Hello again
Today mom was really hungry. But she did not want her dinner. Thank GOD I had allot of fruit for her. She ate all of it. She did eat half of her dinner as well. Then she had two of her Lindor Chocolates and most of her fresh frozen fruit slushy/drink.
And all the while wanting to go to bed and have her spa treatment. Which I did, I also cleaned her ears. I did sing quit a bit to her tonight. I was just in that mood. Mom liked it very much and it is great therapy for her. I was goofy as well, which made her laugh and smile allot. I continued to give her the frozen dessert and her drinks. I tried tap dancing. For some reason, I think I took lessons as a kid. It seems natural to me. But runners stick allot and I tripped many times. Which again made mom laugh.
The staff came in a changed mom while I went to make some hot water. I came back, laid out some clothing for her, for tomorrow and sang our good night song to her. Much better tonight.
For me, it was a bit of a productive day;. First moving into my great aunts house is a big fat NO! and even moving my belongings into their is anther big fat NO! So not good. I found this out first thing this morning. Great start to the day. This is my family, that is what I thought though. But obviously they are not. They, like all , only care about themselves. If I didn't get the news a little bit latter, I would be living on the street now. And my belongings would be gone.
But an hours latter I had $365.00 towards my rent ( from the ministry) and then, when I checked my email. And another $200.00 was waiting for me to pick up at the PGT. Yet everything is good except for the $100.00 that I am still short. This I need, my landlady is expecting the rent by Thursday. Let us hope tomorrow/today lets me see the balance of the rent. And then after this is done, my rent will be normal again. This was a very large learning experience.
Listen to GOD and not myself. I felt it was a wrong move, but I was so much of a hurry to move to White Rock, I didn't think things through. And this caused me and mom allot of stress. No I did not tell her anything about this matter. But mom knew something was up. Hence my good mood today. It has been a while since I was able to be goofy like I was.
So let us hope something happens to alleviate the rest of the tension I am feeling as a result of not having my rent paid. I now only need $100.00 not much, but allot when you are broke. I don't even have any money to buy mom anymore fruit. Which she is eating, mostly for her dinners.
Now about my friend in Russia.
I have been writing her for many months now. It was going good, but she started to develop feelings for me and wrote to tell me that if I don't feel the same way to not write her back. So I didn't write her back. It takes allot for me to fall in love. It has only happened once in my life and I was a drunk back then and she left me. By the way, I have not drank or smoked pot in a very long time now. Over 10 years now. It was a few years after she moved back east to be near her twin sister, who was pregnant. I did speak to her for a few years afterwards and she wanted me to come and get her. I was to afraid to go and get her. So we haven't spoken in many years now.
But anyways. She wrote back to me and asked why I didn't write back to her. I wrote her and explained to her that it is not easy for me to fall in love and it takes a while for this to happen for me. The girl I loved, we were friends first for a long time first.
But she was OK with this and we continued to write. We wrote about each other's life in our respective countries and about our lives, hopes and dreams.
The a week ago she wrote me about the fire. So I now include the emails concerning this.
Her email to me.
My dear Kristopher, on July, 7st in the afternoon there was a fire in our apartment. Anybody from my family was not at home. Fire has destroyed everything, that was in an apartment. Now repair is required to an apartment. My family is very crushed by it misfortune, we have tears on the face. We have appeared in the street. My parents were placed by our neighbours. I now live at my girlfriend.
Unfortunately, the apartment was not insurance. Now the fire service finds out the reason of a fire. I shall check my mail and I shall write to you at my first opportunity. With love and respect, yours Kseniya
My response
Kseniya
I am sorry to hear about your misfortune.
I am hoping everyone is alright. And you get back home soon.
I feel for your loss as I have lost everything due to a fire before.
I feel for you and your parents.
I would love to help out. But I am in a financial mess right now. I am not sure what I can do.
Please take care of yourself.
With love
Kris
And the last email I received from her.
Hello my dear Kristopher, many thanks for your words of support. I and my family are really very grateful to all warm words which you write to me in your letter. The situation remains former, my family is divided. Mother and the father live at neighbours, I while live at the girlfriend. Major overhaul is required to an apartment.
My dear Kristopher, it would be good, if you could help utensils: saucepans, frying pans, a teapot, cups, plates, spoons, plugs, knifes and household subjects: an iron, a hair drier, an inflatable mattress that it was possible sleep on a floor. Because the girlfriend where I now temporarily live has only one bed. To us it is close sleep together. Therefore it would be good, if you could send an inflatable mattress. Probably, what you can send me clothes? All clothes of my family have been destroyed by fire. I and my family to you would be very grateful. Can use services of air mail.
This case was strong impact for me and my family, my Kristopher. Now I do not know, when we can recover from a fire and make in an apartment repair. Now I shall close my letter. I check your mail at my first opportunity. With all my love and respect, yours Kseniya
That is our conversation to date.
I really would like to help her out. I have nothing. But I am hoping that maybe, since no one would help me, that maybe y'all might help this family out.
So send whatever financial aid or other things to my address listed o this blog and I will put together a care package or two and send it off via air mail to her.
This is a somewhat urgent matter, as the family is displaced and not together anymore. They are a close knit family, as most families are. Not mine though. They lost everything and are not living together right now.
So if you can find this in your heart, to help out. It would be very much appreciated. Kseniya and her parents would be very grateful. As you can read from her emails, she doesn't ask for money. But things.
But in order for me to send her what she needs, I need financial help to purchase the items and to send them.
But I leave it to you.
So I need to go to bed and get some sleep.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
