Hello
First let me start by saying this is day 8 of not eating anything. Well my stomach is not doing well and my vision, even with my glasses on is crapy. It is even hard to see the computer screen. And I am out of tea, the one thing that I have been living on. Besides butt smokes. And I have absoutly nothing for my mother.
That is a shame. That I cannot get help with stuff for mom. I have gone 8 days now and well my stomach is now pretty much ruined. And a few more days I will end up in the hospital whether I what to or not. I think I will just faint somewhere and not be able to get up. My strength is just about gone. I notice it when I pick up mom. I am constently tired. And yet I can't sleep. I am falling all the time.And this is not good for someone who is injured. I feel completly out of it. And actually I am out of it.
I just bugs me that I have nothing for mom.
So today, Actually last night when I got home I opened up my gmail and I had an email from Stephen Flynn of lthe PGT telling me that their was a cheque waiting for me today Friday. And we spoke about this and it was to help me get my phone working again, groceries for a while, a 3 zone bus pass to see mom in White Rock, and money to get mom her drinks, fruit an snacks.
So I am completly broke and I beg to get on the bus, thinking I have money waiting for me downtown. I get down their and their is no cheque for me. Now I just went downtown without anything and I thought I would have some money to get home and eat and get mom things and finaly getting my phone working again. After all I need a phone to contact Ocean Side in White Rock to discuss mom's treatments.
Nothing, and of course Stephen Flynn is not in today and so I spoke with someone esle and they told me their is no cheque. So I show them the email and they just said nothing. Except that their is no cheque.
Well I got very pissed off, I told them that I can't get home. I have no money. And I need these funds to eat and get mom her things she needs. That mom has been going without and she needs these things. It is hot out and mom is drinking allot and nothing.
Their was to be a cheque for $500 and nothing. So I was stuck down town. I tried to get on the bus and the driver said no. So I went to the West Coast Express and tried to get on and I did not even get down the escalator and I was caught. So here I am downtown with no money in my pocket and need to get home.So the only thing left was the sky train. And I managed to get to Lougheed and then I had to wait for 5 busses before I new someone who would let me on.
Then I got home, grabbed what I have for mom. Her beauty things and the bag. And left to beg another ride. I ended getting to see mom late and I only had one half hour with her, before she wants to go to bed.
Well back to beggin a ride back to Coquitlam Centre. And then to walk home. Oh yea after going to get my perscriptions refilled.
Now I have no phone and no way of getting to see mom, except for begging a ride. I am to at the hospital at 9 am on Monday to go with mom to a dental appointment. I don't even know if I will be able to stand. As for the lack of food in me. I have never gone this long without eating. And now no tea. And the worst part is nothing for mom. I am so crazy at the PGT that I need to sue them.
And I have to get intouch with Ocean side and get out their to see them. And to get intouch with ICBC and Translink. So I can get some kind of income to live. I was injured and now nothing.
You know I am trying very hard to do this. But not eating is really getting to me. And not having anything for mom is the worst part of everything.
I am really getting scared. and what coud happen to me from not eating. I can't get sick, mom needs me to be their for her. I can't miss any days. I am really frightened. I don't know what happens to the body with not eating for this long.
And the worst part is no one cares. If I starve or not. That is sad.
I finally got the pictures off of my phone, with the pictures of mom's bruses, and black eye and how she looks now compared to her walking in.
I beg of anyone, please help me. I am really not doing well and extremely frightened about what is going to happen to me if I continue to not eat for more days.
I have checked it out and when someone gets to 18 days wthout eating they die.
I have to go, as I just need to go and have a cry.
I will, tomorrow, put pictures up of mom.
GOD Bless an good night
Kris Schmuland
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Still trying to do the right thing
Hello
Well it is day 8 of not having anything to eat. Nothing at all . For some strange reason I feel pretty good today. Oh yea my stomach is really bloated, and I have a huge headache. And I am upset that I have to go through this without anyone even caring. Or even wondering how I am doing. Oh yea I tell you how I am doing. And I am doing crappy.
And after falling down some stairs I hurt even more. My wrist is extremely painful. I can't pick anything up. And I can only move it a certain way. And my schoder hurts and my lower back. It is also very painful to walk.
Well I can't even phone anyone. And the PGT tells me to get some information and they will write a cheque for Friday. But no, that is not going to happen. I was given another line today about the phone. Basically telling me no, they will not help and that it is my responsibility. Well yes, and if mom was not sick and dying, I would not even worry about it. But it is needed for mom and keeping in touch with the hospital and staff and doctors for mom's health care.
And nobody is even addressing the fact that I have to take the bus 2 hours their and back. And that is a major issue I have. Nobody is even throwing alternatives at me.Except to bad. The family doesn't care if I have to travel that much. Of course I will do it and I will continue to enjoy visiting with mom. I only have mom left for my family and when mom is gone. I no longer will have any family. That is all that is to it. Every time I think and know I will miss mom greatly. And I do not know how it is going to be.
I do know this is that I will have lots of fodder to take into courts.And sue everyone.
I went and say mom tonight and she was not hungry tonight. Just wanted her beauty treatment and for me to sing to her. She loves it when I sing to her. I am so very happy. And this is the only time during the day when I can actually say I am happy.
I have done nothing during the day ever sense I was injured in July. I hate this, I am loosing allot of money everyday that I cannot see and work with clients. I can't sit and work on my web site as it just hurts to much. With this I write a little and then take a break. So it takes me along time to write my blog.
Ok most of the day today I was Ok with the fact that I am into my 8th day without eating, but now I am extremely hungry and feeling very weak. My stomach is extremely hungry. I am completely detached. My concentration is shot and my entire body is starting to pay the price. I really don't know what is going to happen next with my body. I have never had to go this long with out absolutely nothing. Oh well. I might not make it through the weekend.
So I am not sure if mom is looking forward to the move. I do know she is upset that I am not eating and I have to take a bus to White Rock. 50 to 60klms Where I should have a car. Except oh yea the van was taken away from me in order that the PGT could use mom's money to pay for a companion service. To the tune of over fifty thousand dollars. Nice don't you think. And the answer I get it is to bad that you have to take the bus.
After all I have been traveling around the lower mainland visiting mom and it has all been interesting.
Yet we have ICBC and Tranlink who are just ignoring me and the fact that I got hurt on the bus and am loosing money like crazy. And I lost my phone, I can't clean properly, Walking is more and more difficult. Riding the bus injures me even more. As my body is falling apart.
I love my mother and will put up with the pain to visit her. But I will not stop writing about those who have put mom and I in this place.And caused all of these problems. They who are reading this and those involved know who you are.
Again I am not making any sense so I will say good bye
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Well it is day 8 of not having anything to eat. Nothing at all . For some strange reason I feel pretty good today. Oh yea my stomach is really bloated, and I have a huge headache. And I am upset that I have to go through this without anyone even caring. Or even wondering how I am doing. Oh yea I tell you how I am doing. And I am doing crappy.
And after falling down some stairs I hurt even more. My wrist is extremely painful. I can't pick anything up. And I can only move it a certain way. And my schoder hurts and my lower back. It is also very painful to walk.
Well I can't even phone anyone. And the PGT tells me to get some information and they will write a cheque for Friday. But no, that is not going to happen. I was given another line today about the phone. Basically telling me no, they will not help and that it is my responsibility. Well yes, and if mom was not sick and dying, I would not even worry about it. But it is needed for mom and keeping in touch with the hospital and staff and doctors for mom's health care.
And nobody is even addressing the fact that I have to take the bus 2 hours their and back. And that is a major issue I have. Nobody is even throwing alternatives at me.Except to bad. The family doesn't care if I have to travel that much. Of course I will do it and I will continue to enjoy visiting with mom. I only have mom left for my family and when mom is gone. I no longer will have any family. That is all that is to it. Every time I think and know I will miss mom greatly. And I do not know how it is going to be.
I do know this is that I will have lots of fodder to take into courts.And sue everyone.
I went and say mom tonight and she was not hungry tonight. Just wanted her beauty treatment and for me to sing to her. She loves it when I sing to her. I am so very happy. And this is the only time during the day when I can actually say I am happy.
I have done nothing during the day ever sense I was injured in July. I hate this, I am loosing allot of money everyday that I cannot see and work with clients. I can't sit and work on my web site as it just hurts to much. With this I write a little and then take a break. So it takes me along time to write my blog.
Ok most of the day today I was Ok with the fact that I am into my 8th day without eating, but now I am extremely hungry and feeling very weak. My stomach is extremely hungry. I am completely detached. My concentration is shot and my entire body is starting to pay the price. I really don't know what is going to happen next with my body. I have never had to go this long with out absolutely nothing. Oh well. I might not make it through the weekend.
So I am not sure if mom is looking forward to the move. I do know she is upset that I am not eating and I have to take a bus to White Rock. 50 to 60klms Where I should have a car. Except oh yea the van was taken away from me in order that the PGT could use mom's money to pay for a companion service. To the tune of over fifty thousand dollars. Nice don't you think. And the answer I get it is to bad that you have to take the bus.
After all I have been traveling around the lower mainland visiting mom and it has all been interesting.
Yet we have ICBC and Tranlink who are just ignoring me and the fact that I got hurt on the bus and am loosing money like crazy. And I lost my phone, I can't clean properly, Walking is more and more difficult. Riding the bus injures me even more. As my body is falling apart.
I love my mother and will put up with the pain to visit her. But I will not stop writing about those who have put mom and I in this place.And caused all of these problems. They who are reading this and those involved know who you are.
Again I am not making any sense so I will say good bye
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Thursday, August 25, 2011
I know nothing
Hello
Today is day 7 without anything to eat. Nothing at all, It is getting difficult. My vision is now extremely blurry. My vision is only clear within 20 feet, other wise it is blurry. My stomach is bloating and I have this massive headache. And my balance is off.
Well when I was leaving my visit with mom tonight, my right leg gave out and I fell down a flight of stairs. Well 5 stairs. I hurt my right wrist I could not even pick up my bags. I have a sore back and legs. And I think I am going to have some nice bruises on my body.
I am extremely hungry. I am very weak and I still can't sleep. The no sleeping I guess is good, as I am up at 8:00am. everyday.
So I am visiting mom and they are suppose to take mom to the bathroom before I get their and they didn't once again. After I took her in to go to the bathroom. Mom felt allot better. I sang to her,washed her face and legs and arms. I brushed her teeth and hair. Put her mosturizer on her and cream on her legs and arms.
We talked and laughed and then it was time, mom wanted to go to bed.
People keep telling me that is great that I visit my mom everyday. I tell them it is my pleasure. I have been doing this for 7 years now. Everyday. Bringing her drinks, fruit and snacks. And loving every minute of it. After all one of her children have to give and crap about her. I do and am doing it. Showing my mother the love she deserves.
It is something that should be done. And mom is all the family I have left. When mom passes away, I will no longer have a family. As no one in the family has anything to do with me. But they did not want anything to do with me when I came back from the states. Maybe it is because I got an education. I don't know and don't care. I will be on my own. I do care about being alone. I get lonely allot lately.
My wrist is killing me. And my body is stating to get very sore. And on top of this I am very hungry. I have been living on tea and butt smokes. And I am now out of tea. This is all I had. And my mother is all I have left in this world. Nothing and nobody.
It seems that I do this out of love and everyone thinks I am a wonderful son. But I get no recognition. It is like there is a wall put up at every turn. The PGT makes it very difficult for me all the time.I have to fight for everything.
I said in the past that the PGT ruined a re start up business. And the government just sent me a letter to send in the taxes I owe for the business. I had to sell everything, as the PGT would not help mom. So I used my on money to do this. And now I have another business and this one is to make a difference in the world. And just when it was starting to make me some real money. I get injured in a bus accident and I am loosing a ton of money. And I am left starving and penniless, I hurt all the time. And now even more.
And then everyone is on me telling me to do this and to do that. Go to the food bank. Well if I could get their and back without killing myself, don't you think I would rather than starving. I don't have a phone. Everyone involved in mom's health care is upset at me for not being able to contact me.
And not being able to contact them as well. I need to go to White Rock and have a meeting with the doctors to discuss mom's treatment plan. To get mom out and living with me.
I can't contact a lawyer, or ICBC or even Translink to get them on the ball and compensate me for not being able to work, and loosing money. I need my business back on track. I need to be able to have some help from someone. Anyone.I really thought all these years of writing this blog, I would of received some help by now. Especially now when I am hurting and starving and in pain.
Yes I am strong and I can let things go and be able to deal with the fact that I have been around allot of deaths due to Dementia. And just in my family. I have the ability to just be cold. But I do have feelings and I am hurt by the lack of support from people whom I thought were my friends and all who read theses words.
These words of a man who is hurting deeply. Not just emotionally and spiritually, but physically and mentally. I am only so strong. I just need someone to support me and help to feel that what I am doing is the right thing to do. And what I am doing matters, not just to my mother, but to others who read my words.
I am wanting these words to help other families that are going through this or will be going through this. These words are meant to teach all about the horrible abuse our loved one's can suffer at the hands of the care homes and institutions. And how our loved one's are being given deadly drugs to just shut them up. To physically and chemically restrain them.
It is an atrocity to man, how are loved ones get treated. I have seen so many horrible things in the last 7 or more years. It should give me nightmares for the rest of my life. I don't know how I am not crazy by now. For all the abuse my mother has dealt with and all the abuse I have taken from the PGT and their refusal to do the right thing. And to stop what they are doing.
I can't always be strong. I am expected to be and to just fight for everything. I need a phone and I need to eat and eat right now. Not in three or four days. I need a phone not in three or four weeks.But now.
I am lonely and tired and broke and well needing something. Something from someone. I again ask for your kindness.
Reach out and touch someone. Someone like me
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Today is day 7 without anything to eat. Nothing at all, It is getting difficult. My vision is now extremely blurry. My vision is only clear within 20 feet, other wise it is blurry. My stomach is bloating and I have this massive headache. And my balance is off.
Well when I was leaving my visit with mom tonight, my right leg gave out and I fell down a flight of stairs. Well 5 stairs. I hurt my right wrist I could not even pick up my bags. I have a sore back and legs. And I think I am going to have some nice bruises on my body.
I am extremely hungry. I am very weak and I still can't sleep. The no sleeping I guess is good, as I am up at 8:00am. everyday.
So I am visiting mom and they are suppose to take mom to the bathroom before I get their and they didn't once again. After I took her in to go to the bathroom. Mom felt allot better. I sang to her,washed her face and legs and arms. I brushed her teeth and hair. Put her mosturizer on her and cream on her legs and arms.
We talked and laughed and then it was time, mom wanted to go to bed.
People keep telling me that is great that I visit my mom everyday. I tell them it is my pleasure. I have been doing this for 7 years now. Everyday. Bringing her drinks, fruit and snacks. And loving every minute of it. After all one of her children have to give and crap about her. I do and am doing it. Showing my mother the love she deserves.
It is something that should be done. And mom is all the family I have left. When mom passes away, I will no longer have a family. As no one in the family has anything to do with me. But they did not want anything to do with me when I came back from the states. Maybe it is because I got an education. I don't know and don't care. I will be on my own. I do care about being alone. I get lonely allot lately.
My wrist is killing me. And my body is stating to get very sore. And on top of this I am very hungry. I have been living on tea and butt smokes. And I am now out of tea. This is all I had. And my mother is all I have left in this world. Nothing and nobody.
It seems that I do this out of love and everyone thinks I am a wonderful son. But I get no recognition. It is like there is a wall put up at every turn. The PGT makes it very difficult for me all the time.I have to fight for everything.
I said in the past that the PGT ruined a re start up business. And the government just sent me a letter to send in the taxes I owe for the business. I had to sell everything, as the PGT would not help mom. So I used my on money to do this. And now I have another business and this one is to make a difference in the world. And just when it was starting to make me some real money. I get injured in a bus accident and I am loosing a ton of money. And I am left starving and penniless, I hurt all the time. And now even more.
And then everyone is on me telling me to do this and to do that. Go to the food bank. Well if I could get their and back without killing myself, don't you think I would rather than starving. I don't have a phone. Everyone involved in mom's health care is upset at me for not being able to contact me.
And not being able to contact them as well. I need to go to White Rock and have a meeting with the doctors to discuss mom's treatment plan. To get mom out and living with me.
I can't contact a lawyer, or ICBC or even Translink to get them on the ball and compensate me for not being able to work, and loosing money. I need my business back on track. I need to be able to have some help from someone. Anyone.I really thought all these years of writing this blog, I would of received some help by now. Especially now when I am hurting and starving and in pain.
Yes I am strong and I can let things go and be able to deal with the fact that I have been around allot of deaths due to Dementia. And just in my family. I have the ability to just be cold. But I do have feelings and I am hurt by the lack of support from people whom I thought were my friends and all who read theses words.
These words of a man who is hurting deeply. Not just emotionally and spiritually, but physically and mentally. I am only so strong. I just need someone to support me and help to feel that what I am doing is the right thing to do. And what I am doing matters, not just to my mother, but to others who read my words.
I am wanting these words to help other families that are going through this or will be going through this. These words are meant to teach all about the horrible abuse our loved one's can suffer at the hands of the care homes and institutions. And how our loved one's are being given deadly drugs to just shut them up. To physically and chemically restrain them.
It is an atrocity to man, how are loved ones get treated. I have seen so many horrible things in the last 7 or more years. It should give me nightmares for the rest of my life. I don't know how I am not crazy by now. For all the abuse my mother has dealt with and all the abuse I have taken from the PGT and their refusal to do the right thing. And to stop what they are doing.
I can't always be strong. I am expected to be and to just fight for everything. I need a phone and I need to eat and eat right now. Not in three or four days. I need a phone not in three or four weeks.But now.
I am lonely and tired and broke and well needing something. Something from someone. I again ask for your kindness.
Reach out and touch someone. Someone like me
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Nobody can get a hold of me.
Hello
Well it is day 6 for me without eating anything, nothing at all. And my concentration is shot. And now my vision is all blurry. I can normally see distances, but now anything over a 100 feet is all blurry. Even large sign's. Listening to people speak to me today, was almost impossible. I could barely understand. Doing anything today was difficult. It is so bad that it was difficult understanding mom. This pisses me off. I don't know what is next with. I am not sure what happens to the body after this.
Anyways, the staff and doctor's at Riverview, as well as the doctors and the director at Oceanside in White Rock have been tryitg to get in touch with me and can't. They have sent me an email and in it were statements that indicate how it is important that I have a phone.
They want to speak to me about setting up an appointment to discuss mom's treatment plan and what I think should happen. They are not wanting to email me. They wish to speak to me. The dentist at Riverview needs to speak with me. Others that are involved in mom's health care need to speak to me. And they do not wish to it through email.
I realize this. And I need a phone to reach ICBC and Translink, as well as my doctor and the lawyer. I cannot do this without a phone. My business is suffering. I have email after email of people wanting me to write representative agreements for them. I am loosing money because of not having a phone. I can't talk to ICBC or Translink, which I need to speak with them. So they can get me money that I need. Need to survive. And especially to eat, get around. And to be able to see a physiotherapist.. I cannot see one right now. As I don't have the $20 fee they need from me. Nor can I even get to see my mother without begging the bus drivers for a ride. I am feeling really guilty over this. And it is pissing me off. I have a list of clients I need to assist. Yet I can barely walk without being in extreme pain.
Now mom is moving in two weeks today. I will take the bus to see her. But I need a car. A bus driver friend of mine just bought a new car and tonight offered his old one to me for a good price. Yes it is a 1995 Chevy Blazer. Yes that is old. But my friend is meticulous about keeping it in great shape. And it is old enough that I can work on it. I know enough and have worked on my own cars. But the new cars, I open the hood and I go what and where is the motor.
It is a 4X4 and will travel through any weather condition. And I know it will get me their and back without a problem. And I just need it to get their and back. Around here I don't need to drive and can walk. The car is a V6 and that is perfect. Not allot on gas. And on the way I can go to Langley for cheap gas. 7 or 8 cents a litre cheaper than Coquitlam.
I hope this works out because this is what I need, besides needing to eat really bad. And needing a phone. And really needing a life. Of some kind. All I can do without being in pain, and well it hurts to do this. Is go and see mom. But I don't care how much it hurts I will not stop seeing mom. Oh yea my doctor tells me not to take the bus anymore and that I should go back to driving. As I will not get any better by being bounced around on the bus.
Now I need to speak with ICBC and Translink, Oh yea no phone. I am starving, Really hunger. All that is on TV is commercials for food. Every channel I turn it to is another commercial about food.
Mom tonight was so glad to see me and I her. It is so nice to be able spend time with her. I love it and continuously look forward to it. It is the only good through out my day. Otherwise I do absolutely nothing. I go to sleep at 3:00 am and try to sleep and then I am up at 8:00 am.
In the two and a half years that mom was at Riverview they just crippled mom. They did so much damage to her, I don't know if I can get her back to the way she was before she got their. But I am sure going to try. And mom or I will not miss this place. I will certainly not stop writing about it. I will write about it even more harsly. I will, as I have said before. Dig deep in their track record and write about it. I will find all about what they have done to other seniors and write about it. I will find out how many seniors have died from the abuse mom has suffered at the hands of these people and write about it. I will find out witch staff member did what and write about it. It goes back about 100 years and I will find out all the dirt on this place and write about it. Naming names and what happened and write about it.
I am not done with Riverview. And if they want me to stop writing then meet my demands. And that is the only way. You see it is all a public record and I am a researcher and know how to dig up anything. And if Oceanside is going to do the same thing I will write about them as well.
When I meet with them I am going to tell them about this blog and let them know that if things don't change they will be another victim of my blog. I don't care.
And when it comes to the PGT I have not yet begun to fight. I will fight for everything that they have taken from mom. And then some. Yea I am not eating and don't know when I will end up in the hospital, with malnutrition, which will be soon, But I will continue to fight for mom even from the bed in the hospital.
A phone is needed for mom's health care and for all those involved in her care. A car is needed and I believe me running into Dan tonight at Starbucks tonight is a sign. Yes I do believe that GOD puts things in front of you at the right time, and then makes it happen. So let us see what happens over the next two weeks.
I believe, I believe. In GOD and his works.
I am not sure exactly what I wrote tonight and if it even makes any sense, but I think it did.
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Well it is day 6 for me without eating anything, nothing at all. And my concentration is shot. And now my vision is all blurry. I can normally see distances, but now anything over a 100 feet is all blurry. Even large sign's. Listening to people speak to me today, was almost impossible. I could barely understand. Doing anything today was difficult. It is so bad that it was difficult understanding mom. This pisses me off. I don't know what is next with. I am not sure what happens to the body after this.
Anyways, the staff and doctor's at Riverview, as well as the doctors and the director at Oceanside in White Rock have been tryitg to get in touch with me and can't. They have sent me an email and in it were statements that indicate how it is important that I have a phone.
They want to speak to me about setting up an appointment to discuss mom's treatment plan and what I think should happen. They are not wanting to email me. They wish to speak to me. The dentist at Riverview needs to speak with me. Others that are involved in mom's health care need to speak to me. And they do not wish to it through email.
I realize this. And I need a phone to reach ICBC and Translink, as well as my doctor and the lawyer. I cannot do this without a phone. My business is suffering. I have email after email of people wanting me to write representative agreements for them. I am loosing money because of not having a phone. I can't talk to ICBC or Translink, which I need to speak with them. So they can get me money that I need. Need to survive. And especially to eat, get around. And to be able to see a physiotherapist.. I cannot see one right now. As I don't have the $20 fee they need from me. Nor can I even get to see my mother without begging the bus drivers for a ride. I am feeling really guilty over this. And it is pissing me off. I have a list of clients I need to assist. Yet I can barely walk without being in extreme pain.
Now mom is moving in two weeks today. I will take the bus to see her. But I need a car. A bus driver friend of mine just bought a new car and tonight offered his old one to me for a good price. Yes it is a 1995 Chevy Blazer. Yes that is old. But my friend is meticulous about keeping it in great shape. And it is old enough that I can work on it. I know enough and have worked on my own cars. But the new cars, I open the hood and I go what and where is the motor.
It is a 4X4 and will travel through any weather condition. And I know it will get me their and back without a problem. And I just need it to get their and back. Around here I don't need to drive and can walk. The car is a V6 and that is perfect. Not allot on gas. And on the way I can go to Langley for cheap gas. 7 or 8 cents a litre cheaper than Coquitlam.
I hope this works out because this is what I need, besides needing to eat really bad. And needing a phone. And really needing a life. Of some kind. All I can do without being in pain, and well it hurts to do this. Is go and see mom. But I don't care how much it hurts I will not stop seeing mom. Oh yea my doctor tells me not to take the bus anymore and that I should go back to driving. As I will not get any better by being bounced around on the bus.
Now I need to speak with ICBC and Translink, Oh yea no phone. I am starving, Really hunger. All that is on TV is commercials for food. Every channel I turn it to is another commercial about food.
Mom tonight was so glad to see me and I her. It is so nice to be able spend time with her. I love it and continuously look forward to it. It is the only good through out my day. Otherwise I do absolutely nothing. I go to sleep at 3:00 am and try to sleep and then I am up at 8:00 am.
In the two and a half years that mom was at Riverview they just crippled mom. They did so much damage to her, I don't know if I can get her back to the way she was before she got their. But I am sure going to try. And mom or I will not miss this place. I will certainly not stop writing about it. I will write about it even more harsly. I will, as I have said before. Dig deep in their track record and write about it. I will find all about what they have done to other seniors and write about it. I will find out how many seniors have died from the abuse mom has suffered at the hands of these people and write about it. I will find out witch staff member did what and write about it. It goes back about 100 years and I will find out all the dirt on this place and write about it. Naming names and what happened and write about it.
I am not done with Riverview. And if they want me to stop writing then meet my demands. And that is the only way. You see it is all a public record and I am a researcher and know how to dig up anything. And if Oceanside is going to do the same thing I will write about them as well.
When I meet with them I am going to tell them about this blog and let them know that if things don't change they will be another victim of my blog. I don't care.
And when it comes to the PGT I have not yet begun to fight. I will fight for everything that they have taken from mom. And then some. Yea I am not eating and don't know when I will end up in the hospital, with malnutrition, which will be soon, But I will continue to fight for mom even from the bed in the hospital.
A phone is needed for mom's health care and for all those involved in her care. A car is needed and I believe me running into Dan tonight at Starbucks tonight is a sign. Yes I do believe that GOD puts things in front of you at the right time, and then makes it happen. So let us see what happens over the next two weeks.
I believe, I believe. In GOD and his works.
I am not sure exactly what I wrote tonight and if it even makes any sense, but I think it did.
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
More bad news
Hello
Today is the end of day 5, without anything, no food in my system Noting absolutely.I do know that I am having to wear my glasses more often now, as my vision is becoming more and more blurry. I really don't know what happens to the body at this point. Well according to the clock it is the start of day 6. There is nothing I can do about it either. I am injured and can't get anywhere. The only thing I do during the day is go see my mother.
And now, September 6, mom is moving to White Rock. I can't afford to go to see her now. Without begging the bus drivers to let me on. It is lucky that I know the drivers and they know I am going to see mom.
So mom is loosing weight.I now have nothing to bring her. No drink, no fruit, not a single thing. Thanks world. Or whom ever reads this blog. For helping me out.
I don't know what I am going to do, starting September. I have to see her everyday. Mom is expecting it. As it is I have to crap sister's who do nothing for mom. And the younger one is a thief. And I believe she is the one who took mom's necklace. I am only saying I believe. Now it is two weeks until mom moves to White Rock. And I am screwed.
I have know way of contacting them As my phone is not working . and I need it. The most important is staying in touch with the hospital. And then having to call ICBC and Translink./ Which is all BS unto its self. ICBC we all know are just crocked and then you have Translink who could care less that I was injured and then nothing. Well I should not say anything, as they can't get a hold of me and I dont' even have the money for a pay phone.
So back to not eating, If I don't write for a few days that means I am in the hospital. As I am getting weaker and weaker by the day.
mom needs to get dental work done, I have to go through all the clothes she has I don't know what I am going to do.
And the PGT just are the same as always, thieves and liers. The guy, Stephen Fylnn tells me last Monday, lets thinks about the phone things for the week. Well that was just Bull Shit. Today he tells me he can't help me with the phone and is sorry about the fact that I have not eaten in 5 days. But the PGT won't help me with money for food. And that I am lucky they have helped me with anything.
He's sorry, well sorry does not help me eat. Or help me stay in touch with the hospital in case something happens to mom. Or I need to get in touch with the doctors for anything or to let them know what I need to happen to mom and her health care.
Which is an important issue. Riverview they just are doctors who don't care if they drug mom to death or not. And even though mom moves to White Rock does not mean I am going to stop Writing about Riverview and telling all who will listen, what kind of place it is and all the harm they have done to mom, without trying to help her.
And if White Rock is not going to go along with the game plan I will write about them as well. I don't care. I have done what I need to do on this blog and put that it is my opinion.
I don't care, if they are going to continue to chemically and physically restrain mom, I won't hold back with my opinion. As I am no longer hold back on what I think and say about the PGT and Riverview. I don't care anymore.
I have to travel the two hours by bus and everyone is going to know it. Someone should be doing something about this. This is of course is what I will do everyday.I will not stop seeing mom everyday. But I am going after the PGT for spending so much on the companion service and taking the van away from me. I believe they should be buying me a SUV for what they did
You know I don't think I am making any sense anymore. It kind of seems I am just talking nonsense.
So I am going to say good night
GOD Bless.
Kris Schmuland
Today is the end of day 5, without anything, no food in my system Noting absolutely.I do know that I am having to wear my glasses more often now, as my vision is becoming more and more blurry. I really don't know what happens to the body at this point. Well according to the clock it is the start of day 6. There is nothing I can do about it either. I am injured and can't get anywhere. The only thing I do during the day is go see my mother.
And now, September 6, mom is moving to White Rock. I can't afford to go to see her now. Without begging the bus drivers to let me on. It is lucky that I know the drivers and they know I am going to see mom.
So mom is loosing weight.I now have nothing to bring her. No drink, no fruit, not a single thing. Thanks world. Or whom ever reads this blog. For helping me out.
I don't know what I am going to do, starting September. I have to see her everyday. Mom is expecting it. As it is I have to crap sister's who do nothing for mom. And the younger one is a thief. And I believe she is the one who took mom's necklace. I am only saying I believe. Now it is two weeks until mom moves to White Rock. And I am screwed.
I have know way of contacting them As my phone is not working . and I need it. The most important is staying in touch with the hospital. And then having to call ICBC and Translink./ Which is all BS unto its self. ICBC we all know are just crocked and then you have Translink who could care less that I was injured and then nothing. Well I should not say anything, as they can't get a hold of me and I dont' even have the money for a pay phone.
So back to not eating, If I don't write for a few days that means I am in the hospital. As I am getting weaker and weaker by the day.
mom needs to get dental work done, I have to go through all the clothes she has I don't know what I am going to do.
And the PGT just are the same as always, thieves and liers. The guy, Stephen Fylnn tells me last Monday, lets thinks about the phone things for the week. Well that was just Bull Shit. Today he tells me he can't help me with the phone and is sorry about the fact that I have not eaten in 5 days. But the PGT won't help me with money for food. And that I am lucky they have helped me with anything.
He's sorry, well sorry does not help me eat. Or help me stay in touch with the hospital in case something happens to mom. Or I need to get in touch with the doctors for anything or to let them know what I need to happen to mom and her health care.
Which is an important issue. Riverview they just are doctors who don't care if they drug mom to death or not. And even though mom moves to White Rock does not mean I am going to stop Writing about Riverview and telling all who will listen, what kind of place it is and all the harm they have done to mom, without trying to help her.
And if White Rock is not going to go along with the game plan I will write about them as well. I don't care. I have done what I need to do on this blog and put that it is my opinion.
I don't care, if they are going to continue to chemically and physically restrain mom, I won't hold back with my opinion. As I am no longer hold back on what I think and say about the PGT and Riverview. I don't care anymore.
I have to travel the two hours by bus and everyone is going to know it. Someone should be doing something about this. This is of course is what I will do everyday.I will not stop seeing mom everyday. But I am going after the PGT for spending so much on the companion service and taking the van away from me. I believe they should be buying me a SUV for what they did
You know I don't think I am making any sense anymore. It kind of seems I am just talking nonsense.
So I am going to say good night
GOD Bless.
Kris Schmuland
Monday, August 22, 2011
Another day and
Hello again
Well today is day 4 or maybe day 5 of not eating and I have had absolutely nothing for these four or five days. I mean nothing. I have had many cups of tea. And now I have none of that left either. Yes before not eating at all. For a week prior to this. I was living on dry bread and dry crackers.
Let me see now. I lost my ability to concentrate yesterday. And today I have had to ask everyone I spoke with to repeat themselves three or four times. I am punch drunk. And today my vision is starting to be affected. I need glasses to see up close. But I noticed that distance is blurry today.
I realized that I have never gone this long without food before. So I will describe to you what it feels like and what happens to me as the days go on. What the side effects are. And when my legs give out. On top of this I am in extreme pain.
Well my mother new as well that I have not been eating. She notice that my face was getting thinner. And she was pressuring me to tell her. I cannot lie to her. But I did say it is OK as I do believe in GOD and my GOD will not leave me nor forsake me. In other words HE shall supply all my needs. So I told her it is OK and I will be alright and things will work out. Tomorrow is another day.
So I don't eat for awhile. I get to experience something different. Something new to me.
Ok mom tonight was actually hungry, that was good, she ate the rest of what I had for her. And I did not have a drink for her. And now I have nothing for her. At all. Period. I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow. Ok today. Since it is 12:26 Monday.
They, the staff pissed me off again. They are to take mom to the bathroom before I get their. And of course they did not. Oh well I took her myself. The washroom is right their,. outside of the ward. Then I sang to her some more. We listen to vocal standards. As in Ella, Frank, Billy, Fred. etc... I can sing to this. And if I don't say so myself. I am getting pretty good. My voice is deep and I cannot sing rock.
Mom is upset that she can't get out and do this. I take her out side all the time. But it is not enough. She want;s to get off the property. I don't blame her. I want to be able to take mom to the park or out for dinner. Or even bring mom over here to my place and have something to eat.
Her tooth/ teeth are bothering her. And I have to make an appointment so she can get this done before she moves.And about that it really pisses me off that it is happening.
I need to speak with the people at Oceanside, Yet I cannot. I have no phone. I have so many calls that need to be made today, and I cannot make them. Oceanside, ICBC, Translink. This is important so I can get some needed cash. As I am loosing money everyday.
I started my business to help people. So the same thing that my mother is going through does not happen to other families. And to fight for the abuse to end. I have pages and pages of plans for adsaac. Everyone tells m to get a job. Well I think this is better.
I was making money up until July 14, when I was injured on the bus, and to date nothing. I had and have many families waiting for me to get better. I just want to get back to the way it was before July 14. At least I could walk all over the place. Yea I used a cane. But I could walk to see mom and back. It hurts to walk to the bus stop and sitting is extremely uncomfortable. It takes forever for me to find and position to sleep.
Writing this, I have to take breaks and find a comfortable place to sit or even stand. The chair that I chose to use for the computer is now uncomfortable. And the chair outside that was so comfortable is now impossible to sit on.
So I sit on my left cheek and have my leg stretched out to be comfortable. So far it has taken me over an hour to get this far. And not eating is putting a complete damper on writing this blog. I cannot concentrate.
Oh yea I have said in the past I am going to turn this into a book. Well I found a place to do this. And the tittle is going to be My mothers and my journey through Dementia. There should be at least to books.
Well that is a long way off. I have to get adsaac running. I am writing to many companies to assist me with adsaac. Other agencies who are involved in this. Research into Alzheimer's and Dementia.
I can go on and on.But I am done. I cannot go on today. I am done. I cannot keep standing. I have a huge headache.
GOD Bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Well today is day 4 or maybe day 5 of not eating and I have had absolutely nothing for these four or five days. I mean nothing. I have had many cups of tea. And now I have none of that left either. Yes before not eating at all. For a week prior to this. I was living on dry bread and dry crackers.
Let me see now. I lost my ability to concentrate yesterday. And today I have had to ask everyone I spoke with to repeat themselves three or four times. I am punch drunk. And today my vision is starting to be affected. I need glasses to see up close. But I noticed that distance is blurry today.
I realized that I have never gone this long without food before. So I will describe to you what it feels like and what happens to me as the days go on. What the side effects are. And when my legs give out. On top of this I am in extreme pain.
Well my mother new as well that I have not been eating. She notice that my face was getting thinner. And she was pressuring me to tell her. I cannot lie to her. But I did say it is OK as I do believe in GOD and my GOD will not leave me nor forsake me. In other words HE shall supply all my needs. So I told her it is OK and I will be alright and things will work out. Tomorrow is another day.
So I don't eat for awhile. I get to experience something different. Something new to me.
Ok mom tonight was actually hungry, that was good, she ate the rest of what I had for her. And I did not have a drink for her. And now I have nothing for her. At all. Period. I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow. Ok today. Since it is 12:26 Monday.
They, the staff pissed me off again. They are to take mom to the bathroom before I get their. And of course they did not. Oh well I took her myself. The washroom is right their,. outside of the ward. Then I sang to her some more. We listen to vocal standards. As in Ella, Frank, Billy, Fred. etc... I can sing to this. And if I don't say so myself. I am getting pretty good. My voice is deep and I cannot sing rock.
Mom is upset that she can't get out and do this. I take her out side all the time. But it is not enough. She want;s to get off the property. I don't blame her. I want to be able to take mom to the park or out for dinner. Or even bring mom over here to my place and have something to eat.
Her tooth/ teeth are bothering her. And I have to make an appointment so she can get this done before she moves.And about that it really pisses me off that it is happening.
I need to speak with the people at Oceanside, Yet I cannot. I have no phone. I have so many calls that need to be made today, and I cannot make them. Oceanside, ICBC, Translink. This is important so I can get some needed cash. As I am loosing money everyday.
I started my business to help people. So the same thing that my mother is going through does not happen to other families. And to fight for the abuse to end. I have pages and pages of plans for adsaac. Everyone tells m to get a job. Well I think this is better.
I was making money up until July 14, when I was injured on the bus, and to date nothing. I had and have many families waiting for me to get better. I just want to get back to the way it was before July 14. At least I could walk all over the place. Yea I used a cane. But I could walk to see mom and back. It hurts to walk to the bus stop and sitting is extremely uncomfortable. It takes forever for me to find and position to sleep.
Writing this, I have to take breaks and find a comfortable place to sit or even stand. The chair that I chose to use for the computer is now uncomfortable. And the chair outside that was so comfortable is now impossible to sit on.
So I sit on my left cheek and have my leg stretched out to be comfortable. So far it has taken me over an hour to get this far. And not eating is putting a complete damper on writing this blog. I cannot concentrate.
Oh yea I have said in the past I am going to turn this into a book. Well I found a place to do this. And the tittle is going to be My mothers and my journey through Dementia. There should be at least to books.
Well that is a long way off. I have to get adsaac running. I am writing to many companies to assist me with adsaac. Other agencies who are involved in this. Research into Alzheimer's and Dementia.
I can go on and on.But I am done. I cannot go on today. I am done. I cannot keep standing. I have a huge headache.
GOD Bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
Sunday, August 21, 2011
A long day.
Hello
Today is day number 3 of a forced fast. A unwanted diet. I am absolutely penniless. And I literally have holes in my pockets of my shorts. I have never been this broke in my life. So far my stomach is growling allot. I am light headed. And in extreme pain. My legs are wobbly. And my concentration is shot. I had to lie to my mother tonight. I don't lie to her.
The staff at Riverview keep telling me, mom does not talk. But I seem to understand her. Yes she does not speak with that many words. Yet I still seem to understand her. And what she wants and likes and does not like. We have a conversation the whole time I am their. Every night. We talk and laugh and cry. I know when she wants a drink. When she wants something to eat or not. When she is upset. I am just excellent a reading body language. I also studied non verbal communication. I can read people like an open book.
I also have been visiting mom everyday for, oh 7 years or so. Tonight mom was tired and she was not hungry. But she was extremely thirsty. Dehydrated of course. I know they do not give my mother enough liquids. As mom finished off her juice and another one. Then she drank a bottle of cold water that I bring her everyday.
Now, tomorrow, or actually today. I have nothing to bring her to drink. She is in need of liquids now. I don't care if I ever eat again. But I am worried about my mother and her drinks and snacks. I have never missed a day bringing mom her drinks. And I am pissed off at this now.
ICBC and Translink have left me starving and broke. I had to borrow the money to pay rent. And I have not bought groceries in over a month. Actually I have not had a good meal in that time.
I have people emailing me everyday to have a representative agreement written up. And I, since I was injured, am out, well an extreme amount of money. I can't believe this is what ICBC and Translink are doing to me. I am injured and they could not give too shits about me and my life. Well either can most people. Especially my family. Oh that is right. The only family I have is my mother and she is dying from lung cancer and dementia. Pretty good huh. I lam starving and mom is dying. What a pair we make. Well mom is in worst shape then me. I know I am dying and that is OK! not a soul knows this.Well I guess a few of you do now. But I could care less about this.
I am not a healthy person. But I live to help mom. I have been sick for years now. I have never told my mother this. As I don't want her to worry about anything else but getting better. I have tried all sorts of treatments and none of them have worked. Oh well. Mom is first and I am last. I will continue to fight for mom and the rights of all seniors.
For the last little while I have been refurbishing older computers and taking the best from each and making better one's I then donate them to seniors or seniors facilities. And I am in pursuit of wheelchairs and other medical equipment that needs refurbishing.And then to donate them as well. This is part of the business I am developing.
We have given a few away so far. Well I am pissed off at the PGT, for not doing the right thing, actually abusing my mother's money and then doing nothing for her. If I need anything for her it is a huge fight. And now I ask for some help to get my phone going again. He, Stephen Flynn keeps telling me, why don't we take the week to think about it. And then it is another week gone by and everyone, that is involved with the care of mom, tells me that I need to have a working phone. I case something happens or we need to see me to discuss the moving of mom.
I have to get to White Rock and have a meeting with the Doctor's and I need to speak with the doctors and dentist at Riverview. I need to get mom into a dentist to get a root canal. I have to contact the director of, well I forget what her tittle is. It is slipping my mind right now. I have to contact her, anyways.
And I have to contact and have needed to contact ICBC and Translink, for the entire week now. As well as many other individuals associated with my injury. As a lawyer for example. The paper. I cannot even arrange to get food, without a phone. Or arrange to get a ride to the food bank.
You know I am just blabbering now. And I am starting to dream about food, while I am typing away here.
So GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Today is day number 3 of a forced fast. A unwanted diet. I am absolutely penniless. And I literally have holes in my pockets of my shorts. I have never been this broke in my life. So far my stomach is growling allot. I am light headed. And in extreme pain. My legs are wobbly. And my concentration is shot. I had to lie to my mother tonight. I don't lie to her.
The staff at Riverview keep telling me, mom does not talk. But I seem to understand her. Yes she does not speak with that many words. Yet I still seem to understand her. And what she wants and likes and does not like. We have a conversation the whole time I am their. Every night. We talk and laugh and cry. I know when she wants a drink. When she wants something to eat or not. When she is upset. I am just excellent a reading body language. I also studied non verbal communication. I can read people like an open book.
I also have been visiting mom everyday for, oh 7 years or so. Tonight mom was tired and she was not hungry. But she was extremely thirsty. Dehydrated of course. I know they do not give my mother enough liquids. As mom finished off her juice and another one. Then she drank a bottle of cold water that I bring her everyday.
Now, tomorrow, or actually today. I have nothing to bring her to drink. She is in need of liquids now. I don't care if I ever eat again. But I am worried about my mother and her drinks and snacks. I have never missed a day bringing mom her drinks. And I am pissed off at this now.
ICBC and Translink have left me starving and broke. I had to borrow the money to pay rent. And I have not bought groceries in over a month. Actually I have not had a good meal in that time.
I have people emailing me everyday to have a representative agreement written up. And I, since I was injured, am out, well an extreme amount of money. I can't believe this is what ICBC and Translink are doing to me. I am injured and they could not give too shits about me and my life. Well either can most people. Especially my family. Oh that is right. The only family I have is my mother and she is dying from lung cancer and dementia. Pretty good huh. I lam starving and mom is dying. What a pair we make. Well mom is in worst shape then me. I know I am dying and that is OK! not a soul knows this.Well I guess a few of you do now. But I could care less about this.
I am not a healthy person. But I live to help mom. I have been sick for years now. I have never told my mother this. As I don't want her to worry about anything else but getting better. I have tried all sorts of treatments and none of them have worked. Oh well. Mom is first and I am last. I will continue to fight for mom and the rights of all seniors.
For the last little while I have been refurbishing older computers and taking the best from each and making better one's I then donate them to seniors or seniors facilities. And I am in pursuit of wheelchairs and other medical equipment that needs refurbishing.And then to donate them as well. This is part of the business I am developing.
We have given a few away so far. Well I am pissed off at the PGT, for not doing the right thing, actually abusing my mother's money and then doing nothing for her. If I need anything for her it is a huge fight. And now I ask for some help to get my phone going again. He, Stephen Flynn keeps telling me, why don't we take the week to think about it. And then it is another week gone by and everyone, that is involved with the care of mom, tells me that I need to have a working phone. I case something happens or we need to see me to discuss the moving of mom.
I have to get to White Rock and have a meeting with the Doctor's and I need to speak with the doctors and dentist at Riverview. I need to get mom into a dentist to get a root canal. I have to contact the director of, well I forget what her tittle is. It is slipping my mind right now. I have to contact her, anyways.
And I have to contact and have needed to contact ICBC and Translink, for the entire week now. As well as many other individuals associated with my injury. As a lawyer for example. The paper. I cannot even arrange to get food, without a phone. Or arrange to get a ride to the food bank.
You know I am just blabbering now. And I am starting to dream about food, while I am typing away here.
So GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
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