Hello again
Today being Friday mom is not very hungry. She ate a little bit of her dinner and she did eat a papaya and box of her 3 Lindt chocolates.
Then while doing the dishes, mom pointed to the pointsetta again. I let her know that I could help her with that. So when we got to her room. I pointed her towards her nightstand and there it was, a pointsetta. Mom smiled and wanted to touch the plant. I pushed her over to it and she was touching and feeling the plant. And smiling the whole time. She shed a tear. I gave her a big hug and she wanted a kiss. So that is what I did. And when I got her into bed, the smile continued. I finished her spa treatment, she was changed, and I held her hand while she fell asleep. With a smile on her face.
I just need to make the rest of her Christmas special. I did get mom something, with the little I had. At least there will be one present under the tree for her.
I would like to say again, that mom is completely dependent on everyone for all her needs. I wipe her nose, wipe her mouth, when it is dirty. When I get their I wipe the sleet from her eyes. I feed her and get her ready for bed. I wash her face, her hair, every other day. I put lotion on her face, arms, hand, legs and feet.
And I am proud and glad to do it. And would not have it any other way.
Day 15, my eye sight is getting blurry. I have major pains.I am dropping things with my right hand all the time lately
To all who know this. I am completely alone in this world. It is a horrible feeling. But I am use to it by now. As it has been along time. I don't have family. There is just mom and I. And when I leave their at night. I am alone. I don't have conversations with anyone.
And well, right now, I don't want to talk to anyone, anyways. I dislike Christmas. I just enjoy spending the time with mom.
All I want to do is make each and every Christmas, the best for mom. The tree, being their for her and doing whatever I can for her.
So I am very tired and need to go to bed. Get up early to get out to White Rock.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
