It has been a while

Hello again

So recently someone called me a loser. Someone in my family. Who he is, I dont' know. But OK I am a loser. I am the making of my own bad luck. . I have done some pretty sour things in my life. No I have never done that.  I have not been the greatest of sons. I use to drink, allot, smoke pot. Not in a very long time now.

I did get  a good education, but never have done anything with it. Been busy for the last many years, looking after mom. KARMA if you may.

I did respond the the comment. And this is what I wrote.


I do apologize if you were offended by the truth
That's right I do nothing for my mother and you all do everything for her. Signed the loser, God bless. That is what I wrote. After all I did promise mom I would not write anything mean.

Now to carry on.

I get very worried on the weekends, mom does not eat much. As in tonight, she barely ate anything. A papaya, a kiwi and a few small bits of her dinner. That was it. She was very tired. And wanted to have her spa treatment. Her right eye was all red and tearing. She was not happy. I asked and she told me that she was not doing well. She was very bored. A long day of nothing. And nobody coming to visit her. I ask and mom tells me. And tonight she was very pissed off at nobody coming today to see her. On a beautiful day like this. This is why I write the way I do. But it is not OK for me to write about my sisters anymore. I don't feel write about it. I don't care what they think, I just don't feel right about it.

The weekends get me upset and I cry. I don't know what is up. But mom is like this almost every weekend. I don't know.

Now the PGT is refusing to assit mom with her needs, again. She needs more cosmetics and she is out of most of them. I am going from store to store and getting samples and sampling the products. By squeezing some out and putting it in an empty container.

Mom needs to eat properly, and this includes me making her home made meals. Which she always eats.

So I just found out that mom's best friend is still around. Mrs Elliott, like mom, has Alzheimer's. But a more advanced case of this disease. I mentioned this to  mom and her eyes lit right up. I did tell her I am going to get her to see Mrs Elliott. This coming week I am hoping.

Now mom is in White Rock and Mrs Elliott is in New Westminster. I need to take a cab and that is going to be at least $50 - 60 dollars each way. And that is allot of money. I need to figure this out though. Mom needs to see her friends. And I need to find out which one of them are still around.

I am aware of mom's mortality. I know she is going to get worse off. I am not stupid. I just don't want to dwell on this. I need to concentrate on mom's well being and to make sure what time she does have left is the best time of all. To give her what the other members of my family won't do. Take her out and about.

This is why I started this campaign. To get her out and see things.

Nobodies tomorrow is ever guaranteed. We only have now. And in mom's case,  now is of the utmost importance.

Life is a gift not a choice. Make the best of today and live. Mom needs this. To live again. She has not really lived in 6 years, since my sister's decided they didn't want her to live with them. And being the loser I am, I don't have a wheel chair van to get her out to anywhere. Everywhere mom wants to go and needs to go.

This is my whole goal in life. Is to be there for my mother. Yes I am poor, yes I barely eat, I don't have clothing that fits, because of loosing all this weight. To bad. I really don't care.

I ONLY CARE ABOUT MY MOTHER AND HER FEELINGS AND WHAT HAPPENS TO HER.

And right now, the PGT are on my list. They are not doing their job and ignoring my emails. Stephen Flynn and his supervisor Leanne Dospital. Write them and complain.

Contribute to my campaign

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Oh yea I have not been able to get into my Gmail or this blog in days now. Not through Internet explorer or even FireFox.

Things

Hello again

Well today more things were discovered to be missing. I am really getting tired of this. Now two identical shirts, purchased separately are gone. As well as another shirt which was just bought. And two pillow cases.

Come on now. One of the shirts was never worn, and labeled, and I laid it out for mom the next day. And she was not wearing it the next day and it has not been seen since. That was two weeks ago. And over a week ago I bought another shirt, the same shirt. It was sent off to be labeled and not seen since. And of course none of the staff no what is going on. They tell me to write the description of the item down and give it to them.

I know my sisters love to take mom's things. And my mother has Alzheimer's and lung cancer. Shame on them. I write this as one of them read this. So this is to them.

Return everything you have taken from mom and do it within a week or I will be going to the police. How dare you steal from your own mother when she is sick, like this.

I mean everything, all of the clothing of mine that I gave to her. Because she like it and wanted it so I gave them to her. Mom would have plenty of clothes if it were not for my sisters taking them.

And I buy, with my own money allot of the clothing mom has. I am not their dad whom they can take advantage of. I am not here to supply their clothing. I buy things for my mother and I give, freely, my own clothing to her. Which always goes missing.

And they brought her this cheap ass pair of sunglasses. Which you buy at a dollar store. And put them on her. I see them taking her custom made sunglasses. I see this happening. Give her this crappy pair and take the good one's. This is the type of people they are.

I will go to the police and press charges if everything is not returned, within a week. I am tired of this.

They bring mom nothing. No fruit, no snacks.They visit with her in her room. Instead of taking her outside. They are bad. I have other words to describe them. But I won't bring myself to their level.

I am pissed off as you can tell. Mom is upset that she looses her clothing all the time. Mom tells me who it is who takes them.

But today mom was very tired. And was very affectionate. She didn't want me to let go of her hand. It is OK. I can do most things with one hand.

But I have to say this. The campaign to get mom a wheel chair van is not going well. Actually it sucks. Nothing to date. Not a penny.

I am stressed out and pissed off at my sisters and the staff.

I need your help! Mom needs your help! We need your help!

I need to go. I have been busy thanking the people who follow me. I have been updating my campaign page. Tweeting. Writing on Face Book. These are all new to me. Yes I have had these accounts for a long time. But never did anything with them. Until now.

So I need sleep. Which I have not been getting lately.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Been working on fundraising campaign

Hello again'

It has been a few days now, since I have been on here writing. I have been working on the fund raising campaign. Writing news papers across Canada. Writing Auto  companies. Ford, Honda, Chevy, Dodge etc....

Writing on twitter, face book etc...

But excuse me for not continuing with this.

Mom has been very hungry lately. Good thing I have been bringing her some meals. I thought tonight, mom eats well. I dont' eat like I cook for her.

Only the best for mom. I can't afford to eat like that. It is OK. I get by. Mom is first and I am last.

I will keep stating this, as it is the truth. I do for mom, before myself, all the time. I just love the look on her face when she enjoys her meals. It is priceless. That is all that matters to me. That mom is healthy and eats well. I'll get by.

I fixed the PayPal problem I had. I guess I should of verified my account before going live with the campaign.

Tonight, mom was tired. As she is on the weekends. And she ate allot of the meal I made for her. But then it was time to go to bed. And have the nightly spa treatment done. I wasn't packing up everything fast enough. She got made and tried to scratch me. I saw her hand coming every time.  I do have some bruises on my arm from her pinching me. Oh well. Not the first time. But this is expected with Alzheimer's. This is why I started this campaign. To get mom out and about while she is still aware. And mom is very aware of her what is going on around her.

We talk, she answers. I get what she is trying to say. This comes from being around her so much. I have this ability. That when I am around someone, I can connect with them and know things that freak people out.  Gifts that were handed down through out my family. Not everyone has this ability.  My sisters don't. I know this for certain.

I know what moms wants and needs are. What she wants to drink at that moment in time.

But tonight mom wanted me to get at it. And I was not quick enough. But once I finished her face and started on her legs, she was calming down. Then I just asked if it would be OK if I did her arms and brushed her hair.

She just loves the music I have downloaded for her.  I place it on her chest so she can feel and hear the music. This is good for her.

And that nurse that threatened me, is being nothing but a pain in the ass. I don't feel comfortable around their, when she is working. No disciplinary action was taken against her for threatening me. Isn't that great. This is how it works.

I know exactly what she is. I won't write it down. Even though I want to and I am right about her. I won't. She should be fired.

They keep giving mom Tylenol and I have asked them not to. I will write it down and give them a letter. This drug is not good for anyone. It causes liver damage and it makes people constipated. Then they give mom and suppository to make her go to the bathroom.


But it is now 1:05 am and it is time for bed. I want to get their early to take her outside again. As I have been doing the last while.

GOD and good night

Oh yea the PGT has left mom without some of the cosmetics she needs.

Kris Schmuland