Hello again
Let me tell you about my new years eve. First of all I was invited by my friends, the couple, and another couple with them. There was another person I know, out here in White Rock, as well. So I met up with the guy here in White Rock to go downtown together.
He was 1/2 late meeting me. I was standing in the cold while it was snowing like crazy. So I froze while waiting. Downtown we went. The bus was ride was OK, lots of snow coming down. Thank GOD the bus had it's own lane, as there was a traffic accident in the car lanes. The bus just went right by the accident. A good thing. We arrived downtown and the plans changed, we are not meeting everyone at a restaurant. All knowing to well that I am a very poor person. This is one thing that made me upset. Instead of going to the restaurant and watching everyone eating I should of just said I will meet them down at the waterfront. Not fun for me. Then we get down to the waterfront and no one knows what is happening. I did. At the same time, I am hurting, my neck is killing me, I am experiencing pins and needles through out my body.
We found a spot to see the early family fireworks, then the guy I went downtown with takes off. We tell him to meet us back here. The fireworks, that is another story. They lasted no more than 2 minutes. I am very serious about that. It takes me longer to smoke a cigarette than the fireworks lasted. Now I was not doing well, I waited for this guy to come back, the couples were around as well. So I am standing there and this guy walks right by my, 2 feet infront of me and he sent a text message saying where are you guys. The couples decided to go to this other spot and check it out. I tell them I am leaving, I need to ear, I am hungry and hurting. But, being a nice guy, I decided to wait to see if this guy would come back, 15 minutes I waited and no show. That was it, I couldn't take anything anymore.
I left and found a washroom. Then off to the train and bus to get home. All I received while on the bus was text messages. I didn't answer any of them. Period. Wasn't going to happen.
So here I am, at home, I arrived 45 minutes before midnight and turned my computer on, started to type this. Remember, it takes me allot of time to type these posts out these days, many breaks. Now 12;38 still haven't eaten yet, waiting for it to cook.
My mistakes was going to begin with. Knowing I was in pain. And knowing I had no funds to do anything, but walk around. Which, thinking about it, I should of just gone by myself. Would of been much better. Or just stay home. Yea I wouldn't of done that, I would of went somewhere.
Now I am in extreme pain and the pins and needles are all over. My neck is really bad and I am having a difficult time typing this. But I persist.
Behind in everything, Don't know what I am going to do. No word yet on my disability application. Can't find another place to live. No help from anywhere.
My life seems to be going down the drain and quickly at that.
I need to eat before I pass out. and I need to get up at 7 am to get to church for 10 am. If I even sleep at all.
I should of stayed home and talked with mom, at least we could of got caught up. Would of had a better time.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
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Please pray and if you can offer any assistance, it would be appreciated
Happy 2017 to you and yours
