Hello again
Today was not a very good day. I was angry, and I brought it in with me to visit mom. I was getting upset that she was not eating and taking so long to chew her food. I never said anything, or did anything. I was just frustrated.
I have never ever been like this before with her. And as I am typing this I am pissed off. I am making mistakes and they are really pissing me off.
I am hungry, tired, stressed and just pissed off at the whole world right now.
I am moving next week, middle of the week and I have nothing for my new place, I am not going to be able to bring mom over for any kind of visit. Not for lunch or dinner. No place for her to sit down on.
I am not thinking correctly today. I walked into a sign post today, right before I went into mom building. I have a major headache and it is not going away. Had it all day.
Mom has not been eating much at all for the last week. And the weekend is upon us. This is when she normally does not eat much. I don't know if it is her tooth that is bothering her. She has been drooling lately. Out of her left side of the mouth.
I am getting worried about her not eating. I am trying to get this move going. I am out of places to call for help. I have asked everyone and no one is willing to help me out.
Again, I was raised to ask for help if you need it. But I ask and ask and nothing. Once in the last 4 years of writing this blog.
And I am moving to make it better for mom. To be closer to her. It is not about visiting mom, it is about visiting her more and doing more things for her and with her.
I am moving so I can bring her over. When she was in Coquitlam, I brought her over several times. But all I have been able to do out in White Rock is take her out around the hospital. That is it.
I have an empty place and nothing to fill it with. I don't even have a TV.
Everything is included with the rent. And what is the point.
OK I need to stop writing now. I am completely pissed off that I can't get help and the PGT is not even understanding this. The fact mom needs a place to sit and a couch is not going to cut it. She needs a lifting recliner.
I can't even buy a bed. let alone a lifting recliner. Nor dishes, glasses, cups, cutlery. Blah Blah Blah
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland.
Someone write the PGT on my behalf.
I will no longer be needing a three zone pass.
But whatever.
