Hello again
I was wrong when I said the other people gave mom a pair of slippers for Christmas. They were given to her for her Birthday in October. So maybe something went down for marking. I'll see next week.
More clothing has gone missing. A gortex type pullover, navy blue. Mom had it on just over a week ago and it is gone. Not back from the laundry, even though other items she has worn, have made it back into her closet.
I really am getting pissed off at the Al Hogg Pavilion, floor 3. For not even making any attempts at correcting the laundry problem. By going after the laundry company for the losses. Mom is not the only one resident with this issue.
So things are back to the same old thing. I am cold and hungry. No help from anyone. No matter how many layers I have on, I am cold.
But I need to go now, I am very tired and need some sleep.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Friday, December 28, 2012
Finally
Hello again
So I arrived to see mom today and found out that one of my sister's was their with a couple of the grandchildren. About time.. Only a few days late. And where were the other 18 plus family members. And mom only received a few items.
All of those people, mom should of been showered with gifts, even inexpensive gifts. But no, mom gets a pair of slippers ( which she has to many pairs already) and some soap. I am not sure if she got any clothing. I will have to wait a few days to see if that happened.
I now have washed my hands of those people. I give them to GOD to do what HE wants to do with them. Revenge is mine saith the lord.
I will be letting the staff know, not to contact them for anything. I am the one their all the time and I should be the only one they contact for anything. Not them. Whoever they are.
I, for the longest time, thought they would finally do something for mom. I bet they don't even know mom talks. Or even how to listen to her. That mom is their, she may have some impairments, but mom communicate very well. With me anyways.
I can't believe they didn't even give mom a Christmas card. After all I carried the Christmas tree out their by bus, plus all of the decorations. And in a week, I will be bringing them all back with me, by bus. And continue to get their by bus. 3 hours each way. I carry everything out their by bus.
Tonight, after dinner I washed mom's hair and then her nightly spa treatment.
When I got their mom was really happy to see me. I am glad for this. Don't get me wrong, I will never get in mom's way of seeing her other kids and grandchildren. But I will no longer acknowledge the fact I have sisters.
Except this. It is they who are stopping me from getting mom's photo's of her life and memories, as well as the PGT. I told the PGT that all I needed them was for a few months to copy and reprint all the photo's. But not good enough. And the other kids, never gave me permission
This is the type of people they are. Ignorant and spiteful. Not willing to do anything that would benefit mom in anyway. Not caring what mom wants, thinks and needs. How it is important for her to be able to see all of her life in full glory. She is, after all, 83 years old and has Dementia, Lung Cancer and has had a stoke. Come on now, grow up. It is mom's property, not theirs. And it is not like they didn't take everything from my parents, when they conned them into selling their house and move to a farm. All the while dad was showing sign's of Alzheimer's and was highly illegal to do this.
To a f.......ing farm. Mom and Dad moved to BC because they did not ever want to live on a farm again. They wanted to live in the city. Not a farm.
I am done with them. And, again, give them to GOD
For me, I ate something yesterday. My roommate came home and brought a chicken and chips dinner for me and him. I was very impressed and thanked him.
So I start again with the count.
And because of all the weight I have lost over the last year and a bit. I am cold all the time. I only have summer weight jackets. And I am putting on layers and layers. But still cold. I need a winter jacket. Don't know how I will get this. But the cold weather is just starting. More snow on the way. And it is unusually cold this year and will be for the rest of winter.
So I need to go, it is 12:16 am and I am very tired.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So I arrived to see mom today and found out that one of my sister's was their with a couple of the grandchildren. About time.. Only a few days late. And where were the other 18 plus family members. And mom only received a few items.
All of those people, mom should of been showered with gifts, even inexpensive gifts. But no, mom gets a pair of slippers ( which she has to many pairs already) and some soap. I am not sure if she got any clothing. I will have to wait a few days to see if that happened.
I now have washed my hands of those people. I give them to GOD to do what HE wants to do with them. Revenge is mine saith the lord.
I will be letting the staff know, not to contact them for anything. I am the one their all the time and I should be the only one they contact for anything. Not them. Whoever they are.
I, for the longest time, thought they would finally do something for mom. I bet they don't even know mom talks. Or even how to listen to her. That mom is their, she may have some impairments, but mom communicate very well. With me anyways.
I can't believe they didn't even give mom a Christmas card. After all I carried the Christmas tree out their by bus, plus all of the decorations. And in a week, I will be bringing them all back with me, by bus. And continue to get their by bus. 3 hours each way. I carry everything out their by bus.
Tonight, after dinner I washed mom's hair and then her nightly spa treatment.
When I got their mom was really happy to see me. I am glad for this. Don't get me wrong, I will never get in mom's way of seeing her other kids and grandchildren. But I will no longer acknowledge the fact I have sisters.
Except this. It is they who are stopping me from getting mom's photo's of her life and memories, as well as the PGT. I told the PGT that all I needed them was for a few months to copy and reprint all the photo's. But not good enough. And the other kids, never gave me permission
This is the type of people they are. Ignorant and spiteful. Not willing to do anything that would benefit mom in anyway. Not caring what mom wants, thinks and needs. How it is important for her to be able to see all of her life in full glory. She is, after all, 83 years old and has Dementia, Lung Cancer and has had a stoke. Come on now, grow up. It is mom's property, not theirs. And it is not like they didn't take everything from my parents, when they conned them into selling their house and move to a farm. All the while dad was showing sign's of Alzheimer's and was highly illegal to do this.
To a f.......ing farm. Mom and Dad moved to BC because they did not ever want to live on a farm again. They wanted to live in the city. Not a farm.
I am done with them. And, again, give them to GOD
For me, I ate something yesterday. My roommate came home and brought a chicken and chips dinner for me and him. I was very impressed and thanked him.
So I start again with the count.
And because of all the weight I have lost over the last year and a bit. I am cold all the time. I only have summer weight jackets. And I am putting on layers and layers. But still cold. I need a winter jacket. Don't know how I will get this. But the cold weather is just starting. More snow on the way. And it is unusually cold this year and will be for the rest of winter.
So I need to go, it is 12:16 am and I am very tired.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Christmas day
Hello again
So I received an I.O.U. for a lump of coal. It was a very lonely Christmas for me. That is Christmas Eve, I was alone, Christmas morning, I was alone and this evening, I am alone. But this is not the worst of it. I am OK with being alone, and not getting anything for Christmas. As this is not the most important part of my life.
My mother is the most important person in my life and first. I am last.
I say this, as I arrived to see mom today and she was in her room, crying and very angry. Her roommate had at least 6 family members their and she had a Christmas dinner with other family members the day before, Christmas Eve.
And mom had to sit there and watch as this happened. The whole while none of her family came to see her. NONE!
Out of the 25 or so, of her daughters, grandchildren, great grandchildren or their counterparts, didn't even have enough respect to even visit.
There was no signs of anyone there to see mom. NONE what so ever.
I always said, to justify their actions, that they are not able to handle the fact mom is sick. But that is just Bullshit. There is no justification for their actions. To not even bother to even go see their mother on Christmas Day or even before. Making her cry and be angry.
It was not easy to walk into the room, and see mom's eyes all red from crying for a long time. To see how angry she was, that no one came to see her. It broke my heart and I will never forget this. I have prayed to GOD to take care of them for this outrage, this travesty.
When mom and dad were well, my sister's took them for 10's of thousands of dollars. They will deny it, but I have proof. I have a file cabinet drawer of documents to prove how much they took form mom and dad. And they can say whatever they like. But the fact is that they did not go and see their mother at Christmas.
Disgusting if I do say so myself. I kept telling mom, today, that I will always be there for her. I have been there everyday and will continue. It took me almost an hour to get mom to stop crying and put a smile on her face. She didn't even show any interest in her presents. Just mad and upset. You should of seen her.
I will never forget this day. Whatever complaint I have about my life. Nothing compares to the sadness that was written across mom's face today. And the disgusting behaviour that my sister's showed towards their mother.
I would like to say allot more, but I am a person with dignity, morals and I just don't like to swear.It is unbecoming of me to do this.
After all they all have cars, I take a bus, And I can seem to get White Rock to see mom, and back everyday. Without hesitation and regrets.
I see I have used the word disgusting several times in this blog. But that is the way I see it. I am ashamed of them. And they can write whatever they want to about me. As it is, they write and post of twitter and I have never read any of it. I don't rent space in my head on losers
I may be a looser and a bum. But I can admit it. But they think they are so good and the best. Those who will be first shall be last among us. So I say they, the whole lot of them, are losers. This is all I can say about them.
I still can't believe they did this to mom. GOD bless them, NO, GOD take care of them.
I have to go. I am very tired and just want to watch something that I have downloaded. I have the hobbit, so I think I will try to watch this tonight.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So I received an I.O.U. for a lump of coal. It was a very lonely Christmas for me. That is Christmas Eve, I was alone, Christmas morning, I was alone and this evening, I am alone. But this is not the worst of it. I am OK with being alone, and not getting anything for Christmas. As this is not the most important part of my life.
My mother is the most important person in my life and first. I am last.
I say this, as I arrived to see mom today and she was in her room, crying and very angry. Her roommate had at least 6 family members their and she had a Christmas dinner with other family members the day before, Christmas Eve.
And mom had to sit there and watch as this happened. The whole while none of her family came to see her. NONE!
Out of the 25 or so, of her daughters, grandchildren, great grandchildren or their counterparts, didn't even have enough respect to even visit.
There was no signs of anyone there to see mom. NONE what so ever.
I always said, to justify their actions, that they are not able to handle the fact mom is sick. But that is just Bullshit. There is no justification for their actions. To not even bother to even go see their mother on Christmas Day or even before. Making her cry and be angry.
It was not easy to walk into the room, and see mom's eyes all red from crying for a long time. To see how angry she was, that no one came to see her. It broke my heart and I will never forget this. I have prayed to GOD to take care of them for this outrage, this travesty.
When mom and dad were well, my sister's took them for 10's of thousands of dollars. They will deny it, but I have proof. I have a file cabinet drawer of documents to prove how much they took form mom and dad. And they can say whatever they like. But the fact is that they did not go and see their mother at Christmas.
Disgusting if I do say so myself. I kept telling mom, today, that I will always be there for her. I have been there everyday and will continue. It took me almost an hour to get mom to stop crying and put a smile on her face. She didn't even show any interest in her presents. Just mad and upset. You should of seen her.
I will never forget this day. Whatever complaint I have about my life. Nothing compares to the sadness that was written across mom's face today. And the disgusting behaviour that my sister's showed towards their mother.
I would like to say allot more, but I am a person with dignity, morals and I just don't like to swear.It is unbecoming of me to do this.
After all they all have cars, I take a bus, And I can seem to get White Rock to see mom, and back everyday. Without hesitation and regrets.
I see I have used the word disgusting several times in this blog. But that is the way I see it. I am ashamed of them. And they can write whatever they want to about me. As it is, they write and post of twitter and I have never read any of it. I don't rent space in my head on losers
I may be a looser and a bum. But I can admit it. But they think they are so good and the best. Those who will be first shall be last among us. So I say they, the whole lot of them, are losers. This is all I can say about them.
I still can't believe they did this to mom. GOD bless them, NO, GOD take care of them.
I have to go. I am very tired and just want to watch something that I have downloaded. I have the hobbit, so I think I will try to watch this tonight.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Christmas Eve
Hello again
So I arrived home tonight to an empty place. The roommate went to his brother's place for the night and dinner on Christmas day.
It is very lonely here tonight.
I left mom's at 9:00 pm, after rapping the presents for her. She was up until that time. Unusual for her.But waiting for me to come back into the room to say good night. I liked this
But mom was extremely upset tonight. Her family has not been around, and Christmas time is special for her. She likes to have family around. And no one has been their to visit her. Mom is very upset. And when she is upset, she takes it out on me. She scratched my face a couple of times. It is OK, I don't react, I just tell her that I love her.
She wants to see her aunt, it has been a while for this. But my great aunts daughter is too busy to bring her mom up the few blocks to see my mom. And her own brother took a year to come see his sister. And my sister's, well what can I say. It has been a few weeks since the one was their and who knows how long it has been since the other was their.
Hopefully today they will come and see her. I just can't believer they are like this. No one is that busy to make time to see their mother. Who was always there for them when they needed her. But they can't take the time to come and see their mother when she is ill and needs all the love she can get. This is why I am their everyday, without fail. And will continue to do this. Without fail.
I know my mother relies on me and I on her.
And I have now broken my own record for not eating. OK I had some ginger bread cookies today. And now I go to bed.
I had to hide the gifts for mom. I just don't trust my sister's or the staff. I wanted to put them under the tree. But I just felt it would not be a good idea to do this. I can't believe I had to do this.
I dislike Christmas because, I am alone. No presents under the tree. Actually, no tree or decorations. Not even an I.O.U for a lump of coal. I won't be having a Christmas dinner. As I could not afford the $7.00 for the ticket to have it with mom.
They are having their Christmas dinner at noon. I got home at 11:30 tonight and it is now almost 1:00 am. I won't be able to make it there by noon. I will try to get there for 3:00pm
So another crappy Christmas for me. But I have nice gifts for mom and I know she will like them
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
So I arrived home tonight to an empty place. The roommate went to his brother's place for the night and dinner on Christmas day.
It is very lonely here tonight.
I left mom's at 9:00 pm, after rapping the presents for her. She was up until that time. Unusual for her.But waiting for me to come back into the room to say good night. I liked this
But mom was extremely upset tonight. Her family has not been around, and Christmas time is special for her. She likes to have family around. And no one has been their to visit her. Mom is very upset. And when she is upset, she takes it out on me. She scratched my face a couple of times. It is OK, I don't react, I just tell her that I love her.
She wants to see her aunt, it has been a while for this. But my great aunts daughter is too busy to bring her mom up the few blocks to see my mom. And her own brother took a year to come see his sister. And my sister's, well what can I say. It has been a few weeks since the one was their and who knows how long it has been since the other was their.
Hopefully today they will come and see her. I just can't believer they are like this. No one is that busy to make time to see their mother. Who was always there for them when they needed her. But they can't take the time to come and see their mother when she is ill and needs all the love she can get. This is why I am their everyday, without fail. And will continue to do this. Without fail.
I know my mother relies on me and I on her.
And I have now broken my own record for not eating. OK I had some ginger bread cookies today. And now I go to bed.
I had to hide the gifts for mom. I just don't trust my sister's or the staff. I wanted to put them under the tree. But I just felt it would not be a good idea to do this. I can't believe I had to do this.
I dislike Christmas because, I am alone. No presents under the tree. Actually, no tree or decorations. Not even an I.O.U for a lump of coal. I won't be having a Christmas dinner. As I could not afford the $7.00 for the ticket to have it with mom.
They are having their Christmas dinner at noon. I got home at 11:30 tonight and it is now almost 1:00 am. I won't be able to make it there by noon. I will try to get there for 3:00pm
So another crappy Christmas for me. But I have nice gifts for mom and I know she will like them
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Monday, December 24, 2012
It is almost here
Hello again
I would like to start out by saying that today I am at my record of days without eating. 17 and tomorrow it is a new record for me.
My vision is getting screwed up. I am having a hard time using my right hand. It is freezing up and I am not able to hold things, without dropping them. I have a massive headache and my back is killing me. Yes it shot me! I am extremely weak and very tired. My knee's are giving out. Thank GOD for the cane.
Being the weekend mom is still not that hungry. But she ate most of her meal and the Papaya, plus the pumpkin pie and some of her chocolates.
And tired, she was. I got her ready for bed. And while doing this I was singing along with the Christmas music.. Mom, it seems was singing along as well. It was great. I put her to bed. Then the nightly spa treatment. I sang her good night song and held her hand for awhile until she fell asleep.
Tomorrow I will be bringing the gifts I have for her and wrap them up after I get mom into bed, and she falls asleep.
I tweet this. Dear Santa all I want for Christmas is a warm winter jacket, a pea coat. And not the I.O.U for a lump of coal I usually get. Santa runs out of coal before he gets to my home.
Just something is better than nothing. I have a phone, but right now it is a paper weight, an expensive paper weight at that.
I do complain allot. I am trying not too. But when one needs help and their is no one to help said person. One gets really depressed. Especially at this time of the year.
I am extremely lonely and I do thank GOD for having mom. At least I have someone to talk too.
I am lucky to be able to help mom out.
I am trying to get her to take vitamins, but mom is having a hard time swallowing them. I will have to crush them and mix them with something. In a way mom is like a child. But no she is not. I am just doing what anyone should be doing for their parent.
Mom looked after me, when young. Now it is my turn.
Need to go to bed. Being very tired, as I am.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
I would like to start out by saying that today I am at my record of days without eating. 17 and tomorrow it is a new record for me.
My vision is getting screwed up. I am having a hard time using my right hand. It is freezing up and I am not able to hold things, without dropping them. I have a massive headache and my back is killing me. Yes it shot me! I am extremely weak and very tired. My knee's are giving out. Thank GOD for the cane.
Being the weekend mom is still not that hungry. But she ate most of her meal and the Papaya, plus the pumpkin pie and some of her chocolates.
And tired, she was. I got her ready for bed. And while doing this I was singing along with the Christmas music.. Mom, it seems was singing along as well. It was great. I put her to bed. Then the nightly spa treatment. I sang her good night song and held her hand for awhile until she fell asleep.
Tomorrow I will be bringing the gifts I have for her and wrap them up after I get mom into bed, and she falls asleep.
I tweet this. Dear Santa all I want for Christmas is a warm winter jacket, a pea coat. And not the I.O.U for a lump of coal I usually get. Santa runs out of coal before he gets to my home.
Just something is better than nothing. I have a phone, but right now it is a paper weight, an expensive paper weight at that.
I do complain allot. I am trying not too. But when one needs help and their is no one to help said person. One gets really depressed. Especially at this time of the year.
I am extremely lonely and I do thank GOD for having mom. At least I have someone to talk too.
I am lucky to be able to help mom out.
I am trying to get her to take vitamins, but mom is having a hard time swallowing them. I will have to crush them and mix them with something. In a way mom is like a child. But no she is not. I am just doing what anyone should be doing for their parent.
Mom looked after me, when young. Now it is my turn.
Need to go to bed. Being very tired, as I am.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Twas a few days
Hello again
Day.... I don't know anymore. Living on tea and gabipentin.
I am sure I have mom covered. But would be nice to have something under my tree for a change. Many, many years, now since that happened. Been looking after mom. And their for her at all holidays. Well, everyday. And love every minute of it. I miss mom each day and look forward to seeing her. I tell her this all the time.
It is the weekend and mom is was still not that hungry. She ate, not much. But she enjoyed the papaya and the avocado. Most of her meal. She was very tired. It is very strange that every weekend it is this way.
But she enjoyed the spa treatment though. Relaxes her and puts her to sleep. I do, however hold her hand until she falls asleep and I sing a goodnight song to her. Mom sings along with me. It changes a little bit at times.
Her room is looking good. Very Christmasy, ( if that is how it is spelled) I gave her a card today. I put the glasses on her, showed the card to her, and read it to her. Found a couple of other Christmas cards from last year and put them up on her board, with the one I brought her tonight.
I am excited about Christmas for mom. Depressed for myself and about myself. I have raping paper and will rap the gifts Christmas eve, when mom is in bed. Then put them under her tree, for her.
I do say that the tree looks good. Blue lights with blue and white decorations It is OK I guess.
What I say is Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is a warm winter coat, a pea coat, Wool. It is mighty cold out there in my travels to and from visiting mom by bus. It is colder out this year than normal. And the bus's are not exactly warm. Nor the Sky Train/subway
And with Celiac disease it is hard to eat properly, when one makes nothing. And if I do have anything in the fridge, the one roommate eats it. Then is gone for days.
So 1:00 am and I am waiting for my laundry to finish before I go to bed. And I am downloading some Christmas shows. OK I am a bah humbug person. Can't you blame me. But I am trying to keep my mood up beat. Especially for mom.
It is all about her after all. I can't do anything about a Christmas gift under my tree. It is not going to happen, so I guess I should stop complaining about it.
I would rather see mom have a great Christmas, than me. I enjoy the look on her face each and every year.
Need to finish my laundry and go to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Day.... I don't know anymore. Living on tea and gabipentin.
I am sure I have mom covered. But would be nice to have something under my tree for a change. Many, many years, now since that happened. Been looking after mom. And their for her at all holidays. Well, everyday. And love every minute of it. I miss mom each day and look forward to seeing her. I tell her this all the time.
It is the weekend and mom is was still not that hungry. She ate, not much. But she enjoyed the papaya and the avocado. Most of her meal. She was very tired. It is very strange that every weekend it is this way.
But she enjoyed the spa treatment though. Relaxes her and puts her to sleep. I do, however hold her hand until she falls asleep and I sing a goodnight song to her. Mom sings along with me. It changes a little bit at times.
Her room is looking good. Very Christmasy, ( if that is how it is spelled) I gave her a card today. I put the glasses on her, showed the card to her, and read it to her. Found a couple of other Christmas cards from last year and put them up on her board, with the one I brought her tonight.
I am excited about Christmas for mom. Depressed for myself and about myself. I have raping paper and will rap the gifts Christmas eve, when mom is in bed. Then put them under her tree, for her.
What I say is Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is a warm winter coat, a pea coat, Wool. It is mighty cold out there in my travels to and from visiting mom by bus. It is colder out this year than normal. And the bus's are not exactly warm. Nor the Sky Train/subway
And with Celiac disease it is hard to eat properly, when one makes nothing. And if I do have anything in the fridge, the one roommate eats it. Then is gone for days.
So 1:00 am and I am waiting for my laundry to finish before I go to bed. And I am downloading some Christmas shows. OK I am a bah humbug person. Can't you blame me. But I am trying to keep my mood up beat. Especially for mom.
It is all about her after all. I can't do anything about a Christmas gift under my tree. It is not going to happen, so I guess I should stop complaining about it.
I would rather see mom have a great Christmas, than me. I enjoy the look on her face each and every year.
Need to finish my laundry and go to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
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