Hello Again
As the tittle states the PGT is about to ruin another Christmas as they did last year. It was a present less year, last year. I was the only one out of the three children with mom. Well as a matter of fact I am the only one with mom at all the holiday's. I had nothing to give mom but my heart and love. It was enough. But.
I did feel guilty. I don't normally do anything out of guilt, or really feel guilty. But having nothing under the tree, not even a lump of coal. Not even a tree. Where mom was did not allow it.
Here mom can have a tree, but what I have is no good, the tree, 5' tall is too big. And the decorations are not made of plastic.
Yeas presents are not everything. But in mom's state they matter the most. Allot of things to open. To receive. To give to her. To see the beautiful smile on her face. To feel as she reaches out to my face, and places her hand. Gently on my cheek, with a loving smile. A gentle touch by your mother, to show how she feels. Without having to say it.
Yet the PGT, in their greedy power. Decided it was not necessary to have that kind of Christmas, my mother would not know the difference anyways.
Though, he has never seen, nor spoke to my mother. He decides he knows her. As they all do. He decides that my mother didn't dress a certain way. Or that my sister's have a better understanding of my mother.
I don' see how. But, you know what let them think that. Let my sister's think that. GOD has a plan, a beautiful and absolute plan, that is unfolding as we speak.
What is Christmas anyways. It is the birth of our Lord and Saviour Christ, Jesus. Who brought peace to us all. And showed his love to the entire world. Bringing us closer together, even it is for this one time of the year. We put down our arms, we come together as families. We celebrate love.
The world is at peace,once a year!
And we, mom and I need, and have to have a decent Christmas together again. As I know my mother feels the loss of not having the great and magnificent meals she made in the past. And I know mom feels the loss of not having her daughter's their with her on this peaceful and glorious day.
PUT DOWN YOUR ARMS, I SAY. SHOW THAT LOVE STILL EXISTS. NOT FOR ME, BUT FOR MOM.
Let us pray together that each of us be able to see the beauty in your lives.
AMEN
Why is the PGT doing this. This is what they do. They ruin holiday's for their clients. They take away their freedoms. They deny their respect and dignity. This is another government corporation at work. Screw the poor. Let us steal all their money. Let us not allow them to even enjoy one day.
Or even let us not let them have decent meals. Not just the hospital food that they would not even consider eating, even for one meal.
A stocking hung with care. I doubt it. Jingle bells. Not a chance. Silver bells. I don't think so. This is the PGT's philosophy. NOTHING FOR ANYONE.
Let us bow down our heads in disbelief at their practices. Cruel and unusual punishment. Degrading at the least.
Can we see that the PGT is a corrupt corporation that thinks of no one but the bottom line. Their clients money of course.
How dare they deny my mother a wonderful Christmas. Considering what I just wrote to you.
I go out their,not out of having to, or got to. As so many people our saying lately. It is funny this is happening all the time now. At least twice a day now.
I do this because I want to. Not have to. It is a chose that I made,not because. Their are choses in life that we make that show what we are made of. But I do not do it for this reason either. Because I do not think I am worth anything. I do not think that I am even a man yet. I think of myself as a child.
Even though I spent the last many years finishing an education. Becoming something. I guess. I still suffer from sever depression. The medication helps a bit.
But all the problems I have or feel. Ends at the door before I even going into see mom. And from that point on it is only about mom and making her feel great and relaxed.
I think I need to do something outrageous to the PGT.
A phone is what I need and it is the same as last year. Wait until the new year. Their are always sales on. But we all know that ther is nothing on sale right after the new year.Especially cell phone plans.
Mobilicity has a great sale on now. And I am told the same old thing. Their is always sales on. Yes this may be true, but is it the plan you want, the item, the exact item, not usually. What you want is already gone. That is why people say get it anyways. You can always return it, if in a few days you decide it is not right for you.
As in clothing. I have finish my degree's and it is time to put it to work for me. I have some interviews set up for some part time work. This is all I can do. I need to have time for mom and her needs. But I do not have the clothing for this. I need to dress to reflect my educational achievements and how I reflect to the outer world is how the world thinks about you and treats you. As well as to keep warm and dry while traveling to see mom. It is wet and cold out. A difference for Vancouver.
Well I need to go, I want some toast and then to bed for me. As I woke up at 5AM and could not get back to sleep. Considering I went to sleep at 2:30 AM
GOD Bless and good night
Kris
Dress for success.
You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves you too full to embrace the present.
Jan Glidewell
