Hello again
I am going to start out this evening by asking for your help with donations. Two people have already donated, I need more of you to do this. I ask and have to continue to ask for your help.
I will represent myself in the Supreme Court. Saving thousands of dollars in legal fee's. But I really do need to hire a lawyer just for legal advice.
Yes you know the saying a fool for a client...................... I under estimated the actual cost to hire a lawyer to represent me in court. By thousands of dollars
Now the $10000 is going to be used for two things. Half for court costs and the other half to give mom and service and celebration of life.
So I cannot even look at pictures of mom without crying anymore. And I can't stop looking at pictures of mom. I just need to look at her pictures.
It is very difficult for me. Mom has no closer, I have no closer. I can't imagine how mom feels right now, knowing that her ashes are not with the person who loved her and actually cared for her. Just sitting in a funeral home. Cold, lonely.
It is heart breaking. It is sacrilegious to me. I know now that the girls are just evil. That is the only way to describe them. And them saying mom can just rot in the morgue.
My heart is getting weaker and weaker. I am breaking down inside. I am very lonely. Very, very lonely.
I have not had anyone to speak to about my feelings or what is going on with me.
Nothing is going on. I am in pain, I want have a serious conversation with someone about what I am feeling.
Yes I write this. And this is about what I am feeling at his very moment as I write this. And what has happened and how I feel about it today.
I worry about tomorrow when it gets here. I can't even think that far a head.
I am very religious and spiritual, but that is even being challenged. My faith needs strength. I need to know that there is my GOD standing beside me.
I pray and pray. But so far nothing.
I have not heard from mom. Yes I believe spirits can and do come to visit there lost and troubled loved one's. That would be me.
Mom was my rock in this world. She brought me stability. Mom was the nicest person I knew. Yes she did have her moments.
OK I am done for the night. If I continue I will turn into a wreck.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
https://www.gofundme.com/ka556fdk
Please help. It is not just for legal fee's but to give mom a great send off.
