Christian Day, which is very good

Hello again

Today there was a few women that I have met, from a church in White Rock that I am thinking of joining, over to visit with myself and my mother. It was a good visit, they wanted to know if they can come by and see mom other times, and I said sure.

Then on the way home, I went through Vancouver, and caught the 160 back to Coquitlam and the driver was someone I haven't seen in a very long time. She was in a accident and was off work for 2 years. She is a Christian, as well. I got off in Port Moody, to go to the drug store. And caught the bus which takes me closer to my home, and the driver, whom I know, is also a Christian. Thank you GOD for the day of Christian contact. It was very good. It was unusual, this has never happened before. Not complaining, it was a very good experience. Full of light.

Tonight I brought mom a dinner that I had made before and divided up then froze some of them. Chicken and seafood cannelloni. Added some salsa and feta cheese. Mom loved it. And, of course her Lindor Chocolate for deserts, besides the papaya. She ate really well.

I got their early and washed her hair tonight. Cleaned her ears. Then got her ready for bed and her nightly sap treatment. Mom was very full and then became very relaxed. We sang a bit and then I held her hand while she fell asleep. Off I went on my journey.

Now the nurse, Joana or whatever her name is, was working tonight. Mom and I ate in the family room, we had the door closed and then this nurse, just walked in and opened the door. Without a word. Now this nurse is.well, I have a few names for her, but I won't use them.

It is time to stop her from treating mom. I want this women to not even go near mom. I don't trust her at all. You never know what she will do. Or how she is going to react. The Al Hogg pavilion has not taken any action at all against her for making threats. So time for the letter demanding she be removed from mother's care. If she is not removed, I guess I will have to call the Fraser Health and file a complaint.

Anyway, it is time to move their and be closer and to spend more time with mom. I really need to be their to do more with mom. No one else is going to do this. But that is OK. I want to do this for mom. Honour your mother and father. Honour the widow. This is what Jesus told us to do. But besides this. This is my mother and she deserves for me to be there for her. Mom took care of me and it is my turn to take care of her. Period. Nothing else

Bed time now,

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

My heart

Hello again

My heart broke tonight. I was not able to bring mom a dinner tonight. I have nothing, no groceries. I am going to bed again without dinner. But this does not compare to not being able to bring mom a home cooked meal everyday.

Mom kept pointing towards a container. Which has her cheese in it. And she kept reaching for my bag, over and over again. Trying to see if there was anything in there for her. Her dinner. Mom is used to me bringing things for her. But, again, I have nothing. I don't even have any groceries in my fridge or cupboards. Empty. And I started to cry, when I had to tell her I had nothing for her and explain that I have no groceries to make anything with. That I don't know when I will get groceries. I will try mom, I said as I was tearing up.

As it is they don't provide food with any taste to it. Tonight's dinner was this cabbage roll. And this is dry and  tasteless with the same old mashed potatoes and string beans. Not what she wanted to eat. She kept reaching for my bag, just to make sure I didn't forget something.

This was the most heartbreaking evening I have every experienced. To know I am not able to bring mom a home cooked meal. I only have enough for her Lindor Truffles and a papaya daily for a week. I have enough of her drinks to last for a while. Bought them on sale and in bulk.

Now here in lies a problem for me. Mom has to sit in her filth for who knows how many hours in the day. The staff don't change her, or a matter of fact, they don't change anyone of the residence. I have to now fight to get this done. Which should be a given.; Again  I say, Would you let a baby sit in their own filth for any length of time. The answer is no. Why would one let a helpless seniors sit in their own filth for any length of time.

And the other problem I have is that I have two sisters who don't help at all. It would be nice if one of them helped me with this problem. But this is never going to happen. So it is left to me. And I will do what is necessary to get this situation solved.

I pray daily that I could get help with the moving to White Rock. I pray that the only thing I want to do is to look after mom full time. To be there for her at all times. And living in Coquitlam, traveling two to three hours each way, there and back, daily. I cannot do this. By living out their I will free up 6 hours or more to be able to concentrate on doing things of mom. Joining another church and volunteer for the Christian group that helps with the patients and residences at the Peace Arch Hospital, the Weather Be Pavilion and the Al Hogg Pavilion. This way I can stay with mom latter and get home early. To be able to, maybe, do things to get ahead for mom.

What I need is real help from anyone. I have had a health problem recently, that can end my life. I need to maintain good health. By being stress free, sort to speak.

But it is late and nothing to make for dinner for mom or myself. So I need to go to bed, watch some of what I just downloaded and fall asleep. Oh yea, after I read my nightly bible plan. I have been reading the bible, daily for years and years now. And love every bit of it. Then I need to pray to GOD and thank HIM for healing mom and to help me get to White Rock to look after mom full time.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Mom is OK

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Mom is OK today, yes I may of worried for not. But I still have to worry. You never know. It is so very important for me now to get out to White Rock and live their. 

The mobile home is a good idea. But I have absolutely nothing, and need everything. No kidding. Really I have nothing.

Tonight the staff are getting later and later in changing mom out of her soiled diapers. Mom needed to be changed at dinner, and who knows how long she has sat in this. This is pure laziness by the home and the staff. 

We have had this conversation over and over again, about mom being changed and cleaned before 7 pm not 8 pm. the care aid did not even speak to me tonight. But Oh well, I am not there for a popularity contest. I am there for mom. And mom wants to be asleep by 7 pm

So it is the October 31 and the landlady has not yet given me an eviction notice. Well I don't have to move now until the end of December 2012 good. She just doesn't get the law.

I need to really go now. Very tired and in pain. And hungry. 

I had a USB drive for mom's stereo and it is now missing. An SD card is what is needed. It will just go into the stereo and not seen.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A strange day

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Tonight mom ate most of her meal and a papaya, mango and kiwi plus an Avocado. Which is very good. And mom was happy, smiling and talkative. She wanted plenty of hugs and kisses. Must of been a good day.

Or they changed her medication. We finished dinner, I got her ready for bed. Put on a undershirt. Which I have asked the staff to put one on everyday. She has 7 of them for 7 days. But of course they don't listen. So I put them on her.

I got her into bed, and her nightly spa treatment. Well, mom's pupils where so dilated and she was wide awake. Not sleepy at all. This is very unusual for mom. She is mostly tired after dinner and wanting to go to sleep. But not tonight.

Well this worries me greatly. Mom was talkative and wanted to hold my hand, hugs and kisses. I was there for her, I held her hand, played music for her, sang to her. We waited for the nurse to give mom her nightly medication. Then I needed to leave. I have been very tired the last several days. As mentioned.

I gave mom several huge hugs and said good night at least 10 times or so. I didn't want to leave, but I needed to. I started to cry. I get worried when mom's moods change this drastically. I am still worried, that in the middle of the night I am going to get that phone call.

I can't live in coquitlam anymore. It is just to far away from mom. I need to be close to her. Right down the street. Mom wants to get up and try to walk . So tomorrow/today I will get the walking belt and get her up out of the chair and try to walk with her.

I need to do more for mom.

Well I went to the Residential Tenancy Branch today. They are on my side, but I didn't have the landlords address, so I couldn't file the complaint. It wasn't until I left the place that I realized where I could get the address from. It is always that way. So tomorrow/today I will call this place and go back to the RTB and file the complaint. (s).

Well during dinner one of the other child of a parent in the home, mentioned to me that she knows of a mobile home for rent. A few miles away. Not far though. It is a 2 brm and in great shape Now I just need to get the money together for this. It would be perfect. It would be big enough for mom to come over and visit. An extra bedroom to have her over night. And cheaper than most of the apartments. But, again, I don't have the money for this .

So I pray to my GOD in the name of his SON JESUS CHRIST that I receive the funds necessary to be able to rent this place AMEN

Now I leave you. I ask that you pray the prayer I just prayed to get this do. Thank you

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

PS I still don't have all of mom's photo's of her life and memories. Thanks to my sisters. I have the printer now.

Tuesday October 30

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So today is Monday, and mom was hungry again. She does not eat much on the weekend and this past weekend was no exception. She barely ate anything. But did eat her papaya and some kiwi. But today she ate most of what I brought her plus some of the dinner she was served and the papaya. Which is a good thing.

I put her to bed and finished the spa treatment and mom had a small individual bag of Hawkins Cheeses. Her favorite. I have left a bunch of mini chocolates for my sister's grandchildren, mom's great grandchildren, but when she was their last week, they didn't take any. I guess I should of left a note. Oh well, maybe she will take some this week. Who knows.

A women that I had gotten to know over the many months mom has been at this place, passed away early this morning. I knew her daughter and her daughter's sons.

It smacks of the finality of one's life. How you never know. This is the reason I am their all the time and need to be their more often. This is why I need to move to White Rock.

Well I will not have a choice. I know on the first of November I will be receiving an eviction notice. I have to fight this women. Who is no better than a criminal. Has no respect for the law. As mentioned she broke into my room and does what she wants.

And because of this I suffered a small heart attack Sunday morning. I got up and made a tea and the sharp pain just shot up my left side. I went to the hospital and was informed that I had a small heart attack. They asked me what kind of stress I am under. I told them about this landlady and they told me to move right away. I have no money to do this. Nor do I have a place to go. I mentioned about mom, but none of what I do for mom is stressful in anyway. Only this landlady. I did get out to see mom, as I was in the hospital very early and was out by the time I needed to leave. I am feeling very weak and was told to take it easy and eat well. What is that I said to the doctor. That I don't do.

Again, I don't know what to do. Because of this women dying, It makes it more important that I move to White Rock and in a hurry. The other things I need to do as well. As get a burial plot for mom and dad's ashes. Where my mother's parents are at. I have to do it, as my sisters will want to cremate her, as they did with dad. Even though dad could of been buried for free through the veterans affairs. I do need to check on his again. To see if it can be done. But mom wants to be buried in the same cemetery as her parents. This is hard to write, I don't even like to think about it. Let alone write these things down. I know mom is healthier than I am, eats very well. And I make sure she is well taken care of. And she gets the best. Fresh fruit daily and home cooked meals as I can. Mom gets things be before I do. I cooked meals for her and freeze individual portions. Mom,when I can afford to make her meals, eat better than I do. I don't eat these meals.  Well I can't eat much of anything. I am being checked for celiac disease. I can't eat anything with white flour or any dairy products.

I am messed up and have no way to solve my problems. I need to take it easy for a while now and be under the doctors care. I need to see him once a week for the next several months. To make sure I don't have a more serious one. Great don't you think, not.

So anyway. Off to the Residential Tenancy Branch tomorrow/today to file a complaint against the landlady.

I have to eat something now. Not much though. But will do what I can.

I need to go to bed as well.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris Schmuland

Now what to do. GOD will help me figure this out