To do what ever is necessary to do what is right. To fight for the right of my mother and others, who cannot speak for themselves and who are targets of the whole medical system and the Public Guardian and Trustee of BC. Who do nothing to help them, only warehouse them until they die.
No treatments plans, no treatment, period. Just drugs and more drugs. Physical and chemical restraint.
Don't you all think that after 10 years of being around Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as the medical community. That I would be an expert on what is going on within this medical community that deals with Alzheimer's and Dementia. Don't you think I have seen everything that goes on. I have! And more. I don't say anything, as I have ADSAAC to use to stop abuse.
I have to be care full. I have my mother to take care of and be their for her. And combining my education, with my first hand knowledge of Alzheimer's and Dementia, as well as my continuous research on this subject. I would consider myself an expert!
I have seen first hand three of my family members go through this. And two of them dying of this disease. I have seen more than any of you want to see. To see one of your family members die of this disease is hard enough but to see two of them and a third with Dementia. And watching my mother's life change so much from who I know her as. Yes I have been hardened by this experience, but I have more feelings and emotions now than I every have had in my life.
I am more alive than ever before. I am seeing everything for the first time. I see the journey and everything along the way. I take life moment by moment. And I see the need to help those less fortunate. Yes that is including myself.
I am not selfish in anyway. I would just like clothing, something nice for a change. Music in my life that does not sound crappy. Like all of these cheap stereos sound like. I love good music. But my ears are so sensitive, that they cannot handle the cheap systems. I never, when I have driven, listened to the radio or stereo in my car. As the poor quality of the sound system, gave me a headache and hurt my ears. I cannot even listen to my ear buds. I cannot even put anything over my ears. I have had this problem all my life. When I hear music the way it is to be heard, my soul comes to life. I feel the relationship between the cords and the song it's self. I am wrapped up in the emotions that were intended to be heard.
This is something I have searched for, for sometime now. I have not been able to afford this though. I love watching movies and certain TV shows. But no TV.
I am now praying again and asking for help to make this a wonderful Christmas for my mother, and maybe me.
GOD bless and good night
Sunday, December 18, 2011
8 days to Christmas and nothing in the house
Hello again
Today when I went into town, all the posters were not up where I put them. So they were taken down. And when I got home tonight I started to print more copies and I got to 5 pages and the printer decided it did not want to work anymore. And I have absolutely no money to go and make copies. I need to put up more posters tomorrow, for Monday morning. When the staff of the PGT come to work. From the Water front station.
I will be making my picket sign tomorrow morning. Because Monday I will be out in front of the PGT building. Well across the street, so they can see. I have nothing, so there is nothing to loose by doing this.
The posters, start out with Scrooge on the top. And then states, the PGT are ruining Christmas for my mother and I. Then an email address. I really want to print out at least 50 copies to put up tomorrow. I try the people upstairs to see if they have a printer.
So today I am starting to feel real stress about Christmas, with only 8 days left. I don't know what to do.
I need to make this and all Christmas's the greatest for mom. I will be their for Christmas dinner. They are having it at noon. I can eat as well. But I have to pay a fee, of $10.00.. Well this is not going to happen, as I just mentioned I have not even a small amount of change in my pocket. I had to use the last $2.00 I had to buy laundry soap. The cheapest I could find. Mom wants one of my white t-shirts so I have to clean them and bring it for her tomorrow. So laundry it is I am doing while I write this.
You all could check my closet to see exactly how many articles of clothing, I actually have. My closet is becoming very empty. Cooked oats is dinner for me tonight. And tonight mom barely touched her dinner. More rice and mom is sick of the bland, boring rice. She gets it so often, I tell them stop giving mom so much rice.
You see when I go to see mom, Mom wants all of my attention. I completely understand this. As she gets no attention at all during the day and then here I come. Mom does not even want me to talk with anyone else but here. I, again, can completely understand this. From the moment I get their until I leave I am right beside her. And I can't even leave or mom gets really made at me. I made this mistake once. And not anymore. I wait until mom goes to the washroom, then I go, no matter how long it has been since I last went. I also think that it is not fair, that mom has to wait and wait to go.
By the way I think there is allot of reverse sexism in the world. If I was a single women, doing what I am doing and barely making it. Not knowing when my next meal will come from. Or where the next couple of dollars will come from to get mom some fruit and drinks and snacks. I would showered with help..
But I am not and I don't even get a good job Kris. What I get is, Get a job Kris, that is the women`s job . I would never do that. I don`t have the time for that. How can you spend so much time traveling.Does not become to much. Why don`t you take time off. Yea right, you don`t do this, you don`t give her your clothing or buy her underwear and clothing. etc..... Well I do all of this and more.
If I were the women, I would have more help than I could ever need. And then some. But I am the son, who loves his mother. And I have two sisters who would never do what I am doing and they barely go to see mom. Now this is our dying mother. And yes she is dying. There is no doubt about this. What happens with Alzheimer`s and Dementia is they die prematurely. Early for their lives. And there is no cure for this, all we can do is try to extend their lives and to make what time they have left on this planet, great. I don`t even know from one day to the next if mom is going to be OK. That is how fast things can change with these diseases. No one knows.
I would never forgive myself if I did not spend as much time as possible with my mother and do everything I could possibly do for her.
See this is why I ask for help. It is Christmas next weekend. My mother and your mother deserves the best Christmas possible. Would you not do this for your mother. I know you would.
Really, it is GOD who said Love one another, give until you have nothing left to give. And then give even more. Be like the good Samaritan.Not like everyone else who walked right by the man down on his luck and beaten by the world around him. Ready to give up on life, but his mother is their and he needs to be here for her.
This is the time of the year, when all our hearts should open up to the downtrodden, as I am. I am doing the best I can. But sometimes it is not good enough. And my mother has to go without. And I am just dead to the world at times.
I don`t even have a TV, or stereo. My clothing are falling off of me, and are falling apart.
I beg and plead with you all one more time.
Please help, with anything.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
Today when I went into town, all the posters were not up where I put them. So they were taken down. And when I got home tonight I started to print more copies and I got to 5 pages and the printer decided it did not want to work anymore. And I have absolutely no money to go and make copies. I need to put up more posters tomorrow, for Monday morning. When the staff of the PGT come to work. From the Water front station.
I will be making my picket sign tomorrow morning. Because Monday I will be out in front of the PGT building. Well across the street, so they can see. I have nothing, so there is nothing to loose by doing this.
The posters, start out with Scrooge on the top. And then states, the PGT are ruining Christmas for my mother and I. Then an email address. I really want to print out at least 50 copies to put up tomorrow. I try the people upstairs to see if they have a printer.
So today I am starting to feel real stress about Christmas, with only 8 days left. I don't know what to do.
I need to make this and all Christmas's the greatest for mom. I will be their for Christmas dinner. They are having it at noon. I can eat as well. But I have to pay a fee, of $10.00.. Well this is not going to happen, as I just mentioned I have not even a small amount of change in my pocket. I had to use the last $2.00 I had to buy laundry soap. The cheapest I could find. Mom wants one of my white t-shirts so I have to clean them and bring it for her tomorrow. So laundry it is I am doing while I write this.
You all could check my closet to see exactly how many articles of clothing, I actually have. My closet is becoming very empty. Cooked oats is dinner for me tonight. And tonight mom barely touched her dinner. More rice and mom is sick of the bland, boring rice. She gets it so often, I tell them stop giving mom so much rice.
You see when I go to see mom, Mom wants all of my attention. I completely understand this. As she gets no attention at all during the day and then here I come. Mom does not even want me to talk with anyone else but here. I, again, can completely understand this. From the moment I get their until I leave I am right beside her. And I can't even leave or mom gets really made at me. I made this mistake once. And not anymore. I wait until mom goes to the washroom, then I go, no matter how long it has been since I last went. I also think that it is not fair, that mom has to wait and wait to go.
By the way I think there is allot of reverse sexism in the world. If I was a single women, doing what I am doing and barely making it. Not knowing when my next meal will come from. Or where the next couple of dollars will come from to get mom some fruit and drinks and snacks. I would showered with help..
But I am not and I don't even get a good job Kris. What I get is, Get a job Kris, that is the women`s job . I would never do that. I don`t have the time for that. How can you spend so much time traveling.Does not become to much. Why don`t you take time off. Yea right, you don`t do this, you don`t give her your clothing or buy her underwear and clothing. etc..... Well I do all of this and more.
If I were the women, I would have more help than I could ever need. And then some. But I am the son, who loves his mother. And I have two sisters who would never do what I am doing and they barely go to see mom. Now this is our dying mother. And yes she is dying. There is no doubt about this. What happens with Alzheimer`s and Dementia is they die prematurely. Early for their lives. And there is no cure for this, all we can do is try to extend their lives and to make what time they have left on this planet, great. I don`t even know from one day to the next if mom is going to be OK. That is how fast things can change with these diseases. No one knows.
I would never forgive myself if I did not spend as much time as possible with my mother and do everything I could possibly do for her.
See this is why I ask for help. It is Christmas next weekend. My mother and your mother deserves the best Christmas possible. Would you not do this for your mother. I know you would.
Really, it is GOD who said Love one another, give until you have nothing left to give. And then give even more. Be like the good Samaritan.Not like everyone else who walked right by the man down on his luck and beaten by the world around him. Ready to give up on life, but his mother is their and he needs to be here for her.
This is the time of the year, when all our hearts should open up to the downtrodden, as I am. I am doing the best I can. But sometimes it is not good enough. And my mother has to go without. And I am just dead to the world at times.
I don`t even have a TV, or stereo. My clothing are falling off of me, and are falling apart.
I beg and plead with you all one more time.
Please help, with anything.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
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