Hello again
So it is raining, and I haven't put on a pair of jeans in weeks and weeks. Felt hot and uncomfortable. Just like putting on the first pair of pants after a long hot summer. Not a good feeling.
I should of worn my shorts and will tomorrow. Regardless if it is raining. As long as I have a water proof jacket and a sweater, I will be fine.
Now it is Saturday, and it is bath day for mom. Which means they give her a bath in the early afternoon and put her back to bed. And today they did not even turn the TV on for her to watch.
I will be bringing this up with the manager. And I will get her a DVD player. As I have been burning disks for her.
And this also means I am washing her sheets and put on the clean one's today. OK , the staff did. I leave them in the drawer and sometimes they are nice enough to do this for me.
I stopped and picked up a nice dinner for mom. Because of the bus accident I am having difficulties cooking for her. This is very expensive. I have to stop doing this.
And I have also been picking up things for her because of the mild case of food poisoning I got . Just want to type this and go to bed when I get home. Can't eat anything much yet. I haven't had a dinner in two day, now it will be three. I just ate crackers last night and it will be the same again tonight. I have some groceries. I just can't eat anything for now.
The nurse I spoke with told me to only eat mild foods and then start off slowly back to what you use to eat. Nothing spicy.
So I am just not in the mood to cook.The cramps in my stomach are insane.
Mom, tonight did not eat all of her dinners, yes I said dinners. The one I brought plus some of the dinner she was served. And I usually will eat what is left of the dinners I bring, if anything is left. Tonight I just threw it out. Not hungry but I am.
Mom ate until she could not eat anymore. She stopped because she new dessert was coming. The papaya and gold kiwi , plus her chocolate, which tonight she only ate 2 of the three pack.
I got her teeth brushed and the staff came to change her. Which gave me time to do the dishes.
I made a mess of her night gown and said I would change her into a new one. Well I am the only one who puts the gowns on her. And tonight I didn't have the time. I was about to do it when the girl came in. If I didn't let her change mom then and there, it would of been a half hour before she came back.
Well mom did not like the girl doing this, she was putting up a fight. So I just stepped in and did it. Mom calmed down right away as soon as I started to do this. It is just the way it is. I am gentle I guess. I don't know.
Now mom was full and starting to fall asleep when I began her spa treatment. Which mean't I needed to be quick or mom would get grumpy. She is tired and now full. She just wanted to relax and listen to the music. Mom just wanted me to be finished so I could hold her hand while she fell asleep. Thats all.
Time for my crackers. The last time I had food poisoning I was incapacitated for a week.Lost a job and in real pain. Someone's home made canned Salmon. And this was many years ago. But I still remember what it felt like. And this pain is the same type of stomach cramps. Thank GOD it is a mild case, but still food poisoning.
OK mom's laundry is almost done, mine is mixed with hers, so I will just get my crackers and butter ready and watch something. I have lots of movies and TV shows on this laptop. Now I have to decide what it is I wish to watch. This is the hard part for me.
To type this I needed to take several breaks, as my right arm gets really sore. At least I can still type. It really does hurt to much to write cursive. And to also draw. Which I started to get back into not long ago. I have been sketching all my life. Since a wee child. and pretty good at it. I also am pissed off that I can't write cursive, because of the pain, as I can't write my ideas for poems I come up with while on the road.
I need something to do this with. I am loosing all sorts of good material. Been writing poetry for many, many years as well.
Have to go now.
Please pray for me that I find a place near mom, very soon. I can deal with the pain. I have had to deal with it for over 10 years now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
I also have to write in my pain journal.
