The days are fine

Hello again

It is Friday and more snow is on it's way. So they say. It is clear and cold tonight.

And being Friday, and mom has been eating heavy, lately. I made her some sole and a nice grain salad, plus avocado. And I picked up a nice Blueberry mouse for mom. Mom loved this.

I washed her hair after dinner and it was time for mom to go to bed. She was tired. Wanted to go to bed before dinner. And eat in bed.

Though this would be good for her, it is to hard to feed her in bed. I read to her, after I got her ready for bed. And after her spa treatment, mom was completely ready to sleep. I held her hand, she smiled and started to fall asleep. Of course it takes time, and she needs something to drink before she falls asleep. And she gets awaken to give her the medicine. I stayed later tonight and didn't leave until 8:30. I usually leave at 7:40. I wanted to stay later. I wanted mom to be completely asleep before I left.

I have been leaving early lately, and I don't like to leave until mom is asleep.

This is all I have for tonight. Really!

OK, there is allot more I could write about, but I just don't feel like complaining.

So GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Snows gone maybe more

Hello again

Most of the snow is gone. And we, here in Vancouver are thankful. OK I am. The drivers are bad here and the snow made it worse.

Anyways, mom has not been moved, but somehow the roommate heard something about it. As she asked me the other day if my mom was changing rooms. I just relied, that I don't know. No one has mentioned anything to me.

She has been eating well. But somethings she has trouble chewing. Or maybe she just doesn't like it. I brought her some beef brisket for tonight and she just chewed it forever. But she will eat a salad and has no problem with the salad that I make. I should make it again for her..

And last night it was Cesar Salad and a chicken breast, this she ate all of it. I have to constantly adjust what mom gets for dinner. As she sometimes has a problem swallowing certain foods.

I have been reading mom this story for a while now, and mom and I are getting into it. She listens intently as I read it to her. This I enjoy, knowing mom looks forward to this each night after I get her changed for bed and brush her teeth.

Mom has been falling asleep early, but still is not completely rested.

So today I contact the PGT and I am tired of them saying I am so busy, you have no idea. Really, and he is the only one who is busy. It is not like I don't ride the bus 7 hours a day or research and study about mom's disease and treatments for these.

Or I spend time looking after mom or taking care of my own issues. So they are not the only one who are busy.

So I was awoken up at 4 am by the upstairs people. One of them falling down the stairs. She was hurt and then the landlord over at 8 am cleaning. So I am exhausted.

I need to go and eat and try to get some sleep.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

;Winter wonderland

Hello again

Well it has been snowing allot the last few days. More snow than we have had in a few years. School closures, roads closed etc.... But it looks great.

The weird part is that White Rock has so much snow and the other day it was coming down like crazy. So I thought there would be even more snow where I live in Coquitlam. But there was nothing. Barely a dusting.

Mom has been very tired, but yesterday the roommate was fast asleep when it was time for me to leave, so I turned off her TV and lights. And stayed a little while, holding mom's hand, while she fell asleep. And today mom was wide awake and very happy.

A good night sleep in a quit environment, is all she needs each night.

I have written the letter to the manager, I just have to go back to it and clean it up. Then I will bring it to the manager with the first letter I gave the previous manager.

Mom ate extremely well tonight and then I read the story we have been working on for a few weeks now. Mom listens intently as I read to her. She knows what is going on in the story.

When she was put into bed, she had a wonderful smile on her face as I gave her the nightly spa treatment

Not much else to say, My hearing has been bad the last few days. And my knee's are not doing well, walking in this snow. Plus other things, that I won't trouble anyone with

So it is time to go, I am trying to get to bed earlier

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

When!

Hello again

Today when I arrived to see mom, she was so tired I had to talk her into eating. This is beginning to become pattern and it is going to stop.

I will be writing a letter and including the first letter I wrote and submitted to the previous manager. And this letter will outline what steps I will be taking to insure mom is treated properly and with respect.

I will be contacting amnesty international to speak with them. As far as I am concerned what is happening to mom is torture.

I did get her to eat something, but she was more interested in desert. Which she ate.

I gave mom her spa treatment and it was not long after this that she fell asleep. It took allot to even wake mom up to give her the nightly medication. And off to sleep she went again.

I left Coquitlam and there was hardy any snow on the ground and when I got out to White Rock there was 10-15 cm of snow. And nothing when I got back.

I am finished being nice.

I need help and as far as I am concerned there seems to be no GOD

But I will say

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Snow day for us

Hello again

OK, yes it is snowing, but not like everywhere else. Just a little bit. But in Vancouver, a little bit of snow can shut the city down. No one knows how to drive in the snow. We have such a mild climate and a very multi cultural climate, that most have never driven in the snow before. And it is truly dangerous.

GET OFF THE ROAD!

When I arrived to see mom, I could see that she was off. Very tired. That mean that she was tortured again last night and she didn't get much sleep.

Yes, from now on this is how I am going to refer to this as. Torture. Everyone else gets to have the lights out, TV off and quit. But not mom. The staff cater to this women and do nothing for mom. They don't give a shit about how my mother is couping.

And I am now done with them.

Does anyone see my sister's doing anything about this. NO! All they want is mom to pass away so they can get whatever money is left.

And when mom is like this, she is too tired to eat. And she didn't eat much at all for dinner. And I brought her a nice dinner.

I got her changed and she was put into bed. But she was over tired. And couldn't close her eye's to fall asleep. Even through the spa treatment, when mom closes her eye's and relaxes. But not tonight. I could see her looking over at the roommate with a disgusting look on her face.

And this roommate has the TV so loud, we could not hear the music. It was turned all the way up on my phone. Could barely hear it. I went and turned the women's TV down. It was on volume 30. And the staff did nothing about it.  This is the way it is.

Mom is a quit person because of her strokes. So they are taking advantage of her. ABUSE TORTURE There is no other words to describe it.

I stayed as long as I could. It is pissing me off that I can't find a place out their.

I prayed to a GOD, that I am now thinking doesn't exist. Two years I have been trying and nothing. I pray, I pray, daily. Asking for this, as it is important to my mother. Who needs me their for her. And I want to stay as long as it takes for mom to fall asleep. That is all I want. To be close so I can Is that to much to ask for.

My life is my mothers life. I exist to take care of her. And that is all that there is to this.

I am my mother's keeper! I am her daily caring, I am her nightly warmth.

I am doubting the existence of GOD

If there is a GOD I say once more

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland