Hello again
So today I contacted the dental office for mom. Her bottom left molar is broken and is bothering her. The dentist packed it once. But I guess the packing came out. So, they were not in today and I left a message to have them give mom a prescription for some pain killers until we can get in to remove this tooth.
Then today, I brought mom some KFC chicken. And mom really enjoyed it. She ate all three pieces, plus most of the fries. And the salisbury steak that was served to her, by the home. Then she ate a Papaya and all three of the Lindt chocolates that are in the pack I buy for her all the time. And then as soon as we finished the staff came and got her to get her ready for bed. Great.
This way, when they are done, it is the spa treatment time. I did this for her and I rubbed her shoulders, which she did not want me to stop. A nice massage for her neck. She listened to music and loves this.
I place the phone on her chest and she can hear the music and feel it as well, this way. An alternative treatment for Alzheimer's and/or Dementia. As well as the spa treatment. As well as the different colours of fruit and tastes of them. Bright vibrant colours and tastes.
They just don't get the fact that I understand mom, and mom understands everything I say to her.
Now the rent is paid for the place in White Rock, and I have no way of moving my belongings. As well as I don't have a bed or anything else for this new place. I have not mentioned to the landlady I am moving. But the stove doesn't work, their is no longer any laundry at this place. I have been washing my clothing by hand for several weeks now.
And I came home tonight to a place that stunk of beer and pot. I don't drink or do drugs and am sick of this BS. I hate the smell of stale beer and of pot. This is not good for my sobriety. I have been sober for many, many years, but this is not good for me. I don't want to be around this. I am sick of hearing the same stories over and over again. As it is with drunks. Their is always a mess. They don't take out the garbage or even do their dishes.
I am outside still, using my computer. Have been for several months now. I am cold and am getting a cold. This is due to stress that I am experiencing. Not knowing what I am to do. The new place has a very good wireless connection. I tested it out with my phone. All over the suite.
This is not good, I have a bed here, and something to sit on.
Near the end of July, I am scheduled for knee surgery and I can't go home, or they won't let me go home. To a place that I can't relax, or even sit down upon something. This is what happened a few years ago, when I had a minor heart attack. I had just had everything stolen and was staying on someones couch. And no place of my own. The hospital did not let me out until I found a place. This was the start of my shared/furnished accommodations. And nothing of my own since then.
I was in several car accidents and now I am disabled. But, anyways, I go in for surgery at the end of July. I arrange for it to take place at the hospital near mom. So while I am in the hospital. I can just wheel myself over to see her.
Now I guess I will be hear for a little while yet. No rent though, the rent is paid to the new landlord already.
And I am very broke. Very broke. I can't afford anything, not even a set of glasses. I called the ministry today, and they told me the same thing. Contact churches etc... Even though I mentioned I have already did this. To no avail.
I am dumb fonded, and have not a clue what I am going to do. I have never been in this situation before.
I have to be out their for mom. I need to be able to bring her over for visits. This is the whole purpose of the move. And to eliminate the 6 - 8 hours of traveling that I do, everyday. And after my knee surgery, I will get back to work. Part time, mornings. I have to have the afternoon free for mom. To see her more often and I still am her advocate. This entails fighting for her rights. The PGT, Al Hogg pavilion. Her dental needs. Physical therapy. Getting her weight bearing again..
So any ideas on what I should do. Since I am not getting any help from anyone or anywhere.
I am also thinking about being alone for the rest of my life. I am happy being single, and don't have a problem being by myself.
Mom wants me to have kids. I would like to have children.
But anyways I am doing what I can for mom, I have no problem with this. I very much enjoy being their for her.
So it is boiling down to time now. A few days before the end of the month. I have a place that is empty. And nothing for the place. Not even a mouse.
I will just continue to pray for help. I am not able to stay at this place for very long. I told the landlord that I have a assessment next week and would get the cheque to her after that. That is when it will be released to me.
Yes it is a lie, and I did not want to tell her any of that. But I have no choice. If I want to have a place to live and a bed to sleep on. Go figure.
Now it is late and it is time to go to bed.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
