Hello again
As it states I really am done. I have had enough. I have always thought of myself as a Christian with a belief in GOD But it is hard to do this now. I just lost another job, before I even started. They wanted me to start a certain day, as in Friday,, So I receive an email Thursday that read, We have decided to go another way, not to hire an additional driver.
Now that is three 3 jobs I had and lost. 1 I was working and they decided to go a different way, The other 2 I was given the job and lost it before I even started the job. Really!
Once again, I am not applying for jobs that are way out of my reach and saying, I am not getting a job. I am applying for a job. So I can just work and pay my bills. That is it. Nothing more. At the grocery store, drivers, gas stations, warehouses. Just a job to pay the bills. Is that really to much to ask of GOD..... And Jesus.
I came into this place, that I am living in, with a job. Then it was gone. I have bills, life everyone else. What will happen if I don't secure a job right away, is I will have to move. Basically I will be kicked out of here. I know I am not the only one with problems, But it seems mine are mounting greatly and quickly.
Then a very serious thing just happened to me last night. I have no money to fix it, nor do I have anyone to call or even ask for help. My fault I suppose. I mean nobody. Not single person to even speak with. I don't go to church, so no pastor to speak with. I have no friends, very lonely.
I have sat alone in this place for a week now, by myself. Besides looking for work. The phone doesn't ring. My emails are just junk emails. I can only take the bus so many places before I get bored of going. I read, still doesn't help.
I have barely slept because of this tooth ache, abscess. Yes I am now on anti biotics for it and mild pain killers. These pain killers help but they also keep me awake at night. So this week,I have barely slept. Last night 4 hours, the night before, nothing, the night before that 4 hours. Then for two day no sleep at all. OK the pain is also keeping me awake at night.
Yes I have medication to help me sleep, but I have things to do the next day and need to be up. Like look for work. So I don't want to take anything to help me sleep. So I don't sleep.
I need dental work, but don't have the funds to get the dentures I need.
It is now coming up upon Christmas and this is going to be a bad year. First year without mom, my only family. Besides everything else that is going on, this is going to make it worse.
So I can't do this anymore. I am done with everything.
I need a miracle from GOD Some divine intervention. Right away. I mean now.
I can't but keep asking for help. I really want to give mom her service this coming January. but I need to pay my rent, get and keep a job. Mainly dentures,as this seems to stop me from getting anything.
https://www.gofundme.com/anewmesmile
https://www.gofundme.com/krisschmuland
If anyone can help please, please do
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
