Always tired on the weekend

Hello again

So it is the weekend and mom is tired as usual. Having to deal with the roommates delusions all week and not getting the proper rest. When this happens mom has a hard time eating, she is not very hungry, has a hard time swallowing. Or is to tired to chew properly.  Over the last several weeks it is becoming increasingly apparent that this women is causing my mother to suffer.

This is going to stop. I have been getting their early, but to no avail. The manager, for the last few days, has not been their. Monday is the day.

I made mom a great dinner and she did try to eat as much as she could. Which was allot. But I just have to be patient and let her chew, no matter how long it takes.

Afterwards I washed her hair and boy did mom feel good. I massage her scalp while washing her hair. I read to her, even though my voice is not fully back. It makes mom feel good for me to hold her hand and read to her. She closes her eye's, holds my hand and just relax's. Covered in a blanket.

I wanted to sing to her and I tried, but that did not work out to well. Of course the nightly spa treatment was given to her and afterwards I just stood their holding her hand while she fell off to sleep. I have been staying longer each day, now.. I just want to be their longer and more often.

I have been thinking about mom's mortality of late. Mom is doing fine, good health, is eating good food. But at some point things are going to change.

I need to start thinking about her funeral and to get at the crowd-funding I need to do to raise the money to cover the cost of the funeral and burial. I have it written out and saved, I just need to go in and edit it and change a few things on my Paypal account., Then place it on the site. This has to happen, sooner than latter. You never know.

And this is another reason I need to be living in White Rock, to spend as much time with her as I possibly can. I need to be within a short walking distance from the home. 10 minutes max!

Now I ask, seriously for help and prayers for me to accomplish this. It is not for me, but for my mothers health and happiness. To make sure whatever time she has left is filled with goodness. And me being close by is the right thing to do.

You don't know. A women who's mother is in the same home, was telling me tonight that her mother had a serious stroke and most likely won't make it through the night. Two days ago this women's mom and I were speaking. She calls me the man with the stick. I know this women, her daughter and the womens husband. I would consider them friends. And earlier in the week a gentlemen I have gotten to know, very well, passed away.

It is a seniors extended care facility, and yes, people are going to pass away. These are people that I know and have known for while. Though they are not related to me, it is still hard.

So you just don't know what is going to happen and when. Just like that. And if mom is not moved, it will be sooner than latter. And I won't except this.

So Help is what I need to get me to White Rock.

Pray, send cash. I don't jest, this is very important to my mother, me being close to her.

Mom said to me, in a clear voice, the other night. "Don't go" But I already stayed latter, by over half an hour, and got home an hour latter than normal. It is OK though, I am not eating, not hungry. It has been this way for over a week now. And the last few days, my gums have been very sore and this is causing me to not want to eat as well.

I am just not into living in Coquitlam anymore and it is causing me to not eat.

Anyways, I need to go now. Try  to eat, just not hungry

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A good day

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Today was a good day no matter that I am sick, lost my voice. Sound like, well I don't. Huge fight with the roommates, as I am tired of cleaning up after everyone. I will not be cleaning up anything from now on. Even though shit is constantly happening.

I am stuck in Coquitlam and want out. That is all that is to it. I don't care anymore.

I will no longer be speaking with the roommates. OK I am an asshole and so be it. I just don't care. I get along with many individuals and people like me.

Even though all sorts of shit is happening, I am still in a great mood. Maybe because I can't speak and don't have to deal with other's crap.

But it was not very good when this attractive women was trying to have a conversation with me today on the train. I tried to explain to her I lost, my voice, mostly and I was trying to save it so I could carry on a conversation with mom this evening. . But she kept speaking. Well she gave me her number. I told her I would give her a call after my voice comes back.  Good day, not even trying.

Now mom was waiting for me. She turned herself around so she was facing the elevator. Good on her. She saw me get off the elevator and had this amazing smile on her face.

I stopped on the way to see her at this bakery and picked up these little pastry's she loves. Mom knew I bought this for her as soon as she saw the bag. And the race was on.

I got her a beef rap for dinner and she ate most of this, but in my hast today, I forgot to get mom her Lindt chocolates she gets everyday. Even the desserts I got for her, did not make up for not having her chocolate. Though she enjoyed the desserts.

Now it was bed time, and I was about to read to her, when the staff came in and put her to bed. This is a good thing. Allowing me to at least continue to speak with her. But after the spa treatment, mom just wants me to stand their and hold her hand, while she falls asleep. It is not she gets allot of quit time.

Well now I am starting to loose concentration. Yea my mind has been all over the place today and the last few days, I have been dropping things like crazy. And I was making mom laugh. That is all that is important. To make mom's life more enjoyable.

I really do love helping mom out and taking care of her. Making her laugh and smile.

But I do need to go, get to bed, watch a little something.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

A day of allergies

Hello again

Today my seasonal allergies hit me like a ton of bricks. I just thought I was getting a cold. But no! Plugged nose, itchy watery eye's and itchy ears. Yes itchy ears. This is causing me to be extremely grumpy and very straight forward with people.

This will work in my favor as I speak with the manager where mom lives about the ongoing torture of my mother. And yes it is torture.

Or abuse

So anyway, I have just been irritated by most people today. OK I am an asshole or so. I can be at least. I have tried to be nice to people, but they have just shown their true colors.

When I arrived at mom's I left this attitude at the door and put on a smile for mom. I knew I could pick it up afterwards.

I made mom a nice omelet and toast which she ate all of it. Really didn't have much of a choice, they didn't bring her dinner until after mom was almost finished hers. OK she loved the omelet.

The photo album is still in her room, even though they left me a note asking me to bring it home. Which I left a note explaining that mom and I are going to go through it and until then it is staying.

I started to show mom the photo's, but she didn't seem to interested. Tired. I asked her if she wanted me to read to her instead, and yes that was what she wanted. I took the book out, turned the lights down and read many pages of the book to her before the staff came to put her to bed and change her....

I asked this women if she wanted help, but declined. So I went to make some hot water. When I returned mom was upset that I did not stay. I promised her that I would stay from now on.

I was at this point the roommate started on her nightly delusions. Now the TV is on loud, the lights are on and she is talking, loudly to no one. It is never ending.

I held mom;s hand while she tried to sleep, She was dozing off when it was time I had to leave. After 8 pm.

Got home at a decent time. I just have no clue why it is almost midnight.

Have to go.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland

Nice day out

Hello again

It will be brief this evening. I am tired, just got home a few minutes ago. I just decided to stay latter and make sure mom was truly asleep before I left.

It was her bath day, so she was in bed when I arrived. The roommates TV was on, and she was having a serious bout of hallucinations. And mom did not even have music or her TV on. So she had to listen to this women all day long.

The first thing I did was turn some music on, and mom was happy about this. A good dinner mom had. But she was very hot.

So like a good son, I made sure to cool her off before giving the nightly spa treatment.

It was a good night and mom and I had a good time. I enjoy spending quality time with mom. Even if it is just holding her and watching the TV while she falls asleep.

But I am very tired. Think I might be getting a little bug, so I am going to go to bed and sweat whatever is in me, out.

GOD bless and good night

Kris Schmuland