Hello again
It is another Sunday and the rain that they keep telling us is coming, never showed up. And back to being nice out. And back to the 30 c weather we have been having. With a broken fan.
But to mom, for now, then I will continue if I have the energy.
Well as we are aware, yesterday it was bath day for mom. So, of course, she is in bed. But the staff have been changing her sheets as of late. Interesting I do say. OK though. Even though mom was in bed, at least this week they had the TV on for her. But, mom could not see it because of the padding on the rails of the bed. I will have to mention that they have to turn the bed so mom, can at least see the TV. That is the kind of lack of care that I am constantly speaking of.
But I at least had something for dinner for mom yesterday and today. Which she enjoyed. I can get her something for tomorrow, but Tuesday is a different day. I am not sure about that.
Though mom was in bed and could not see the TV, she seemed in good spirits. But mom is always happy to see me, and I her. It was an easy day, yesterday. I fed her and quickly gave her the nightly spa treatment. So by the time the staff came into change her, we were done and afterwards, I got to just hold her hand for a very long time. I was in no rush to get home to nothing, so I stayed much later than normal. Again it did not mater to me what time I got home.
Of course, as soon as I arrive, it is the usual, make sure mom has plenty to drink. Hugs and kisses. It is weird, I really don't like to be touched, but it is OK to hug mom and give her kisses. I guess it is because it is my mother. The women around there are just to damn affectionate. Always wanting hugs. Not from me, I have made it clear.
So today, mom was up and about. In a nice womens polo shirts. But always alone. Yes she doesn't speak, but she can understand and can hear. Allot better than I can, I do rely on her sometimes to let me know if someone is behind me. She looks and then looks at me. Body language. Which I do understand very well.
I had a dinner for her, something she likes. And the other things. I finally got her red packages of Lindt chocolate. More papaya and gold kiwi. plus some other chocolate. As a before dinner treat.
The staff member came in very late tonight, so it was not until 7:30 that I started her spa treatment. That was OK though. It just meant I left later. The same time as yesterday and I am glad. Nothing here for me. Empty everything.
I did everything and then I packed up quickly, so I could spend time just holding mom`s hand, while she fell asleep.
I got home at 11:00 Tonight. I am just going to watch something and that will be that.
I have been very dizzy lately. The side effects of not eating. Not a fast. I just don`t have anything or anyway of getting it. So this is what it has been like for weeks now. I don`t really remember the last time I had a meal.
And I was raised to think that GOD will supply my needs. Isn`t eating a need. Oh well, enough of that.
So I continue. I don`t know how long I can last, but I guess we will see. As mentioned been feeling dizzy as of late.
But I will not stop going to see mom, no matter how bad it gets or I feel. Very tired though.
I am done, I just want to watch something now. And I have no idea what. I have a laptop full of stuff and I don't know what to watch.
I just want to be able to stay longer while visiting mom.
I have waited on the Lord for a very long time. I do what I can for myself. Yet nothing. I just want to live close to her. Is that to much to ask of GOD. I think not.
I am only going to pray for mom, from now on.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
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