Hello again
Well mom was fine today, she did eat well, chewed and swallowed without much of a problem.
Our usual table was being used today, so we ate in her room again. Two days in a row. I don't think mom liked it to much, as tomorrow is her bath day and she will be put into her bed right after they give her a bath. Mom is not to happy about this. She is hot and sweaty, very uncomfortable. The staff put an extra sheet on her.. Which makes mom even more hot and sweaty
I made her a nice pasta dinner with chicken pieces in it. As well as red onion and mushrooms. She liked this.
So we finished with dinner and then dessert. After which I took her and washed her hair. This relaxed her and got her ready for bed.
The staff came in and changed her pad, put her to bed. And that was that. Nothing special happened today. I spoke with mom continuously. OK, almost. I chat allot to her. Makes her feel she is part of my life. Knowing what is going on outside of her world.
Which by the way is small. Again, this is why I need to be living out their as soon as possible. To enjoy the summer with her. Taking mom outside to soak up some of that vitamin D which she so desperately needs. As we all do.
We were done everything, including her spa treatment by 7 pm. And I just stayed, holding her hand until 8 pm. It didn't matter to me when I left.
I want to be their so I don't ever have to worry about leaving at a certain time.
This, not being able to find a place I can afford, will be the death of me. This is why I am having a hard time believing in GOD anymore. I see no sign of His guidance and help achieving this out come.
I am and have been under the impression that if I take two steps forward GOD will be their to help me with the rest of the steps. What ever happened to miracles.
Not in my life.
I am in serious pain. I need a place. I am out of here, no matter what, by the end of August. And I want to be out of here for August 1, not the end of summer. After this I have no way of paying the entire rent. My friend goes back to Asia to work.
Pray OK don't. I don't care anymore.
I will be putting up a fund raising goal on go fund me. to raise money for a funeral for mom. Yes she is fine, but it is necessary to have everything in place before she passes. To purchase a burial plot in the same cemetery as her parents. To have my fathers ashes put in the coffin with mom. So they can be together again for eternity. I have just about finished writing it and will let you know when it is up.
The funds will sit in trust and be disbursed only to pay for a funeral.
I am broke and disabled. Even more so now.
I am getting better at one handed typing though.
Got to go
Kris Schmuland
