A little better

Hello again

It has been since Monday that mom had her tooth removed. And today she was not that hungry. The tooth bothered her somewhat and because of the medication, that was given to her, she is, well, constipated. Which makes mom not very hungry. She did eat some of her dinner, as well as only half of a papaya. Which she normally eats a whole one. But she did enjoy her Lindt chocolates.

I promised her I would wash her hair and this is what we did right after dinner. Then off to bed we went. While washing her hair I got her shirt and sweater wet. While changing her I noticed a smell. Mom needed to be washed very well. So after I got her into bed, I washed her back. This is something I am going to do from now on. Everyday. As well as her arms, legs and face. I will leave the rest up to the care aid to do. I will be instructing them on this detail tomorrow. OK today. since it is after 12:00

Mom was very happy to see me today. I love it when she runs her hand over my face. It is a great feeling. A connection. Love! She loves to hold my hand and that is a great thing as well.

Today I was able to get a family Doctor. For the first time in years. Out in White Rock of course. But I need to live their to continue to see this Doctor.

I have serious balance issues. I cannot hold anything in my right hand, I am dropping things all the time as of late. I am falling over to my right quit a bit in the last while. NOT GOOD. The doctor needs to do some serious work ups on me. I am smelling toast all the time. Where no toast is being made.

Signs of a stroke. He needs to check this out.

But anyways. The suite I mentioned. I have talked the owner into $500.00 per month. For 6 months or until I get my disability, then I will pay 750.00 per month. The actual cost of the suite is $700.00 But we spoke and I agreed to the extra $50.00 a month until the cost is made up. The $200.00 that I am getting a break on. So I will pay the extra $50.00  until we have balanced it out.

Now the problem is, and it is a very large problem. I HAVE NOTHING. Not even a bed. It is a one bedroom suite, all utilities included. And I will be moving in to an empty place. No furniture( bedroom or living room),  no TV, stereo, dishes, cutlery, pots and pans or even a kitchen table and chairs. I have my clothing, a good set of knives, kitchen utensils. One frying pan. An omelet pan. And some storage containers. Yes my computer and printers.

This place is a 20 minute walk from the hospital, two blocks to the bus stop. 15 - 20 minute walk to a few different grocery stores. And 15 minutes to three churches. My mother's roommates daughter goes to one of the churches that I was interested in attending. She tells me it is a good church.

Don't get me wrong. I like my mother's roommate. It is just that she likes to watch TV all night long, has the light on as well. And talks to herself as well. Part of the Dementia.

Now I really don't know what to do. I now have a Doctor in White Rock. I transferred my prescriptions out to the Shopper Drug Mart in White Rock. I have a nice place that is close to what I need.

But, the big But. I need everything and have nothing. I don't even have funds to purchase said items. Nor to even eat.

When you move into a place, one not only needs the furniture, but all of the sundry products as well. Ketchup, Miracle Whip, mustard, flour, sugar, salt etc...... etc...................... and I have none of it and need all of it.

Yes I am a pain in the ass. But I have done all of this leg work, I pray to GOD all the time.

GOD has been keeping mom healthy. I don't pray allot for myself. But even if I do, nothing seems to happen. It is as if I am a very big joke in  GOD's eyes. I am a person to have fun with.

I suffer all the time. I am in pain 24/7 365. I don't complain about it. I just want mom to be healthy. I put up with it.

I just wish for a miracle for myself, once in a while. OK just once.

But I digress, I need to go now.

GOD bless and good night

Please pray that I receive a miracle

Kris Schmuland

Two days after

Hello again

GOD bless

Two days ago mom had a tooth removed. One that should of  been removed a few months ago. It has bothered her and she has been in pain for the entire two months. But did anyone even care. Not the dentist on site, nor the staff, not even mom's daughter's.

I called the dental office repeatedly and they never returned my call. This is serious abuse. By all involved. Come on now, would you sit in pain for a few months. All she needed was the tooth to be removed.

Not only this, but she sits in soiled diapers for hours, no one gives her anything to drink. I know, as soon as I get their mom wants her drinks and she is thirsty. This is how people die in these homes. Lake of care, lack of liquid.

So the day she had the tooth removed, mom was not very hungry at all. I tried to give her soft foods, an avocado, the papaya. But she barely ate anything. I don't blame her. In pain. Freezing just coming out. She was put under and that feeling was still present.

Yesterday, I brought her some a teryaki bento box, with a California roll. Mom ate some of this. Not all of it.

She has not even enjoyed her chocolate. The Lindt Truffles.

Today, mom was very thirsty, happy to see me. Touching my face.

One of the kitchen staff brought me over some dinner, and then brought mom her dinner. Well, mom almost ate both meals. There was not much left over. Just the potatoes. Of course, she gets potatoes, almost every meal.

And her desert, the papaya, an avocado and her chocolates. Great I say, good on her.

I got her ready for bed. This she looks forward too. I wash her face, apply different lotions to her face, then I apply a different lotion to her lower legs and feet and give her a good foot rub. Of course all the while listening to Diana Krall. This she only likes to listen to when in bed.

Oh yea, the staff keep unplugging the stereo. It is a smart stereo and has to be reset each and every time they do this. Gets my goat.

Mom is so relaxed when I am done. I hold her hand while she falls off to sleep. Unless she is awoken by someone, then it takes her longer to get to sleep.

I just need to be out their so I don't have to leave at a certain time. To get back to Coquitlam by 11pm.

Now I am,again asking for a little support or pray that GOD helps me out financially. To get me out their quickly.

I found a perfect place, It is only a few blocks away. Nice basement suite. Just a little out of my price range. By one hundred dollars. This is the part that upsets me the most. A matter of one hundred dollars. Newer basement suite, everything included, my own washer and dryer. What more could anyone ask for . I can push mom their in less than 15 minutes, about 10 I would say.

Again it is a matter of one hundred dollars, a month. This is after I talked them down one hundred dollars. Them knowing I am applying for disability and will take up to 6 months to finalize. Then I could pay the original amount of $700. they were asking .

I don't know anymore. Just asking

Now I need to go, I am very tired and worn out today. I need to catch up on some shows I have downloaded.

So....................................

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Yea, I am loosing the ability to use my right hand. I am dropping more and more things all the time. My balance is way off and am tilting and falling to the right all the time.

I was blocked

Hello again

So I have been in a writers block as of late. Well I think it has to do with everything that is going on. And the fact that my right hand is not working well at all. Dropping things like crazy and having to type slowly.

I really do need to move. And this is why. I spend 9 - 10 hours a day, traveling to, looking after, and traveling home from mom's everyday. That is 70 hours a week. I don't want to cut back on the time I spend with mom, in fact I want to spend more time with her. I just want to cut back on the traveling time.

And who said I don't have a job. And this job I am blessed with being able to take care of my mother. Sure I don't get paid for it. But I don't care. I have this rare opportunity and it is mine. Mine I say.It belongs to know one else. I love every bit of it.

Thank you GOD

I just wish my faith was stronger. So I believe in what HE said in HIS word.

I just need a little help with things. I can't do everything on my own. I get no help as it is . I live on less than nothing.

I have nothing.

If I had a little help, I would of moved to White Rock already and been able to get on disability as I need too.

So mom, the last few days, she has not been as aggressive as she was for over a week.

I was getting worried. I had her blood pressure tested several times. As I was afraid she could have a heart attack or another stroke. Thank GOD her blood pressure is fine.

She has been eating well. And plenty of fruit.

The last few days this one care aid has been on. She does not let mom's roommate have the TV on loud., She put the women's ear phones on, Takes the remoter away and turns off the light for the night. This is what mom needs.

Because of this women, mom has not been getting the proper rest. I complain all the time, and all I ask is that this happens.

Well I need to go now.

I am completely stressed out. I am not sleeping well,. Any little noise I hear I wake up. I am worried about this crack head coming and doing something to me.

So GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland