CHRISTY CLARK, PREMER OF BC IS ALLOWING THE PUBLIC GUARDIAN AND TRUSTEE OF BC TO:
RUIN CHRISTMAS FOR MY MOTHER AND I
ABUSE MY MOTHER AND I
MY MOTHER HAS DEMENTIA AND LUNG CANCER.
Hello again
I sometimes forget how fragile one's life can be. Especially tonight with mom. I arrived on time and mom was already anxious, When we finished dinner, mom just wanted to go and get the spa treatment out of the way, and go to bed.
This was obvious when mom was getting irritated, by me taking so long to pack up and get her to her room. I spilled coke on her sweater and wanted to rise it out before it stained. I got everything together for the spa treatment and mom was getting angry, Basically telling me to hurry up. I was trying to rinse the sweater so I just put it down and went to and washed her face and put the lotions on. Even this was getting mom upset.
You see with Dementia, this is called sun downer. Good during the day and worse in the evening. I finished and got mom to the washroom and changed. I was going to do her feet, but this was not in the cards tonight, strainght to bed mom went and I put the lotion on her hands and brushed her hair and massaged her feet.
So this is where I am, I have been thinking about everything, again. Well I have made a decision and I have decided that I do not want to do anything else more than just to look after mom full time. I have lots of time, later on.
I will put TAAN The Angels Answer Network and ADSAAC Alzheimer's Dementia Seniors Abuse Action Coalition. on hold for now. I have thought long and hard about this.
I just want to look after my mother, and nothing else. Again, I have plenty of time for everything later on. I want mom to live with me, and I just want to do everything I can for mom.
I don't want to be married, I don't want to have kids, I don't want a girlfriend or to even date right now. I just want to concentrate on mom.
You see no matter what I think, I am always waiting for the phone call 24/7 365 I know it will be one day. But wait I have no phone. What is on this blog is a computer number, and I can listen to the messages on my email. But I can't phone out. You see, the CRT, Tube, big, older monitor, has no microphone and I do have one either.Yes I am using the old school monitor and a very old computer that I put together myself.
I can do all of this later on, now it is mom's time. Time to feel that at least one person cares and loves her. that one person will be their all the time. This is what I want To be their all the time for mom. 24/7. You know I can get help.
Now for my crappy day.
So I was suppose to meet my bus driver friend today, but of course the PGT did not answer me yesterday and so this makes two deals that I have been screwed over for. This last deal, Fido does not offer to anyone. It is not available to anyone outside the deal they made to the transit drivers. It would cost 50 dollars more a month, to get this deal. GONE I say, GONE
Oh the deals will be there after Christmas, well there was a deal. And I lost it. My friend had lots of people interested in this deal.
It snowed last night and froze as well, so today their was deep snow and icy conditions. Which is not very good for someone who walks with a cane. I fell three times today and I hurt. I could not of fell on the good side. No all three times on my right side. I am bruised and in pain. I need a special tip for my cane, which has sharp points on it. And I need yak tracks for the bottom of my feet. Yak tracks, slip over the boots and have spikes on them. This is need. And you think that the PGT would realize this, That if it snow, as the weather man/women predicted, they would understand and help. But of course not. They have some bug up their blank.
I said if they would of helped me on Friday I would not write about them. What they expect is for me to cave and kiss their mighty butt. Not going to happen anymore. I have given in to the PGT to many times to count. And it did nothing, but got me more grief. I am willing to compramise. But they want me to be totally subservient to them. To be their dog. Can't do it anymore.
So I had to walk at a very slow pace. And then on the way home, I had this over whelming feeling to take the bus through Surrey. I did not want to do this, as it would get me home to Early. Which is something I did not want to do. Nothing here for me. I am craving a meal, Chines food to be exact, but not going to happen.
Besides this, I believe I have a case of food poisoning. Or my stomach is just completely ruined. Anyways. I was given a gift card from my aunt. So I bought mom what she needed and I had a few dollars left over. So I decided to get myself something I can handle and snack on during the days. I bought some peanuts from Zeller's. Anyways, I ate some of them and later that day, my stomach just started to become completely painful, Bent over, double up pain. I have had food poisoning before and it is just like it. I thought nothing of it, so the next day I ate a bunch of them again, and it became even worse.
So today, on top of the pain, I am suffering from falling down today. I am doubled over in pain from my stomach. I still will not stop going to see mom. I am starving and need to eat. But I am in extreme pain at the same time. And I have nothing to eat in the house.
Today I also wore everything I owned again. And was still very cold. This is becoming very, very. I don't even know what to say. Mom told me to take the black soft shell pullover I have, off. Because she is tired of seeing me in it. I told her this is all I own, and it is cold out and I have to wear everything I own.
Anyways. I am in pain, my stomach is in pain. I need to go. Since I don't get any help from absolutely no one. I am going to leave now. I really do mean I get help from no one. At all.
So GOD bless and good night
Kris
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