Hello again
Today I start with this;
Most people in their lives are only in 1 maybe 2 car accidents. That is in their life. Me, on the other hand, have been in over 10 car accidents. 8, yes 8 of them, I have been injured. People think that I received allot of money from them. Not so. You see once your in an accident, the doctor tells you that you can't work. Now what! One has to live somehow. Yes if you are working at the time of the accident, ICBC, will pay you up to $300 a week. That is if you are working. Now if you are still injured and trying to recover from the previous accidents, you get nothing. Social services here we come. Welfare. And one does not get even close to enough to live on... I go to the food bank, I try to get help where I can. But still I am not making it, at all.
The roommate moves out and I am stuck with the whole rent. And it is difficult to find another place to live, especially at this time of the year and one is on a limited budget. Being poor is what I am saying. Something that is affordable.. That is a laugh a minute. So I have to live with someone. A stranger and your stuff is not secure, protected from the new roommate. A stranger is what you end up living with. So now one needs to put their stuff in storage. There is $!50.00 a month. Minimum. Depending on how much stuff you have...
So I have been injured in all of these accidents. One of them I fractured my L3,L4 and needed wear a back brace for over a year and a half. A brace that consisted of a hard plastic back, that went down to below my butt, and in the front, was what a girdle is like. Tied up and uncomfortable. The only thing I am glad about is that I was not paralyzed because of this injury
Another I lost the use of my right arm for almost a year. because of long thoracic nerve damage. My shoulder blade wings outward. Just swollen and painful. So I had to become left handed. A difficult task if one is right handed. Now everything I do, I automatically reach and do things with my left arm. My right arm does not function like it did.
Still another accident I broke my collar bone, but the doctors told me that nothing was wrong. It wasn't until afterwards, after I settle, that I find out it was broken.
Then another, I separated my shoulder and again, there is nothing wrong. But now I have a huge calcium build up on the top of my right shoulder, stopping me from lifting my right arm up over my head.
And whiplash, back problems from others. Plus, plus plus.......... other injures. I would need pages and pages to describe everything that has happened to me because of car accidents. I will do just that if needed.
Now this car accident. I injured my neck, I can't lift my neck without it going to the one side. I instantly get a headache and the start of pins and needles through out my body. Legs, arms, back and hands. I hurt my back, it is difficult, OK extremely painful to lift anything. Because of this I cannot lift my arms up to the reading position to read a book or use my phone. I can't lift my arms up to the 10 and 3 position to drive a car. This gives me an instant headache and back ache. Just can't do it. I have difficulties sleeping, making food, and even cleaning. bending over to pick things up. I did say I made a full on turkey dinner on Christmas, which I ate myself. What did happen was at the end I had pins and needles through out my entire body. I need to wear this neck brace, but it is not the one I need. I wear it anyways. It does help out. I know what I need.. I just have to find the right doctor. So this time I am not going to just accept the normal.. " Everything is fine,from the doctors" I know better. Having pins and needles through out your body is not fine. Headaches all the time is not fine. Can't lift anything is not fine.
Let us now speak on the other issues, what I have been diagnosed with. Now most people will only be diagnosed with 1 or maybe 2 of these. Mostly 1 of these diseases. Not me, just like the car accidents. Many at a time. Can you understand now, why I say that I don't know how long I have left, that life is trying to kill me. One good thing is I haven't let it do so yet. This GOD gives you only what one can handle in life. I have had enough. I am at my wit ends, I don't think I can handle anymore.
First off I have Parkinson's disease. The onset of Parkinson's disease. I have what they call an essential tremor. My right hand shakes and I have a problem with my walking, gait. This is a terminal disease. I will die from this, a horrible, painful death.... I don't have the space or time to write everything down about his disease.
Then Fibromalgia. a nerve disease that causes pain through out my body.
I was diagnosed with Osteopinia,15 years ago.Years before I should every have this, I mean at least 30 years before I should every get this A bone disorder. That causes soft bones, easily to break. This has caused me to loose my teeth. This is why I have dentures. And the rest of my bottom teeth have broken off leaving me with missing teeth. I don't and can't afford to replace the dentures with new ones that will fill in the missing teeth. I also need to have surgery to remove the teeth that are impacted, before I can get dentures. I have broken allot of the bones in my body already, most of my fingers, both wrists,
I now have diabetes, Type 2, easily managed with a proper diet. This I cannot afford either.
I was born with Spina biffita occulta. A space between the vertebra. The doctors have always been surprised that I was able to play all the sports I have and not of been seriously injured.
The doctor also tells me I have chronic fatigue syndrome. That is why I am always tired. Or maybe I just can't sleep, so this could be why I always look tired.
I have no spleen, this was ruptured when I was 5 years old. I needed to have it removed. I had staff infection from the first operation, so I needed to be operated on again. This time I died and was brought back. So I have died once already in my life. Having no spleen is suppose to cause me to get sick more often. More than a normal person. I get these different shots every 5 years. But I just don't get sick. I mean at all. A good thing.
Then there is the fact I spent over a dozen years taking care of and looking after both my parents and the last 12 year looking after mom. The weirdest thing is that while looking after my mother, my life was OK, I didn't have much, but enough. What was left I spent on mom.
This, as I have mentioned over and over again, was the best years of my life. The absolute best years. I enjoyed taking care of mom. I was given a gift from GOD and the best gift anyone could every of been given. I managed. So I was poor. I had people to speak with. I had a life. Some say it wasn't a life. No social life. I was OK with that. I was doing something for someone else who needed me to help them. I never complained and I never will. If the hospital would of caught the infection in time, mom would still be alive. I do need and will file a wrongful death suit against the home. First I need to get myself together. So I spent 16 years of my life doing something that I was suppose to do and did it without reservations. I just did it, because it was what I was suppose to do. Honour your mother and father. Be there for them as they were there for me. PERIOD!
There is allot more going on with me and wrong with me. But I just can't write anymore this evening. I need to eat something. Being midnight, my time.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
#409-15216 North Bluff Road
White Rock, BC
Canada, V4B0A7
The above address is only good until January 13, 2017 My mailbox, That I paid for last year at this time. A year at a time. Just can't afford it right now. The only way I get my mail regularly was having this mailbox. Where I live, I just don't get my mail on time. It goes into the landlords mailbox and I have to wait or continue to knock on their door. But they are not home all the time. So if I am getting something today, it will take me at least three or four days to get it from the landlords, if I get it at all. I am already missing some mail. Even if it is extremely important mail. Cheques, forms etc....
Then the landlord complains that I haven't done this or that. I don't get my freaking mail.
All I want is to have some kind of life without so many of these problems. Well to late for these, I already have them.
Just a life where people don't think I am garbage, won't talk to me because they think they might get what I have. Someone to be there for me when I need someone to talk to or just be actually touched. I miss having a girlfriend, it has been over 20 years since my last steady (more than 2 months) girlfriend. Yes, that is the absolute truth. Over 20 years. I am very lonely and alone.
https://www.gofundme.com/krisschmuland
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