Hello Again
Well tonight I was in the store and I was .28 cents short for mom's drink. And no one in the line would help me out. Even after telling them who it was for and I had to scrounge the money to even get this much. Still no one helped. Come on I have tossed in the extra when someone needed it.
I am disappointed in all of them. I still am that much short for a drink, her favorite drink, to purchase tomorrow. And I have noting else for mom to eat or snack on.
Myself. well I have nothing in the house. That is Ok. The worse part of it is;. I can go without food. But, when I do go without, I live on tea. Earl Grey tea. And I am completely out of that and every other type of tea I had. Ok I only had Earl Grey and Red Rose. Now nothing and this is bad. When I have no groceries I have tea at least and that keeps my stomach calm.
The best things in the last 7 years of my life is my mother and my education. Other wise it has been a crap storm. Everything that could go wrong has gone wrong. Accidents after accidents, illness's. Sleeping difficulty's, Lot's of day's and weeks of not eating. Fighting with the PGT and Riverview and the doctor's. etc.... etc....
So tonight mom was in a good mood. And this is how the evening goes. I arrive at 4:30 and mom and I hang out. I usually give her some little thing to eat. Or she just gets it out of my bag. We sing and dance and then dinner. I feed her and sometimes she does it. Then after dinner mom goes to the washroom and then her nightly beauty treatment. After which I am now putting her to bed. Then I walk up to the bus stop or may be walk around a bit and then the 2 1/2 hour bus ride. At this point I just pray for help. To get mom what she needs and to get her even more. As in dinner for the next day.
And then when I get back to Coquitlam I search for whatever. Then come home and write this and check me emails and watch a bit of TV.
I pray that something good happens in my life and my mothers. And for it not to be the same thing.
Right now I am just making hot water to add to the old tea bags that are a day old. It is at least something. Then I am going to watch TV and dream about food.
I am leaving now.
GOD Bless and good night
Kris
