Hello again
I really am just about to give up completely. Not happing anymore. Can't get out of this mess.. I was doing OK a few months ago. Everything seemed fine. A job, a roommate that wasn't around much, What more can a person ask for .. That is all I need.
I really don't need much. I don't care if I have a girlfriend or not. OK I do care a little bit, it has been a long time since I had a steady relationship. But who wants a man as messed up as I am. Who has nothing and is about to be kicked out of his place. Yes I did say about to be kicked out of my place. The landlord called me this evening, stating that most people pay their rent on time, don't get behind. Not as I am anyways. But I had to quick talk to get myself a little time to get caught up on this. As I did with my bills. I still need to go into the insurance place tomorrow and tell them not to put the payment through the bank, or it will bounce again. I just got all of that straightened out, and now again.
Now, being as desperate as I am, I am about to give up completely. I really don't know what to do. I pray each night for a financial miracle, but nothing. I don't need allot. Yes I do need funds for a new denture for my bottom teeth. So others don't see the missing (3) missing teeth. (Which I feel is holding me back from getting a job in the first place) That is why I have been putting the gofundme link up, anewmesmile. That is not the most pressing issue at hand. It is not becoming homeless, again. A few years ago I was homeless, I just never said anything to anyone. Slept on peoples couches for a few months, until I found a room. And I had to put my things in storage. Which, it looks like I might have to do that again. There is $150. a month again, or more,as I have more now. Something I really can't afford either.
I can't lift hardly anything. It is hard for me to even cook. Lifting the pots and pans. Chopping etc... Now moving anything will prove impossible. I just can't do it. I am afraid of What damage it might cause. I already have pins and needles through out my body. Can't keep my knee's bent, or it is difficult to walk afterwards.
What I need to get caught up and keep living in a home is not allot. But not allot is way more than I have. I will be on the phone next week trying to find any help I can get. I am awaiting something, OK disability, if I get this I will be able to live, just live, until I find a less expensive place, or I get into the subsidizes places I have applied to. this is why I put my mailing address after each post, I will not be able to afford that either, after January 13, 2017. And the place I live doesn't give me my mail on time or not at all. I know I have several letters coming here, but haven't got them.. Tonight, while speaking with the landlord, I asked if there was mail for me, they told me one letter. So where is the rest of my mail. That is why I have a mail box, because I don't trust them to give me my mail. And I am rights.
I put the address up to see if I might get some help from someone or assistance in some way or another. I will keep putting the address up until the 13 th of January.
I just don't know what to do. Stay in White Rock. It is OK, nothing going on after, well 7 pm at night. But Ok none the less. I don't have to stay here, I moved here because mom was living out here. So I don't have to stay in White Rock now. This I have no idea on at all. The problem being, my doctor is out here, and I like him, my church's are out here and I like them and all the other things I am hooked up with are out here. The doctor is more important. It is very difficult, in Vancouver, to find a family doctor. Allot of people just use the walk in clinics.
So here I am, just before new years eve, our time, and I am on my last straw, leg etc....
God Bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
#409-15216 North Bluff Road
White Rock, BC
Canada, V4B0A7
https://gofundme.com/krisschmuland
https://gofundme.com/anewmesmile
Please I beg of you to pray for me. I need all the help I can get right now. And to think a few short months ago, I was doing well. How quickly things turn for the worse.
