Hello again
Well today was a bad day for my hearing. When I awoke, I could barely hear anything and this went on for most of the day. I regained my hearing this evening around 8 pm. I am glad I understand mom, without her speaking. As most of what she says is not communicative. Mom mumbles. So I did understand our conversations, as I usually do, without mom actually speaking clearly.
But I was constantly telling people I could not hear them. That I lost my hearing today and can barely make out barely anything that you are saying. I was asking them to look at me when they speak to me. As I can read lips, pretty well, I guess.
Now, yesterday, Monday, I had to go to the library, as my printer is out of ink and I can't afford to purchase the refills. I get on the computer and do what I need to do. Get up and go to the printer to get my pages. When I returned the computer I was using, my bag was gone. Stolen from the library. Great isn't it. My life was in that bag. My wallet is gone, all my ID. This is the third time in 5 years that my ID was stolen. On top of this, all of mom's cosmetics and nail care products are gone. Mom's Handi Dart bus pass was in there as well. And in that envelope, there was a small brown envelope with my rent money in it. $500.00 I took it out of the bank on Friday, thinking the landlord was coming over on Saturday.Which he never did. Last month he didn't even pick up the rent until the 7 th of the month. This is now gone.
I went to the police station on the way home to report it stolen. They asked if I saw anyone around me. Of course I did. Everyone else that was using the computers. I wasn't paying that much attention. I have no idea what to do now. Well I do but I am extremely pissed off. I have contact the ministry to get something going.
OK, you say that I should be careful and not carry that kind of money with me. But you know that I have been complaining about the alcoholic roommate. And that I can't leave anything of value lying around. And I don't. I take my laptop with me to see mom. I is heavy, but I don't trust her. She is suppose to of moved out by now. She was kicked out. She uses everything of mine, without replacing it and then tells me she did not use it. She lies about everything.
The one thing that I can take solace in, is that I taped my bus pass onto the back of my phone, instead of my wallet. No idea why I did this. It was always taped to my wallet. And my phone was at home on the charger. As well as my laptop, it was at home too. I was coming home to get everything for mom, before I left to go see her. So I didn't need it. The bag was expensive. But it doesn't compare to all of mom's cosmetics and nail care products being gone. Or her Handi Dart pass. My wallet and ID. This is a pain in the ass. I have had to replace it, as I have stated 2 times already and it took a very long time to get things together. Now I start again.
I have to go for more blood test, and I have to fast ten hours for these tests and it is already midnight and I need to eat. So another day without getting them done. By the time I have fasted for 10 hours it will be time for me to go to care for mom. I won't have time to get the tests done.
So mom, Mary, was in a good mood today. She had no idea I could not hear her. I can still hear myself speaking, in my head. She ate very well, and as usual, mom was tired right after dinner. Tomorrow, I will be washing her hair and finishing her toe nails off. Oh right I don't have any nail polish left. See, what a pain in the ass this is going to be. I need to replace everything.
It is so nice to see mom so relaxed after dinner. I just have the same problem as usual. The roommate has the TV on, as well as the lights on. Mom need peace and quit. And she isn't getting it. The home has not done anything about it. Even after numerous complaints.
OK I need to go and make my mac and cheese. I need to eat, I don't eat all day long. And I don't get home until 11 pm at night
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Please pray for me.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Sunday, June 2, 2013
I have been waiting
Hello again
Sorry it has been several days since my last post. My internet has been down. And tonight, when I got home it was working again
Well nobody can take care of my mother like I can, She is in a home and they can provide her with the medication, they say she needs, But nobody can take care of mom like I can. I know her and know what she wants and needs. I have been doing this for many years.
The staff cannot understand her and they say to people who ask what mom is saying, we don't know. But her son understands her and communicates with her extremely well.
I know my sisters would have no idea how to look after mom, I know they do not understand her, nor will they be able too. Nobody can take care of mom like I can.
I do this as it is my calling and will do it until the end. People tell me I will burn out, Not likely! I am mom's caregiver and proud of it. I am there 4 hours a day, everyday.
Tonight mom ate really well and allot. Not like the last few days. What it is, is they give mom her medication at 4:30 and 1/2 hour later, the medication kicks in and she is almost out cold. So how can she eat. Or they let mom Mary sit in her own filth and she does not want to eat. All she wants to do is get changed.
Maybe it is time I do this as well. I have done everything else for her, except give her a bath and change her. I just never wanted to do this, because it is my mother.
But if it means mom will eat dinner, I guess I will have no choice. I know she has wanted me to do this for her several times. I don't want her to be uncomfortable.
The PGT is still refusing to pay for the chair. The women just lost her mom, her husband has mild to moderate Alzheimer's and is sometimes a problem. She was kind enough to give me a great deal on the chair. Mom just loves it. My friend wants nothing to do with the PGT, she is very familiar with them. And it is a cash sale not a cheque. My friend has to plan a funeral and is not a rich person herself. She has bills that need to be paid and there is legal situations that come when one passes away. I am sure you all know what these are.
Mom, Mary, has been doing well as of late. She is healthy. But Friday night when I arrived I was freaked out. She was out of it. I could not get her to eat anything. The only thing I was able to get eat or drink was the smoothie. I could barely get her to even drink anything. After I got her into bed, mom suddenly woke up and was hungry. I went and got some of the fruit out of the fridge. This is all I had for her. And she did finally eat something. But I was still afraid that she was really sick. And not having a phone made the situation even more troubling for me. If something did happen, I would not be able to be reached.
Now a little about myself.
My hearing has been going in and out. The doctor tells me I need hearing aids. But the only way I can get them is if I am on disability. And this takes months and months. I need them now. It is not fun to be deaf and then be able to hear. Or to barely hear anything anyone is saying to me.
My knees are in extreme pain and it is difficult to even walk, but I press on. Not for my sake, but for mom. I need to be their and mom needs me to be their everyday.
Well it is almost midnight and I need to do a few more things online. So I bid you good night
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
I have so much more to say. Some really crappy thing happened to me today. I will fill you in tomorrow
Sorry it has been several days since my last post. My internet has been down. And tonight, when I got home it was working again
Well nobody can take care of my mother like I can, She is in a home and they can provide her with the medication, they say she needs, But nobody can take care of mom like I can. I know her and know what she wants and needs. I have been doing this for many years.
The staff cannot understand her and they say to people who ask what mom is saying, we don't know. But her son understands her and communicates with her extremely well.
I know my sisters would have no idea how to look after mom, I know they do not understand her, nor will they be able too. Nobody can take care of mom like I can.
I do this as it is my calling and will do it until the end. People tell me I will burn out, Not likely! I am mom's caregiver and proud of it. I am there 4 hours a day, everyday.
Tonight mom ate really well and allot. Not like the last few days. What it is, is they give mom her medication at 4:30 and 1/2 hour later, the medication kicks in and she is almost out cold. So how can she eat. Or they let mom Mary sit in her own filth and she does not want to eat. All she wants to do is get changed.
Maybe it is time I do this as well. I have done everything else for her, except give her a bath and change her. I just never wanted to do this, because it is my mother.
But if it means mom will eat dinner, I guess I will have no choice. I know she has wanted me to do this for her several times. I don't want her to be uncomfortable.
The PGT is still refusing to pay for the chair. The women just lost her mom, her husband has mild to moderate Alzheimer's and is sometimes a problem. She was kind enough to give me a great deal on the chair. Mom just loves it. My friend wants nothing to do with the PGT, she is very familiar with them. And it is a cash sale not a cheque. My friend has to plan a funeral and is not a rich person herself. She has bills that need to be paid and there is legal situations that come when one passes away. I am sure you all know what these are.
Mom, Mary, has been doing well as of late. She is healthy. But Friday night when I arrived I was freaked out. She was out of it. I could not get her to eat anything. The only thing I was able to get eat or drink was the smoothie. I could barely get her to even drink anything. After I got her into bed, mom suddenly woke up and was hungry. I went and got some of the fruit out of the fridge. This is all I had for her. And she did finally eat something. But I was still afraid that she was really sick. And not having a phone made the situation even more troubling for me. If something did happen, I would not be able to be reached.
Now a little about myself.
My hearing has been going in and out. The doctor tells me I need hearing aids. But the only way I can get them is if I am on disability. And this takes months and months. I need them now. It is not fun to be deaf and then be able to hear. Or to barely hear anything anyone is saying to me.
My knees are in extreme pain and it is difficult to even walk, but I press on. Not for my sake, but for mom. I need to be their and mom needs me to be their everyday.
Well it is almost midnight and I need to do a few more things online. So I bid you good night
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
I have so much more to say. Some really crappy thing happened to me today. I will fill you in tomorrow
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