Hello again
So I arrived home tonight to an empty place. The roommate went to his brother's place for the night and dinner on Christmas day.
It is very lonely here tonight.
I left mom's at 9:00 pm, after rapping the presents for her. She was up until that time. Unusual for her.But waiting for me to come back into the room to say good night. I liked this
But mom was extremely upset tonight. Her family has not been around, and Christmas time is special for her. She likes to have family around. And no one has been their to visit her. Mom is very upset. And when she is upset, she takes it out on me. She scratched my face a couple of times. It is OK, I don't react, I just tell her that I love her.
She wants to see her aunt, it has been a while for this. But my great aunts daughter is too busy to bring her mom up the few blocks to see my mom. And her own brother took a year to come see his sister. And my sister's, well what can I say. It has been a few weeks since the one was their and who knows how long it has been since the other was their.
Hopefully today they will come and see her. I just can't believer they are like this. No one is that busy to make time to see their mother. Who was always there for them when they needed her. But they can't take the time to come and see their mother when she is ill and needs all the love she can get. This is why I am their everyday, without fail. And will continue to do this. Without fail.
I know my mother relies on me and I on her.
And I have now broken my own record for not eating. OK I had some ginger bread cookies today. And now I go to bed.
I had to hide the gifts for mom. I just don't trust my sister's or the staff. I wanted to put them under the tree. But I just felt it would not be a good idea to do this. I can't believe I had to do this.
I dislike Christmas because, I am alone. No presents under the tree. Actually, no tree or decorations. Not even an I.O.U for a lump of coal. I won't be having a Christmas dinner. As I could not afford the $7.00 for the ticket to have it with mom.
They are having their Christmas dinner at noon. I got home at 11:30 tonight and it is now almost 1:00 am. I won't be able to make it there by noon. I will try to get there for 3:00pm
So another crappy Christmas for me. But I have nice gifts for mom and I know she will like them
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
