Hello again
I can deal with pain, allot of pain. I have had to deal with pain for a very long time. But this abscess is something completely different. I still can't eat or even drink anything besides something room temperature. I have not been able to sleep in 4 days now. Not even a hour of sleep. Not doing well. A little bit delirious. It is just to painful to sleep. And I have to do things the next day, so no point going to or trying to sleep when it is 5 in the morning.
I had another job interview today. This morning. Another reason I didn't sleep. It went well. Even though I was a very calm person. Very calm person. No sleep in days will make one very calm. So the interview went very well. She tells me that I seem like a solid person and would like to give me a try this week, Friday, or Monday. Great I say. It is good. But part time. 3 or 4 days a week. Here in lies another problem. They require me to wear black pants, black shirt and black shoes. OK they will supply the shirt and jacket I supply the pants and shoes. I have the black pants, but not the shoes. So now I need to come up with funds for black shoes. Shoes that are light and comfortable. By Friday or Monday. This takes funds,which I lack. At least I have a bus pass.
Now I am so very hungry, tired and thirsty. And it seems that none of these will be met. I now have to find money for black shoes tomorrow. I have two doctors appointments on Thursday.
I am not doing very well. Christmas is just blasting me in the face. Everywhere I turn more and more decorations are going up. And not having a family anymore, It is making me even more depressed. I don't know if I can get through this by myself or at all.
I have spent so many years having Christmas with my mother, I don't know what I am going to do. It is already affecting me. And it is only half way through the month of November.
I never knew it was going to be this difficult
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Please pray for my salvation and assistance
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
