Hello again
Well Friday and it was another day of not being able to bring mom any dinner or dessert at all. I couldn't even get her red lindt chocolate, milk chocolate. I just couldn't afford it at other stores. So I bought her a different variety. Because it was .99 cents at London Drugs.
I feel so ashamed that I have not been able to bring her a home cooked meal.That mom is so use to. I have only brought a few dinners in the last few weeks. And she has had to eat the served dinners. Mom was not to impressed with it. As mentioned the other day, she is looking for something else.
I gave her a bowl of cereal today, before dinner. The stuff I have been living off of for the last few days. $1.25 at the dollar store. Mom somewhat enjoyed it. And she ate all of the served dinner. It seemed she was full. I know she understands. I didn't explain how actually broke I have been, living on crackers for the last. One pack per day. That is all I could eat. That is it. But I couldn't afford a box of crackers, so I had to buy the cereal. For the last two weeks, maybe a little longer. I have not had a meal in that time.
But mom has been okay. I brought what I could and she had the served dinner.
I am feeling guilty and ashamed about this. I have not cried this much in a very long time. I can honestly say I am hungry. I have lost 10 pounds.
Yesterday mom was feeling allot of pain in her left arm. The staff tend to roll mom onto her left side. And I have told them not to do this. It is her bad arm and it hurts her. Which she was in pain yesterday. I asked the staff if there is anything to give her, but just the normal Tylenol. Not good enough. It doesn't help and won't help her. I have asked to have the doctor prescribe something for those times when mom's arm hurts.
Still today nothing has been done. That is how they look after the residents.. NOT AT ALL..............
When I leave at night, mom is usually sound asleep, Not last night. Her arm hurt to much.
But tonight after dinner and having her hair washed, mom did become tired. And when I left she was asleep. I am glad about this.
She needed it.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I know I am going to bed hungry again tonight. And have no groceries to make her something. The last of her chocolate and papaya.
I am so not impressed with our society anymore. What a selfish society it is. You will donate for someone to take a trip, engineers to put up billboards saying they look like engineers. But to actually help someone in need. To selfish for this. Helping me doesn't benefit you. You don't get anything out of helping me. But that is what is expected these days. Something for you. Instead of seeing the need and helping out. But you will give hundreds of dollars for some ludicrous thing. Such as another video game. But to give a few dollars from each of you, to help someone hear better. There is just nothing in it for you. The me society.
I am not impressed at all. This will only bring you grief. GOD remembers what you do.
It is disgusting at best. It is the poorer nations that help each other the most. We may have everything, but we actually have nothing. We don't have a soul. That is a dangerous thing.
I will not stop speaking this way. When it is the truth.
www.Gofundme.com/yugmns
If you find that a part of you still has a soul. That is where you can go.
GOD bless and goodnight
Kris
